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“Like Snow Falling from The Summer Sky”
3 months have passed since the drama promotion period passed, and today is the last day we have a schedule together. This is my first time going abroad for a photo shoot and fan meeting. Should this end? I'm not even sure what I feel yet. Is this real? Or is it just me who is trapped in the character "Yoh"? Time passed so fast that I didn't realize it would be over.
“If Something that Rarely Happens is called a miracle”
Maybe this is a miracle? We met for the first time at that event. I only know your name. I even forgot if we ever chatted with each other. I only know if we happen to have the same friends. Maybe he has told you about me or something. What an unexpected fate.
“Encourage You is More than That”
Our first meeting was very awkward, wasn't it? Where previously we only knew each other's names, now we are reunited to be in this drama. Pressure? Of course. This is my first time playing in a BL drama. What a challenge! Moreover, I just found out that the character I play is Uke?! All this time I thought I had quite a strong dominant aura. How should I deepen this character? Can I play it? It seems impossible. But with your help I became calmer and was able to deepen this character. It's as if meeting you was fate where we could immediately get close and support each other.
“The More I Grown-Up, Why Can't I See It?”
Time goes on, we do scene by scene. The first kiss scene, which I thought would be awkward, turned out to be very good! Before taking, we always discuss to learn each other's characters and give each other input. Even when you were not feeling well, I hoped that I could visit you. However, unfortunately due to a quite busy schedule I couldn't do it. We started looking for each other when one of us was not on set. It's boring, because we always make jokes to each other and it makes the atmosphere cheerful! Without realizing it, it seems like we are getting closer? Exchanging lines during free time, asking each other's schedules to plan meals together? It feels like I've known you for a long time, doesn't it? Even though we've only known each other for about 2 months?! When I think back before, why didn't I realize that the attention we gave each other, the physical touch and the way we talked were very different from the first time we met! Is this just a coincidence? Or are we the only ones still lost in our own characters? Is all the attention I get from you just a formality because we work together? However, were we in that close of a relationship in the first place?
“I Wonder If I Love You”
I always ask myself, what am I feeling? Is this real? Or is this just an illusion created by deepening the character? This feeling confused me. What answer am I really looking for? Why does it seem like I'm denying it? But that can happen, right? Maybe it could be because of the intensity with which we met? Or could it also be because we continue to communicate, which makes us know each other? Or maybe I got too carried away? Who knows? Should I ignore this feeling? But this is too real for me to ignore. Is it possible that I have fallen too deep? To the extent that I can't differentiate between reality and illusion?
“Surely, If Only You Were Here, I Don't Need Anything Else”
I thought to myself, am I starting to go crazy? Or too naive to feel this feeling. But one thing I'm sure of. That with you here, I can get through everything. My days have become more colourful and I love it! I feel like I can overcome all obstacles as long as you are with me.
“It's not as simple as wishing, and it will come true. Well, I know."
Should I do it? I felt like I couldn't hold it in anymore. This feeling haunts me more and more. But what if it bothers you? Oh, I really didn't expect it. But, should I bury it deep? I don't know anymore. It's not as easy as just me hoping and getting what I want, right? I know that maybe when I do it, it will make you stay away from me. That's what I'm afraid of!
“On Top of That, I Put my Feelings into My Confess of Love”
But despite all that, I still convinced myself to do it. I don't want all of this to end. I don't care if this is just an illusion or because of the atmosphere. This is what I feel right now and I am the one who understands myself best. Therefore, I will pour all my feelings and my courage into this.
“You Nodded, Crying with Looks Happy”
Today. When we arrived at the location where we were staying, I gathered all my courage to tell you. Wow, it turns out it's really hard to express your feelings to someone! I can't even see your face properly. All I did was keep talking while lowering my head and closing my eyes. Silence. That was the first response I got after I said everything. Oh no, is this the answer? Does he hate me now? Oh my God, have I done something stupid?! I should have held myself content to be friends with him. Then after this will he stay away from me? Advise me because my feelings are too carried away? Oh no, my tears. Thinking about all the bad possibilities that could happen makes my heart throb in pain! I have to leave here. I gathered all my courage to look at you and I was stunned. What I saw was not an angry or disappointed face. But a big smile with teary eyes.
“Oh, I see. Sorry for Making You Wait Until Today. Let's Paint Thousands of Tomorrows"
Seeing you come forward and hug me made me wake up from my reverie. Is this real? I'm not dreaming, right? Without realizing it, I started crying on your shoulder. I didn't understand what I was crying, it's just that the feeling of relief I felt made my tears unstoppable. You slowly kissed the corner of my eye to calm me down and whispered something in my ear. “I love you too. Took you a long enough hm?” then tighten your hug again. Ah, so you were waiting for me to realize it? Really... "Sorry for making you wait" I said while smiling. I don't know if this is actually real or not. I just want to enjoy the moment with him. Let time tell everything, but one thing I'm sure of is that I just want him by my side.