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Everything could be heard.
Even over the buzzing in his ears, the beat of his heart was so unbearably loud in his ears as he sat down on the cold tiles, heart feeling so tight as he felt his anxiety brim in his chest.
This was his fourth or maybe fifth test this year.
Hands clenched tight against his thighs, eyes fixated on the stick placed in front of him on the floor.
And he sent out a prayer.
Please God give this to me, to us.
Please.
And the timer on his phone went off.
Five minutes have passed.
He heard footsteps coming closer to the door and waiting there.
He took a deep breath in and out.
With unsteady hands he flipped the device.
And stared at the little test stick.
He felt the world freeze and his breath caught in his throat.
A tear fell down from the corner of his eye then another and before he knew it he was sobbing.
He couldn’t stop, eyes blurry from the tears, he reached out a hand to cover his sobs but he was crying so hard it did nothing to muffle the noise.
Two lines on the detector.
His ears were buzzing, he could no longer hear his heartbeat.
He scrambled to get the container out of the trash and read the instructions.
Remove cap.
Place absorbent tip into collected urine for five seconds.
Place the cap on the absorbent tip and place it downward.
Wait for five minutes.
Then there were the pictures of the results.
One line not pregnant.
Two lines pregnant.
It doesn’t matter how faint or dark the lines are.
He looked back and forth between the stick in his hands and the test controls.
Two lines indicate pregnancy.
No matter how faint or dark the lines are.
But the lines on his stick test were dark.
Both of them.
Oh!
It was happening!
Once the realization hit him, both the test stick and the container hit the ground with a thud.
A second passed and there was a knock on the door, followed by a worried call of his name.
“Yuta is everything okay love?”
Oh Johnny.
Yes, his husband.
He had forgotten about him for a second.
If this was any other time, like two months ago, Yuta would’ve been out of the bathroom with tears in his eyes and a sad smile on his face but this time it would be different when he opens the door.
So he slowly opened the door to face a worried Johnny.
Lips between his teeth. Brows pinched. Hair pulled back with what looks like frustrated hands.
Yuta stepped out of the bathroom with tears in his eyes, and threw himself into Johnny’s embrace, sobbing even harder if that was even possible.
“Yuta love, please talk to me, you are scaring me.”
Johnny had seen Yuta cry over a negative test result more times than he would like, but this time it was different.
He has never seen his husband cry to a point of not being able to talk.
He didn’t know what to do other than hold him tight until he was better.
A few minutes passed by and Yuta pulled back and walked into the bathroom, and came back to show him something in his hand, Johnny confused looked down to see the test stick rushing to say it's okay they will try again, but before starting Yuta slowly pointed to the two lines smiling with tears streaming down his beautiful eyes.
And Johnny has seen enough tests to know what this means.
“Did we…. Are you…. Are we really…. Yuta?”
Yuta nodded and he started sobbing again and buried his face into Johnny’s shirt and the other held him tight.
“Yes Johnny. We did it. I am pregnant. And yes we are going to be parents Johnny!”
It was now Johnny’s turn so start crying, he pulled him just enough to place a kiss on his lover’s tear stained face and cupped it in his bigger hands and slowly wiped away the tears with his thumbs and whispered, “I am so proud of you my love, you are so strong for everything you have done. And now you are going to carry our baby. ”
Yuta choked out a laugh and smiled so bright Johnny thought he might combust right there and then.
“I love you.” He said as he leaned in to kiss Yuta, soft and slow.
Yuta reached out and grabbed onto his broad shoulders and he picked his husband up and carried him to their bed.
As they lay down in each other's embrace, Johnny couldn’t bring himself to stop looking at Yuta.
So beautiful, so soft.
Eyes red and swollen from all the tears, head resting on Johnny’s chest one hand on his stomach the other in Johnny’s hold.
Lips swollen from all the kisses Johnny took from and gave him.
With his free hand he started to stroke Yuta’s soft curls and his husband leaned into his touch with a content sigh.
Johnny wanted to say something, to tell him how much he loved him, how much he meant to him, but he couldn’t get the words out. The words wouldn’t come out of his mouth.
