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Heeseung and Sunoo’s family has been tight since the beginning, with their moms being best friends, it’s inevitable for them to be best friends, too. And with their parents rooting for them, ending up together is another not unforeseen event.
Heeseung is elated, who wouldn’t? If you are about to marry your best friend, your soulmate, the other half that you never lost because you’ve been together since the beginning, who wouldn’t be happy, right?
But he began to notice the changes, the small flinch Sunoo does every time he hugs him that he didn’t mind years ago, seems too hard to go unnoticed now. The smile that didn’t reach the younger’s eyes when he proposed in front of their whole family on one of their bi-weekly dinners, doesn’t look like it’s just from shock anymore. The way he seems to gaze into nothingness when they’re on their wedding tux fitting feels like it’s not just because he needs rest from the wedding preparations. All of those small gazes, the looks that seemed like pleading, all of those that Heeseung noticed but dropped in another second, they made sense now.
They made sense now, because why? Why would Sunoo cry on the night before their wedding? Why would he cry like his life is being taken away from him? Why would he gasp like he has been drowning for too long? Why? Why? Why?
Why, when he entered Sunoo’s room and their eyes met, his cries got louder, gasps heavier. Why when he crouched in front of him, the first thing that Sunoo said was “I miss my best friend.” Why? When he never left. Why? When they’re always together. Why? When after their wedding, they will always be together, forever. Why? Why would Sunoo miss him when he’s always with him?
And then it clicked.
Sunoo doesn’t miss Heeseung the way he understood it.
He misses his best friend. The one that he doesn’t have to marry. His best friend who would fight his mom, even though she’s her own mom’s best friend, because they always, always used to pressure Sunoo onto doing things he never really wanted. He misses the Heeseung who understands what he means without him saying it. He misses the Heeseung who knows him. Truly. Deeply.
And it broke Heeseung’s heart. Not because their wedding will not push through. Not even because Sunoo doesn’t love him the way he loves him. It broke his heart because he failed his best friend.
He was too focused on his own happiness, because when was the last time he considered Sunoo’s feelings? Heck, he didn’t even hear him answer during his proposal, since when he popped the question, their parents immediately celebrated! Popping champagne, as if they already knew that Sunoo would say yes. What’s worse? He celebrated with them.
Funny, he proposed even if they’re not officially together. Sunoo didn’t say that he’s his boyfriend. It was their moms who labeled it as one when they saw him walking hand in hand.
And Heeseung? Heeseung blushed. And got into the role as Sunoo’s boyfriend. Too excited to notice the surprise on the younger's eyes, the way Sunoo’s protests got drowned by their parents’ teasing, and celebration.
So no, he won’t blame Sunoo for breaking his heart.
Because he did it to himself.
What’s worse? he broke Sunoo’s heart first.