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"Why do you act as you do around him?" Is a question I often ask myself. It's not like I can feel bored. I can't feel anything really. It isn't something I look down upon though. It's rather strange though. I don't know why I take interest in looking at him. Perhaps he's simply fascinating to me? I'm definitely not fascinated by him at all, he despised me like everyone else. I do not understand why he's as significant as he is to me. He hates me and I'm an annoyance. Especially with our feeding preferences. We are opposites in a lot of ways.
I found myself dwelling on what I'd do if I were able to pursue him. It isn't like I like him either. What do humans like? He surely has emotions like a human. I do believe he likes being outside. Is it comfortable for his feet to be walking on the harsh ground? Probably not, he most likely just deals with it. He is definitely rather strong. Especially his arms.. they are the ideal arms. They're striped and veiny. His fingers are odd, but I think they're neat.
I'd say I wonder if they feel warm in mine, but everything I touch turns cold and icy. No one likes cold hands. I don't care though, I'm accustomed to it.
Hmm, if I could feel anything, what would I admire about him? I don't know much of his personality, I suppose that's captivating. He's the third rank of the 12 kizuki, that definitely says something. I suppose I'm curious about his blood demon art, admittedly I don't know a lot about it.
There's a lot of things I'd like to know about him. One thing I do know is that he's warm. I can feel the warmth. Maybe that's why I treat him as I do.
Do I crave.. simple warmth?
No, that's silly. I can just ask one of my cult members to start a fire and I'd be fine.
This warmth is different... I feel it in my chest. It's warm enough to bring a grin to my face. I watch over him when he believes he's alone at times. I don't understand why I do so.
He makes me feel warm.