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A/N:
Is this a preview or prologue, hell or even sampler? Idk but I feel like I'm much behind so I'm posting this now and also have ethics out there to see if this interests at least a few.
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4:23pm
He sits in the forest of books, and shelves; working at his unspokenly claimed spot at the library, the usual know it's his own space. The table the brunette is occupying is up against the beautifully stained glass, is pretty much in the open, but secluded.
With the gap of this rectangular table being farther in distance then the main circular tables. In the center of the wide open space of the library only round wooden tables Littering the empty cavity.
The big shelves of books are more near the walls with the exception being the front wall of the library that faces out into the city.
The glassed-holed wall is the excuse of that, with Dazai's table pressed up on it, though yes the rectangle sitting area is almost sectioned off in a way. As marked off with big dark wood shelves that hover over almost as wall from the table, only leaving half exposed.
The other side of said table gets hidden by the oak supporting walls stored with books, novel section... Though where Dazai is seated, it's on the end and his right side is getting hit by afternoon light. Left side; out and exposed to the main cavity of the quiet library, giving him the perfect balance of tranquility of isolation. The other hand out in the open to other when you look in his area, letting others note, (that aren't the usal) that the basically a cubical of an space is not vacant. This also allow Osamu to be able to glance up and to his right over viewing his shoulder to the open way.
Seeing out to the library which typically has students though a decent amount as this is a well known library in the area.
If not the best in at least all of Yokohama, it's a pretty grand library which go the opposite and away from the city-window wall. You will get greeted with big elegant stairs the bring your up to the second story: containing the most of fantasy and horror on left side.
Turn the other side you will find business and life advice books, (where Dazai got his: Complete Guide To Suicide; book, great book would recommend!).
But that's not all; the public space is one more story bigger and if you go to all the way of the edges. From the second floor you can head up to the third floor where it wraps around all the wall, once again not the big window main front.
So it's like a balcony that over looks the rest of the quiet space that you can look down and admire both the amazing amount of books and the gorgeous architecture of the walls.
Yes, even with all the dark oak shelves that infect all throughout the library with hiding most parts, you can see the amazing designs engraved on the wall giving the grandness of this public setting to allow and live up to it's name. Being a recommendation to visit in Yokohama, even if it's not for the intentions of reading or studying, at least the very engagements on the inner. With being most prominent on the main wall that face out of to the bustling city and main street of Yokohama: as it's unbidden by book holders and even the windows fall into this Greek architecture vibe that's going on.
The breathe taking details is also why it's so popular yet still spacious to comfortably accommodate all the people that are in the building.
Students mostly as if this is their choice of location to study, in which Dazai couldn't disagree and also uses this for work purposes.
If not in some café: favorite out of all the ones Dazai has sampled in his career, the lighthearted one just two blocks from here, cozy and warm. Underrated yet that's what makes it so wonderful, plus it's not a tourist place and the people who are in the café are norms.
Civilians, local; of the city that know of this little cottage theme café hidden between a news store and supply shop that recently declared bankruptcy: out for sell now.
Yet at the current moment it's only... 4:38pm With being mid day and light casting over Dazai's features and his current book infront if him.
He's proof reading his own work more or so for just pleasure and enjoyment, relaxing and himself enjoying being a reader and the wonders of a book. Speaking of. He just published his book Dazai is a novelist who also has recently dipped his feet in the warm pool of romance fictions on his spare time as well, no he has posted any.
They just sit there in his notes app he actually has 3 full completed love stories Just sitting there idle Up until recently... Days ago Dazai just published a book, going out of his norm, but using the fame of his: "the setting sun", and "no longer human"'s popularity to let him expanded into his second (in the working) genre; Love... Lately (specifically 6 months 26 days ago)
Call him classic or a basic bitch but you just can't replace those nights where you either have a shitty day, or brighten an already pretty good, maybe instead just an average day.
Though nonetheless being the heightened part of the day, being snuggled up and reading a romance. Imaging and getting invested in the world behind the pages/panels and words/pictures that write/pictures the love stories of characters you just can't resist but get really keen on. If it's a good or well written, maybe just the characters, which to Dazai's reluctance sometimes he just can't help but find the characters hot...
Or maybe just his perfect man, yes man. This writer is Bi and indulges on gayness as well....
Only has been truely sure about it 6 months and 26 days ago You can't blame him though sometimes the way the writer sets up the characters to be... it's just eugh! Too perfect dream man, swoon worthy.
Like c'mon it's just the cherry on top if it's a manga, Dazai let's himself revel in. Though careful to keep the simulation at a tamed level, just enough to be able to put the book down. But with that aside Dazai is here at the library to read, casually to let himself emerge in the wonderful world of what the words share.
Long story short time goes by and by the time Dazai is finishing up reading his draft which he's already accomplished the grammar editing stage. Thus for there is no need to edit and just reading out of enjoyment getting immerse with the digital characters that hold his very story.
Letters upon line, paragraphs for each and every page of the long beautiful well written document, devised of 31 chapters.
This is an old PDF Dazai has written its one of those 3 love stories that he has written; the newest out of the unconnected trilogy.
The one he published not too long ago, a week since first debuted on the shelves the same very shelves that surround him in his very on cubical. Pure irony the library has Dazai's own books on the shelves that surround his table, with the librarians fully aware of his time there. Even some newer staff as they get informed by veterinarians of the library staff, but those keep it pretty chill much to his thanks.
