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Nothing has ever lasted for Sungchan.
When he was 14, he had a pet fish — which he had caught the first time he went fishing. It was beautiful and he thought it was not meant to be eaten at all.
He raised the little fish only to find out his father had it cooked for dinner without him knowing (He consumed it; it tasted too good he felt guilty for it he cried in his bedroom for days. His father had to practically get a fish similar to it but in the end Sungchan just got tired and had it cooked again.)
On his 16th birthday, a girl had confessed to him, saying she'd been eyeing him since the first day he stepped foot into the classroom.
At that time, Sungchan was not sure of his sexual orientation yet, so he just dated her, but it all ended so quickly because she said he was “not even interested” and was “too busy putting his nose in his books”
He couldn't even refute that, because he knows it's all true. He wasn't so sad over it like the way he was miserable over his pet fish, though.
All along his high school year Sungchan had minded his own business, keeping his circle small with only Shotaro and his so-called “mysterious” boyfriend.
Until a new student came along, and Sungchan’s life wasn't that miserable and boring as it was before.
Song Eunseok stood out too much for him to miss. Or maybe it was the breeze that came from the open window which had urged him to look up and pay attention to the teacher introducing him to the class.
Normally Sungchan would just go back to his books, but Eunseok had already been looking at him the moment he looked at Eunseok, and Eunseok smiled. A smile so warm, so heart-warming that Sungchan’s heart started beating at an abnormal rate.
It wasn't helping that the seat he had picked was right beside Sungchan. Sungchan felt like he would die right there due to a heart attack.
Eunseok just smiles, and Sungchan wonders if he's just a smiley little guy. Of course, Eunseok is not little, but to Sungchan who's insanely tall and huge, Eunseok’s like a little bean. A smiley little bean.
“Hi,” still smiling, “I'm Eunseok. Just in case you didn’t hear the whole introduction earlier.”
Sungchan smiled back. A real, genuine smile he hasn’t been able to flaunt to anyone other than his two close friends and family.
“I'm Sungchan.”
After Eunseok came into Sungchan’s life, his world became instantly brighter. It was as if Eunseok was the rainbow that came after the rain, or like the taste of soda, leaving you all refreshed. Eunseok was Sungchan’s happy pill, but Sungchan never knew if he was Eunseok’s. They never got to terms about their feelings despite having done a lot together. All Sungchan knew was they were happy, young, and free.
But of course nothing has ever lasted for Sungchan — Eunseok included.
So life goes on, at least for everyone else. Sungchan on the other hand, was still stuck in the past, wondering what he did wrong, why Eunseok walked away from his life without a word after that one night. It's been 4 years, but he still asks those questions despite knowing he’ll never get an answer.
✧
10 september 2023, 2:48pm
taro hyung 👎
sungchan wake the fuck up
sungchan hello
i'm in front of your dorm open up
? what the fuck
i literally jusy woke up
i can tell. open up Now stop being depressed
im not?
Sungchan’s phone almost drops from his hands when he hears loud banging on his front door.
“Jesus, please let me atleast put on some clothes first!” he yells from his room, hoping Shotaro would tone down the banging.
Sungchan throws on a t-shirt he found in the corner of his room with a cat shooting lasers from its eyes printed on it. Laundry day is in two days so he's been going to sleep shirtless despite the cold; the old ass heater not doing any justice to warm him up so he just wraps himself up with his blankets.
Sungchan goes out of his room and realised Seunghan had prepared breakfast for him, with a note that says ‘I'm out to class and to see Sohee again, hyung! Eat well, don't stay in the room for too long, don't forget your classes and again, Move on. love you hyungie’ with doodles of cats and hearts.
Seunghan does this everyday since he found out about Sungchan’s situation from Sohee, who knew from Wonbin.
Sungchan lets out a sigh, and stuffs a sandwich into his mouth before he opens up the door for an angry hyung.
“Sungchan!” Shotaro invites himself inside, and makes himself comfortable on the sofa.
Sungchan scratches his head, munching on the sandwich and closing the door behind him. “What's going on?” Sungchan asks with a yawn. It's obvious to Shotaro that Sungchan had a hard time sleeping again, obviously having to watch his own playlist featuring videos of animals doing silly things. That's the only way Sungchan can sleep without thinking of #Him.
