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Everyone leaves.
That 's how it is. You get along well with them, you become close friends and then they leave. That's how it always is. They all left me before. New people come along and they get along better with your friends than you ever did so they leave you for them. They all left me before. I’m not sure why Amore hasn’t left. Maybe they wanna make it more painful. He doesn't even try to think that maybe they don't want to leave. I did terrible things to Amore. She should’ve left long ago. I don't know why they forgave me. Estel, Amore, Marse, Callisto. I don't know why they still hang out with me. I'm a terrible person. Why are they still here? It hurts more thinking about how they will leave. I hold on to the edge of any sanity there is left and try to pull himself onto the top of the floors of sanity. I don't have the strength. I’ll hang on forever, until I fall. One day I’ll fall. There is no question about that. What happens if he leaves first? It’ll hurt me. But that way he won't wait for the pain to come to me. I’ll get rid of it faster. the pain will go away.
Won't it?