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“Do Not Enter is written on the doorway.
Why can’t everyone just go away?
Except you..
You can stay.”
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It was Christmas Eve, 20XX.

It was a thunderstormy night, as rain poured and thunder rumbled. Noah had company soon coming over, his old friends Owen, Eva, and Izzy would be arriving soon for a Christmas feast. He was watching classic cartoons on his cable TV while laying on the couch, like Looney Toons or the old Mickey Mouse cartoons. The TV filled the apartment with noises and comedy laughter. He was about to fall asleep soon enough..

“Daddy..?”

Noah shot awake at the sound of a little girl calling his name. He opened his eyes to see his little ravenette daughter looking at him, holding her unicorn plush she calls “Theodore.”

“What’s wrong, Mary Kate..? It’s very late for you to be up, dear.” Noah asked, as his eyes started to unblur from being awakened by his young daughter.

“I had a nightmare..the thunder is very scary..” MK whispered, her lips quivering as tears brimmed the bottom of her eyes. Noah saw how afraid she looked. It reminded him of himself when he was her age…except his dad never cared about him. But Noah wasn’t like that. He would never be like that.

“Come here, darling. Daddy’s here.”

MK climbed on the couch with her dad, as she cuddled up to him, resting her head on his chest. Noah held her close, brushing his fingers through her soft, yet messy hair. It seemed as if there was no problems they had to think about.

“Daddy..?”

“Yes, Mary Kate?” Noah replied to his daughter.

“W-When will i see mommy again..?”

That question struck a chord in Noah’s heart. Him and Emma haven’t spoke to each other since the day MK turned 2..she was 4 now. They didn’t break up or anything, Emma lives with Kitty.

“Well, sweetie..mommy is busy doing work..but she’ll visit us soon enough, okay..?” Noah finally responded after a few seconds. MK felt a wave of relief wash over her. She buries her face into her father’s chest, as her eyes start to close. However, she has one more thing for her father.

“D-Daddy..?” The little girl asked.

“Yes, Mary Kate?” He replied.

“I love you..”

Those 3 words made Noah the happiest you could ever imagine. He gently takes off MK’s beanie and places it to the side as she slept. Noah holds her closer, continuing to caress the child’s hair and behind her ears. Noah started to slowly doze off, but he had one more thing.

“I love you too, honey..”

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Noah is dressing in his room, he puts on a black jacket with a t-shirt and his normal shorts and shoes. His friends were arriving in about 1 hour, he had to get ready! He sighed and scratched his chin. What to do…what to do…He couldn’t put his mind on it, his mind has been blurry lately.

Oh yeah, he had to change MK.

Noah turned to his sleeping daughter, still on the couch. He gently shook her shoulder.

“Mary Kate..wake up…”

No response.

“Mary Kate, come on, honey..you’re gonna miss the party..”

MK slowly opened her eyes and sat up, rocking her body slightly. She had a bad case of stimming, but if she didn’t, she would be very uncomfortable and stressed.

“Good morning..daddy..” MK said, as she stirred awake as her voice slurred. Noah chuckles and picks her up. “It’s still nighttime, honey. Everybody is coming over, do you need help dressing up?”

MK hesitated, she felt..’overstimulated’ whenever somebody tried to touch her. But come on, this was her father. She didn’t mind giving him hugs or kisses, she definitely felt comfortable around him. I mean, he’s always there for her..isn’t he..?

“Okay, daddy..” MK said, letting out a small yawn. Noah smiles and ruffles her hair. He carries her to her bedroom, which was decorated in a few shades of blue and black. Not the best choice for a preschool kid, but Noah didn’t care. It was HIS kid!

Noah dressed MK in a red button-up t-shirt, fit with baggy gray cargo pants and her signature beanie.

“Don’t you think that beanie is too big for your little head?” “No daddy, the beanie is..fine on my head..”

Noah chuckled and smiled at her, but she didn’t smile back. Noah just thought this was a phase that she’ll grow out of soon enough, she was a child anyway..

Noah picked her up, and patted her head. “Do you want some chocolate, Mary Kate?” MK’s eyes widened, and she hugged him. “Yes please..!”

Noah nodded and went to the pantry. It was full of breakfast things, noodles, basically anything pantry-worthy. Noah dig into a box he calls “The Special Box” and took out a Hershey’s bar about the size of his hand. He then gave it to MK, and she immediately started digging in. That would keep her satisfied for now, but he had to get everything ready. He turned on the TV and put “Theodore” next to her to keep MK occupied, while he got to work..

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Ding-dong.

Noah walked downstairs and opened the front door. There standing were his best friends Owen, Eva, and Izzy. Izzy immediately tackled Noah.”HIII NOAH!!”

Noah sighed and chuckled. “Hey Izzy.” “Don’t forget about me, I missed you so much little buddy!!” The chubby blonde guy said, as he gave Noah a tight squeeze, it felt like Noah couldn’t breathe. After what seemed like an eternity, Owen finally put Noah down. Eva spoke up.

“So uh..where’s the kid? Owen’s been DYING to see her.” The tough girl asked, her hands on her hips. Owen chuckles bashfully. Noah scratched his chin, and looks to the right. “She’s just upstairs..in the living room.”

