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After tossing and turning in bed for what felt like an eternity because I couldn't fall asleep after all the events of the day, I eventually felt tired. But it wasn't like the nights before, because for the first time I felt better and safer because I could finally see Richard again. I hadn't lost him and he even made me a promise that we would have to meet at least once more in our lives because I had his sapphire and he had mine.
After the excitement subsided, my body relaxed. I felt the worries of the day ease away from me and they were replaced by a strange mixture of relief and peace. It was as if Richard's presence had a calming effect on me, even when he wasn't physically present.
Despite everything, I had an all too familiar dream. I was lying in bed and Richard was standing next to me. His face shimmered in the soft light, his blue eyes sparkling like the morning dew on the leaves in the morning. His blond hair fell gently in his face and the smile that played around his lips was so radiant that it made my heart beat faster. Normally, he would start talking and I wouldn't understand anything he was saying. But today was different. I saw his beautiful face and his lips formed into a lovely smile:
“Seigi, I want you to know how important you are to me. You've given me so much, more than just the pudding you always make for me.”
As always, I couldn't move or answer him, but this time I didn't feel uncomfortable like I usually did. Hearing his gentle voice warmed my chest. His words were like gentle waves washing over my soul, washing away every fear and doubt. Every sentence he whispered sparkled like a gemstone in my heart. He kept talking and I was forced to listen to him without argument.
“Seigi, promise me that you will always take good care of yourself and never forget how much you are loved. Our bond is strong and will never end. You are a part of me and I want you to always carry that in your heart. No matter where you are or what you do, I will always be by your side.”
He came closer and closer to me. My heart beat a little faster with every inch. I waited every second for him to pull back just before contact, as he usually did. But he didn't and he came closer to me than ever before.
I didn't know where to look - into his loving blue eyes or at his lips, which formed a beautiful curve. I panicked a little and my back got hot until a wave of satisfaction and bliss spread from my face.
He really did it, he kissed me. I felt his warm and soft lips on mine and I could even move my body again. Even though I'd never kissed anyone before, my lips knew what to do and I moved them gently against Richard's. My hand ran through his golden hair and the feeling of happiness slowly became a heat like I had never felt before. What was that?
“I will always be with you, Seigi, no matter where life takes you. Even when we are apart, I am always in your heart. Never forget that you are loved more than you can ever imagine.”
As he said this, that dream world collapsed and I woke up in the middle of the night alone in Richard's bed in London. My chest still felt warm and tingly and I felt myself turning red as I remembered what I'd just dreamt about.
For the first time, I didn't feel terrible after sleeping, yet my feelings were too strong to just fall back asleep. What did that mean? Why was I now dreaming about Richard really kissing me? And why did it feel so good? What was this heat inside me?
I couldn't stop thinking about the dream. Every detail was so vivid that I had difficulty distinguishing between dream and reality. Why did this kiss feel so real? And why was I so overwhelmed by these feelings? I have so many questions that I could never answer on my own.
I had to get up and go into the bathroom to splash cold water on my face. It helped somewhat to cool down my feelings. At least this heat has lessened.
When I went back to bed, I took a quick look at my cell phone, only to see that Richard had sent me a message with a picture. It was a picture of the starry sky with the message:
“No matter how dark the night, there is always light to guide us. I hope you sleep well, Seigi.”
I wondered if he couldn't sleep either.