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Prologue:
“Big brother, you must stop this! He is dead and you can’t bring the dead back to life!” I tearfully yell at my big brother, who is finalizing notes on raising the dead. Big brother dropped his quill on his desk and slowly turned his head towards me. The only candle in this secret study shines dimly but that is enough light to present the insanity that has grown on my big brother. The deranged insane eyes that have lost all of their light, only showing darkness, the purple marks underneath his eyes and sunken cheekbones. The robes that he has one are the ones he has worn for the past two months since his insanity has grown worse. In the past two months, he had a breakthrough in resurrecting my twin brother, Natsu, who died 2 years ago in a dragon attack.
A gasp escapes my mouth and tears rush to my eyelids. This is not my big brother that I grew up with and love dearly. This 15 year old teenage boy has been replaced by a man who has seen too much and delved into concepts that he is not ready for.
‘What happened to my big brother? This is not my big brother.’
He shakily rises from his, nearly losing balance once he stands up straight, and stumbling towards me. His steps are uncoordinated and unbalanced. I turn to face away from him as he approaches me as I try to step back but my legs are frozen solid. I gasp again and try to move but I can’t.
´He is coming towards me like a mad man and I cannot move. Please legs work! This is not my big brother!’
Tears are rushing down my face in an endless stream, my heart is bounding at a speed that should not be possible as try to move my frozen solid legs.
“I am not going to hurt you Anya, so why are you so afraid of me? All I am trying to do is bring back your twin brother and my younger brother so we can be a happy family once more.” I jump out of my skin and scream once those words come out of his mouth. I slowly turn to face him and he is right in my face, kneeling on the ground in front of me with his head cocked to the side and eyebrow up. Him being this close makes my entire body shake violently and more tears run down my face. Big brother-no, Zeref’s deranged eyes showed some clarity and widen. He brought his hand to my face and I flinched.
“I have no idea what I have done for you to react in this way but I do apologise for my action.” Zeref apologises in a monotone voice as he drops his hand from my face. I look into his foggy eyes and I see no understanding what is happening around him.
‘How can he apologise for something he has no idea what he has done? He ruined my life with this insanity to bring Natsu back to life!’
I grit my teeth and clenched my fists at these thoughts. I harden my face and stare directly at him.
“Do you remember what you did to me?” I question with much more confidence than I feel, my legs are still shaking and I wipe the tears that are running down my face. Zeref narrowed his eyebrows together and pursed his lips.
“No because I don’t think I have done anything bad to you.” At these words, I feel like I have just been punched in the gut and I could feel my heart break in my 6 year old body.
‘H-he doesn’t re-remember what he d-did to me half a-a year ago? B-but how-w?’
A sob escape my lips and I fall to my knees holding my face.
“Big-g bro-othe-er, ho-ow coul-ld yo-ou forg-get wh-hat yo-ou di-id t-to m-me?!” I scream at Zeref while wiping my eyes while sobbing loudly. I can feel Zeref tensing in front of me.
“I…” Those were the only words that came out his mouth. The only sound that could be heard in the study was my wailing as I cried my heart out in the pain that Zeref caused me.
‘Why did Zeref forget? Why did he do that to me without remorse? Why does he now forget?! WHY ME?!’’
“I hate you…” The words escape my lips before I could stop in a whisper. A confused sound came from Zeref.
“What was that Anya?” Zeref questions. I snap my head up to face Zeref, pure unadulterated rage on my face as I stare at him.
“I hate you, I hate you! I HATE YOU ZEREF FOR THE PAIN YOU CAUSED ME!!!” I scream at the top of my lugs and sprint out of the room, slamming the door open. I ran, and ran up the stairs, and ran through the burned down house until body slammed the front door and roll on the sand outside for a couple of rolls. Once I stopped rolling, more tears ran down my cheeks but all I could feel was pure numbness. I felt nothing. No pain. No sadness. No loneliness. Nothing. I did not move, not a single arm or leg. I stayed unmoving on the sand while tears run down my face and my pink hair covering my face.
“Why…me…?” I closed my eyes in hopes these past 2 years were all just a nightmare and none of this was true, but, I knew this reality as I can feel the heat from burning sand from the midday sun.
‘I just want my family back and everything to be back to normal.’