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Sniffles and the rustle of sheets was what woke Jaemin up from his sleep. His eyes are heavy from exhaustion as he tries to focus on what is going on.
“Darling.” Jaemin called softly, voice thick with sleepiness
"My Darling, are you crying?" Jaemin asked his husband whose back is facing him
No response.
“Oh no.. I must’ve woken up Jaemin…” Renjun thought to himself anxiously as he grips his pillow and as he wipes his face of his tears, failing to conceal his small gasps.
"Doll, why are you crying?" Jaemin asked gravelly again
Stillness.
Renjun still won’t answer.
Only the sound of the rustling sheets and the soft sound of the fan whirring above them are heard as Jaemin tries to reach out to Renjun.
Finally he spoke,
"O-oh, it's silly. Please just ignore me Jaem, go back to sleep." The older finally replies after a few torturous seconds with a huff. Jaemin grows worried.
"My Love, please tell me what's bothering you." Jaemin pleads wide eyed at his beloved.
A few moments passed and with a heavy breath, finally, Renjun turned to face his husband.
With the moonlight's aid, casting its soft glow, he finally set his eyes on his Jaemin whose eyebrows are scrunched with worry and lips in a slight pout. Renjun almost whimpers.
"Darling, oh my god, where do I even begin. Darling... Jaemin, Darling. My Darling, mine." Renjun sobs louder, as the younger one moves closer and cups his face, thumbs rubbing his cheek to calm him down.
"My Darling, Angel, what's wrong?" Jaemin asks, voice laced with worry and affection. Struggling, Renjun stares at the sky beyond the window for a moment, trying his best to catch a breath between hiccups.
"Sometimes I.. I just can't believe that you're mine,” he takes a moment, “and I am yours." He adds. "Darling, this is more than I deserve." Renjun says softly, almost as a whisper as he grips the sheets underneath him.
Jaemin immediately took his husband's hands and started placing soft kisses behind his palms.
"This." Renjun expressed.
"Youㅡoh god, you're just too good to be true Jaemin," he almost let out a wail "You're so good to me Nana, so much that it feels like you're sometimes unreal to me."
Jaemin immediately sat up, gently guiding Renjun onto his lap. Wrapping his arms on his husband's waist, he replies.
"No." Jaemin kisses his forehead,
"You." next his eyelids,
"Deserve." then left cheek,
"Everything." Right cheek,
"You." Nose,
"Have." Lips.
Finally capturing Renjun's lips with his. Renjun melts into the kiss, and arms immediately wrapping around Jaemins shoulders. The younger's lips don't linger long; Jaemin leans back to look at his lover, worried he might cry again.
But the Renjun pulls forward and leans to chase Jaemin's lips. So the younger captures his lips once again, making the hair on Renjun's nape stand up.
Jaemin kisses him sweetly, assuring Renjun of his presence and anchoring him to reality. Jaemin’s palms dance gracefully on Renjun’s torso, Renjun’s fingers locked on Jaemin’s soft hair. This moment grounds Renjun as he then buries his head on Jaemin's chest.
"You have me, always and forever. I am real, my Darling, and I love you.” Jaemin whispers
Tears started to stream down on Renjun’s delicate face and Jaemin wiped them all off with his thumbs. Renjun finally managed a little smile and Jaemin mirrored.
This is enough for Jaemin, to be with his lover, being able to hold him, and being given the luxury to love him.
For Renjun, it is still so unbelievable, being able to be loved by Jaemin. Renjun is bewitched by him, for he loves so wonderfully. And at any given moment if Jaemin were to ask him for anything, even if it is his soul the younger one seeks, he would gladly provide. Without hesitation, he would give up everything to his lover.
Jaemin held him for a while before pulling them both down to lie together. He pulls the blanket over them and holds his husband closer, as if they're not already skin to skin, impossibly close, almost fusing into one.
Renjun smiles widely, as he wastes no time to bask in Jaemin's embrace, Renjun reciprocates the hug, holding Jaemin a bit tighter.
Before they both drift to sleep, Renjun and Jaemin share one last kiss.
Renjun thinks to himself,
“This is real, I love him and I am loved by him. My Darling Jaemin, Mine.”