“Don't you remember what we're supposed to be doing today?” Sungchan shakes his head, and Shotaro sighs, thinking about how he should've brought Wonbin along to keep himself calm.
“Moving on party. tonight.” Sungchan could only stand there and chew on his sandwich. He's already told them a hundred times he does not need a move on party. If 4 years time couldn't make him move on, what makes them think this party could?
“No, hyung, I clearly said I didn’t want that. You know it too.” Sungchan’s firm about his decision, he really did not want his mood ruined, especially when today marks the 4th year. And Shotaro has been annually doing these parties since the 2nd year, despite knowing why Sungchan acts the way he does.
Four whole years of Eunseok leaving his life. Yet Sungchan still can’t get over it.
“Don’t you have class in 20 minutes? Go get changed and we’ll leave together. I’ll see you at the club at 7pm, you hear me?” Sungchan sighs and nods, he knows he can’t really win a fight against Shotaro, so he just leaves the living room and prepares to get to class.
✧
It’s 6pm, and Sungchan’s wishing that 7pm never comes. He just really doesn’t want a whole party centered for him.
Or maybe he just doesn’t want to move on. He doesn’t know why Eunseok’s grip is so tight on him, he can’t seem to let go no matter how much he tries. Maybe fate’s playing tug of war with him, and if he loses he dies.
He doesn't even know why, despite hating Eunseok for leaving him, the lingering feeling of love is still there, and stronger than the hate he tries to hold.
And so he’s crying again, in the bathroom of the club he’s supposed to be partying in, celebrating “moving on”. That’s complete bullshit, Sungchan thinks, wiping his tears that were still flowing.
“Sungchan hyung? Hyung? Are you in here??” Sungchan woke up from his daze due to the familiar voice and knocking on the stall he was in.
“Yeah. I’m in here.” Sungchan replies weakly, probably an effect from crying too much.
He misses Eunseok too much. His heart is hurting too much. Everything is too much.
“Sohee-ah, can you get me out of here? I don’t want to be here, i want to go home” He can feel his tears trying to escape again. He’s always crying a lot when it’s September.
“Hyung, please unlock the stall door. I’m worried about you, we all are.” Sungchan lets out a breath of relief when he opens the stall door to see only Sohee and Seunghan waiting outside. He doesn’t think he can handle it if the entirety of his friends were here, seeing him in this state even though they’ve seen it a million times and sometimes even in his worst state.
“Let’s go home hyung. I told Taro hyung about this and he understands, don’t worry." Of course he’d understand, he saw it all go down.
✧
10 september 2019, 7.36pm
seokie 🫘🪨
where are you?
i’m with seri noona
come here and lend a handdd
we’re at the kitchen area
?
you were alone with Seri noona??
yea
i saw she was preparing for dinner alone so i’m helping out
wasn’t it chanyoung who was supposed to help her out?
yea but taro hyung asked him to help wonbin set up the bonfire
apparently the wood they collected weren’t enough
i’m coming now
okay!
Sungchan was in the midst of washing veggies when Eunseok arrived, all sweaty.
“Did you run here?” Sungchan asked, offering Eunseok a dry handkerchief which Eunseok then leaned his head towards Sungchan, and Sungchan chuckled as he wiped the sweat off the guy’s forehead.
“Yes? No? I don’t know. Where’s Seri noona?” Sungchan looks around and gives Eunseok an ‘I don't know’ face.
“She left you doing this alone??” Eunseok’s tone was worrying, as if he was mad about the fact Sungchan’s left to do work alone.
“No? She just told me this was all i had to do and i’m almost done anyway” Sungchan washes the last cabbage and wipes his hands on the apron he was wearing.
Everyone sat around the bonfire and some were roasting marshmallows. The night was cold, so everyone wore their padded jackets because it was still cold even with the fire.
Eunseok had his jacket wrapped around him and Sungchan, telling Sungchan it was for ‘extra coverage’ so Sungchan just went along with it. Eunseok doesn’t even know the things he does to Sungchan.
“Let’s play truth or dare!!” one of the seniors suggested (Sungchan was too lazy to remember their names; he’ll just do it later)
“Sungchan!” Sungchan’s head turned to face the senior, “yes?”
