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TW: Mentions of SH
“Kacchan? W-What are you doing here?” Deku groaned sitting up in his bed where he was previously sleeping.
Katsuki stood there in the frame of Izuku’s door silently. How was he meant to explain that he was scared of the dark and needed to use the bathroom?
“Do you need something?” He rubbed his eyes. Katsuki felt nervous, he wished Izu could read his mind. “Help.” Katsuki mumbled.
“Help, with what?” He tilted his head. “What’s wrong Kacchan? You’re acting strangely..”
Bakugo only stood there, while they stared at each other. Eventually Izuku got out of bed and walked over to Katsuki. “Can you show me what you want?” Bakugo nodded and grabbed Izuku’s hand.
He led Izu to the bathroom and let go of his hand before finally rushing into one of the bathroom stalls. “Oh.” Izuku huffed. After Katsuki emerged from the stalls Izuku was immediately confused, why was he needed for a simple trip to the restroom?
No.. He couldn’t be. Izuku thought as he realized, was the Katsuki Bakugo afraid of the dark? Impossible, but then why did he need help getting to the bathroom? Nothing made sense maybe he was better off just asking.
“Why did you need me to come with you Kacchan?” He finally asked. “Got ‘cared..”, “Of what?” “Too dark, thought there was a month’ter.”
Now Izuku was concerned, being scared was one thing but admitting it? That’s the one thing Bakugo would never do.. “Kacchan? Are you feeling okay? Are you sick or something?”
“M’ fine. Just tired.” He hummed. “Okay, if you’re sure..” He reached for Bakugo’s hand again, which to his surprise he took.
Izuku walked Katsuki back to his dorm and they parted ways for the night. Katsuki fell right asleep, but after that there was no way that Midoriya could go back to bed.
The next day Izuku was avoided at all costs. How could Katsuki let something like this happen? One thing for sure, it’ll never happen again. Bakugo would make sure of it.
It had been nearly three weeks and still Midoriya was still unsure on why he was being avoided. Clearly Bakugo was upset at him but about what? He couldn’t even ask why because every time he got near him he’d dart away to another room.
Maybe he could text him, Well that probably just end up with Izuku being blocked.. How about a note. Hopefully he’ll at least read it. He’d write it tonight, Midoriya thought.
So that he did, later that day he wrote a letter and folded it neatly into an envelope and slid it under Bakugo’s dorm door. Bakugo didn’t see it until the next day, he should throw it away. He really wanted to, but something inside of him told him to read it.
To, Kacchan
So.. I was going to text you but you would probably just block me, Anyways please stop avoiding me. Or at least tell me why you are, whatever it is I’m sorry. You don’t have to face me but please write back. :)
From, Izuku
He sighed, crumbling up the note and tossing it in the trash. No way he was going to write a dumb letter, but there was no way he was going to face stupid Deku either.. What was he going to do?
Dear, Izuku—
Okay so maybe he /was/ going to write a dumb letter but even so, no way it was going to start with “Dear, Izuku” Katsuki Is /not/ fucking soft.. Okay he’s got this..
To, Ugly Deku
I’m avoiding you because of my own reasons. So stop blaming yourself for everything idiot.
Okay, that was better. He waited until the next day in Aizawa’s class before finally he groaned and crumbled it up and threw it at Izuku’s head.
Izuku didn’t say anything but he rubbed his head, then he picked up the paper to read it and turned around to look at Bakugo who was writing the homework down like he should’ve been.
“Uhm Mister. Aizawa?” Izuku said, raising his hand.
Aizawa sighed turning around “Yes, Midoriya?”
“I need to be excused, and Bakugo needs to come with me.” Aizawa pinched the bridge of his nose, “Make it quick..”, “Eh? What the fuck nerd?!” Izuku ignored him pulling him into the hallway by his arm.
“What ‘personal’ reason?” Izuku asked before Katsuki snatched his arm away. “If I wanted you to know I would’ve told you shit for brains!” Katsuki exclaimed. “You’re avoiding me, you’ve never done that before. I don’t like it.”
“Yeah well.. No one does, deal with it.” He scoffed. “Are you.. Cutting again?” The air thickens “No!” Izuku paused, “promise?” He nods. “It’s nothing like that I swear.”
