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You are broken on the floor...
It happened all too soon.
10 seconds.
10 seconds was all she was supposed to be gone.
But now?
She'll be gone for eternity.
She was just supposed to get a stupid rock.
A stupid rock for the sake of the universe. And for what? What's the point? Your everything is gone. Just like that.
Clint came back silent, something was deeply haunting him. It was clear to everyone.
You could hear Bruce ask him something but you weren't listening to know what was said.
You didn't need to. You knew already.
In less time than what she was supposed to be gone, you lost all of yourself. A deep emptiness overtaking you, but not without its companions of dread and pain.
A silent 'no' coming from your lips as you collapsed.
And you're crying, crying...
The word you wanted to say would've come from your lips if the sobs didn't steal the last breath from your lungs.
The pure agony it was, breathing...
You couldn't fathom it.
Everyone on the team surrounded you, taken aback by your sudden lack of composure.
You were known to be the most composed on the team. Never showing true, real emotions, not that you couldn't but rather you chose not to let them see.
The only one that got the privy of seeing the real you was gone.
You are broken on the floor...
Everything was entirely irrelevant now, nothing mattered anymore.
You couldn't care less about the mission at hand, it was fruitless now.
Your hands clawed at the suddenly claustrophobic uniform you were wearing, dying for it to be off.
Everyone stood dumbfounded at what to do. They knew there was nothing that could be said.
Only once you were able to take a breath in did you finally move, hunching over yourself as sound finally came from you.
Only it was the sound of your inconsolable, borderline anguished cries.
How to carry on...?
Only once Clint and Rocket tried to get you to sit up did you speak real words...
"NO! No! This wasn't supposed to happen!" Your palms hit Clint in the chest, with no effect due to you losing all of your energy. "We were supposed to have forever!"
You simply collapsed into him, not knowing what else there is for you to possibly do.
"She was my forever..."
Numbness overtook you.
You no longer wanted to live, after all, what was there to live for?