“Truth or dare? If you pick truth, tell us who you like here–” he stopped for a laugh, “--and if you pick dare, we dare you… to kiss Seri.”
“What?” Seri was shocked. Everyone knew Seri was taken, she’s been dating someone outside of their school and she wasn’t private about it. “Sunbae, you can’t do that.” Eunseok speaks out. This sunbae was getting on his nerves lately; Eunseok was paired up with him to set up the tents, but he was nowhere to be found when Eunseok had finished setting up half of the tents.
“Why can’t i? Seri’s boyfriend won’t even know. And Sungchan hasn’t even chosen which one he wants to do” the senior laughed again, and Eunseok wanted nothing else but to punch him until his teeth came off.
“This game is bullshit. We’re going back into the tent, sorry sunbae. let’s go Sungchan” Eunseok stood up while holding Sungchan’s hand to help him up too. But it didn’t end there, the senior wasn’t satisfied and shouted “stupid gay fucks!” while Eunseok and Sungchan were halfway to their tent. Wonbin got so mad about it he was about to punch the senior, but Shotaro just calmed him down and both of them also headed back to their tent which was close to Eunseok and Sungchan’s.
Eunseok was silent when they arrived in their tent. Sungchan knew Eunseok disliked that senior, because he had complained to him via text about how irresponsible that senior is.
“Eunseok-ah” Eunseok woke up from his daze and realised he was still standing outside the tent.
“Ah. Sorry” he entered and zipped the tent entrance behind him. “Are you okay?” Eunseok asked, obviously worried about his best friend. Sungchan let out a little laugh, laying his head on Eunseok’s shoulder. Eunseok was a little smaller than Sungchan, just a little, but at times like these Sungchan looks a whole lot smaller.
“I should be asking you that. The sunbae must’ve given you a headache, at this point your hair will turn gray in no time.” Sungchan looks up at Eunseok, bringing his hand towards Eunseok’s hair to play with it.
“Sungchan.” His name came out of Eunseok’s mouth like a whisper. It was so low, Sungchan wouldn’t even hear it if he wasn’t so near.
Sungchan shifted his eyes to look into Eunseok’s big ones, and it came closer, and closer, and he felt their lips touch.
Sungchan’s eyes grew wide, he couldn’t process what was happening. He couldn’t process the fact Eunseok’s lips were on his, the fact Eunseok initiated it and the hand that was on his cheek.
Sungchan lifted his head up, shock and confusion written on his face.
“I.. I’m sorry” Eunseok brings his hand to his face, facepalming himself, then standing up to pack up his stuff.
“What, where are you going? Seok-ah” Sungchan held on to his arm, but it was flung away. He tried to hold on to anything at all that was near Eunseok, but he was already out of the tent and far away.
The entire time, Shotaro was right outside the tent with their entrance opened because he was going to offer some marshmallows. He rushed right in after Eunseok left and hugged Sungchan who was already crying so hard, still saying Eunseok’s name in hopes he’d turn around.
✧
11 september 2023, 10:27am
gayserables
dormie 🐈⬛
sungchan hyunggggg
Guys spam his phone he has class at 11
GUYSSS
little sohee
im here
WAKE UP HYUNGGGG
his eyes are probably so puffy from yesterday my poor hyung :(
IF I SEE THIS EUNSEOK BITCH ITS ON SIGHT
dormie 🐈⬛
woah calm down
i wouldn’t want to see you on the news
let’s both appear on the news
wgood morning
dormie 🐈⬛
HYUNGGGJJF
omfg i almost thought you died while crying to sleep
i think shotaro and wonbin hyung are still asleep
they got wasted yesterday
they’re trying their best, you know, to help
i know
i appreciate you all always
i have to get ready
little sohee
hyung if there’s anything you need me for or like you need help with assassination im always available.
Sungchan reacted with a ‘❤️’
Sungchan gets up from his bed and looks at himself in the mirror. “God, I look awful.” his eyes were swollen, his hair was messy and he reeked of alcohol despite not drinking. Maybe it was the people around him, but that’s whatever. He’ll just shower it all off.
After showering he goes outside to see a lunchbox on the table with another note from Seunghan (and Sohee).
‘Eat this well hyung! Sohee and I made it this morning for you, not really sure if it tastes good but it’s packed with our love for you keke learn well today you have back-to-back classes!!’
