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It has been two years since End died. It was hard for me to accept and move on and even now, I still think of him constantly.
How could I move on that easily? End is very special to me and I held him dearly in my heart. He was the only one who have cared for me that way.
The only person I have ever cared and loved was End.
How could I ever think of forgetting him when the moment I met him, I have dreamt of being with him forever. I've been with him since the day we met and our whole meeting felt like we were fated to be together.
I knew that End was never the type to get attached anything or anyone, and yet, he did to me.
Even though he loves to pretend that he doesn't, I knew deep in his heart that he cares for me a lot.
He also promised me in the past that he would destroy things with me forever and I believed that.
He told me that just being with me was already his source of happiness, until that damn fairy appeared and ruined everything.
It was his fault why everything has become like this.
If only he didn't appear, End won't do anything like that.
After End died, I poured stress and sorrowness to alcohol.
Sometimes, I wondered that if I ever stop drinking, will End come back for me? But in the end, no matter how much i wished for him to come back...
End will never return.
Nobody can resurrect the dead.
So all I could do is pour my anger by killing and bringing destructions to the labs with Elec.
Today we went to another lab deep in the forest and was able to finish the job by dawn. Arriving at the town, the usual street was full of people, it was busy and lively.
This was the same place that me and End used to visit from time to time. Like those times he got arrested after he got cursed by the witch by trying to kill people.
And of course the multiple dates we had here.
Before Elec came around. Me and End would walk around this street, buying our favorite ice cream flavors, playing and Fooling around like the world was ours.
I had always wished that End would stay like this with me forever.
But now...
He's no longer with me...
The street was very lively but it feels lonely without End...
"What do you want to eat for dinner?"
Elec asked with an exhausted look on his face. I guess he got tired from earlier.
"I want to eat fried chicken."
I suggested really caring of what I wanted to eat. After thinking about End too much, I don't really have the appetite to wat anything.
I felt tired... I just stared at the child who we're holding her parents hands.
Looking at them made me feel nostalgic. I also used to hold his hands that way.
I decided to looked around one last time trying to brush off the heavy feeling in my heart but something caught my eyes.
"But didn't we eat chicken yesterday? Eh....Save!"
Leaving Elec behind, I ran towards that person who look exactly like end.
Am I hallucinating...? I think I actually saw him.
While I was running, I can feel the tears falling in my cheeks.
Is it because Ive been thinking about End a lot? really if it was End-nim... I...
I hoped that once to see you again... he turns his back, ill be able to see you once again.
I reached out my hands to that person back but the moment my hands touched that his hands, he turned around and it was someone else.
As I thought it wasn't him.
This person figure, face, voice and back were all unfamiliar. It was completely different from him.
It's not End.
I just stood there silently looking at the man in front of me.
Thats right, I know that it all an illusion that my mind created because I've been thinking about him.
"save! why did you ran off suddeny?! whats with you?"
"It nothing"
"Are you sure?" Elec looked at me with worry.
"I said im fine"
But even if I know that it was all an illuston, I continue to chase the back of the person that will never come back.
"... Do you want to drink after dinner?"
"sure"
Today Im going to get wasted.
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End o.<—★
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