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You are a girl who doesn't like live communication and prefers online communication rather than face-to-face. Life is so boring that you prefer not to talk about it so as not to create a bad impression of yourself. You like to play games, mostly alone. You had a friend with whom you could play, but your conversations on discord during the game were completely distracting and eventually your game ended with a long conversation and various gossip. Sometimes you wanted to find new friends, you were inspired by different videos in social networks where many people meet and communicate on different servers. You used to try to go to some server, but there were so many people there that you were embarrassed to go there. It was hard for you to get into the company, usually they didn't listen to you and you quickly fell silent. You were sociable at the same time, especially during long communication, when you feel comfortable. That's mainly why you lost your friends. Too much meaningless chatter confused people, most often it pissed me off, which led to ignoring your messages and then to the end of the communication itself. From the circle of communication there was only the only friend and mother, you did not have any close relationship with your mother, but because of the need to communicate with her, you had monosyllabic conversations from which you wanted to leave as soon as possible.
It was a quiet day, your week lasted pretty fast, but it was terribly boring. Sometimes you went out for a walk, but these were quick trips and usually they lasted only 30-60 minutes. You had enough of such short meetings with a friend after her work, after which you went home to sit down at the computer as soon as possible. You recently picked up a new keyboard and microphone, usually you spent money on updating your workplace without paying attention to other more important needs. No, you still remained that nice girl who takes care of herself and buys delicate hairpins that would complement your gentle image. But the priority has always been a computer and its accessories. After buying a new microphone, before going to bed, an obsessive thought surfaced in your head to find a server for communication. Sometimes your head was caught by a thought that you couldn't just get out of your head. Usually they are quite simple, for example, you wanted to buy something urgently. You fulfilled your wishes right away, you're not used to denying yourself something.
The next day, you started looking for different discord servers that were not so popular that there were more than 3-5 people. Several hours have passed since the beginning of your search, which ended almost nothing. You were added to several servers, you didn't write anything there and no one welcomed you either. You didn't particularly focus on this fact, considering it normal. You didn't know how everything was arranged there, you decided that you tried, and decided to finish with the search, deciding that it would be enough. You decided to go cook yourself a meal, at the same time tell your friend about your search. She decided to recommend several servers where she was, or used to be in them. You still decided to join these servers, deciding that it wouldn't be worse.
When you ate, you went to play your phone always on the "dister" mode, it really annoyed some people, but mostly it was your family, so you didn't really care. After a few hours of play, you were so exhausted, nerves were already short and you decided to continue later. Taking the phone in his hands, it was 11.23 p.m. on the clock. Your mother had been sleeping for a long time, so you decided not to leave the room so as not to wake her up. She never scolded you for not sleeping at night because in most cases you were quiet not counting the days when you play with your friend or brother. You used to spend time with him a lot, talking a lot, playing together. When you were little, you often went on vacation to your grandmother in her private house to live together for a couple of weeks. You could share your secrets, your experiences with each other. You were the closest and dearest to each other. At the age of 14, you had your first real relationship, which was in real life. Before that, you had a relationship, but it lasted a maximum of 2 weeks, after which you broke up. It was an Internet relationship, you never took such a relationship seriously, but at the same time you entered into such a relationship because deep down you really hoped for a good outcome. Usually your teenage hopes were fueled by various TV series or videos in TikTok where sweet couples posted cute videos about their love story. No matter how much you wanted not to believe in such stories, referring to the fact that all this is just a lie in order to collect more likes on the video, you were still too naive in this regard. After entering into this relationship, your ex-boyfriend squeezed all the juices out of you.This relationship lasted almost a year, after which he decided to break up with you. During this relationship, you saw each other only 5 times, although we lived 15 minutes away from each other. You didn't even kiss, Everyone who knew about your relationship told you that all this was abnormal. You understood it yourself, but listening to all his sweet speeches about how they will heal together, what a long and strong relationship you will build if you are together allowed you to close your eyes to his actions for which he should not be forgiven. During this relationship, your communication with your brother was reduced to zero, and you could not restore those warm relationship between you.