Oh. Right. He does have back-to-back classes. Sungchan opens up the lunchbox to the smell of kimchi fried rice. Wow. What a way to start the day. But it’s not something he can blame Seunghan with because he wouldn’t know it was Eunseok’s favourite food.
Sungchan arrives at the classroom, sitting on one of the empty seats in the middle end. He likes spots near the window because it feels more peaceful, letting him focus on his studies more.
He pops his earphones into his ears and opens his book figuring he’d study a little while waiting for the lecturer to enter.
“...” due to the music playing in Sungchan's earphones he didn’t hear the voice so well, it was muffled and slow. He didn’t even realise someone had sat on the seat beside him and was also confused because there were still so many seats left in the room, so why pick the one beside the guy who’s engrossed in his studies?
“I’m sorry?” he took his earphones out and turned to look at the guy, but the guy apparently had a mask and his hoodie up which covered his face.
Sungchan looked at him with confusion, because the guy just sat silently after he had asked the same question 2 times. ‘Maybe just another weirdo..’ so he turned back around to mind his own business again.
“...same as before.”
Sungchan groaned as he sat on one of the benches outside the cafeteria. The tiredness from crying yesterday was still getting to him and back-to-back classes made it even worse.
He took out the lunchbox Seunghan and Sohee had prepared for him and was about to start eating it when there was suddenly a presence in front of him.
Sungchan looked up to the person, seeing it was the same masked hoodie weirdo in the same lecture as him earlier, looking down on his lunchbox.
“Can i help you..?” The guy just shook his head, eyes still set on Sungchan’s lunchbox.
“Well if you don’t speak i won’t know what you want, and you’ll give people a wrong impression doing all this with how you’re looking like.” His eyes averted back to his lunch box, but then the weird guy spoke– “Kimchi fried rice?” Sungchan's eyes immediately shoot back up to the person’s face, then back to his lunch box.
He’s not doing this right now, no, not after four years of being sad and going crazy just for the very guy he’s being sad and going crazy about to suddenly appear in front of him while he was about to eat said guy's favourite food.
Sungchan quickly packs his lunch boxes up, getting up from the bench before being stopped by the familiar guy behind the mask.
“Sungchan,” Sungchan’s gut twisted; he feels like he’s going through hell on earth. “Let me explain, please.”
Sungchan gets a good look at him, feeling glad he hasn’t removed his mask yet. The hoodie, though, was already off his head, his hair a messy blonde colour and his eyes were still as big as they used to be. Sungchan's heart almost jumped out of his chest.
“No, i.. please let me go home first.. i’m too tired for this today,” Sungchan hesitated for a while, but then he just let it slip out of his mouth. “Eunseok.” that got Eunseok to let him go, and as he was leaving he caught a glimpse of him wiping off a tear from his cheek.
Sungchan unlocks the door to the dorm and opens it to a sight of Sohee and Seunghan cuddling on the couch while Shotaro and Wonbin were cooking up a storm in the kitchen. “Hyung! you’re home.. early?” Seunghan spoke out, his face turning into worry instantly when he saw how pale his hyung’s face was.
“Oh my god, what happened?!” He gets off from his comfortable position with Sohee on the couch to help Sungchan to sit, offering him a cup of water because he seemed so weak.
Shotaro turned off the stove to get to his best friend quickly, and his boyfriend followed close behind him.
Sungchan drinks up the cup of water offered and sets it on the table as tears come running out of his eyes uncontrollably. Seunghan and Sohee hugged him as he cried and cried, unable to get a word out of his mouth.
Once Sungchan calmed down a bit, Shotaro offered him a gyoza and Sungchan smiled a little, accepting it.
“So, hyung, are you okay to tell us what happened? you came back during lunch hour and haven’t even eaten your fried rice..” Sohee sounded a little sad, he really put all of his love into cooking.
“I'm sorry Sohee-ya, I promise I'll eat it for dinner, okay?” Sohee smiles at that and gives him a nod, and the others smile along with the younger. “I’m so doomed though, i skipped Mr Lee’s class again and he’s going to be so mad about it.. what if my marks get deducted–” Shotaro cuts him off, “you’re Mr Lee's favourite. there’s no way he’ll deduct your marks when you’re working so hard for every class ever. don’t worry about it, Sungchan-ah.” he gives an affirming smile and Sungchan feels better with that. He knows Sungchan takes his studies really seriously, even though he’s been miserable he never lets it get in the way of his studies.