He placed a kiss on top of Yuta’s head and whispered his name out.
He thought if he spoke out loud he would make everything crumble down and this would turn out to be just a dream.
Yuta looked up from where his head was on his chest and waited for Johnny to speak.
“Yuta, I love you so much. I don't think I can ever express it enough. You are giving me something I have always wanted and I didn’t think this could be possible but I admire you more and more everyday. Thank you for everything you’ve done for me and keep on doing for me. I will always be thankful for giving me a chance all those years ago. Thank you my love, thank you for being in my life, and giving me the greatest gift there is, which is your love and now a family,”
Johnny felt a lump growing in his throat, he was close to tears but he couldn’t start crying now because Yuta has just stopped doing that and if he cried he was sure Yuta would start again and he couldn’t do that, he couldn’t bare to see it.
But his Yuta started crying again and Johnny panicked, this is not what he wanted to happen no no no he didn't want him to start crying again. But before he could say anything, Yuta kissed him hard.
“I love you too Johnny boy.” Yuta said after pulling away, using the nickname he had given Johnny back in the day.
They both smiled and basked in their new happiness, their new family to come.
-
Yuta woke up with his hand on his mouth and blindly ran to the bathroom with Johnny trailing behind him a moment later as he registered the movement around him.
His knees hit the hard cold tiles of the bathroom and before he knew it he was heaving out and his stomach was in knots.
Throat hurting, head aching and tears welling up in his eyes once again.
He emptied out all the contents of his stomach and was now just left spitting out bile.
When Johnny reached the bathroom the sight of his husband broke his heart.
He quickly knelt down next to him and moved Yuta’s hair away from his face with one of his hands and the other found its place on Yuta’s back trying to sooth him from all the tension in his body, “I'm here love. I have got you.”
He knew those words weren’t enough but for now that’s all he could do and it was killing him.
If he could, he would take away all the pain and nausea from Yuta and endure everything himself. But he couldn’t, so the least he could do was offer support.
The heaving stopped and Yuta silently leaned back into Johnny’s chest and closed his eyes.
He was grateful for the wall of muscle behind him, engulfing him right away.
He felt exhausted, so worn out, like he wasn’t in his body at the moment. He hated feeling like that, but for him it was all worth it, because of the little life growing inside him.
It took a few moments or longer for the nausea to finally go away. Yuta then buried his face in the crook of Johnny’s neck, he hoped Johnny didn’t care about his sweaty hair and face. Because he was too exhausted to move just yet.
And he felt at ease even with the utter tiredness, he felt at ease.
That’s something that has never changed.
Throughout the years.
Ever since they had met in college.
When they were friends, lovers, and now forever partners.
Married, expecting their first child. After so many trials.
“You are so strong baby, I’m always in awe of you.”
Johnny whispered into his ears.
And then placed his hand onto his stomach,
“You have to let your dad rest, baby. You can’t keep making him wake up when he hasn’t even slept enough!”, and bent down to leave a kiss there.
If Yuta could, he would laugh, but he didn’t have it in him, and he just wanted to go back to bed. Sitting on the cold hard tiles wasn’t nice.
So he wrapped his arms around Johnny’s neck and snuggled closed hoping he would get carried without having to speak.
His throat hurt too much to speak, and he didn’t want to put in any effort.
Johnny smiled at Yuta’s antics, he knew too well what the other wanted, so of course he obliged and carried him to bed, but not before washing his face and giving him a glass of water to gargle with, knowing his husband wouldn’t be able to relax until he felt clean enough but too tired to do any of that.
After he was satisfied, he carried Yuta out of the bathroom and towards their bedroom.
Some time passed by until Yuta gained back some strength, reached out and cupped Johnny’s cheek with one hand and gave him a very tired smile, “Thank you Johnny, for always being there for me.”
Johnny kissed his hand then held it in his own, “You are never alone my love, I will always be there for you. In every step.”
With a trembling breath Yuta closed his eyes and whispered out an I love you to Johnny hoping the other heard him.
And Johnny of course did and held Yuta’s trembling body tighter and kissed his head.
-
Johnny woke up to the sound of a door opening and saw light coming in through his blurry vision.
