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This was all Sakura had and it was gone in a blink. How easily people die, just a second you are laughing with them, and the other second you are down in your apartment with two dead parents broken down dead.
That was all she could think, she thought her life was over. She was a mess how could she keep going now? How…. how…. how… how… how…
Then she heard a voice deep in her mind, she heard herself, her compressed emotions acting up in an image of a sister. She was going to be insane after all wasn't she?
Sakura, inner hissed through her head as her hand went to her pouch and was ready to kill herself. That was the end she would kill herself before even meeting with her team.
Oh, she snorted that was supposed to be tomorrow. She was gonna be with Sasuke-kun and marry him and have children who were powerful and didn't have hindrances.
Her hands took a kunai as she made the gesture of getting the kunai near her throat ready to finish this mess.
SAKURA STOP WITH THIS FUCKING STUPIDITY, inner hissed vehemently from her mind. But why would she even listen to her? What was there to live anymore, she didn't even have friends, didn't she?
She was so alone so miserable, she was a fucking mistake she didn't want to be in this world there was no one to protect anymore, just her miserable self.
Just as she was slashing her throat the door opened and a silver light passed her eyes with a flashing speed. Unarming her. She closed her eyes not believing what was happening.
Sakura said the voice. She didn't know him, she didn't know his voice, she didn't wanna learn, she didn't want to live.
She opened her eyes slowly and looked up there was a Jonnin, a man who was angered by what, she couldn't understand. She was just in a blank state, numb, not wanting to say anything or contribute to anything.
Sakura, report the man said harshly. Maybe it was rude of him to be like that to a traumatized child but this was the only way she was going to respond in this state.
Hearing his tone she looked up and allowed herself to speak to in a tone that she had never heard from herself.
When ı came home after the academy test, ı found my parents unmoving in the pool of their blood choking. They died after 2 minutes and 56 seconds.
As he heard the story the man took a deep breath still acting like a commander seriously sharp wanting a clear conscious.
What happened after that sakura? Why did I find you with Kunai in your hand ready to kill yourself? What would happen if ı didn't come to check on my geninns parents? The man said harshly scolding her.
Ah, so he was her Jonin sensei that would be assigned to her team. It didn't matter now though, she didn't have anyone to protect she didn't want to be a shinobi now, she just wanted to go.
ı, she started voice cracking, ı… after 3 minutes ı watched them hoping they would get up ı realized they wouldn't so my hand moved on it is own to my pouch got the kunai, and neared it to my throat.
After the man listened to her speech, he was still unmoving and wanted this to be over this was too close to home for him. He started talking slowly,
I am hatake kakashi, sakura your Jonin sensei we were supposed to meet tomorrow but life is a bitch now let's get you cleaned ne?
The man said softly tilting his head. Sakura couldn't think, she didn't want to leave her parents she didn't want to go, she didn't want to move on, she didn't want… she couldn't breathe. Her breathing was getting quicker, she was having a panic attack and the man said.
None of that, as he took her into his arms went to his apartment, and ordered her to shower.
She did what he said mechanically, she wasn't able to think. She watched as the water was red and she got out wore the spares Kakashi prepared for her.
She walked to where he was slowly.
Sakura there is a team that is looking at what happened to your parents and for now, you are gonna stay with your good old sensei ne?
He was smiling, but inner whispered in her mind you are a suicide risk he wants to keep a close eye so you won't try something like that.
Not..not sensei she choked quietly, talking for the first time after what happened.
Can you repeat that sakura-chan, Kakashi said slowly. Looking at her.
ı….ı am not gonna be a ninja, ı will quit, she said quietly her voice breaking.
Now Kakashi looked at her and assessed her. he knew how to deal with traumas and he knew Sakura needed simple guidance she couldn't afford to think. He wouldn't allow her to make rash decisions so he simply answered with a strict and casual voice.
no
Sakura stopped for a moment unresponsive and then stuttered,
W-what
I said no sakura-chan, he said smiling.
She looked at him like her world was crushed like her plans were gone.
Then she went into a fit and just said I can’t repeatedly.
You can and you will sakura-chan. I won't allow you to kill yourself or give up on your life. You are a shinobi you need to be strong what did you think would happen once you were on this path? Joy, no sakura this is a path of cruelty.
She started crying and broke down finally the situation hitting her.
P-please….
Please what Sakura-chan? Please let me kill myself or please let me finish my life? Please let me make rash decisions after I went through a traumatic event. Please what he asked, seriously he was not gonna let this happen even if it killed him. He was not going to let her wallow in self-pity he continued cruelly,
Your parents are dead sakura you are on your own from here, you have no one, and ı could even bet you don't have friends do you sakura-chan?
You are going to survive this sakura, he said strictly looking into her eyes and commanding it.
She looked down not answering.
Stand up he commended her and after a moment of waiting she stood up, however, was still looking down.
Chin up, eyes on me he commended once more as he would to his Anbu minions.
She did as he said mechanically, that was an order. As she looked up into his eyes she saw him looking at her strictly unmoving. But something like protection burned in his mind, he was going to protect her.
That was an order sakura, you are going to be alive and strong no matter what you want this is an order. He commended his voice raspy.
She just looked at his eyes trying to regain her composure.
Y-yes sir, she answered her voice small and miserable.
Try again, he spat looking down at her and not giving her any chances.
Yes sir, she said clearly this time tears dropping from her eyes.
And what are you agreeing to sakura-chan he asked sharply.
I…. she said then stopped speaking. Her voice broke, crying.
Yes, sakura ı am waiting, he said strictly.
I will live, she said not believing in it herself and it was paining her to say this herself.
Good, that's a start for now. he sighed not knowing what he should do.
This day was more than what he bargained for. He was going to get a team that included. His sensei’s kid had Hokage to teach him, a Uchiha who had his clan to teach him, and an annoying fan girl. A meat shield, a cannon fodder. One mentally stable kid.
He was going to meet with her parents. And look into her room and apartment. He didn't have any intentions of training any of them, he didn't want them. But Minato-sensei was making him as he reasoned, the S-rank missions were affecting him and he needed some positivity.
As he was nearing the apartment he smelled blood and went in fast. He saw his little student ready to kill herself. The only stable student was now killing herself. He unarmed her easily and approached her using his commanding presence. The one he used to train the new batch of Anbu.
He sighed as he looked at the girl in front of her. It looked more like a shell than a human. All his plans of not teaching them went down the drain he was going to teach her and make her fucking good. She was now going to live with him for a while.
He knew she was not going to attempt suicide again if things were smooth but alas things were never smooth in this life.
He was not going to allow her to be a cannon fodder. Or have any issues. She was his to mend. Naruto had his parents. Sasuke his whole clan to teach but she had no one. She was pack , a voice whispered in his mind. She was his and he would make her a fucking shinobi.
But first, he needed to make sure she came out alive so obviously he did one thing that would make every child happy. He summoned his dogs.
As the night continued she was hurled around his dogs drifting to sleep while they were protectively covering her.
And he went to report to the fourth. In the end, no one needs to know if Kakashi forgot to mention his little genin was a suicide risk in his report. He would take care of her. She was his