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you know?
i think you used me for entertainment.
to boost your ego.
just to farm me for kills while you brag about how skilled you are when I admit that I'M the one who sucks.
but i think i knew.
i knew you'd get tired of me, seek for a better challenge,
something more than just an annoying bitch who clung to you so much she saw no point in getting up when you haven't messaged me yet or staying up longer if it meant we were done for the day.
i knew you'd leave me and go back to her, you always do.
because when have i ever been the first choice?
when have i ever been talented enough at something everyone else does?
like she is.
because she's perfect in every way.
she can cook more than just basics, she's responsible, she knows how to take care of kids, knows how to discipline, gets amazing grades, and she's well liked by everyone.
she's better at gaming than any one of us could ever be, and she's prettier than i'll ever be.
she's tall, she's kind, and pretty sassy once you get to know her.
she's just! that dream girl.
who wouldn't like her?
.. i guess that would be me.
i can't understand her... she covers up her contradicting words with more contradicting words until i cry myself to sleep thinking "do you actually like me or was she deluding me into thinking you did?"
until now, i still don't know.
but i do know!
that i'll never be her.
i'll never be that tall, hard to get, pretty, witty, mature gamer girlfriend that you dream of...