Typically, they go up to him asking for an signature copy, at least if they recognize his status; which is only growing with each novel, now especially as he dips his foot in romance. As posting that love book: "Bellodonna.." not more then 14 days, no long ago.
Though the book has gotten quiet popular with only being exposed to the public to read with the span of a bit over a week since release. Dazai Osamu has basically taken overall the readers in Yokohama and his books are traveling far, now getting all across Japan. Used to only be with shorter reach as in Dazai remembers when he first got to brach out to Tokyo, wow if you saw the thrill on his usually calm features you would think that it was a big deal.
Yes even if it was only a nother city over, it was a very big deal to Dazai back then as it was a milestone hit, telling him for once... could make it big. Fair change in the industry, with having getting his start with novels, now look where he is, getting to spread his stories across of the whole country. Really is something isn't it?
Though now Dazai is happily using this to take a step further and do what he is also starting to experiment about in the genre of love... Okay listen at first Dazai wasn't too thrilled about the genre or even the thought about love.
But crist someone save Dazai he is in fucking love, obsessed with this one band, their main vocalist. okay Dazai wouldn't say he's obsessed, maybe... Atsushi though, also the one who should him the amazing band!
"PMafia."
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Consist of members Ryunosuke, and Gin which honestly Dazai didn't pay much attention to the Akutagawa siblings. Nor the drummer Higuchi. But it's whatever because he's not paying attention to that if anything all his eyes and ears are drawn to the one who sings their albums.
The fucking ginger Dazai's senses just gwak at.
It's always something Dazai could never understand why or how he even let himself fall in love like one of those teenage girls. Maybe Dazai is obsessed as that is what Dazai does Infact listening with background noise when writing, just brings him a good motivational mood.
Even if the scene is sad and indie rock music is blasting in his ears that sometimes are too ear-bleed worthy high... through blue tooth. Though sometimes earbuds, Dazai like the look and aesthetic they bring, just like his head phones, Dazai will never opt for air pods. For many reasons: as it's the universal sign that headphones on mean; Don't Fucking Talk To Me.
You know what Dazi isn't a complete introvert to majorities surprise but at the same time he would just like some damn peace. Also the chance of having to converse lowers the chances by like 40%, precisely 39.67% out through the cluster fuck of Yokohama city traffic.
Mainly tourist if anything or for more casual reasons rather then getting asked for autographs. With Dazai wears a mask out in public, not in the comfort of his little nook, he feels like it's fine plus it gets bit stuffy. Although Dazai just doesn't really show his face and maybe only has a few photos online of him.
Or; sometimes Dazai is just in a tensed mood where all he wants to do is write; go-to location that coffee cottage café. Second it just looks better, the rose gold color headphones pair nice with his darker hair color. Along with what Dazai's preferred choice of clothing to where is, what the stereotypical soft cottage vibe. Though his closest is also formal, typically novelist style just with hints of soft core, Dazai's own customization.
Wearing at the moment right now: white button shit, bolo tie, soft bown wool vest, light colored casual baggy jeans, belt. It's Dazai's style mix of formal yet comfortable enough to his liking. Although feels presentable enough to wear in public; given beauty standards now.
Although since that Dazai is rereading his book, the eldest of the three romances, this is when his first Era of acknowledging the band, roughly only 6 months. Right in the honey moon swooning stage, though its calmed down to a more casual level. If anything Dazai would like to say he's gotten over his feeling of PMafia's lead singer.
More or so due to Dazai not being able to really enjoy seeing how fucking cringe his pass self is. How much he just wants to knock some sense into that poor lovesick self of his previous. but technically he is still working, not slacking.
All time is valuable especially when the author is in the flow of things, having to keep the motivation while it last.
Because writers block is a bitch. Period. No need to say anymore.
Although to Dazai's fortune he hasn't have that problem, but Dazai will say nothing for his careers' sake. This book was written right at the peek of his obsession so yes he had to revise it so many times pervious before, Dazai gets enlightened again which gets him embarrassed internally.
Outwardly he's blushing faintly but his brown fluffy curls that spring over his forehead tips falling right over his eyes. So it only fuzzed up his cheeks. Which it's been so long he pretty much forgot the whole story, and that's to the embarrassment that he has pushed deep and far away. Down to the back of his genius brain yet, reading this reopened that healed scar the reminded him how obsessed he had over him.
Dazai can't live with the embarrassment, yet can't bring himself to delete his first love book, goddamnit But like Dazai said this is not wasting his time, just simply doing a revision in his progress. Looking over his past so to improve, totally he's not doing this just because he's curious and also needs something to read.... though
Both a blessing and curse as it's the final draft that he himself revised because not risking other know... not even his best friend Atsushi who is also down for a member in that band. Yet that's all the thing Atsushi is a little to pure and not gay-nought to handle that book. No one could be as fruity as that book, damn it Dazai fell hard back then.
Which honestly gets him embarrassed as well reading tha whole book, it's one he won't share. Not anyone... He wants a hole to eat him up So with a faint dust of pink that grows stronger on his cheeks. He quickly shuts his lap top not wanting to further open that cut, not in public at least.
Not where there are people who know him here(the staff), and tons of students-- which speaking of he should get out of here before 6pm that what Dazai notices is busiest with students.
'What time is it? '
Dazai thinks to himself as though he's still momentarily shocked with blush that only gets more stronger with the thought of others possibly seeing what secrets lies under that old document. Though all of it gets cuts off that train of thought vanishing instantly...