He reached his hand out to pull Yuta closer to him, so he could drift back to sleep as it was the weekend tomorrow and he wouldn’t be in any hurry to wake up.
But his hand was only met with the cold duvet and no Yuta. He figured his husband has woken up for his usual night cravings or has gone to the bathroom to empty his bladder. He smiled in fondness. He knew those things sometimes annoyed Yuta because he would say he never got enough sleep because of them but Johnny found it cute.
Especially when he would walk into Yuta eating the most random things at two in the morning.
So Johnny decided to wait for his husband to come back to bed then sleep with him in his arms cuddled up.
So Johnny waited.
But it was taking longer than usual for Yuta to come back, so he started to get worried and decided to go out and see what was taking his husband so long. The apartment was dimly lit and there weren't the usual sounds of the counters opening or of the water running. He frowned as he stepped into the kitchen, that is where he saw Yuta standing near the kitchen sink, with his shoulders hunched up.
He smiled and slowly walked towards Yuta not wanting to startle him.
But he stopped in his tracks when he heard his husband sniffle and let out a frustrated sound, and then he began crying. His whole body shaking.
“Fuck this!” He said as he let go of a jar he was trying to open Johnny figured.
Johnny quickly found himself next to Yuta holding him.
“Hey… hey now relax baby, breathe with me.”
And he started to count their breathing together, until Yuta was no longer crying and breathing normally.
“Want to tell me what happened there love?”
Johnny asked softly, not wanting to make the man in his arms cry again.
“I can’t do anything, all I wanted was a peanut butter sandwich, but I couldn’t even open the damn stupid jar!” Yuta heaved out, his breathing picking up again.
Johnny didn’t interrupt him, he let Yuta speak out all his frustrations.
“And then I’m constantly tired, or nauseated and throwing up, or out of breath. I can’t do anything right!. ”
He clung onto Johnny’s shirt like a lifeline,
“I just wanted a stupid sandwich, why am I crying about a stupid sandwich!”
Johnny shushed him and sat him down on the table,
“It’s okay my love, if you want to cry, cry all you want.” he said as he placed a kiss on his forehead.
“So what if you couldn’t open the stupid jar, I will open it for you. If you are nauseated and throwing up I will hold your hair back for you. If you are out of breath I will carry you around so you don’t have to walk. I will do everything with you my love, you can do everything right.”
Yuta had stopped crying and was just looking at Johnny with tired but fond eyes.
He let out a small laugh and hugged Johnny.
“How do you always know what to say, it's so annoying!”
“It's one of my many charms which you fell in love with.” Johnny teased him.
Yuta laughed, and oh Johnny loved that laugh.
It was the first thing that made him fall in love with Yuta, or it was the first thing he noticed about him all those years ago.
He heard that laughter and fell in love with the man.
“Can you now make me that sandwich, I’m even hungrier now after all that crying.” Yuta said with a blush creeping up his neck and cheeks.
“Anything for you my Yuta.”
-
Yuta was laying down in bed, staring into the darkness of their room. Curtains closed, lights turned off and the door shut, the only brightness in the room was the hallway light coming in from under the door.
He felt like he was suffocating, like something heavy was laying on his chest stopping him from breathing.
He tried to move and get on his side with a grunt, but it was so much work and he felt so uncomfortable with his protruding belly.
His body had changed so much, his feet were starting to swell a little, face becoming rounder, hips wider, he felt so out of control.
He was so scared, terrified even.
What more is going to change?
Then he would feel guilty for those thoughts he had because how could he?
They have wanted this baby for so long, they tried so hard and they finally had it.
Was he already a bad parent and partner for feeling like this?
He wanted to cry but couldn't even do that.
So funny how the tears would come at times he didn’t want them but now that he does, they’re not coming.
The guilt gnawed at him and he felt like it would eat him up.
He knew he should talk to Johnny about it, he always knew how to ease Yuta’s mind. But Johnny was already so busy with work and he didn’t want to worry his husband about it.
He wanted Johnny to be happy about their baby, not have to worry about how Yuta feels.
It all felt too much for him and he didn’t know what to do about it.
