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Fourth was getting his makeup done and his condition was not the best, last night he couldn't fall asleep thinking about the series. The first queue of ´My Love Mix-Up´ was about to start filming. He would be lying if he said he wasn't nervous about it, not because of his skills or confidence but…Gemini, his partner.
It was the third time he acted with Gemini as a couple, he was used to the dynamic he had with his partner, they've been together since they were 16. He knew every single detail about Gemini: his habit to sleep with his eyes open, which could be scary but he found adorable; how the older always makes funny faces when he's being complimented by the fans, staff or Fourth himself; when he is nervous he attempts to bit his nails but P´Earn scolds him for doing that.
And that was the problem. He knows everything about Gemini.
Since they filmed ´My School President´ their relationship got stronger since they had to be stuck together 7 days a week. They were used to always having each other by their side so it was even strange to be separated for more than two days. They barely texted each other but when they weren't together the feeling of missing something was there. That's when everything started to break down in pieces for Fourth.
– 2 years ago –
After the process of filming his first series, Fourth finally had free time to spend with his family, so they decided to go on a trip to Ayutthaya.
The first days felt like a fresh breeze for the actor, he couldn't stop working for months. Even if he loved his job he sometimes needed to take a rest from his reality and spend time with the ones he loves.
After three days, Fourth started feeling weird, as much as he loved this vacation with his family he wanted to see his friends. Specifically his partner and best friend, Gemini.
“Fourth, I want to get this ice cream. Would you buy it for me? ” Front asked his brother with doe eyes but after getting no response she looked at his phone figuring out why he was not listening to her. “Are you stalking Gemini again? Fourth I love you but you're acting like a kid, it's time to accept your feelings.” Fourth sighed, he was tired of having this conversation with Front.
“There's no feeling, he is my friend. Is normal to miss your friend if you spend every single day with him.” Fourth defended himself.
“So staring at his photos for about 30 minutes is normal too, right? Fourth, I don't want to put pressure on you but I would hate to see you being hurt by your own feelings. Come and talk with me when you feel prepared, I'm here for you.” And only with that, she left, leaving him and his thoughts alone.
Fourth wished she didn't leave him alone that day. All changed.
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Back at the set, new emotions to portray.
Both boys spent the day filming the scenes for the first episode, the excitement was there. Fourth loved Atom, his character, they were the complete opposite but he was enjoying acting as Atom. He's a character who expresses his emotions more intensely than others, also he's hyperactive and can't stay still. Fourth can't relate to that, as he prefered to stay in his house and is a calm person.
But the biggest difference between Atom and him was the honesty and bravery when it comes to their own feelings. His character was not afraid of accepting his truth, he was not afraid of confessing, he was not afraid of being rejected. He was everything Fourth wanted to be.
His thoughts were interrupted by that voice he could recognize from miles away.
“Fourth.” He felt Gemini´s arms hugging him from behind. His muscles tensed as the boy touched him. He always reacted weakly to his partner´s touch. “It's time to film the last scene of the episode. Are you ready?” He used that voice. That soft tone that made Fourth´s heart stop working.
Wait.
The scene Gemini was talking about is the one where they are in the class and pretend to kiss. They don't need to actually kiss but only thinking about being so close to Gemini´s face was causing cramps in Fourth´s stomach. Yes, he's constantly trying to kiss Gemini on camera, it's his own way to tease the older, but this is different. Their faces are going to be extremely close, he can already feel Gemini´s breath hitting on his face. And he loved the sensation.
Fuck. Stop daydreaming Fourth. He thought to himself
“Look at his face,” P´Tong laughed. “I don't know if he's Fourth or Atom right now, I wonder how many times he kissed you in his imagination.” His makeup artist said to Gemini.
“Don't tease me P´Tong. I was lost in my thoughts because I'm sleepy.” Fourth was worried. Is it too obvious that I´m thinking about kissing him? He thought.
After that, they started with the scene. It was simple but for some reason, Fourth kept making mistakes. The team decided to let him rest five minutes, the actor felt guilty for delaying the process.
“Hey FotFot. Are you feeling well? You seem to be so tired.” Once again, Gemini and his caring personality making Fourth feel those stupid butterflies.
“I´m totally fine, I promise, it's just my lack of concentration today but I think I'm ready now. Let's kill it, Gem.” The older one was not sure if he should believe his words or not.
“I'm going to kiss Gemini for real.” Fourth whispered to the camera. He was being serious. He was tired of stopping doing whatever he wanted because of his own thoughts, it's time to get rid of the thoughts that tormented him.
The scene was short, just 10 seconds. But it meant the entire world for Fourth.
Both actors tried not to laugh, they were friends so these types of scenes made them giggle. Gemini messed up the first take because he laughed when Fourth approached him, as soon as their eyes connected, the older one bursted into a laugh. Second take, Gemini and Fourth were closing the distance little by little as they were supposed to. Yet, Fourth wasn't supposed to touch Gemini´s lips but that's exactly what he did.
They were so close. Fourth could scan every imperfection of his partner´s face, even though he thought there was none. Similar to his imaginations, he could feel Gemini´s breath next to his. He was trembling. Acting as naughty as he pretended to be in front of the camera, he slightly kissed Gemini, it was a joke but for him…was everything.
