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I've got 3 years until college
And I feel so far behind
I'm the third one in my friend group
to have someone in their life
and my hormones keep messing with my mind
I'm questioning all the things I like
And I keep accidentally freaking myself out and needing help in the middle of the night
I wake up kinda wired
And I wake up kinda cold
And I wake up kinda tired
But I'll just sleep in when I'm old
See I don't like breaking rules
But don't like doing as I'm told
So I just float around and keep my head down
And hope my life unfolds
And everybody's telling me that I'm doing so well
I try to trust them, honestly
I find it hard to tell
If I need work or I need rest
I try my best to try my best
I tell myself, I say out loud
It's fine, I'll figure it all out
I tend to forget
I'm still only quite young
In a way, this life of mine has only just begun
I've got time
I've got time
I've got two years until college
With a busy, busy life
That person that I mentioned
He's so handsome, he's so kind
My friends are busy planing
Say they have it figured out
'Cause I told them that I don't yet
and it freaking me out
I've got two days until college
And my bedroom is a mess
There's just so much that I have to do
That I have not done yet
There's just so much that I need to say
And far too much to hear
Oh, my mind it runs so far away
It's easy to forget
That to everybody else, it looks like I'm doing so well
I try to see it, honestly
I find it hard to tell
If I've done wrong or I've done right
I need a good night's sleep tonight
They said go out, I said alright
I think I won't, I maybe might
I probably should just take it slow
I'll be all good
But God I know
The one thing that's important above everything else
Is to learn not to put all this heavy pressure on myself
I try believe it when I say
"If it's meant to happen, it'll happen anyway"
I'll be fine
I've got time
I've got time
That's where I'm at
To be honest
Just two days
Two days into college