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Is it better to speak or to die?
I will always rather die then speak. i would soon rather die then bare the acid sour aftertaste in my throat as the wretched words leave my mouth, all too raw and vulnerable. The heat building up in my face just for the words to fall limp and hit the floor as you stare at them like they are nothing - like mud on your shoes. To watch you ingest them in a way that is different to how i spit them up, the instant regret and fear I have said too much and you, too, misunderstand is too overwhelming. because I am scared and my throat tightens at the though and refuse to give way to the words that could make things so much easier. because to speak would be a fight i cannot afford to lose.