The 4 walk upstairs, to where MK was still watching TV and eating her chocolate bar. Noah chuckled. “Well guys, this is my daughter, Mary Kate..but i like to call her MK.”

MK’s head went up as she sees the crowd in front of her. She clutched “Theodore” tightly, hiding behind it. Owen approached her, crouching down.

“Hi little girl, i’m your Uncle Owen! Ooh! Is that a chocolate bar?? Can i have a-“ Eva smacked his hand before he could finish the sentence as he winced and rubbed it. “Let the girl have her candy, man.”

Noah sat next to MK, putting his hand on her shoulder. “Mary Kate, they are your aunts and uncle. That’s Aunt Eva, Aunt Izzy, and Uncle Owen. Go ahead, don’t be shy.”

MK slowly stood up, rubbing her fingers against the soft fabric of her plush. She looked at the other 3 and waved, then quickly went to her dad and went behind him. The older ones chuckle.

“Why’s she scared of us? You know what they say..Explosivo is crazy for BOOM BOOM!” Izzy smiled widely. Noah rolled his eyes. “Izzy, don’t scare the kid. You’re already crazy enough.”

Moments pass and they are all laughing and talking to each other. Noah was discussing how you shouldn’t put milk before the cereal, Izzy disagrees, Owen is looking for food in the fridge [he didn’t ask first, how rude!], Eva was quietly observing Noah, and MK was sitting on her dad’s lap. After a while, Eva spoke up.

“Hey string bean. Could i speak to you..in private?” Noah looked up, and nodded. “Uh alright..” He gently gives MK to Owen, and then Eva and Noah go downstairs.

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Noah sits down on the couch while Eva sits to him. Eva sighs, and scratches her head. Noah looked at her in confusion, he had never seen Eva look so…empathetic?

“How do i say this..um..”

Eva sighs, and turns towards Noah. “Listen man, i think MK might be autistic.”

Noah is taken back and furrowed his brows.

“What makes you think that? My daughter isn’t autistic!”

Eva shakes her head.

“Dude..i can see the signs. She doesn’t smile at all, she never looks at anybody, she always does tics with her fingers, and she barely talks. I don’t know how you see it, but trust me. When i was taking my anger management classes, i saw other kids with that condition, and i decided to research about it. Isn’t MK like..your first child after many of those miscar-“

“OK! I’ve heard enough, shut up.” Noah didn’t want to hear all of the detail, it was too sensitive for him to hear. He sighed, and thought about this for a moment, connecting the pieces together. His only daughter being autistic, and he didn’t realize it soon enough? He felt like a terrible parent.

“I’m sorry dude, but it’s the truth..i think you might wanna look it up.” Eva puts a comforting arm around his shoulder, before going back upstairs to hang with the gang. Noah still sat there, he was in a state of epiphany.

He would remember those words for the rest of his life.

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heyo. sorry for the long wait. busy with alot of things + making a large ao3 fic, but it’s coming soon. stay tuned.

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DIARY LOG #1:

hi, i’m mk my mom brought me this diaree so i’m gonna talk here

i am 13 years old and i have autism

i can’t rite good

my best girl friend is julia and my best boy friend is damien (i like both of them but don’t tell them)

my mom is coming to get me for school so i’ll talk later bye

DIARY LOG #2:

hi it’s me again

today my friend ripper bought a fart gun to school it was so annoying >:(

my friend chase was being annoying too so i hit his head hehe

me and julia went to the store and got snacks i got hot cheetos and sprite and she got gummy worms and cola

momma is still busy with work but she said she’d visit me soon

DIARY LOG #3:

it’s my birfday!!!!

everybody came and i’m so happy!!

daddy took me and my frens to an amusement park

we all had much funs (except for axel she was being a downer :()

DIARY LOG #4:

i feeling very sad :(

i have kletopmania and i stole something in store

daddy is very mad at me

i’m scared

i’m so scared

DIARY LOG #5:

[page is ripped]

DIARY LOG #6:

hello again

i love dexter’s labrorhsdtory

can’t spell it

DIARY LOG #7:

daddy and momma are on a business trip

i am staying with ripper and his mom

she’s kind of mean and really likes the sports channel

i don’t remember her name

DIARY LOG #8:

aunt eva came over to my house

she kinda scaRes me

don’t tell her i said that

:(

DIARY LOG #9:

[page ripped out]

DIARY LOG #10:

when i feel overstmsulated

i listen to 8D music

and play with theodOre

i’m missing pages in my diaree but that’s ok

DIARY LOG #11:

momma and aunt kitty went shopping with me

momma said i had a panic attack

it was so loud

i was pulling my hair

it was scary

DIARY LOG #12:

summer break is here

me and julia are having a sleepover

her mom used to host celebritiityrty manhunt

she’s kinda mean

she has a friend named bowie

he’s very cool

DIARY LOG #13:

my last diaree words

daddy and momma haven’t talk in week

i’m scared

also i saw a cool show on tv

called total drama

maybe i’ll be on it one day

i hope

THE END.