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First kiss.
Gideon had never experienced her first kiss. The idea never crossed her mind. She never had time for KiSsİnG or shit like that. But now, as shes scrolling through her phone, she comes across a video where a woman is talking about her first kiss experience. And it lead Gideon’s mind to wonder.
“Is kissing really that big of a deal? Its just kissing…”
She openend the comments and was scrolling through them until she saw one that caught her eye.
“every lesbians first girl kiss is literally like fireworks,” it read, “any lesbians who havent kissed a girl yet are missing out fr.”
Missing out? Gideon hated missing out on shit. Especially shit that people describe as “fireworks”
“Shit cant be *that* good.”
It was that good.
Gideon looked in the replies to that comment; trying to find someone who agreed with her take on the topic.
“What the fuck? It can *not* be that good what the fuck.”
All the replies were agreeing. A lesbians first kiss was a life changing experience.
“I mean maybe, *maybe* its okay. But why the fuck would i want to experience something like that?!”
Despite Gideons objection to the idea of a kiss, she continued scrolling through the comment section. Getting completely absorbed into the idea of a first kiss.
Until she saw one comment.
It was a lesbian woman talking about her first kiss with her best friend.
Best friend.
Gideon had been open with Harrow about her being lesbian. Harrow said she had no problem with it and also mentioned that she doesnt have a label for her sexuality; but she did experience romantic (and sexual🫢) feelings towards women.
The comment was stuck in Gideons head like someone gorilla glued it there. She couldnt stop thinking about her and Harrow being in that situation.
“Stop fucking thinking about this shit. Harrow doesnt fucking like you!! You dont like Harrow!”
What a lie.
Gideon’s own words were making her heart ache. She hated that. Vulnerability was something she hated. But thinking about Harrow just made her float.
“Its just a stupid crush.. we all have them.”
While we do all have crushes, i think you and me both know Gideon’s feelings for Harrow was much more than a “stupid crush”.
The idea was floating in Gideon’s brain for several more hours, until she picked up her phone and dialed Harrows number.
“Yo”
“Hey what is it.”
“Can i come over?”
“Sure: why?”
“No reason. Just wanna talk. Cmon youve made me come over many times why is it weird when i do it voluntarily.”
“Fine. I still have some coffee jellies from last time you were over.”
“Sick. See you then.”
“Bye.”
Gideon rushed out the door fast than she ever had before. This wasnt even something that needed immediate attention; it was just a question that needed answering.
HARROWS HOME
Bang
There it was again, Gideon’s version of knocking politely.
“Come on in.”
Gideon walked through the door and slipped off her dirt covered shoes that werent even tied; it was clear that she had been in a hurry to get there.
“The jellies are on the table in the living room. Ill meet you there.”
“Rodger that.”
Gideon made her way to the couch and formed her usual nest of pillows and blankets.
Harrow came back from the kitchen and sat down in her usual spot with her blanket.
“Now what did you wanna talk about?”
Gideon had mustered all the courage she had left into this moment. Her knee started to shake, but she fought the nervousness by firmly holding her hand on top of it to attempt to not look at nervous and flustered she was at the moment.
“Ahem..”
“So, i saw a video and it just lead me to think..”
“Think about what?” Harrow asked,
“Have..”
“Have you ever had..”
Gideon was basically choking out words. This was not her usual speaking pace that Harrow was used to.
“Had what? Sex? If so, then no.”
SEX? SEXXX?????? Thats a fic for another day.
“WHAT? Fuck- no. I meant.. have you ever had your first kiss.”
Gideon’s speaking pace increased from the sudden shock from Harrow.
“Ohh kiss? Nah. Im as pure as a dove, hah.” Harrow said sarcastically.
“Yeah yeah. We both know youre not ‘as pure as a dove’ youre a fucking crow if anything.”
“Oh so youre accusing me of lying?”
“Yeah. No way someone who looks like you hasnt had her first kiss yet.”
Oh? Someone who looks like you? Thats not what Harrow expected.
“Damn. I think you underestimate how lonely ive been my whole life. Im in my twenties and ive never even been in a relationship. Also- im pretty sure you havent had your first kiss either.”
“I-I havent you fucking dumbass. I was just wondering because-“
“Because why?” Harrow shifted closer to Gideon.
“I dont know.. i was just wondering.”
Oh poor, poor Gideon. Harrow could see through her lies better than glass.
“Mhm, sure.” Harrow shifted closer.
“What do you mean by that fucking weirdo?”
“You wanna kiss me dont you.”
Everything went white. Gideon had officially lost it. She couldnt think, process her surroundings, process words, or see straight.
“Haha. Someones having gay panic. You scared to kiss a girl?”
Harrow made mocking over exaggerated kissy faces at Gideon and snapped her back to reality.
“N-no fucking way! Im not fucking scared! Its just weird since your my friend!”
“A lot of people kiss their friends.”
Mhm. Sureee Harrow. Suuure.
“Wait- what?”
“Yeah, you didnt know?”
“I-“
“You didnt know? Thats okay.” Harrow shifted once again, closer to Gideon. She was now touching shoulders with Gideon.
“Gideon. Answer me honestly, do you want to kiss me?”
Gideon froze, she wanted to. But what if this would be the end of their friendship? Gideon couldnt bare the thought of losing her relationship with Harrow. But Harrow seemed to be very lowkey about the whole idea, so she supposed it was alright to say yes.
“Well… yeah… but only because its embarrassing to tell other people youre in your twenties and havent kissed anyone yet.”
“Hehe, okay then.”
Harrow pulled Gideon close to her, catching her off guard, but Gideon didnt want to make that known.
The two shared a moment of eye contact that neither of them wanted to end. But Harrow pulled back a stray string of hair behind Gideon’s ear. And she sighed.
Harrow’s arms around Gideon’s torso pulled her in closely, and Gideon gave into Harrow’s soft touch. And the two became lost in their embrace.