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Why couldn't Kazuha do more?
Why was he so slow?
Why couldn't he save his friend?
Kazuha clenched the vision in his hands, sitting on his futon while the sounds of the Kamisato estate prepared to sleep.
But Kazuha couldn't hear it, for his thoughts were too big for this room to hold. Ayato ran into him while Kazuha was wandering around Narukami island, his hand bleeding from the burns he acquired from Tomo's dying vision. And Ayato forced his boyfriend to come back to the Kamisato estate, ignoring Kazuha's cries to be left alone.
Now Kazuha's wrists are covered in bandages from his self-hatred, and Ayato accompanies him everywhere after witnessing Kazuha trying to give up.
His thoughts were interrupted by a kiss on his head.
"i love you." Ayato's deep voice rang through Kauha's ears. Breaking the silence.
Kazuha looked up, seeing Ayato lay down.
"I- I love you too." Kazuha squeaked out.
Ayato tilted his head.
"Thinking of Tomo?" Ayato asked.
Kazuha paused, his adam apple bobbed while he gulped. Trying to come up with a lie.
"No. His cat- um." Kazuha paused.
The tension was so thick you could cut it with Kazuha's blade.
"His cat is staying at his grave no matter what. It clawed me when I tried to pick it up." Kauha let out an awkward laugh, and Ayato sat. An amused grin covering his lips.
"Really?" Ayato chuckled. And Kazuha nodded.
"You're an awful liar ダーリン." Ayato pulled Kazuha off of his futon, pulling Kazuha to lay on his chest.
"Yeah.. I know. I just don't want you to worry about me more than you already are." Kazuha frowned, and Ayato went quiet, thinking for a few minutes; the sound of rain pounding against the roof filling the room.
"You worry me, yes. But I love you too much to allow you to hurt." Ayato's hand brushed against Kazuha's lips.
Kazuha leaned into Ayato's touch, moving his uninjured hand to grip Ayato's and kissing it.
"But you already worry about Ayaka, and Thoma- and- and you have the Yashiro commission to worry about-"
"And I can worry about you too." Ayato cut Kauha off, kissing Kazuha.
Kazuha kissed him back, but when the kiss broke up. Kazuha looked into those violet eyes.
"Ayato.." He whispered. And Ayato looked back up, humming in response.
"I should've saved him. I should've known he would've pulled a stunt like that."
Ayato felt Kazuha's tears start to fall on his cheeks.
"you didn't know. it wasn't your fault Kazuha." Ayato whispered, and Kazuha took a shaky breath. And opened his mouth to retort. but he couldn't think of anything.
"Okay." was all that Kazuha could choke out.
"I love you." Ayato hugged Kazuha close.
"I love you too Ayato."