He was brought out of his spiral thoughts but the sound of their bedroom door opening.
“Yuta love, are you sleeping?” Asked Johnny in a whisper, as he walked towards their bed.
He couldn’t find his voice to answer him. So when Johnny sat down on the bed next to him, he just scooted over to be closer to him.
Johnny chuckled in fondness, “Here you are baby. I called out for you when I got home but you weren’t in the living room, so I figured you would be sleeping.”, he said while stroking Yuta’s soft curls.
Yuta must have not heard him over his thoughts. Again he didn’t say anything, only snuggled closer to Johnny and held onto him.
Johnny felt like something was wrong. “Is everything okay darling?” He asked, his voice laced with worry.
And that’s what broke Yuta as the tears started pouring down his face.
Oh so now you’re coming!
Johnny froze at the sudden tears in his lover’s eyes and quickly tried to wipe them away, but Yuta buried his face into the pillow so Johnny wouldn’t see him like this.
“Yuta what's wrong baby?” and Yuta sobbed even harder.
Johnny was worried. Worried that something had happened and he wasn’t there.
“Baby come on, look at me love. Let me see you.” He gently tried to move Yuta’s face away from the pillows.
But Yuta wasn’t moving and only cried harder with each passing second.
“Baby please.”
He felt desperate, he didn’t know what to do.
Yuta felt the desperation in Johnny’s voice and felt even more terrified.
What am I even doing?! Making Johnny worried!
He looked up from the pillow and aggressively wiped his tears away, willing them to stop with no success.
He shook his head and tried to smile,
“I’m sorry,” he choked out. “Nothing is wrong, just the hormones I guess.” He tried to sound cheery but even to his ears he failed. He knew Johnny wouldn’t believe him.
Johnny took Yuta’s hands away from his face and held them in his much bigger hands.
“No Yuta, it's not nothing. Something is on your mind and you need to tell me. Remember how I told you that you are not alone and I’m always with you. That includes both the good and bad days, so please tell me my darling why are you crying.”
Yuta’s lips trembled and a new wave of tears were welling up in his eyes.
“I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I should be happy but I’m crying.” He closed his eyes accepting the new tears.
“I should be over the moon, but it’s been so hard these days. I’m getting so big and ugly and I'm a terrible parent already Johnny!”
He freed his hands from Johnny’s and covered his face with them.
He couldn’t have the others' eyes on him. He just felt so terrible!
“I’m so scared.” He whispered.
And Johnny’s heart shattered into pieces at that, how did he not notice.
His own eyes began to water.
“Oh Yuta.” He said with a barely audible voice as his own tesrs fell down.
Oh no no no!
He made Johnny cry!
He can’t do anything right!
“No please Johnny, don’t cry please!” He begged. “I’m so sorry Johnny please!”
Johnny held Yuta’s trembling body in his own trembling hands.
“Yuta, my beautiful and strong Yuta. My whole heart and soul. My most precious person. My sweetheart, my angel, you are the bravest person I know.” He whispered with a voice thick with emotions.
He let go of Yuta to raise his chin so they were looking at each other’s eyes. Both red and swollen from crying, wet with their tears.
“You are and will be the best parent. Our little one will be so lucky to have you in their life. And I am forever lucky and grateful to have you as my other half.”
He fondly wiped away the remaining tears.
“It’s okay to feel like that. I sometimes also feel like I’m not doing enough for you, not supporting you enough by always being at work.” He raised his hand shushing Yuta because he knew the protests were coming.
His lovely husband always telling him he is enough, he wishes Yuta was that easy on himself too.
“So my beautiful Yuta, it is okay to feel like that. It is okay to feel scared, because it is scary but we have got this. We have each other to lean on. So lean on me my love. I will always be here next to you.”
Yuta felt too exhausted to answer anything, but for the first time in days he felt the tension leaving his body, like it always does with Johnny’s words.
He sighed and placed a kiss on Johnny's hand and closed his eyes.
Everything was going to be okay as long as Johnny was there with him.
-
Johnny managed to get a day off work and he wanted to make count and do everything he could to have a good day with Yuta, who had just recently started to feel better now that the first two trimesters were done along with the fatigue and constant nausea.