It's been a couple of hours since you watched YouTube mostly sitting on your phone, flipping through the Pinterest feed. You saw that you received a message from the Discord , when you went there, you were finally greeted, albeit dry, but it didn't matter. It was some server that you found on tik tok, some girl was looking for a couple of people to play together or watch something. You decided to go to the voice chat, there were only 2 people who were silent, sometimes muttering something that was, you can't understand. You came in, deciding to say a few words quickly and quietly, not knowing if they noticed that you joined. "Hii, I recently joined this server." You froze waiting for what they would say, your fear was not justified. You liked to think of a lot of things, which most often prevented you from living quietly to some extent. Probably 100 different thoughts flew through your head that were far from favorable. You expected to hear ridicule, mockery of your words. You were worried about whether your words sounded stupid, whether it was casual. These thoughts made you really think about whether you should have rehearsed your speech before adding to the voice chat. Their silence seemed to oppress you, you wanted to turn off the microphone and then quietly leave the server and never come in again, change your nicknames everywhere and "start life from scratch". The girl who greeted you calmly began to speak, after a couple of sentences she almost began to mutter. "Oh, I didn't think you'd be added so quickly, we were going to wait for the rest and go watch a movie, are you with us? While we are waiting, let's get acquainted, I'm Toga, Spinner is with us. We, or I'll tell you about everyone here, I'm glad you added to the voice chat!" Spinner threw a short "yo" and turned off the microphone, giving Toga the opportunity to continue her monologue. You didn't expect her to speak so quickly, sometimes you asked again about what she said. You only managed to introduce yourself by telling a couple of insignificant facts about yourself before Toga started talking about herself.
Despite her quick speech, when talking about herself, she still thought before telling something about herself. You quickly noticed it when you saw the contrast between her fast speech and small pauses, and quick muttering about some facts about yourself. She said them, even though you didn't ask for it. Spinner said that he would be away for a while and asked to wait for him if the other guys would come before his return. When it came out, Toga decided to briefly tell about the server participants.
Twice was almost the most inactive participant of the server, he hardly played games. He was on this server only because he was friends with Toga. He sometimes came to watch a movie, but he didn't stay there for long and went out. Spinner was quite active, most often he calls to play together. He, like Toga, talks a lot at the time of the movie, making various jokes about which someone sometimes giggles, but nothing more. Usually he also comments on the game, he rarely gets angry during the games, usually only when he is distracted. Toga has already told about herself before that, from all this incessant chatter you were able to understand. That she is also the initiator of all fees, and usually offers to play Minecraft all together. The last member of the server was Shigaraki, he was a friend of Spinner. Most often he was not present during movie viewings, preferring to play. Toga warned that it was almost not possible to make friends with him. You were calm about it, considering that he was some stupid aggressive schoolboy who was offended by everyone. It took another 10 minutes before everyone gathered, as Toga said, only Twice, Spinner you and Toga herself came to watch. You had a good time, they received you more or less well.
After you said goodbye, you left and moved away from the table. Your hands were really shaking, your heart was pounding and you exhaled, realizing that everything went well. It was almost 2 a.m. and you decided to go to bed.
The next day, you got up late, you forgot to raise your blinds on the windows so your room was absolutely dark and you slept longer than usual. When you got up, you immediately started writing to your friend about what happened yesterday. It was something like a feat for you, you were all completely unfamiliar, but at the same time you had a good time and remembered your fear only after leaving the voice chat.
- "You just have no idea what happened yesterday, I'M STILL IN SHOCK" you already wanted to record a voice where you would squeak because of yesterday's get-up with them.
- "Girl, I'm at work, come to me" You quickly stopped recording voice. You sometimes forget that she works, so you decided to visit her in the evening and go home together.
You went to discord to watch the chat. You only saw a few messages from Spinner, who was joking about something after the end of the call 20 minutes after you left. You saw that Toga sent you a friend request and you quickly accepted it.
The day passed quickly and in the evening you went to get ready for a friend's work. You walked pretty fast, you couldn't wait to tell her that you had found good company. When you met, she didn't have time to say anything, as you quickly interrupted her and started telling her everything. "Don't you think your communication will end quickly?" Your friend liked to fuel some of your fears, she could not do it on purpose. Or you wanted to think so.. You quickly fell silent, you walked next to each other and you stopped looking at her, You just snorted, you had only known each other for a day, so this loss was small. You reached the house, you lived in the same house but you were separated by a different entrance. By the time you came back, your mother was already in the kitchen and watching the series while cooking. You didn't want to talk to her, so after saying hello, you quickly decided to go into your room and close the door. Opening the door to your room, you saw that the blinds were open, allowing a small amount of light to fall into your room.
Your mom didn't like the fact that your room looked like a "cave". "Why did you open the blinds?" You screamed. She didn't answer anything, when you lowered them again you went to mom in the kitchen. You repeated your question. "Because I've said 100 times that you'll be like a zombie soon. You already have red eyes, I heard you talking at night. Are you on your own again?" She turned to me expecting me to answer in my excuse. I didn't argue with her so that the conflict wouldn't turn into a quarrel, I poured tea and went to my room.
