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Overall, Izanas day has started out as good as it always did. Therapy turned his whole life around and one day after another he was just glad to even exist. Maybe not just because of therapy
Seeing Kakucho next to him, just sleeping so peaceful was beautiful. While Izana went to work on mornings, his husband stayed home to do the household and cook something for his smaller baby
He stretched on the bed, taking the cigarettes from the nightstand and lighting one before taking a deep strand. It was one thing, not even the years of therapy were able to change. Nicotine kinda kept him alive
"I thought we talked about that",Kakucho next to him in bed, stretched and kissed Izana's cheek next,"Good morning, baby"
"Hi",Izana smiled at him, turning his head to meet Kakuchos lips in a deep kiss and then turned it down to pay attention to the cigarette again
It was a nice feeling to have something warm between his lips when the winter was blooming outside in his prettiest forms. They both shared their love for snow and ice skating but also for Izana's homemade Halo-Halo ice cream. He maybe wasn't much connected to his origin, because he never had the chance to have a look at the Philippines but he did everything he could
Learned the language a few years earlier to have something in his hand and also learned one or two cooking recipes. Halo-Halo was one of them, Philippine ice cream
"You slept well?",Izana put out the cigarette, then stood up and walked over to the closet
"Yeah, was fine. I mean, I slept next to you, anything else isn't really important",He smiled,"You're doing first lesson today?"
"Nope, I'm teaching second but I'm meeting up with Yoko",Izana pulled out some flared trousers, long brown socks and one of Kakuchos pullovers
Even tho Kakucho was happy that Izana found friends at work, he was a little sceptical that it was a woman. Izana liked Yoko a lot, because they shared a lot of interests and it was pretty nice to have a friend. It was a rarity for Izana to get close to someone ever since that all happened and even tho therapy really helped, she was his only friend
They often met up to eat or watch a movie together. Kakucho rather left them alone than be annoying and trusted Izana enough anyway
"Alright",He smiled at him
"You can keep sleeping",Izana got dressed, wandered around the bed and kissed Kakuchos forehead before leaving the room to have breakfast. Twenty minutes, one cappuccino and a toast later he called out one last time to Kakucho bevor leaving
"I love you!",He smiled, holding the doorhendel. Kakucho called back with a sleepy voice,"I love you too! Have fun at work and call when your done!"
Izana giggled,"I will!",Closed the door behind him and adjusted his scarf before walking to the train station
He sometimes met his students there, on the way to school. It was funny because they were always happy to see him and loved talking to him about their day. He was usually the first person to talk to if someone had personal problems because he was so intelligent and had a salvation for every problem. And for the ones he didn't, he had a few nice words
But on this ride to school, he would not meet any of his students - Even worse than that
He heard the train arrive on his station and the few people left the wagon. More people stepped in than people left, Tokio morning was always pretty busy. Kakucho had offered him to drive him to school but Izana's wasn't really interested in that
Found his place in the train, held onto the handle over his head and started thinking about the lesson today. He switched schools two years ago because the better environment on the new school - Latin was also pretty rare and in the lack so the schools were so thankful to have the few teachers teaching it
He usually listened to music on the train but forgot his headphones today. So he decided to pull out his phone and remind Kakucho to buy chocolate when he should go buying groceries for the week
The space in front of Izana emptied as the first people left the train on the first station. Izana watched them leave, then looked over the people's faces and spotted one that was awful familiar
His swore in this moment he forgot everything. His breath fell, his head empty of everything he thought of before. She spotted his view, got the same exact expression. But was it really her...?
A woman with tan skin, beautiful violet eyes and hair white as snow. She was the prettiest woman he had ever seen and still Izana didn't know if he should be happy or terrified by her appearance
She gasped, holding her breath and then swallowed before she looked to her left side, anywhere but his eyes
Izana nearly forgot how to breathe. He was not exactly sure what it was but he just knew who she was
It must be his mother
Even tho, Tokyo was the biggest city on earth, their paths have not been destined to cross until this very day. As the train came to a stop again just mere seconds later, Izana noticed he had dropped his phone. Wanting to pick it up, he bowed down, stood back up and noticed she was gone. She used the chaos of the people leaving to hurry off the train and left her son alone
For the second time in his short life
He later arrived at school, getting his stuff into the teachers' room and then met Yoko in the upper classrooms
"You're sure?",She looked over at him, dangled her feet of the table
"You didn't see her. How she looked at me and god, her eyes",He stared down on his own feet
"I know it's hard for you to understand but she had her reasons to give you away. It doesn't mean she doesn't love you, she just wanted to give you a better life"
"I've wondered my whole life what would happen if I met her and now I did but she... She ran away from me"
"You know, it's not always your fault",She looked at him, scrunching her eyebrows
"Yeah... Yeah, you're probably right",Then both heard the bell ring, Izana looked over at her,"I'm teaching history at the seventh grade. What are you doing?"