“I saw him today.” Sungchan takes a bite out of a gyoza, the juices slowly seeping out of it.
Wonbin stops eating and sets his gyoza down, and as if Sungchan knows what he’s about to ask, he answers the question. “Yeah, Eunseok.”
Sohee stands up in shock, putting both his hands on his hips trying to portray his anger. “That Eunseok bitch? The one that’s been making you cry???!!!” Seunghan pulls on Sohee's sleeve to make him sit down but he refuses unless Sungchan answers.
“Yeah, him, but he’s older than you, you kno–”
“But his communication skills aren’t older than me, it seems. There’s no way he can just skip his way into your life after 4 years of leaving you with no contact or a sign and you’re here miserable thinking about what or how he’s doing?! I mean, does he think of you the same? If he did, why take literally 4 years??” Sohee huffs, sitting back down after that.
Everyone stayed silent, afraid to speak out in the midst of Sohee's anger.
“He was looking for you.” They turned their heads to look at Wonbin.
“What? How’d you know that??” Shotaro asked, not believing how his boyfriend has never told him about this.
“Chanyoungie. He’s been asking Chanyoungie about Sungchan hyung since the first year, but Chanyoung never told him.. so i don’t know how he found you now..” Wonbin confesses, feeling guilty he has never told Sungchan about this.
“Maybe you should just.. talk to him hyung,” Seunghan says while putting another gyoza on Sungchan’s plate. “Listen to his explanation. Seeing how he’s been trying to find you for years, there’s no way he doesn’t feel the same.” Sungchan purses his lips and finally nods, taking in Seunghan’s suggestion seriously.
That same night, Sungchan contemplated texting Chanyoung before sleeping. but he thinks he should just do it, as Seunghan’s words repeat in his head.
chanyoungie 🦕🤏
chanyoung ah
can you send me eunseok’s number?
hellooo hyung
whyy?
wonbin told me he was looking for me
through you?
yes..
i’m sorry i didn’t tell… he’s been looking for you for 3 years now, i didn’t want to tell him because he made you sad
it’s okay don’t worry about itt
here’s his number
chanyoungie 🦕🤏 sent you a contact:
eunseokie hyung 😠
don’t mind the emoji….
that’s 😭
thank you chanyoungie
no worries, i’m here for you hyung!
sungchan reacted with a “🫡”
eunseok.
hi
it’s sungchan.
i got your number from chanyoung
hi
i don’t think i can do this through text
can we meet?
There was a pause for a while, the next text coming in after 2 minutes. Sungchan didn’t even realise he was counting.
tomorrow?
okay
i’ll be at the same bench as today but at 12?
my class ends then
see you sungchanie
He pondered at the last message Eunseok sent. Sungchanie. Huh.
✧
12 september 2023, 10:30am
Sungchan sat up from his bed as soon as his alarm started ringing. He had been tossing and turning all night, unable to fall asleep because he knew he was going to see and talk to the person he’s been yearning for after so long. He probably looks so awful.
So Sungchan goes and gets ready, wearing his best outfit he can find in his closet because he really wants to look good for this guy, the guy he’s liked since high school. But he’s also thinking, does Eunseok even deserve seeing Sungchan look good when he left a wound that couldn’t be healed for so long?
He steps out of his room and sees his best friends sleeping soundly, Wonbin and Shotaro cuddling on the floor and Seunghan and Sohee cramped on the sofa. Sungchan smiled at this sight, it’s rare to see them at rest when they’re usually the ones who take care of him.
Sungchan arrives at his first class but he couldn’t really pay attention to the lecture even if he tried to because his brain was just counting down the time until he sees Eunseok again.
When all of his classes were over, Sungchan rushed to the same bench he was at yesterday and stopped when he saw a blonde guy with a black t-shirt sitting there. He took a deep breath, telling himself he can definitely do this and he will get through it.
“Hi” Sungchan speaks out, making the blonde man look up and Sungchan felt his knees buckle. Eunseok wasn’t wearing a mask today, so his face was on full view for Sungchan to see. How can someone with a face like this just walk out freely? It should be a crime.