When you went to discord, you saw almost 50 messages from guys from different servers who were going to play something or argued. You decided to go to one of them, it wasn't quite active, there were also about 6 people there. After reviewing the profiles of some of them, you decided to send a request to a couple of people at your own risk. Everything was much easier for you on the Internet. After you gave up the applications, you went to play PlayStation. You recently bought a new game that you wanted to go through. Yesterday's game was still on your nerves and you decided not to play it yet.
A few hours passed before you started to sleep. Seeing the time, you were surprised to see it there on 01.07 at night. Maybe this is another reason why you liked to play, time passes unnoticed, but time has stopped for you. You could not think about something terrible, for example, about your future, which not only your family but also your friend says so much. She has so many plans for life, she always strived for something without letting herself sit still. Sometimes it fascinated you so much, and sometimes it made you burning envy. Thoughts about going to work sometimes slipped through your thoughts, but fear took hold of you. The fear of being judged for your inexperience has closed so many doors for you.
You started to go to bed, you decided to first go to a couple of social networks and reply to the messages of your friend who wrote to you while you were going through missions in the game. In discord you saw that your applications were not accepted, leaving you ignored. You didn't wait for a miracle, deciding to remove yourself from the server and remove applications. Today you didn't communicate with those guys and those words of your friend about a short friendship crept into your head, you decided that you would not worry and would go to bed.
You got up early, your mom has already left, having written a message that she will be late at work today. It usually happened once every 3 weeks, so you didn't worry much about it. In any case, nothing changed, you never threw parties, you just had no one to call. You sat down at the computer, including something in the background and started to climb into the phone. You looked through the feed on the social network and saw a post about the opening of the store related to games. You've heard about such stores before, but you've never met them in your city. This store was not very close to your house, but you could walk to it in about 30-40 minutes. Your friend had a day off, you decided to offer her to go to this store together, which she agreed to because of the thought of interesting snacks that could be sold there.
You decided to go to discord, you saw a couple of messages there and saw in the voice chat that there was a spinner and another guy. It seems to be the Shigaraki Toga was talking about. You decided to come in but turned off the microphone. As soon as you came in, you saw that Spinner was streaming the screen. You heard Shigaraki's irritated voice trying to explain to Spinner how to use the combo of blows correctly to quickly pass the boss and get a rare achive. "Oh uh-.. hi, What are you doing?". You decided to ask so that it doesn't seem like you're quietly eavesdropping on their conversation. Shigaraki suddenly fell silent without agreeing on the offer. "yo, I want to get an achive and I'm trying to figure out how to press this stupid combo." At the end, his voice was irritated, clearly making it clear that it had been going on for quite a long time.
"I recently joined your server, are you Shigaraki?" You didn't hear his answer and decided to introduce yourself. Spinner was still muttering something and was indignant without stapping the stream, you could hear how hard he pressed the buttons as if something depended on it. Only then did you realize that Shigaraki turned off the microphone at all, not going to continue talking to you. Seeing this, you decided not to interfere in their conversation anymore, you became embarrassed that everything turned out that way.
You didn't understand what you did, that he didn't even want to introduce himself. Grumbling something, you said goodbye to Spinner making fun of him, to which he laughed and actingly pretended that you came out very upset. You understood that the relationship between the guys was normal, your jokes were not always good at any time, but the guys sincerely laughed at them and this made them even more attracted to you.
15:38. You started getting ready outside to go to the store with your friend. You were almost ready, after ironing your T-shirt you started to make up. When it was time to go out, you saw a message from a friend. "I don't know what to wear." You hated it when she was late. By the way, she was always late. You've already been to the elevator, so you decided to wait for her outside. There was a bench at the entrance to her entrance, so you decided to wait for her there. When you sat on it, you decided to write to Toga. "Hi, maybe we'll exchange Instagram accounts?" You thought it would bring you closer, because she was a nice girl you wanted to make friends with. "Ooh, hi! Of course, here's my user:..." She sent her nickname, and you subscribed to her. She had about 300 subscribers who actively commented and liked her photos. Your account was closed, there was only one photo that was not even on your avatar. You didn't have time to correspond a little, you liked a few of her photos before your friend came out.
You slowly went aside to this store, you looked at the approximate location of this store, hoping that you could easily find this store anyway. When you reached this store, it was written on the transparent door that they were looking for workers. It was not surprising, considering that they opened a few days ago. You went inside, immediately running to the first bright rack. You were loudly surprised by every figure, different merch and new snacks. You walked between the shelves, you sometimes took pictures of something ridiculous. You left the store after 40 minutes with a lot of emotions. You went home, and you were still alone at home. You saw what Toga wrote to you.
- "why don't you take pictures? You're so pretty" seeing this message, the smile crawled to your ears, you rarely received compliments.