"Latin in the seventh also"
"Well good luck",She smiled, leaving the room as the first students entered the classroom and greeted him before taking their seats
He thought a lot about their meeting, the whole lesson along
"Are you alright, senpai?",The girl in the front row asked, getting Izana out of his thoughts
"Huh? Oh yeah, I'm just really tired",He still was so done with everything at this moment,"You have a question?"
"How do I translate an allocation?"
"Oh you...",He thought for a second, then walking over to the chalkboard,"An allocation is made out of two full-fledged main clauses. So if you have only one and a subordinate clause, you need to make a main clause out of it when doing the translation. You still have the worksheet I gave to you?"
"Of course"
"Everything's written on it and if you should have questions left, ask me"
He later came home, closing the door behind him. Kakucho already knew there was something wrong as he didn't greet him when opening the door. Izana undressed the scarf and the coat but didn't walk into the kitchen as usual because Kakucho already walked over to him
"You wanna talk about it?",He looked at Izana, holding his waist. He usually loved to feel them but not today
"I met her",He answered. Kakucho scrunched his eyebrows,"Who is her?"
"My mom. I met my mom"
Kakucho was stunned for a second,"You met your-"
"On the train. She was not even half a meter away from me",But still felt like there were oceans between them,"Then she got out on the next station"
"You didn't talk to her?"
"Nope. Didn't seem like she wanted to either",His face felt with guilt. Why didn't he say something? He was her son after all and had every chance to talk to her
"And you are absolutely sure it was her?"
"You should've seen her face the moment she saw me. I felt horrible"
"You must not feel bad about this. It's not your fault. What do you plan on doing now?"
"I don't really know... I got a few vocab tests to correct"
"How about we take a little... You wanna go shopping? You could use some new clothes"
It made Izana happy to know there was something in his closet Kakucho found him pretty in. Of course his husband knew, so he wanted to make him happy
"That would be great, yeah...",He smiled up at him,"Thank you so much, Baby"
"You know I'd do anything to make you happy",Kissed his forehead, left his waist and walked to the kitchen,"I'll put the food into the fridge, we can eat later"
Both packed all they needed, got into the car and drove to Harujuku. Kakuchos hand traveled up and down Izanas thigh, all while they were driving. It was good to feel Izana calm down and also to notice his mind wandering from the meeting with his mother. Before an exhausting shopping tour, Izana decided to take a quick stop at the bakery downtown. Kakucho stopped, gave Izana his card, kissed his cheek and the Kurokawa left the car to enter the shop
It was empty, the sweet smell of fresh pastries filled the air. The shopowner must have been in the back, Izana thought and had a look at the cakes and tarts. He actually wanted some cookies to eat on the way
"What can I get-",The woman came out of the back, stopped mid sentence as she saw him standing there,"You..."
"Hi",Was everything leaving his lips as his body froze again. She smiled softly at him
"Ikaw ba, Izana?"
(Is it you, Izana)
As his name fell from her lips, something in him just knew what it was. His eyes filled with water, as he exclaimed,"Yes!"
She walked around the counter, catching him in between her arms. Heard him sobbing between her arms and kissed the top of his head
"You do not understand how sorry I am for not reaching out to you earlier"
"N-No... No, its okay",He answered. She took his tan face innto her fingers, looking at him. He smiled under the tears,"Maganda...",She cooed
(Prettty...)
They settled down for a coffee in the bakery. Izana wrote a message to his husband, telling him to go and buy cat food until the two were done
"Tell me how old you are, mahal",She smiled at him
"I'm twenty-nine",After his answer, she sighed heavily,"Twenty-nine... Its been so long?"
"Seems like it",He smiled,"I'm glad you have a good life"
"I'm doing my best. Working in a bakery is not exactly what I had wished for but I need the money",She sighed, switched the topic. She just couldn't stop looking up and down her son, neither express how proud she was if everything he had achieved
The also looked so much alike!