“Fine.” Izuku sighed, walking back into the classroom. Bakugo soon followed. Though no one spoke everyone had the same question. “What just happened?” Denki whispered.
“Quiet, Stop gossiping and pay attention. Out of everyone you should be paying focusing the hardest considering your current grade in this class.” Aizawa glared at Denki. He cleared his throat before continuing the lesson.
After Katsuki finished all his classes he was fully burnt out, not to mention stressed from the million times he’d been asked ‘What happened between you and Deku.’ Like it was any of their fucking buisness..
He really needed a break.. Maybe he could, regress? Just once wouldn’t hurt. He hasn’t regressed in weeks well.. since before the incident. No one could find out though he had to be discreet.
He would just have to hope his Little side wouldn’t decide that seeking out Deku for comfort seemed like a good idea.
Deku felt bad, he shouldn’t have been so abrasive towards Bakugo. He should probably apologize, Katsuki has the right to his own privacy and Midoriya didn’t mean to cross any boundaries.
Katsuki probably didn’t want to see him right now so he would write another note. He slid the apology underneath Katsuki’s door but the “letter” he got back was a bunch of illegible symbols along with a drawing of.. Bakugo? Surrounded by question marks.
Was this a joke? Izuku knocked on Katsuki’s door “letter” in hand.
“Who i’th it?” Bakugo asked with his lisp very present. “It’s me Izuku, I wanted to ask about your letter.. What is it supposed to mean?”
“It th’ay that I can’t read right now..” He explained. “Why not?” Bakugo opened the door a little bit wider to reveal himself with a black pacifier in his mouth. “I can’t under’thand it..”
“Is that a paci?” Bakugo quickly slammed the door realizing Izuku could see his face. “G’way now!” He yelled his face gushing red. “Kacchan I’m sorry, please open the door.”
Katsuki slowly creaked the door open but not enough to where Deku could see him. “What?..”, “Why can’t you understand the letter, was my handwriting bad?”
“Noo, I can’t read.” “What do you mean. Yes you can.” He said confused. “Nuh-uh.. When I feel Little it’th hard to read.” “What do you mean by ‘Little’ Kacchan?”
“Do you have food?” Katsuki
asked, ignoring Deku’s question. “Not at the moment..”
“I’m really hungry…”, “There might be some leftovers in the fridge.” Bakugo sighed. “What’s wrong?”
“Can’t leave or ‘eku is gonna thee me.”, “But.. I already saw you.” Bakugo paused. “Oh, Right.” He stepped out of the dorm revealing the fluffy teddy bear onsie he was wearing.
“Woah.. I did not see that.” Deku looked at the entire outfit. “Yeah no, you definitely cannot wear that.” He lightly pushed Katsuki back into his dorm.
“Okayy, what other clothes do you have?” Deku hummed. “Look! Can I wear thi’th?” Her held up the soft orange shirt that read ‘little cutie’ with an orange on it. “It’s so cute Kacchan, but I don’t think you should wear it..”
“Whyyy?” Katsuki whined. “It’s hard to explain baby..” He ruffled Katsuki’s hair, using a nickname that just felt right.
“Because, when you’re feeling… Regular I know you’d be very upset with me if you knew I let you wear this outside of your dorm.”
“Nuh-uh..” Izuku chuckled, “Yes you would.” Katsuki pouted, he didn’t want to wear the uncomfortable UA uniform. Why couldn’t he just wear what he had on?
“How about this shirt?” Izuku proposed a black shirt, and sweatpants. “Fine..” He settled. “Okay, here you go can you get dressed on your own?” Katsuki nodded.
“But ‘eku..” “Yes?” Katsuki made the biggest puppy eyes he knew how “P’easee can I wear thi’th?. Midoriya wanted to give in but he knew Bakugo would hate him later if he did.. He shook his head “I’m sorry.”
Bakugo sighed waking into his closet and getting changed. He walked out in the black graphic tee and his baggy black sweats. “Do you want a sweater, or jacket?”
Bakugo shook his head, “No, don’t need it..” Izuku stood up. “Okay first we need to stop by my dorm so I can get dressed as well.”
