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They say that a person dies after three days without sleeping. I have been 48 hours awake and the truth is I never thought that what would kill me would be having insomnia. To be honest, I'm glad that my nightmare is about to end, I've done nothing but drink Sake and think, I don't find anything more fun than doing that.
I find myself on the couch in the agency murmuring misery and sweating guilt. The black circles are really noticeable under my eyes, so much so that Kenji has taken a new nickname for me, from now on I am and will be a panda, at least they are cute...
I close my eyes for a moment, I'm not looking for sleep or tranquility, I really just want to trick Kunikida to avoid doing work... How pathetic.
"Kunikida-san, Dazai-san is sleeping, should I do the work with him? It's obvious that he hasn't slept well..." I don't really hear the blonde's response, but I hear footsteps moving away from me, I can enjoy a quiet afternoon for at least a few hours, rather I don't enjoy it, I just wish it would come to an end. me that joy instead of seeking it. It's weird... I feel weird.
The noise of the paper, of the murmurs, of the footsteps... Everything makes me reflect a little, everyone is in such a hurry and I am left behind, I don't see the moment when the world moves forward and I am left with my feet in the earth still and unable to move, but my desire is not to bury myself, I wish that time will do it. I don't have the energy or courage to do it myself.
The hours pass surprisingly quickly, I was finally able to get some sleep. My nightmares are really nothing more than voices and darkness, I am glad that in the moment before my nightmare made my mind a torment, my light arrived.
"Dazai-san" I can hear a soft and nervous voice. Atsushi tries to wake me up with small touches on my face, I'm grateful that he managed to do it. “It's time to close the building, if he doesn't leave now they will leave him inside.”
"Don't worry" I get up and stretch a little "You can go."
Not even a thank you, I'm a bastard.
Now I have to go home, drink Sake, try to sleep and get back to my daily routine.