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"We have been sleeping together for 3 months. And don't get me wrong, it is amazing, like changing even but, I have a problem. I think I'm in love, no, I am in love with Regulus Black." James finally said the words that have been spinning in his head, taking over his mind for the past few weeks out loud. And all he got in response to one of his closest friends, Remus Lupin was, "Oh, your fucked." He laughed and went on rolling a joint between his fingers.
"I know." Is all James can muster, in his head again about everything. What was he going to do? If he told Regulus, he would never even look in his direction again, let alone fuck him. And he definitely didn't want to lose the sex.
(That was a lie, he's an all or nothing guy when he's in love. He just can't admit it yet.)
"You gonna tell Sirius? He'll kill you, he'll be happy for you, but it might take a bit, you fucking his brother and all, younger brother." Remus said, looking his way again from the window sill, joint in hand.
"Oh fuck, Moony, you gotta help me." James groans and rubs his eyes in frustration.
"Nope, I'll keep your secret but you're on your own. I'm not getting Sirius upset with me." Moony was no help in this dilemma James has, but James hoped for something considering he's friends with Regulus.
James flopped down on his bed and stared at the ceiling, he's supposed to meet reg later in the room of requirement. Then three days from now in the Slytherin dorms because 'Barty and Evan will be out'. He's afraid he'll do something stupid and get found out.
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Once Sirius and Peter got back from whatever they were up to everyone got ready for dinner. Remus and Sirius stayed behind to 'Talk', yeah right. When James and Peter enter the great hall James eyes automatically roam around for Regulus.
When he finds him he's already staring right back, Regulus smirks that stupid smirk that drives James mad and goes back to whatever conversation Barty and Evan were having. It seems pretty heated but James tears his eyes away when Sirius and Remus finally catch up as to not get caught staring.
James mumbles and nods his way through dinner. Trying to figure his feelings out and think about the meet up later. What excuse he's going to give Sirius as to why he's not going to the dorm too. He lands on extra homework for Miss Pompfrey.
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Dinners finally over, Peter and Remus already head out for their almost nightly wizards chess match. So it's just Sirius and James. They talk like they're brothers and act like it too. Might as well be. Practically wrestling their way from the great hall they made it up two flights of stairs before James remembered his meet up with Sirius's blood brother.
"Hey, I just remembered I have some extra homework to do for Miss Pompfrey, I'll catch you later?" He says slyly, pulling away from Sirius and backing away a few feet.
"Okay Prongs, see you later." Sirius says. He knows James is lying but doesn't want to believe it and lets it go.
James heads back down the stairs and then up another set, as to stay out of Sirius's path. He makes it to the room of requirement in record time but alas, Regulus is always first.
James slides through the door to see Regulus, back facing him, looking at the nic nacs on the mantle of the fireplace. "You're late." Regulus says, turning around. He moves like liquid. His outline from the light silver. He's a star, James thought.
James shakes off the thoughts of romantic nature, "I'm not late, you're just the most punctual person in the world."
"Touche," is all Regulus says before he has his way with James.
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James is laying in the bed that was there for them, Regulus standing to get dressed after collecting himself. James didn't know what came over him but he couldn't just have this, he needs all or nothing and if he didn't do it now he never would. "I'm in love with you," is all he says, Regulus freezes.
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Regulus Black didn't want to fall in love with James Potter. He thought he was an obnoxious prat. It's not like he isn't but there's other sides to him too. He was gentle, after sex they could just lay there and he'd pull his hair back for him or tuck it behind his ear. He cared. So much. He always asked if he was alright, even in the middle of it all he would. If something seemed off. If Regulus even breathed differently he'd stop and ask if he was okay.
He would watch him interact with his brother and friends. He looked fun. He was. Regulus Black was in love with James Potter, he just wasn't ready to admit it yet.