“Sungchan.. i thought you wouldn’t come” Eunseok smiled and patted on the space beside him gesturing for Sungchan to have a seat.
Sungchan looked at the empty space, then at Eunseok, then the empty space again, and if Sungchan could, if he could just discard all his freaking sad and angry emotions away, he would’ve embraced the guy in front of him right away. Hold Eunseok right in his arms, and not let him run away ever again.
Instead of doing anything and for the sake of keeping it safe, Sungchan just says, “I’m right on time, aren’t i?”
“You are, of course. When are you not?”
They stayed quiet for a few seconds, before Eunseok begins again,
“I missed you”
Sungchan couldn’t say a thing. Of course he misses Eunseok too. Hell, he missed him so freaking much he wanted to cry and punch him, but at the same time he wanted to kiss him, tell him how much he missed him after all these years and how hard it was for Sungchan to go through everything without him.
“I’m so, so sorry. I don’t even know where to begin, honestly. I know i hurt you so bad for leaving you without any explanation and i know, knew that you hate it. You always hated it when anyone wouldn’t spare you an explanation over something you obviously didn’t have a wrong in, i know you so well, yet i still left you. I still did all this to you, and you’ve been hurting all these years, and i didn’t do anything more to find you, because i was so scared–” Eunseok stopped talking for a while to wipe his tears away, he didn’t even realize he started crying. “--but i was genuinely more scared of losing you.”
Eunseok looked at Sungchan and Sungchan whimpers when he saw Eunseok’s teary eyes and red nose. He’s never seen Eunseok with this look on his face before, and Sungchan’s world almost crashes when he realizes he’s the reason Eunseok looks like this right now.
“Eunseok-ah” Sungchan grabs Eunseok and pulls him into a hug, letting Eunseok sob into his neck. Eunseok was crying so hard that Sungchan could feel the wetness of his tears on his tee but it didn’t matter. It didn’t matter because it was Eunseok.
It’s Eunseok, and he isn’t running away, rather he is showing a moment of vulnerability to Sungchan, and Sungchan appreciated that what happened between them affected both of them fairly.
It took a few minutes for Eunseok to calm down, breathing slowly against Sungchan’s neck which gave Sungchan goosebumps.
Eunseok’s hands were around Sungchan’s waist while one of Sungchan’s were still at the back of Eunseok’s head and the other was around his shoulder.
“I …..” Eunseok mumbled and burrowed his face even more into Sungchan’s neck.
“What?” Sungchan placed his hands on Eunseok’s shoulder as Eunseok pulled away, revealing his messed up state.
He wasn’t even messed up. In Sungchan’s eyes, he’s perfect, still perfect even after crying his eyes out.
Despite his red nose and wet cheeks from all the crying, he looks pretty, and he’s glowing with the sunlight shining down on him.
Sungchan wiped the tears from under his eyes and rubbed his cheeks. It was soft, probably from all the tears that it absorbed.
Eunseok placed his hands on top of Sungchan’s that were still on his cheeks, and as another tear dropped, he confesses,
“I love you, Sungchan. I’m sorry it took me forever to say it, but I love you, and i really, really can’t live without you.”
Sungchan was just speechless. He couldn’t even stay mad anymore, all the anger within him just turning into endearment for the man in front of him, who he’d like to call the love of his life.
“I hate you, Eunseok.” Eunseok loses the blood in his face but before he could say anything, Sungchan brings his face closer and crashes both of their lips together.
Eunseok’s lips were like ecstasy, the lips Sungchan had been wanting, needing for so long.
The kiss felt like heaven, leaving Eunseok in a shocked state after Sungchan pulled away although his lips were chasing after Sungchan’s. He had just remembered they were still in his uni compounds.
“Should we…. do you want to see my dorm room?” Eunseok just nods and so they left the bench to get back to Sungchan’s dorm, rushing and running, like teenagers in love except they weren’t even teenagers anymore.
Sungchan unlocks the door to his dorm, with their hands intertwined and adrenaline rushing in their veins.
The yearning, want, need was too much. The four years was too much, too much time wasted when they could’ve been doing this in all those years.
The door bursts open and Sungchan immediately presses their lips together while pushing Eunseok against it, closing it forcefully with a loud bang.