Johnny walked into their living room with two cups of tea in his hands to Yuta curled up on the couch with his phone in hand giggling at whatever silly videos he was watching.
“Hey sunshine,” he said as he carefully sat down next to Yuta and, “I made us green tea.”
Yuta smiled his brilliant and bright smile as he got up and took the cup from him, “Thank you baby.”
“You’re most welcome. Now what should we watch?” He asked.
“Oh let’s watch that new reality TV show I have been telling you about!” Yuta answered excitedly.
So of course that’s what they did as they sipped their tea.
Yuta kept laughing at how silly everyone was on the show and Johnny felt his heart swell with the sound of Yuta’s laughter filling their home. So carefree, so light, it reminded him of the first time he heard his laughter back in college, nothing has changed.
As the show came to an end Yuta looked over to him and caught him staring, he smiled his cheshire smiles whenever he caught Johnny staring at him.
“What's gotten you looking so mushy big boy?” He asked.
And Johnny could play along with Yuta’s teasing. But right now he felt like being completely honest .
“You.”
Yuta gasped like he wasn’t expecting that answer, Johnny chuckled and continued.
“Just how amazing you have been through all of this. How strong you have been. How incredibly in love I am with you.”
Yuta’s eyes softened and he placed his empty cup down on the floor with some difficulty which Johnny found very cute.
“It’s all because you have been with me through it all, I couldn’t have done it without you.” With a beautiful blush adorning his cheeks and neck.
Shy Yuta, he hadn’t seen that in a while.
“Okay now enough of that! Let's go and get ice cream!” Yuta announced.
And that is what they did.
Walked down to the ice cream shop hand in hand, with Yuta slightly waddling because of his growing belly.
They both felt so happy.
Ready and excited for their next chapter in life.
They could truly do everything together.
-
Johnny came home greeted by the sound of Yuta’s laughter and instantly a smile formed on his face.
He quickly took off his jacket and shoes and walked towards the source.
He saw Yuta on their bed with one hand on his belly next to the phone that he had also propped up on his belly while watching something on his phone.
Johnny stood there watching him, and as if Yuta felt his eyes on him he looked up and beamed even brighter!
“Oh Johnny you’re home!” He called him over with his hand.
“Look baby, your daddy is home. Tell him to come and watch cat videos with us!” Yuta stroked his belly fondly.
Johnny just fell in love with this man more and more everyday.
He really feels like one day he will burst out with all the love he had for him.
Hopefully not any time soon because he wanted to live long enough to see their baby!
-
It was a Friday, and Johnny managed to finish his work and leave earlier than usual. He first wanted to surprise Yuta but then thought otherwise. Maybe Yuta was craving something so he texted him asking if he wanted anything but got no response which worried him a bit, because Yuta always answered.
He tried to calm himself, maybe Yuta was napping. Or his phone was on silent. Or he was taking a shower. No need to worry that much. But still he hurried home just in case.
As soon as he got home and opened the door, the sight waiting for him melted all the worry away and replaced it with fondness.
There on the couch was Yuta, sprawled out, sleeping so peacefully. One hand placed on his belly and the other under his head.
The sunlight streaming through the windows casting a beautiful glow over Yuta’s soft brown curls and even softer features.
Yuta looked so serene, so at peace, his chest rising slowly with each breath he took.
Johnny just stood there, admiring him. He really looked like those cute cats Yuta loved to watch videos of.
Johnny not wanting to wake him up but also not being able to stay away slowly and quietly tiptoed towards Yuta and crouched down to tuck away a strand of hair and just admiring Yuta’s beautiful face.
Round lips, the curve of his nose, his cheeks becoming a little fuller and his beautiful eyelashing fanned out on those cheeks.
How lucky I am to have you in my life.
Yuta shifted so slightly as Johnny retreated his hand away, worried that he had woken him up, but Yuta just nuzzled into the warmth from the sun and let out a soft sigh.
Johnny leaned in and placed a soft kiss onto Yuta’s forehead and slowly stood up not wanting to wake his husband up.