They walked to Izuku’s dorm together and he quickly got dressed. “I think you should put on a sweater, the hallways felt a little chilly.”
“Nuh-uh i’th not cold.” Katsuki said behind his pacifier. “Do you still have the pacifier in?” He sighed seeing the black and orange scented pacifier still bobbing up and down in his mouth.
“Here.” He placed a fabric mask on top of Katsuki’s pacifier. “Don’t wan it.” He took the mask off his face. “No honey, keep it on.” He picked the mask up. “Feels weird.” “I know baby.
“Thank you. I think we’re ready to go now, yes?” Katsuki remained silent. “What’s wrong Kacchan?” He asked even though he knew that Katsuki was still upset about having to wear the mask.
“Nothing..” he lied, what was the point in telling him if everything was already decided? “I’m sorry Kacchan, I know you don’t understand right now.” Katsuki sighed and shrugged, “it’th okay.”
They walked to the kitchen in the silence, when they reached the kitchen Izuku searched the fridge finding nothing except random food that already had been claimed.
“Looks like I’ll have to make something..” “Can I help?” Katsuki begged. “Of course pretty boy!” Izuku cooed making Bakugo flush dark red. “What’chu gonna make?”
“I don’t know, do you want anything specific?” Katsuki thought, “Hmm, Mac n cheese?” “Okay that’s do-able!” Izuku smiled.
“Dump it in babe.” Izuku instructed.
Katsuki did his best to pour the macaroni in to the pot of water, only missing a few pieces. “Good job!”
The food was soon finished and Izuku cleaned the mess and carried both bowls into his dorm. It would probably be less of a mess if Izuku just fed him since whatever was wrong with Katsuki was still going on.
Katsuki reached for his bowl but instead a spoonful of food was held in-front of his lips. “Can eat on M’own..” Bakugo turned his head. “I know you can, but how about I just feed you this time so that there’s no mess okay?”
Katsuki sighed and opened his mouth. “Thank you Kacchan.” Izuku continued feeding him, after a while Katsuki finished his food so Izuku began eating his own food. Izuku looked up to see Katsuki still opening his mouth for more. “Are you still hungry?” Katsuki nodded.
“Okay, you can have some of mine.” Katsuki finished half of Izuku’s food before finally beginning to refuse it. Izuku finished the rest of it and took the dishes (and Bakugo) into the kitchen.
While Izuku did the dishes Katsuki busied himself by singing and tapping on the table, “You ‘ike my sthong?” Katsuki paused his drumming. “Of course, are you about ready to go back to your dorm?” Deku finished rinsing the last dish. “No! Can we go out’thide? I’m boredd.”
“/If/ we go, you will behave right?” “Mhm! I promise!!” He smiled, “Fine but you’re wearing a jacket.” Katsuki got out of his seat, already in a rush to be outside. “Don’t forget your binky on the table.” Izuku laughed as he watched Bakugo hurry back to the table and grab the pacifier.
“I got it!” “Come on slow poke!” Izuku teased. “Comingg!!” Katsuki caught up to Izuku and Izu took his hand. “Anything else you wanna grab while we’re here?” Izuku held the door open for Bakugo to walk in. “Nope!” Katsuki grabbed a black hoodie with teddy bear ears coming out of the top.
“Kacchan.. We’ve talked about this.” Izu sighed “No, you only said I couldn’t wear my one’thie.” Katsuki whined. “You aren’t listening, I thought you said you were going to behave.” Bakugo pouted “I am! But I wanna wear my Little ‘tuff.” “Kacchan these hoodies are all the same sizes.”
“Not like that!” He yelled becoming annoyed, Izuku just didn’t get it. He doesn’t want to feel big right now, he wants to feel small that’s the reason the clothes were bought in the first place. His little clothes make him feel safe, just as his pacifier does. “Then how? I’m trying my best to help you, but how can I when I don’t even know what’s wrong.” He held Bakugo’s hands in his own.
“Can’t you jus figure it out like you always do?” Katsuki’s head started to become clear whilst his eyes did the opposite. “I’m trying-“ “Try harder!“ the room fell into a stilling silence.