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I got these memories, they're all of you and me
I've been recording them ever since I was seventeen
Push playback then rewind
I see us meeting for the very first time
Your eyes are the size of the moon. Big. Bright. Brown.
Spencer's words are lost after he intoduces us.
All I see is your smile. All I hear is your laugh.
"Hi, Ryan." You say, offering out your hand.
I take it in mine. My scraggly hand dwarfs your soft one. Your fingers linger in my grasp far too long for two people who've just only met.
"Hello, Brendon." I reply, all smiles.
A mental note of you, you sang my melody
First bar in a lifelong symphony
The prelude to a kiss
My heart's pounding when I reminisce
"Give me envy! Give me malice! Give me attention! Give me envy! Give me malice! Baby, give me a break!" You sing at the top of your lungs.
You take my face in your hands as you belt out these words. My words.
Your voice breaks and your eyes lock with mine.
"Brendon..." I plead. My heart is beating like a kick drum.
You don't need the push. You know what I want. You want it too.
"Kiss me." Your voice is a low whisper.
Our lips connect and your hand immediatly goes for the nape of my neck.
You fear I may pull away from you.
I won't. I'll never let go.
Remember that time, we stayed up all night
I swear we danced until we saw daylight
Step by step and frame by frame
Slow motion, let me see you again
You danced around in the over grown summer grass, your giggles filling the night sky.
You grabbed my hands and spun me around.
I began to laugh too. Your laughter was contagious.
My hands wandered to your waist and your arms drapped over my shoulders.
I pulled you close, swaying back and forth.
We danced to your soft humming until the sun came up.
I must have looked a sight. My drowzy eyes and lazy smile.
You looked as beautiful as ever. Wide awake, too.
You smiled like being in my arms was the best thing ever.
I guess to you it really was.
No matter what I do
I won't fast forward anything with you
I know you feel it too
The first time I saw love I was with you
It really went without saying.
You knew how I felt and I you.
Your brown orbs gazed into my honey ones.
"Ryan, I-"
"Shhh. I know, pretty. I love you too." I told you.
"There's a first time with you everyday..." You reply with a shy grin.
We kissed for what must have been the thousandth time.
I wouldn't mind a thousand more.
The first time that I saw your face
The first time that you spoke my name
The first time when we talked all night
Was the first time love made sense in life
The first time that I felt your touch
The first time I couldn't get enough
The first time that I heard you say
There's a first time with me everyday
You lay at my side, little huffs spill from your open mouth.
You're deep in slumber, childlike fantasies dancing though your head.
You're so beautiful.
Your nose. Your lips. Your hair. Your hands. Your smile. Your laugh. Your hips. Your entire being.
I love you, Brendon Urie.
From the first time to the last breath.