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The Rise & Fall of LargeMale71119.
An explanation.
Written By: Warrior_Cat6778 (Mateo, Edd, or M.)
Feral and LargeMale71119. My favorite creations and storyline that I have ever written. This is a document showcasing what went into the creation of Feral, “his” descent into madness, LargeMale71119, his descent into madness (after.. well, you’ll see..), and the writing of their story line.
Feral - The Creation.
As said, multiple other times, Feral was created as a joke, his character and personality traits based around the more “excitable” side of my personality, blown into huge proportions. I took my inability to think things through, my lack of social awareness, and the more erratic traits of mine and blew them up into absolutely horrific levels worse than me. The idea behind him was he was a funny little guy who fucked up a lot , he made a lot of mistakes and messed a lot of things up but never to a deadly extent. He was a beacon of the lighter, sillier sides of things until the demonization period.
The demonization period was simultaneously my least favorite and my most at the same time due to the fact it was incredibly fun to write yet it was written during one of the more… Unstable … periods of my life. One of the more fun parts however, was manipulating everyone into thinking it was Feral who was the monster, which brings us to my next point. The spiral staircase into “silliness” I so lovingly wrote.
The Descent.
For this to work in the exact way I wanted it to I had to make feral horrible. I took his original traits and made them worse . He was more aggressive, more violent, more irrational, and SIGNIFICANTLY meaner. He was a bit of a drug addict and was absolutely fucking bonkers “off of his meds.” (This was not the reason he was fucking crazy, however this is explained later.) He was a biter, he was a chaser, and he was ready to cause destruction anywhere and everywhere. He would gladly kill his friends and family, even hurting his own child’s loved ones. He was pure evil and a monster.
At first it started smaller, overdosing on melatonin and causing a mass hysteria, to “taking Benadryl” and normalling out, only to return to his feral tendencies and cause mass destruction, even coming close to cannibalism. Now, you would think that this was all him “oh he was off his meds, he was crazy off his meds!” But, you would be mistaken. This is what brings us to an entirely new character.
LargeMale71119 - The Creator.
LargeMale71119 (who we will be calling lm71119 for brevity) is a self insert BUT also a puppeteer to the demonization of Feral see, the thing about lm71119 is that he created Feral, Atticus (Feral’s son), and M (a general RPing oc who is important to this) and with the creation of those characters he gained the ability to possess them as he pleases in the role-play canon, also in the canon he had the ability to shapeshift into their forms. (An unmentioned trait for the sake of I’m a planning little demon.) So, using this power he would take the form of Feral and wreak complete and utter havoc, possessing him and writing it off as “oh my bad I was off my meds'' while still using Feral’s poor flesh as a vessel of destruction and chaos. He was the one who made Feral become worse and worse, traumatizing all of the owl’s friends in the process.
After the first possession, he turned up shortly (a small hint..) saying something about not letting Feral rampage anymore and then eating a pot of soup afterwards. After and during doomsday he had gone off the grid, only appearing to terrorize Atticus and M shortly after bringing it in. He would torture them in front of everyone for the “funny haha” of it (similarly to how he treated Feral’s skin), eventually bringing out “the feral jar” to torment him even more knowing that the gang hated him now. He was an egotistical piece of shit and a bully and he was not remorseful.
The Descent.
Due to the fact lm71119 is technically an over exaggerated self-insert, I did take aspects of myself for his descent. I started it off by making him treat the others (outside of his creations) like pawns and/or toys. Every time he would come in he would start out by referring to them as “His favorite pawns” or “his favorite toys” or even, “his favorite group to harass”, implying that this is not the only place he caused havoc on. Each time he returned he was more and more arrogant for the sake of him crashing and shattering into a million awful pieces.
The way I wrote his descent, I wrote it to be something that was expected, an absolute dumpster fire, manic, hysterical breakdown. The thing about him is that, not only was he incredibly egotistical and a bully he was also incredibly unstable, mentally and emotionally. He took his anger out on his creations and used it to fuel his chaos rampages and had psychotic breaks every now and then, exploiting feral’s overexcited nature to take it out on him.
The Planning Period.
Ooooh! My most well kept secret. To make this work, I didn’t even tell those I was planning doomsday with about this. The planning of this took absolutely tedious amounts of preparation, I had to play the cards perfectly to make feral out into a bad guy and make lm71119 seem semi remorseful, at least until all of the “silliness” surfaced in lm71119. After the first rampage/possession, rather than pulling Atticus out first, I brought him out as a teensy weensy hint to the possession, subtle enough to the point only I would know what it was.
Once doomsday was over, I used lm71119 as my main rp character next to Atticus and M, using the latter 2 to make lm71119 into more of the monster I needed him to be. Once I had shown just how horrible he could be, I decided it was ✨ SHOWTIIIIIIIIIIME ✨ and I deployed my beautiful, beautiful monster to have a little think about his actions and fucking lose his shit. Special thanks to my guy @Kasu Cup for killing him off more beautifully than I could’ve ever written.
Q&A!
“What are Feral's thoughts on Pix being Atticus’s dad?” from @a.silly.lil.birb
Feral doesn’t quite know how to feel, he loves his son, a whole lot and wishes he could’ve been a better father but, he is happy to find that Atticus wasn’t all alone after doomsday, he would feel horrible taking Atticus away from someone who loves him a lot. Again.
“Does Feral understand that Gatsby will feel bad about what he did to him for a while and will probably never forgive himself for that?” from @picklejar987
Feral has a vague understanding of other’s emotions, he is incredibly socially unaware so emotions are a bit more on the difficult side for him. He semi-understands that it will take Gatsby some time to forgive himself but he doesn’t grasp exactly why it’ll take him a while. In his mind, he thinks of himself as horrible and evil because of the actions of LargeMale71119 so he’s incredibly confused as to why everyone is so remorseful towards how they treated him.
“Will he forgive Pix for the things he said?” from @a.silly.lil.birb
Yes! He is willing to forgive everyone (except for LargeMale) because, as said before, he doesn’t quite understand why everyone feels bad for what happened to him because in his mind, it’s all black and white, people are good or bad, and he’s decided he is bad while everyone else is good and he is okay with that.
“What are Feral’s thoughts on Jevil?” from @a.silly.lil.birb
He is confused. He doesn’t understand what happened to his funny little plush friend and why this guy is a drug addict. Despite the fact he just got back, he already misses plushil.