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The main hall was noisy as usual, people talking excitedly, laughter coming from different directions, something typical of Hogwarts dinner, What was unusual was the fact that the marauders were "quiet" (read less noise than normal ), the reason for this? Two of the quartet members were not present
-Where is Padfoot? -Remus questioned after quickly looking around the room, without finding his friend's presence
-Hey, west last wimee I saw him was ath loucch -Peter tried to speak with his mouth full of food
-What? - Pettigrew raised his hand to ask for a timeout, soon finishing swallowing the food in his mouth
-The last time I saw him was at lunch-He says calmly- By the way, where is Prongs?
-Tormenting Lily in the library -Lupin says boredly, taking another bite to his mouth -
- Pads must be with him then -Peter says with a shrug
The dinner continued normally after that, James joined them at some point, starting to talk about how perfect Lily was and the woman he would marry. But even with that, Remus didn't stop thinking about where the hell Sirius had been all this time, his instincts telling him that something bad had happened.
-I'm going to go to the dorm-Remus warned after finishing eating
-Already? It's still early -James said while looking at his friend
-I know you're going to bother Lily, and honestly, I'd rather be reading my book -He shrugged, immediately leaving the cafeteria Of course, that was just an excuse to look for Sirius alone (one of the few moments that thanked his werewolf skills)
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After a long climb up the stairs, Remus arrived in front of the portrait of the fat woman
-Mandragora -The werewolf spoke before she could even ask, soon seeing the portrait open to give the vision of a hole in the wall, which led towards the Gryffindor common room Lupin entered the place and walked towards the dormitory stairs, but his calm was taken away when he smelled a metallic smell coming from the place, causing him to run up the stairs, jumping two steps thanks to his long legs
As soon as he opened the door he felt his heart miss a beat, his eyes widened when he saw the blood on the floor next to several pieces of glass from Sirius' mirror (now broken)
Due to his hearing sharp, the lycanthropic boy can hear a sob coming from the bathroom, along with the sound of crying. He ran to the door, his concern increased as he felt the smell of blood increase, he tried to open the door, but it was locked, he then knocked on the door. same, you could hear a ragged breath from inside the place
-Pads? It's Remus, can I come in? -Remus asked gently, getting no response- Padfoot, I know you're there, can I come in? -No response again, the only sound being a small sob inside the bathroom
-Sirius, I'm not leaving until I'm sure you're okay, so please let me in -The werewolf's voice was friendly, but firm
-Go away -Sirius finally spoke, followed by a sound
-Sirius, open the door, let's talk -The bigger one says trying to remain calm, but the concern was visible on anyone who saw his face
-No! Leave me alone! -Black repeated, trying to keep his voice steady, but Remus could hear the low sobs and snorts
-Sirius, open the door or I'll open it, even if I have to break it down -Lupin says firmly, sighing when he gets no response. He took his hand to his wand, then took it out and pointed it at the door
-Alohomora -The door soon unlocked and he entered the place.
The scene he saw would certainly remain marked in his mind as a nightmare. Sirius was huddled in the corner of the wall, becoming smaller than he already was, his face buried in his knees as blood dripped from the cuts on his arms, a few bottles of pills left around the bathroom. He looked so... helpless, like a scared and injured child
-I'm sorry - Black asked through a sob, his broken voice breaking Remus' heart. Lupin finally seemed to wake up from the shock, soon running to the older man's side, kneeling in front of him
- You didn't do anything, not the reasons to apologize, Pads -Remus says softly, wrapping his arms around Sirius, pulling the smaller boy onto his lap
-I-I ruined everything, I'm sorry -He says through sobs, burying his face in his friend Remus's chest
He tightened the hug, stroking the black curls with one hand while the other rubbed Black's back
-You're not there anymore, Pads -Remus whispered gently- You're at Hogwarts, remember? We're in the dorm, in our dorm that we share with Prongs and Wormtail -His voice was soft and calm, the words seeming to calm Sirius a little. Remus didn't know how long they stayed like that, hugged in silence, but honestly he didn't give a damn , his priority was completely and completely on Sirius at that moment
-Monny -Black called softly, his breathing had stabilized, but the tears still ran down his face, which remained buried in Remus's chest
-Yes?
