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i've lost myself again (i'd do it a million times if i had to)

Summary:

[SLIGHT SPOILERS FOR OMNISCIENT READER'S VIEWPOINT!! they're veryyy veryyy slight you literally won't notice them unless you've actually read that part in which case it isn't really a spoiler]

Yoo Joonghyuk stares at Kim Dokja, and has...many thoughts in the process.

Notes:

AGAIN!! SLIGHT SPOILERS FOR ORV!!! IF YOU DON'T LIKE KNOWING ANYTHING THAT HAPPENS IN ADVANCE PLEASE TURN BACK :D

can i emphasise the 'these bitches gay good for them' tag because jesus christ that's basically this entire fic.

based off that one scene in chapter #[i forget] where yjh and kdj are like:
yjh: kim dokja.
kdj: what is it?
yjh: *stares for ages, then looks away* ...it's nothing.

my guy that's GAY. you are GAY.
(i forgot the context and thus am deluding myself. delulu is the solulu as instagram says)

(See the end of the work for more notes.)

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Yoo Joonghyuk stares.

He stares and stares. He was not made for staring; he was made to be stared at. A pretty protagonist with the aura of the arctic.

But, as little sense as it makes, he is staring at Kim Dokja.

It makes complete sense and none at all. Kim Dokja is kind. Kim Dokja is infuriating. Kim Dokja is wise. Kim Dokja is troublesome. Kim Dokja cares too much, Kim Dokja teases him, Kim Dokja thinks terribly of himself, Kim Dokja is beautiful.

Beautiful.

He is lucky. Blessed.

Kim Dokja is a demon. Kim Dokja is an angel.

Kim Dokja…

“Kim Dokja…”

Fuck.

Grey eyes look in his, and his heart aches.

“What is it?”

That voice…

How have you managed to save me so easily?

Touched his heart, seeped his very essence into his bones, captured his soul.

Holds his entire existence in the palm of his hand, and he doesn’t even know.

But he can linger. He can stare, with the soft excuse of wanting to drown himself in grey eyes just a little longer.

Gentle, cruel, shameless, self-loathing.

Everything in the world comes back to Kim Dokja.

He lingers just a little longer. Just a little more.

Let me indulge myself in you, for as long as you will allow.

He lingers, lingers, lingers, and the longer he stays, the stronger the need to stay forever.

Then something in Dokja’s eyes shifts. From politely puzzled to…

concern

It’s time to go.

His voice is low with the pain of leaving. “It’s nothing.”

Notes:

i wrote this feverishly in the middle of class don't mind me
(what kind of fucking prose is this. i drank that magic magnus chase mead fr (if you get this reference i love you))

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