She loved his style, his hair and she was so happy. Then she noticed the ring,"What's her name?",She smiled brightly, taking his hand into his and having a look at the ring
"Oh? Not her",He was a little ashamed of that. Not because of Kakucho, but he was always afraid what people's opinion on his sexuality was. He needed a lot of time to get comfortable with himself but there were many things helping him with him
Not just Kakucho. It was Ran, telling him his eyeliner looked pretty and asked him where he bought it. They never really talked and Izana honestly thought Ran was trying to hit him up but it was simply about the eyeliner
Then there was Ema. She was always so supportive about anything what he did. Brought Izana clothes she thought he would like, mostly skirts and he loved them
Last but not least his icon Freddie Mercury. There was something about him what Izana just admired, how brave he has always been
"His name is Kakucho. You might meet him later"
"Oh I would love to!",She exclaimed. Izana was glad she got so comfortable with him. He may had so many questions, but still decided to keep it calm
"I...",She started,"I do understand if you don't want to have me in your life. One talk is cool but if I get to see you more than just that, is something else"
"Nay-Nay",He started. It was a pretty cute nickname for every Filipino mom and she looked so happy heading it,"I think it would be great to keep the connection. But maybe, we do it really relaxed and calm, you know?"
"Anything you want, my pretty boy",Looked at him and then scrunched her eyebrows,"Do you eat enough?",Leaned over the table to take his wrist,"You look so skinny...",She got up, disappeared in the back and came back with a few pastries
"My boy needs to grow big and strong, huh?",Kissed his cheek and sat across him on the table
"That's nice of you"
But something Izana didn't really know aside from Kakucho. He always cared that Izana ate enough or went to take care of his body but not from someone like her
"I assume your working?",She began, smiling and then looking at the pastries Izana barely touched
"I'm a teacher at the middle school in Tokyo. Latin and history class. Nothing really special"
"That sounds great, Iza",She smiled at him, then looking at the pastries,"You haven't touched them yet"
"Nay-Nay, I'm not really hungry. But thank you"
"Do you have fever? Your forehead is so hot",She scaned his forehead
"I'm perfectly fine",He laughed,"I'm twnety-nine, I can care for myself"
"I'm sorry, I just...",She sighed,"I regret not caring for you when you needed it. I regret not seeing you grow up because you got so perfect. You got a great job, you look absolutely gorgeous and you have a husband"
She thought a lot about Izana. Every prayer of hers went on and on about him because she was sure he wouldn't reach much without the love of a mother but that he made it without her, kinda hurt. It hurt because he didn't need her to be great - But she needed him
"I kinda learned to care for myself",He looked onto the floor,"It was hard, yeah but I survived. And you did too. So we can actually start caring about other things now"
The door to the store opened and Kakucho entered the room. Izana smiled brightly
Perfect timing!
"Hi, Baby",He grinned and Kakucho sat the cat food onto the table
"I missed you",He gave Izana a kiss, then looking at his mother. She stood up
"Hi",She smiled,"I'm Marina. Your husband's mom actually",That was a crazy sentence to say
"Hi, Marina",He shook her hand,"My name's Kakucho. It's a pleasure to meet you"
"I'm pretty happy, yeah",She answered, sitting down again and grabbing a chair for Kakucho out from the back
"It's okay, that I'm here, right?",He whsipered to Izana, kissing his temple
"I think I'm glad you came. Just went a weird way in my opinion"
"We can leave whenever you want. You don't owe her anything",Kakucho smiled softly,"Do what you think is the right thing to do"
Izana took his lips, send him a kiss and then Marina sat back down again,"How did you two meet?"
"Oh we've been friends since ever",Kakucho answered, smiling at Izana,"Met in the orphanage back then. Fell in love as we were teenagers. Izana studied for work, we got married and so on"
"No children?",She sulked,"I would love to have another child...",Since she gave birth to Izana in the tender age of nineteen, she wasn't that old for his age
"No, no children. It's not the easiest for us to just get a child. But we sure do hope so one day",One thing Izana wanted to do: raise a child. Maybe it was just to heal his own inner child but he wanted give a child a chance
"Well, it's great to know you're happy with each other",She smiled. Izana got tired of the small talk and the two decided to leave
"Take care",Marina kissed Izana's forehead,"Mahal Kita",Took him into her arms
"Mahal din kita, Nay-Nay",He smiled into her chest. It was a good feeling to know there was something. Izana could melt like chocolate in her arms, she made him so happy
Kakucho also noticed how Izana was so happy the whole way home. She gave both many pastries and cookies because she still thought her son wasn't eating enough. They just met and Izana still had so many questions but she had already taken on the role of his mother
Like there weren't oceans and mountains between them
Life just goes on and even tho he was happy, they had a lot to work on with each other