-You love me? -Remus' heart skipped a beat, adrenaline spreading through his body as a blush appeared on his cheeks
-O-of course, I mean, we're best friends -Lupin mentally cursed himself for stuttering, his heart clenching as he spoke the "best friends"
They were silent for a while, but he was soon cut off by Sirius
-Would you… love me more if I were prettier? -He questioned in a murmur, which if it weren't for his keen hearing, Remus wouldn't have heard
-Pads, what are you talking about? You are already beautiful! -Remus spoke calmly, as if it was just a fact that everyone knew (which really was the case)
-I know, but… if I were prettier, would you like me more? -Black says in a whisper.
The memory of the broken mirror came to Remus' mind, and he seemed to finally understand the situation, his hand going up to Sirius' cheek, wiping away some tears
-Sirius, look at me -He asked, watching the friend shook his head. The werewolf let out a sigh, but then gently lifted Black's face, making him look into his eyes
-Sirius, I love you regardless of everything, I would love you even if you weren't beautiful, which isn't That's the case, because you're the most perfect guy I know -Remus says calmly- You're funny, intelligent, an idiot often, you have presence, you know how to impose yourself, fun, one of the best people I know, besides being of course, be very beautiful -He said while caressing the smaller boy's cheeks, seeing his gray eyes shining through tears
-Y-you... really think that? Wouldn't you prefer it if I were prettier? -Black questioned softly, his lips trembling
-Sirius, I can spend all night telling you how wonderful you are-He says gently- I love your curls, they look so soft, you look so perfect when they sway in the wind or when I'm messy, and I always look for an excuse to mess with them; Your eyes look like molten mercury in the glow of stars, and I'm fascinated by the way they shine when you're happy, especially when you use those brights and shadows; your nose and cheeks look the cutest when they're red from the cold, and I have to hold back the urge to squeeze; the way you furrow your eyebrows and pout when you're being stubborn; like a child; what your smile, your fucking smile... I have no words to describe how fucking beautiful you look smiling -He spoke passionately, his eyes focused on Sirius' face- Fuck, you can look beautiful even when you're crying -He murmured, wiping away the older man's tears.
Sirius' eyes were shining, still a little swollen from crying, his lips in a sweet and shy smile, his cheeks in a pink tone as he focused on Remus
-And I just discovered one of the my favorite expressions -Remus whispered, his eyes analyzing Sirius's face, wanting to keep the image forever. He bent his body forward, joining his lips in a kiss without malice, on the contrary, it was sweet and slow, conveying all the feelings that they kept it for years
-I love you Sirius, and there's nothing I want to change about you -He says gently, their foreheads touching each other
-I love you too, Monny -Sirius says smiling, although he looked tired Remus smiled as he passed his arms around Black's body, standing up with the smaller one on his lap
-Do I weigh anything for you? -He asked curiously
-No, you're very light -Lupin did it calmly, taking Sirius to the bed He took the wand and muttered a cleaning spell to clean the blood on Black, then going in search of bandages
-I'm sorry for causing you so much problems -Sirius muttered, shrugging his shoulders when he noticed the mess in the dorm
-You always help me with my "furry problems" and make every effort so I don't get tired, that's the least I can do to repay you -Remus says calmly, starting to fit Sirius' arms. Once he was finished, Remus took his wand and pointed it at the mirror
-Repair -Soon all the glass shards were back in their rightful place, and he did another cleaning spell for the blood on the floor
-Monny, can you sleep with me tonight? -Sirius questioned after a while, looking at Remus with puppy dog eyes
-How could I say no with those eyes? -Remus murmured amusedly, then going to Black's bed.
The werewolf lay down facing Sirius, closing the curtains so that the light wouldn't bother them, then he put an arm around the smaller boy's waist, the other hand moving to play with his long hair. black curls
-I love you, Monny -Sirius whispered, snuggling into the younger boy's chest
-I love you more, Padfoot
They shared one last kiss before Sirius fell peacefully asleep in Remus' arms.
-Sleep well, my beautiful boy