Gemini´s lips were soft, not a surprise for Fourth since he already tried them before but the simple touch of less than a second was way better than what he remembered. The older one gave him a surprised face followed by a soft smile.
His heart couldn't take it.
Then Gemini whipped his lips and made his typical disgusted face and Fourth´s smile dropped. Was it that disgusting for him?
Fourth left the room as soon as possible, he was feeling sick. Gemini hated the idea of them kissing, he hated being shipped with him, he hated to be more than just a friend. He couldn't control his emotions and before arriving home, Fourth vomited the few snacks he eated today. Is his fault, he shouldn't have kissed Gemini.
2 YEARS AGO
The sea seemed to be calm today, the tide was completely low. Anyone would feel relaxed seeing the view, feeling the sand caressing his fingers, the gentle breeze against his face. Everything was perfect, except it wasn't.
He couldn't understand the obsession Front had with his relationship with Gemini, this wasn't the first time his sister mentioned this topic. Fourth always tried to avoid this conversation, there was no need for it. He has been friends with Gemini for so long, they grew up together and they succeeded at the same time. Sharing this dream with someone as Gemini made things easier. Gemini makes everything easier.
However, he never doubted the way he looked at his best friend. He adored his partner and everyone could notice that. Gemini had this way to enjoy the small things given to him expressing his gratitude and happiness through physical touch.
Fourth remembers this time Gemini was feeling down during the rehearsals of My Turn Concert. The older one twisted his ankle while he was practicing one of his solo stages, Fourth was resting and watching Gemini´s rehearsal from one of the seats. He wanted to support him.
When Gemini fell down, the worrying in Fourth´s face was obvious, he knew how hard his partner worked for this and seeing him leaving the stage limping broke his heart. He went backstage as soon as he finished his practice. Please, God, be kind with him . He prayed.
He was crying. Gemini was crying.
The boy with the brightest smile was crying.
Fourth ran to Gemini´s side, the older one was looking at his feet while the tears came out falling down his face. Fourth saw his little pout, which he shouldn't find adorable as he found it.
“Gem…” Fourth carefully sat beside him looking at the older´s face, Gemini didn't look at him but Fourth already knew that his partner´s hates other people to see him in a vulnerable moment. “I know you are upset right now but I've seen your hard work, you put your soul into this concert, you should be proud of yourself Gem, even if the results are not what you expected.” Fourth rubbed Gemini´s back, showing that he was there for him.
“I always fuck up everything. Even if they don't say it, I know the team is disappointed in me.” His voice broke as he started talking, Fourth hated seeing him like that.
“Gem, it's not your fault, you would've never known something like this would happen to you and the team are aware of the problems you had with your ankle before, they´re not disappointed but worried.” Fourth continued. “ I'm worried too. Please don't blame yourself, there's nothing to be sorry about.” He lifted his chin carefully for Gemini to look at him, the boy's eyes were swollen for how much he cried.
“Fourth…you should be mad at me, this affects our couple stages as well. I´m sorry.” Fourth wiped his tears. Gemini´s eyes were humid but Fourth found him mesmerizing, he had the prettiest eyes Fourth has ever seen. He could get lost in his gaze.
“Don´t talk nonsense, I won't ever be mad at you. Please Gem, smile for me, I love when you're happy, your happiness is my happiness, but you being this sad makes my heart feel bad.” He caressed his cheek as he looked at him with affection. Gemini smiled, he loved how Fourth tried his best to cheer him up.
“Thank you FotFot, I'm so thankful to have you by my side. If I had the chance to choose my partner, I wouldn't choose anyone but you. All I need is to have you with me.” Fourth was speechless. Gemini never liked to say this type of stuff because they already knew how much they loved each other, but hearing him saying that changed something in Fourth.
Gemini went for a hug, the actor loved to act clingy when it was only the two of them. He hid his face in Fourth´s neck, allowing him to feel Gemini´s breath, making him tremble. Fourth loved this moments he had with his partner, it felt so intimate. His heart wasn´t supposted to beat that fast.
He loved it. More than he desired.
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His sister's words bounced in his head over and over again.
“It's time to accept your feelings.”
Gemini is just a friend.
“It's time to accept your feelings.”
I don't want to.
“It's time to accept your feelings”
Things will get worse if I do it.
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Silence.
Fourth repeated every memory he had with Gemini. Every song they sang together in the older´s car when he used to drive him home before Fourth got his driver's license. Every time Gemini comforted him when the comments of hate where that much that he was loosing the confidence he had in himself. Every time Gemini blushed when they had to kiss for an scene, his red ears and pink cheeks. Every night they slept together at Fourth´s condominium, where Gemini hugged his best friend with the excuse of “he couldn´t sleep well if he was not in his apartment” which Fourth knew was not true but he agreed to make him happy. Every time they opened thei hearts when they weren´t feeling well.
Fourth´s mind was full of Gemini.
Fourth´s heart was full off Gemini.
He loved him, not as a friend. His sister was always right.
Gemini took his heart some years ago but he has just realized that.
He fell in love with Gemini.
And now…what´s next?
He was fucked