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Yukio walked through the corridors of the Illuminati base, pondering.
He began to think about his wrong doings, every single moment, every second of those moments and how differently they could have played out if he wasn’t being so selfish.
First he shoved a gun towards his students face then shoved another student to the ground just because he was mad.
All because he was greedy for knowledge and power, to be stronger. He loathed who he was before. God he wished he was as strong as Rin. Hes always been seen as Weak and hopeless, always needing his big brother to pick him up.
He hated it.
He hated being treated like a child, treated like he’s a fragile object that could break any second.
Oh but he was.
He broke and ended up some place he couldn’t back away from. The truth that he wished he could ignore. He was Satans son. He wished he could just forget it and pretend that he was normal.
He was considered normal until his eye started acting up.
With his eye acting up he had tried to kill himself, but the eye forbade him from doing so.
Satan was using his eye to see into Assiah. So there is no choice but to simply die.
He wish he could just die. He can wish all he wants, but it’ll never happen. There is no where for him to go. After all, he figured out that the knights of the true cross was corrupt. And he never joined the Illuminati. His plan was to destroy it, so he can’t stay here either.
So where will he go?
Lucifer was going to use him to bring back the King of Gehenna. He’s going to be the destruction of his own home. He is the vessel for Satan. He was merely a pawn in his little game.
He wish he could die. Just die and it’ll be over.
He ended up in the wing of the base. While he tried to kill himself once again he was greeted by a crying Rin. He was happier than ever to see Yukio, but he couldn’t feel the same. But there was a strange bit of hope that he could die. After all, Satans bastard son is right in-front of him. All he has to do was let Rin kill him.
But, Rin won’t fight him. He was going to baby him, acting as if he was still weak. But he isn’t. He’ll prove that he can stand his ground, that he’s no longer the weak Yukio he once was.
And he’ll get Rin to kill him.
(In the future..)
Rin and Yukio’s fight was over. Yukio allowed himself to get things off his chest as the wing was burning down. He was being so focused on himself that he didn’t even realize that he truly wasn’t alone. He had his friends and he had Rin.
After this fight, Rin no longer saw him as weak. He proved himself but, he didn’t get strong on his own.
It was thanks to his older twin brother, Rin.
And Rin was stronger because of him.
For the first time in a while he allowed himself to show how weak he felt. Everything felt as if it was crashing down upon him. The things he’s done to his friends. The things he’s said.
It was the first time in a while that he allowed himself to cry.
It reminded him of his childhood. He was always a crybaby. He always tried to hide it, but not today.
He cried hard.
Rin helped Yukio to open his eyes, and he realized that he really wasn’t fighting this on his own. Izumo, Shiemi, Bon, Koneko, Shima, and Rin all had his back. They forgave him.
And maybe, just maybe he could learn to forgive himself too.