If that didn’t surprise Eunseok, what was more surprising was the couple sitting on the sofa watching them in action and Sungchan obviously didn’t realize because he had already started to slip his hand under Eunseok’s shirt, the cold touch of Sungchan’s skin against his making Eunseok let out a little sound before he pulls Sungchan’s hand out to signal him of the couple’s presence.
“I told you we should’ve gone to the restaurant instead of ordering it on the app!” Sungchan turns his head to look at the owner of the voice and sees Seunghan and Sohee arguing with each other on the couch, covering their vision with the sofa cushions.
“Oh my god, what are you two still doing here? Don’t you have class, Seunghan?” Seunghan moves the cushion to the position where it's under his eyes, scanning Sungchan, then Eunseok.
“Well, I do! But Sohee here had asked me to skip just to catch up on his little kdrama together… we’re so sorry for… cock blocking…” Seunghan takes Sohee’s hand in his and they ran away into Seunghan’s room.
Once they were gone, Sungchan looked back to Eunseok’s face to see how red he was, probably embarrassed by the fact Sungchan’s friends had seen them make out not even a day after making up.
“Are you embarrassed?” Sungchan smiles when Eunseok gives him a little nod and Sungchan just felt like he wanted to eat him whole at the moment. It’s embarrassing for Sungchan to even admit that he got hard over Eunseok’s adorable little gestures.
Eunseok’s eyes averts to the prominent bulge in Sungchan’s pants, his eyes turning a little bigger at the sight of it.
“Sungchan.. Don’t tell me you’re literally hard right now..” Sungchan scratched the back of his head after that statement, not knowing how to answer.
Obviously, it’s so silly for him to be sexually aroused over this when they literally just got caught by his dormmate and the dormie’s boyfriend, when he himself has never seen the both of them getting it on.
Not that he wants to see it, anyways.
All Sungchan does after is bring Eunseok to his room and locks the door, not wanting anymore distractions although he knows Seunghan would have already reported this to Shotaro.
Sungchan kisses Eunseok impatiently with one hand grabbing his hair while the other is squeezing the side of his cheek. He isn’t even thinking of letting Eunseok go, he’s thinking of kissing 4 year’s worth of time into Eunseok. Or fucking. Doesn’t matter anyway, all Sungchan knows is Eunseok will stay with him today, tomorrow, and forever.
The taste of their lips together was better than anything Sungchan has ever imagined.
Sungchan bites on Eunseok’s bottom lip making Eunseok let out a little moan as Sungchan tugs on more of Eunseok’s hair.
They part away for a while to catch their breaths, Sungchan smiling at Eunseok’s now pink and swollen lips.
“You’re so cute like this,” Sungchan rubs Eunseok’s bottom lip with his thumb, then gives him a little peck. “I should’ve made you stay that night in the tent, we could’ve made out like this.”
They were both now on the bed, sitting down but facing each other and just in their own bubble.
“I don’t even know why i ran away, honestly. Maybe i was just scared to face the feelings i realized i had for you at the moment but i was so dumb then, Sungchan.” Eunseok plays with Sungchan’s hair, trailing down to his nose, then rubbing his cheeks before Sungchan pulls him back in for another kiss.
✧
Sungchan’s eyes shot open when he heard his ringtone playing, filling the silence in the room.
He looks over to the man who’s sleeping soundly with his arms wrapped around Sungchan’s waist, face nestled into his chest.
“Baby,” Sungchan plays with Eunseok’s hair, watching it fall back onto his head then rubbing the back of his neck making Eunseok whine into Sungchan’s chest. “I have to get my phone, someone’s calling me.”
Eunseok lets go of Sungchan and Sungchan gets out of the bed to grab his phone from the pocket of his jeans that were on the floor. Sungchan isn’t entirely naked, he still had his boxers on after… everything.
He finally picks up the call after it rings 3 times, not even looking at who was calling.
“Hell–” “SUNGCHAN!” Sungchan had to distance the phone from his ear after the shouting from the other end. It was definitely Shotaro calling.
“Seunghani told me you guys are doing the nasty?” He blushes at that, eyeing the blonde man soundly sleeping on his bed, definitely tired from all the action.
