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Am I allowed to like you?
Kim has been fond of books since a very young age, he grew up with them. His family changed cities a lot; it has become his thing to always find his go-to bookstore in the city they moved to. And this is the first time his family is going to stay here for a long time. Even if they move this time Kim has decided not to go with it. He is thinking of staying here. Because he found his reason and mind you he has never thought he would ever like someone in this lifetime. He spent his 28 years alone.
Hold on
Let’s not get all romantic this soon
Kim is having a huge breakdown right now looking at his screen and why is he only looking at it now? When he is already in deep. He should have never sent that friend request. And he should have never seen the relationship status on his crush’s socials.
It’s been 2 weeks since he saw that and he is still shameless because he should know better. He should choose some other bookstore to go to instead of torturing himself but here we are because we are humans and we love torture!
“Welcome!” His sweet voice welcomes Kim
“Good afternoon” Kim smiles as soon as he sees Porchay “How are you, today?” He quickly approaches the counter
“After my strawberry latte, I am feeling alive” He tilts his empty tumbler with a grin
“You are an addict” Kim rolls his eyes softly “Any new collections?”
“I am guilty” They laugh “Please see there you will love it, P’Kim” He points at his right direction
Kim’s eyes widened in happiness “You are the best!”
“I know”
And there is this little eye lock between them, this is not the first time it happened and apparently this is the reason why Kim actually dared to think that Porchay might like him back and ALAS!
Life hates Kim and Kim hates life. It was never one sided.
“Okay, move Kim” Sam’s voice who works in here too interrupts them
“I am two months older than you, Sam” Kim huffs
“And? You want me to call you P’Kim like your little Porchay?” Sam laughed mockingly at both of them as Porchay and Kim lock eyes once again but Porchay quickly breaks it apart with a little cough
Kim usually have hard times making friends but they became one immediate with their random bickering
“I am not little, I am 26 for god sake” Porchay sighs “I hate when you call me little” Porchay complains
“Aw” Sam pats his head and move about her work
“She is limitless”
“We still love her” Porchay sighs again
And they end up laughing again
“Then I will” Kim sticks his finger out in the same direction where the new collections were kept
Porchay nods “Please and buy a lot so I can complete my month target”
“I am your credit card”
“Yes, daddy”
And yes they end up laughing again, ignoring how good it sounded and Kim is not kinky at all.
See, it was this easy with Porchay. It’s not difficult and complicated at all. Porchay is a simple guy with the brightest smile in the whole universe. He loves making people’ day. He is honestly the easiest person to love. Kim totally believes that Porchay does not have anyone who dislikes him. Having Porchay as one’s partner is honestly the luckiest thing.
And Kim is not lucky in this lifetime. He mindlessly looks through the book collections, glancing at Porchay from time to time. He really needs to choose something because Porchay wants him to take something home, Kim does not want to disappoint him. His eyes fall on a book ‘Last Twilight’ making him raise his eyebrow at it, the cover was really eye catching with the picture of a very beautiful view from the mountain. This is it. He will buy it. He walks to the counter where Porchay had his another strawberry latte ready and he was stirring it.
“So fast” Porchay almost says surprisingly and Kim is guilty because he tries to take as much as time he can in the store just so he can stare at Porchay working and looking pretty but today he should not stay here.
“This caught my attention” Kim puts down the book on the counter, Porchay eyes it as he prepare to bill Kim
“Oh! Do you know there is a series with the same name airing inspired by this book?”
“Really? That’s nice” Kim’s eyes move onto Porchay’s lips which are so pink that he wants to bi-
No! That’s not right! Porchay is married and he keeps forgetting this
“I am enjoying it, you should watch it too” Porchay smiles at Kim as he hums “Cash or credit card?”
“My black card” Kim pulls out his credit card with a swift motion smirking
“Sexy!”
they laugh again
Seriously, what the fuck universe? Why can’t this beautiful man be Kim’s? Why life play him every chance it gets?
“Oh, also! P’Kim, can you fill this form out? This is review form that I have to show to the Mayor” Porchay kindly asks, pulling out a piece of paper and pen and handing it to Kim with his book and credit card
“Sure, but are you sure I will give the nice reviews?” Kim teasingly says
Porchay pouts
No, don’t pout. This is bad.
“I trust you”
“I was just kidding” Kim chuckles and moves aside “Mind if I write here?”
“Not at all”
This will give him more time to stay close to Porchay because he does not know if he will ever come here again, he really cannot enter in here with all the feelings cooking inside his heart now that he knows Porchay is married and is committed. No matter how crazy it was driving Kim but there is no point in cursing anyone out. Porchay is an amazing guy, of course he won’t be single and pathetic like Kim is
“Hii, Chay!” A feminine voice takes him out of his dark thoughts
“Hii, Angie” Porchay sweetly greets and this shatters Kim’s heart even more because he had this illusion that Porchay talk sweetly to him only. What a fool.
“I am looking for a book called ‘I suck your feet’ but I cannot find it”
I suck–what?
Without knowing, Kim laughed and when he realizes it he looks up and see both of them staring at him
“I am sorry”
“It’s okay, P’Kim. Angie reads some weird ass title books” Porchay giggles
Angie shrugs “They are deep”
“I will try to find it for you” Porchay promises
Angie perks “Really!? I love you!”