-"I'm sorry I didn't answer, I went to a new store that recently opened. It has so much merch from different games! Look..." You started sending her those photos with funny toys, or drawings of different characters from games on the packages of snacks, where their face was ridiculously crumpled.
You talked to Toga quickly, you discussed each other a little, your distractions. It turned out that Toga lives in another city. "And you don't know where the rest of the guys live." You became interested to know about it. It turned out that Spinner lives outside the city of your city, but when he starts studying, he will move here for good. Twice lived in a completely different city far from all the guys. What about Shigaraki, he never talked about where he lives. This shigaraki was so secretive, you understood such people, but according to Toga, they have been communicating for a long time, didn't he reveal himself to them?
The next day came, you still couldn't complete this mission in the game. Up from the chair, you went to the kitchen to pour yourself coffee. Today you were going to go to play with the guys, you were for it. It was already evening, you all started getting ready to go play. Toga and Spinner were already in the voice chat, you decided to come in. At the same time, Shigaraki came in with you, you said hello to everyone, Shigaraki turned off the microphone again, not wanting to have a meaningless conversation. You didn't try to start talking to him anymore, realizing that he was not interested in it. You all joined the same lobby and started playing. You decided to play "phasmaphobia", you haven't played this game before, but Toga assured me that even Twice sometimes plays it with them, and that it's really interesting.
An hour has passed since the game, Spinner was in the car and watched the cameras, Toga was on the ground floor and watched the EMF. You, in turn, were on the second floor, talking to Spinner. You saw some streams with this game, and you knew a little what to do. Sometimes Toga corrected you if you were wrong. But Shigaraki still made a couple of short complaints about your game. You were very worried about it, it offended you a lot, but you usually tried to miss his words, suddenly shut up after his words. When you entered the room leaving the notebook, the ghost began to attack and at that moment Shigaraki came in. He probably didn't know that you were on the floor with him, just like you. You screamed scared, not knowing what to do, Shigaraki fell silent and squatted down and began to walk towards the closet, trying to remain unnoticed. As a result, during the attack, Toga ran away, and you still stood still. In the end, seeing Shigaraki crawling somewhere, you decided to follow his example. You ran up to him, before he had time to squat, he tried to whisper but at the same time aggressively drive you away and at that moment.. "FUCK-" and you heard a crunch, you quickly ran away to the other end of the room. He was killed. The door opened and you ran downstairs. After running to the van where Spinner and Toga were, you heard Spinner laughing, and Toga was making some kind of joke. You saw a message from Shigaraki in the discord chat
- "Who gave this disabled person a code in the lobby". It was a rhetorical question, the guys who played began to laugh even more. You didn't come up with anything except
-"Don't whine"
As a result, you were still playing for a couple of hours before Toga decided to leave. You understood that Spinner and Shigaraki get along better with each other and you were already going to leave.
- "Maybe you'll give me your steam?" I gave Spinner my steam, Shigaraki was still silent. After that, we chatted a little and Spinner was about to leave, when he began to say goodbye, I saw that at the same second Shigaraki left the voice chat. I didn't say anything about it, and we all went out.
After almost a week, you still communicated. It was an ordinary day, you didn't sleep today, so you were sitting at the computer. You received a notification that some kind of sale has started in Steam. You came in quickly, deciding that you would kill time looking for any new game. You didn't have many friends in Steam. It took about 10-15 minutes, and out of interest you decided to see what games Spinner has, waiting for him to find something you might like. After entering his account, you started watching his games. An hour and a half flew by unnoticed, especially when your playlist was playing in your headphones. When you checked the "game" tabs, you saw Toga's avatar in the "friends" window. You decided to go there, you saw that Spinner's friends had a nickname like Shigaraki in discord. You decided to log in to his account. You were very interested, especially because he is the only one you could never communicate with properly.
During these couple of weeks that you all know each other, you were on good terms with each participant. Even communication with Twis was on a good note, but with Shigaraki.. Your relationship was really tense, he didn't want to accept you at all. But despite your skirmishes during the games, he was still interesting. Not in a romantic way, it's just that the very image of a "hidden" person has always attracted. When you went to his account, you saw a HUGE number of games. Your eyes ran away in such a variety of games. All games were completed almost 100 percent, many had almost all the endings open.
While you were researching his account, you were able to mark several games that you would definitely play. You had most of the games in his library, your favorite games were also 100% passed. You were shocked by how much he was in games. "He has nothing else to do?", after this thought, you smiled a little and left the stim. After viewing his Steam account, your interest only grew. At least in the games you had a similar taste, maybe you could still find something in common. You couldn't admit that you like him, it was not true. You didn't know anything about him, that's what attracted you.