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I dropped Mehark on my bed, collapsing by my bedside, I clenched my face and took a deep sigh. Lifting my head from its enclosed grasp, I looked towards my door.
“Why do some clients have to be so difficult..?” I muttered under my breath to myself. Its been one heck of a day man, I could really use a drink..
I pulled myself up from the floor after sulking for so long and headed into the kitchen. Looking around, I don't think my roommate is home yet. Ah, my roommate, Alhaitham, that guy is something i tell you! I think if I ran into him today I'd just about lose it..
I opened up our cabinet of wine and grabbed a couple bottles. I'd really be needing this after such a day. Grabbing a glass and heading back to my room, I realised just how late it was getting. I sat down next to Mehark who gave me a look of concern.
“What..? it's not even that much..” I chuckled while turning him off. I needed all the silence I could get. Looking at both cup and bottle I decided to just wing it from the bottle. It's not like I wasn't going to be the one to finish it anyways. Cup aside, I opened the bottle and drank away.
“Ka- kav- Kaveh-? Kaveh hello??” I felt a strain of nausea hit me, ‘who is that..? Can they please shut up?’ I opened my eyes, everything was at blur. I remember getting midway to my third bottle of wine when a wave of blank hit me. That's it.The blur soon became fixated that I could see clumps of colour, enough for me to see who was yapping so loud. oh great it's him. I sat up straight- well, I tried to sit up straight. I ended up tumbling back down before Alhaitham caught me, holding me close to himself but not so close that I was completely touching him, just the necessity.
“ Kaveh? Can you hear me?” Gaze turned to Alhaitham, he let out a sigh. A sigh of relief? Disappointment? I didn't know, I didn't care.
I opened my mouth to speak, the vibrations of my vocal box didn't seem to correspond. I stared at Alhaitham, he just sat there, a hold of me staring back. It made me shiver. Instead of voice vibration, I felt something else, something I didn't want to appear in front of him. I felt weak. I couldn't hold back anymore. My head moved away, out of his eye view. I didn't want him out of all people to see me like this.. Drunk, crying, a complete mess. He sighed again except this time, It was different?
I felt a warmth along the backside of my head, the side facing Alhaitham.
Alhaitham had pulled me into a embrace, a gentle embrace. He didn't say anything nor moved a muscle afterwards. My head moved to face him, our eyes locking with one another. He knew, he's always known. I bit my lip, Alhaithams always been the only one to know.
After my fathers death, I had to take over and look after my mother. She left for Fontaine to get remarried when I was still in the akademiya. The most stressful period of my life, the period when I needed someone. I met Alhaitham in my last year, being his senior I wanted to be responsible and show him just how cool I was. That backfired when we got in such a silly argument over some dumb project. We didn't talk after that. Later on, I had made the mistake of getting drunk and almost falling asleep outside some bar. Thats where Alhaitham found me, where I believe he figured out why we had such an uproar about that silly project. He saw my struggle and offered me a room at his house. I was very grateful to have met him. We still had unsaid things, and still do but we were working through it. Until I fell into depth. It's like the world didn't want me to have a moment of peace. I'm still trying my best to pay off my depth. It's really tiring and not something someone like me can accomplish easily. He understands that Alhaitham knows I'm trying my best and he's been prepared for the moment I break. My moment of weakness and need for another's comfort. Since that moment he found me, hes known.
“Kaveh,” he spoke up. I just continued to look deep into his eyes. Eyes that did not show pity nor grossment.
“Kaveh, I'm here, It's okay now,” before Alhaitham was able to finish, I sat up and hugged him. The same way lost a child would hug his mother after finding her after hours of crying. All I needed was to let my incompetence go. It's been Alhaitahm, him who's gotten me through my toughest eras (so on), him who's been the supporter in the shadows, him who's my missing piece. There it was, the long needed moment of vulnerability and comfort.
I can finally rest in peace, knowing Alhaithams by my side.