“Don’t worry, I will try my best” Porchay assures her
Kim could cry, Porchay is just the sweetest to ever exist like a cotton candy.
“Anyways, how is Diana?”
Kim’s hand stops writing and he did not dare to look up
“My princess? What can I say, she got sick yesterday and made me so worried. I had to run to P’Mixx”
Kim thought that he can face anything but what is this? Who is Diana? Is it Porchay’s wife?!
“Oh no! Is she fine?” Angie asks
“Yeah, she is the love of my life if she ever gets sick like this again I might need a doctor for myself too” Porchay jokes “But she is fine now, I will tell her you were asking. Bring Robert sometime?”
Kim gulps down a huge lump, he could feel his body getting cold. He should rush out of here soon because his heart cannot take it anymore.
“Yeah, s-
“Porchay, I have to go. Bye” Without looking back and leaving the paper on the counter, he runs as fast he could out of the store.
Sam stops wiping the floor and look at the door “What just happened?”
Porchay just stands there with an unreadable expression “I don’t know”
After 2 weeks~~
Kim did not leave his bed for two weeks now, he does not have any strength left within himself. He is torn and tired of everything.
“Seriously Kim, just tell him” His brother Tankhun’s voice comes out from the other side of the phone
“Tell him, what? That, I like you Porchay I know you are married but go out with me?” Kim’s voice almost breaks
“Listen. Atleast, he can know your feelings and you will feel good too”
“Khun, I know for sure that he is gonna slap the fuck out of me” Kim does not wanna imagine the disgusting expression Porchay will have on his face if he ever tries to confess his feelings to him, they should be tucked away in some random corner that no one is allowed to go to.
“Ki-
DoorBell! Ding Ding Rim Rim!!
“I need to go, someone’s at door”
He cuts the call and curses the person who decided to visit him when he is in this state. Maybe, it was not a good idea to move out from his parents’ house because if he was there the maids would have been opening the door.
Kim is so out of his mind that he opens the door without checking the monitor, so do not blame him when he was suddenly having the shock of his entire life.
Porchay is there
In front of his door
And he is carrying a small cute bag in his hand and a cat?
He takes back his swearing, how dare he swear at Porchay!!!
He smiles so big that it blinded Kim “Hii! P’Kim!”
“P-porchay?”
Damn it, Porchay is some kind of art because he looks fucking precious in his oversized pink sweater with white pants
“It’s kinda cold, do you mind if we-
“Sure, Oh my god. I am sorry. Please, come inside” Kim slaps himself in his head and moves sideways to let Porchay come inside
“You are not allergic to cats, right?” Porchay giggles
“N-No” Kim shuts the door behind them “Uhm- come this way please” He gestures with his hand as Porchay nods and follow Kim to the living room
“I imagined that your interior must be mahogany” Porchay sits down on the brown sofa with his cat on his lap snuggling close to him
Oh how bad Kim wanted to be a cat
“Uhm- what would you like to have?” Kim scratches the back of his neck, Porchay looks up at him and it suddenly turned intense that it made Kim shuffle on his feet
“Your bed hair is cute and I don’t want anything” Porchay finally takes his eyes off of Kim
Kim is breathless and he is damn blushing right now. What was that?
“Arr-thank you” He carefully sits across Porchay
“Are you okay, P’Kim?” Porchay asks sweetly as he softly caresses his cat
“Y-yes, why?”
“You did not come to the store for like 2 weeks now” Porchay’s eyes turned sad and his voice lowered “You ran out of the store and I got worried”
Someone catches Kim’s heart because it ran out of his chest
Kim does not deserve this beautiful human sitting right in front of him worrying about him
“I a-am sorry, I just I am going through something. I did not mean to make you worried” Kim apologizes, he should be hit for making Porchay sad like that
“Me and Diana are worried about you” Porchay softly says “Look, how she is eyeing you out to know if you are alright or not”
Kim blinks
Then blinks again
And then again
What the actual fuck?
“Diana is not your wife?!!!” Kim says out loud without thinking and getting up from the sofa
Porchay stops caressing his cat and tilts his head in confusion “Wife?”
“I mean, your facebook status say that you are married” Kim confesses finally letting out the thing that has been hurting him for days
Porchay stares at him for some time before breaking down into a puddle of laughter
“Baby, you hear that?” He says to his cat…Diana
Kim is fucking confused and why Porchay is laughing
“P’Kim, are you crazy? I am gay for fuck sake why would I marry a woman? And that status was for a dare I guess I forgot to remove it, I barely use facebook”
“Y-You are not married?”
“I am single and Diana is my cat. This girl right here” He points at Diana who licks his finger
Kim drops himself back on the sofa and ends up laughing to himself
“Have you gone crazy, P’Kim?” Porchay murmurs and cooes at Diana “Baby, you see this?”
Kim looks up at them as he takes a deep breathe “Would you like to eat pizza with me?” He asks looking directly into Porchay’s eyes
Porchay smirks slightly “Took you long enough to ask”
They lock eyes.
And this time Kim is sure about the situation and he is not reading it wrong
Well, life does not hate him this much actually.
The End