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“Ugh Topher can you PLEASE take this seriously! We have to make it seem like we were, actually friends” Dave said as Topher rolled his eyes in response.
”it’s not my fault your boyfriend killed himself now is it?” Topher said boldly, Dave never really had any strong opinions about Shawn but it was still an awful thing to hear.
”Topher! Don’t say that,,, Can we just, get this done please?”
“Whatever”
As soon as Tophers fingers when back to the key board Dave got lost in his thoughts, they mainly centred around Shawn. He felt like a big piece of shit for doing this to the dead boys family, but it couldn’t tell them NOW, after he spilled his guts out at the dinner table and gave them a false sense of closure.
”hey Dave? You there?” Topher said as he snapped his fingers in front of Dave’s face.
”oh uhm yeah! Yeah I’m here”
”what do you think about this so far?” Topher asked with a smirk as he pointed to the screen.
Dear Dave Jahan
we’ve’ been way to out of touch
things have been crazy! And it sucks that we don’t talk that much..
but I should tell you that I think of you each night~
I rub my nipples and start moaning with delight ;)
Dave’s Face grew hot while Topher quietly chuckled.
”Why would you write that?!”
”I’m just trying to tell the truth” Topher replied with small giggle chiming in between the sentence.
”this needs to be perfect! These emails need to prove that we were actually friends!”
”but you weren’t, the guy LITERALLY shoved you to the ground, TWICE”
”ugh! Just- I’ll do it!” Dave said as he slightly nudged Topher out of the way, he soon began to type.
I’ve gotta tell you life without you has been hard :/
”Hard?”
Has been bad.
”Bad?”
Has been rough!
”kinky” Topher joked, Dave didn’t find it funny at the time.
And I miss talking about life and
Other stuff
“Verrry specific-“
”shut up!” Dave cut Topher off with an agitated tone.
I like my parents
”Who says that?”
I love my parents
But each days another fight :(
“to be honest with ya’ Dave, I don’t think he really cared what he’s parents thought about him. I mean, he was an asshole to pretty much everything, ESPECIALLY sky,”
”you know? Your fake girlfriend that you fantasized about in your weird sex letter” Topher added
Dave grumbled “I told you already it wasn’t a sex letter! And it doesn’t matter, as long as it looks like me and him were friends”
Quietness fell between the two, but the sound of tapping keys interrupted it.
If I stop smoking drugs then everything might be alright
”smoking drugs?” Topher asked with a sarcastic yet somewhat confused tone.
Dave shoved the computer over to the blond next to him “Just fix it!”.
If I stop smoking crack
”CRACK!?”
If I stop smoking pot then everything might be alright.
I’ll take your advice, I’ll try to be more “nice”
I’ll turn it around! Wait and see!
’Cause all that it takes is a little reinvention, it’s EZ to change if you give it your attention!
All you gotta do is just believe you can be who you want to be.
Sincerely, Me.
“Are we done yet?” Topher said
“Well- I can’t just give them one email I gotta show them I was like a- good friend, you know?”
”oh my god” Topher slightly chuckled.
Dear Shawn Miller
Yes I also miss our talks!
Stop doing drugs, just try to take deep-breaths and,, go on walks
”No”
I’ll send you pictures of the cleanest things I see!
”huh?”
you’ll be obsessed with all my cleaning expertise!
”Oh absolutely not”
“He was the one of the most dirty people in our whole school” Topher said.
”it doesn’t matter! They just gotta believe I actually liked him” Dave responded back.
Dude I’m proud of you!
just keep pushing through, your turning around, I can See!
’Cause all that it takes is a little reinvention, it’s easy to change if you give it your attention
all you gotta do is just believe you can be who you wanna be.
Sincerely, Me
My sisters hot
“What the hell!” Dave shouted.
Topher Began to delete the weird sentence “My bad!”
Dear Dave Jahan
Thanks for every note you sent <3
Dear Shawn Miller
I’m just glad to be your friend <3
”Why did you put hearts?” Dave questioned.
”His parents already think you guys were lovers, why does it matter?”
”What?!”
Topher snickered “It’s true” Topher soon began to type again.
Our friendship goes BEYOND! Your average kind of bond ;)
”But not because you’re gay?”
”No! Not because we’re gay!”
”we’re supposed to be close, but not that way! The only man that I love is my dad!” Dave tried to defended himself.
”Your Dad is a piece of shit-“
”We’ll anyway!”
Your getting better everyday!
I’m getting better everyday!
Your getting better everyday!
keep getting better everyday :)
’Cause all that it takes is a little reinvention!
Its EZ to change if you give it your attention, all you gotta do is just believe you can be who you wanna be :)
Sincerely (Miss you dearly<3)
Sincerely, Me
”Are we done NOW?” Topher was beginning to get more impatient.
”ye-yeah we’re done now” Dave stuttered
”thankfully”
Dave stared at the screen with the fake Emails visible, he thought about what it would be like if Shawn didn’t end up killing himself, he honestly felt bad for him: even if he was dead, nobody should have to feel like that, except for Dave, because he was the biggest piece of shit in the whole world (or at least that’s what he thought about himself right now).
He felt a weird feeling in his stomach when he began to imagine what it would actually be like if he and Shawn were best friends, would he have a soft said for him? Or would he be treated no differently then the other people he can in contact with? Dave’s stomach felt like it was filled with butterflies.
weird..
he would have to ask his mom about it later, She works at a hospital after all.