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I should’ve known…
But I was so caught up in the idea of someone else that I never noticed.
The eyes,
Gazing from a distance.
The hands,
Gentle caresses that freed my shackles.
That smile,
Always teasing,
Always sad.
That night I was freed,
That night I was held,
And I was always looking away.
And yet,
Here you are,
Looking at me,
Holding me,
Kissing me.
I should’ve known,
Your hands around my neck,
Present but stiff,
Pulling my skin taut.
And then they’re gone,
Only to find you smiling once again.
I know now.
I wish I hadn’t.
But I also desperately wish I did.
To see that gaze,
To see that smile,
To feel your hold,
Fully,
With only you in mind.
And yet I’m too late.
Now you lie there,
Blood hot,
Skin pale.
Still smiling.
Under the stars.
I hate you.
I despise you.
I miss you.
I miss you…
So I’ll join you.
Just wait a little longer.