“Yeah.. i just woke up right now.” Sungchan rubs the back of his neck, yawning.
“Okay.. i’m happy he’s back and all and we should meet up tomorrow, but do keep it down if you’re going to do it again cause Seunghan told me he had to leave to Sohee’s cause.. yeah you know. No way you’re going to kick your own dormmate out now will you?” He let out a giggle, hearing Shotaro joking now made him feel relieved he’s not mad over how fast they moved.
“Will do, thank you hyung, i love you.” Sungchan could feel Shotaro rolling his eyes and smiling through the phone before it ended with Wonbin saying, “Only i can love him!”
Sungchan tosses his phone on his nightstand before going back to bed to wrap the slightly smaller man in his arms.
“Who was that?” Eunseok asked groggily, looking up to catch Sungchan’s eyes.
Sungchan smiled and ducked his face down a little to capture Eunseok’s lips with his, leaving a final peck before pulling away.
“You’re so freaking horny.” he punches Sungchan’s chest making Sungchan let out a silly “ow!” while smiling widely. The widest smile he’s ever had on his face yet.
“I was pent up for so long, i didn’t even do anything with anyone during the 4 years you were gone. I was just busy crying over you, you know? You’re the reason for everything so you don’t have the right to look so cute and innocent right now.” Sungchan pinches Eunseok’s nose and he just laughs, then Sungchan just rests his palm on the blonde man’s cheek.
There was a moment of silence, both of them just taking in the other’s company before Sungchan speaks out, “When did you dye your hair?”
“Oh this?” Eunseok lifts up a few strands of hair on his bangs and Sungchan nods, bringing his hand upwards to play with Eunseok’s hair.
“I was just thinking of trying something new, and i wanted to like, signal you or something, maybe you’d catch me if you saw me having blonde hair and if i walked around somewhere.” Eunseok’s silly little idea was so endearing Sungchan couldn’t help but coo.
“I love you, by the way. I think i’ve loved you from the day i saw you in class, that’s why i picked the seat next to you.” Eunseok then lifts up his head, giving Sungchan a kiss on his forehead, then his nose, his cheeks and lastly his mouth.
“I love you too, Eunseok. Since the first day, and i’ll love you today, always and forever. And you can never leave me, you hear me? You’re not allowed to leave me ever again.” Sungchan hugs Eunseok tightly and Eunseok nods, and honestly, all of this just feels like an oath. He’s never leaving ever again, he isn’t going anywhere anymore. They’ll stay together, here, and they’ll never, ever leave each other’s side.
“That’s a promise.” They end the conversation with a kiss again, before drifting off to sleep into the next day.
✧
13 september 2023, 9:45am
gayserables
dormie 🐈⬛
happy birthday sungchan hyung!
i love yoi so much
if you’re going to have birthday ‘you know what’ today, please Please keep it down my class is online for the day
little sohee
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HYUNG!!!!
I KNOW IM ALWAYS #1 IN YOUR HEART TELL EUNSEOK HYUNG TO GET THE FUCK OUT
taro hyung 👎
What the hell dont tell me you’re going to coop up in yo room being freaky with eunseok
get out and celebrate withbus
binibani
i think hyung isn’t awake yet
happy birthday hyung from me and MY baby we love you always ❤️
sungchan’s asleep
[sungchan asleep with his mouth open.jpg]
TARO WONBIN I MISSED U?
taro hyung 👎
holy shit did you figure out his freaking password
wasn’t hard to guess it was my birthday
chanyoungie 🦕🤏
YOOOO how the hell did you guys make up so fast
dormie 🐈⬛
they didn’t just make up.
little sohee
:D ………
[eunseok lying down on sungchan’s bare chest.jpg]
little sohee
….bye i’m not doing this shit no more
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dormie 🐈⬛
I HATE U BORH IM LEAVING W MT BF
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chanyoungie 🦕🤏
what rhe fuck eunseok hyung pls don’t be INSANE?
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binibani
[wonbin kissing shotaro’s forehead.jpg]
let’s battle
taro hyung 👎
WHEN DID U EVEN TAKE THAT PIC????
don’t make me leave and run like eunseok.
holy shit whay the fuck i’ve became
one of your inside jokes now?
taro hyung 👎
[shotaro kissing wonbin’s cheek.jpg]
the fuck?