Yuta deserved those peaceful moments as he has been struggling quite a lot, so he decided to let him rest for as long as he wanted.
His heart already so full of love and adoration for the man he got lucky enough to call him his forever partner.
-
This time Johnny came home to an empty apartment.
No sound coming from the TV, or the kitchen, or conversations being had between Yuta and his family or Yuta and Taeyong.
Johnny got worried especially when he called out to Yuta and got no answer.
He got his phone out of his pocket to call him but just then he heard the door opening.
He quickly went back to the doorway and relief flooded through him when saw Yuta in one piece with a bag of groceries in his hand. Struggling to get his shoes off.
When he finally managed to do so and looked up and smiled sheepishly at Johnny.
“Hey you! How was your day?” He said looking flushed and a bit out of breath as he waddled into their home and walked towards the kitchen.
It was obvious he was trying to walk his out of talking about going to the grocery store alone!
Johnny decided to indulge him.
“Mine was good, what about yours?”
“Oh you know the usual,” he looked up from where he placed the bag on the counter and blinked at Johnny with a smile, “our lovely baby was craving something sweet so me being the ever so lovely parent decided to go and buy us strawberries and chocolate!” He said with a grin.
Johnny’s eyebrows shot up and he honestly didn’t know what to say.
Yes he was worried out of his mind.
Yes Yuta shouldn’t be walking all the way down to the store for snacks when he could be doing it for him.
But Yuta just looked so happy right now he didn’t want to ruin it at all.
So he just smiled and walked over to Yuta and hugged him from the back placing both hands on his belly, “Okay my love, but promise me the next time the baby wants something sweet you either text me to get it or wait for me so we can go together okay?”
“Hmmm.” Yuta answered but that wasn’t enough for Johnny.
“Yuuuutaaaaaaa,” he whined, making the other laugh.
“Okay okay fine! We will wait for you next time.” He stepped out of Johnny’s arms and walked around him to pat him on his ass and said “Now Johnny boy go get changed and prepare our snack for us, me and the baby are tired from getting it.”
“Hai hai captain!”
Johnny said and walked towards their room.
Life was really amazing when you were with the one you love the most.
-
It was one of those rare days when Yuta woke up before Johnny.
He stretched lazily across the bed and felt a surge of energy running through him. It was the weekend, meaning that he had Johnny all to himself.
Perfect!
He rolled over or as much as he could with his ever growing belly and cheekly grinned at Johnny as he was slowly blinking his eyes open.
He poked Johnny’s cheeks, “Ice cream” he announced.
Johnny stirred in his half asleep state and slowly blinked at Yuta in confusion, “Huh?” he asked.
Yuta started peppering his face with kisses, “I … am … craving … ice cream!” he said between each kiss.
A slow fond smile spread across Johnny’s face and his eyes twinkled with amusement, “And who am I to tell you no?!”
It was his turn to kiss Yuta’s face as he giggled.
“Let's go get ice cream for breakfast then!”
Johnny should’ve known better, because it was never just ice cream with Yuta.
He dragged him to the nearby shopping center to buy baby clothes, then to the jewellery shop to buy new earrings for himself, then it was to the food court to buy snacks.
Johnny kept on saying no after each stop but all it took was one pout from Yuta to get what he wanted.
He was a weak man in love after all.
They were coming out of their last shop when Johnny noticed Yuta’s pace slowing down and he was struggling with his breathing, but so determined to finish his shopping spree.
“Hey angel, are you feeling a bit tired?” He asked him, taking away the two small bags in his hand.
Yuta pouted then let out a small giggle, “Just a little bit.”
Johnny chuckled and pulled Yuta closer so he could lean on him, walking them towards a bench to sit down for a bit.
They both sat in a comfortable silence watching people.
Yuta placed his head on Johnny’s shoulder and hummed, feeling content.
Then smiled and said, “Remember back in college when you would come with me to those endless end of season sales shopping trips, it must have been so insufferable for you!”
Johnny chuckled at the memory.
“Oh I remember. I was so in love with you to be honest I never realized that it would take us hours! I was just happy to tag along. And you were so oblivious to it all. It was so cute.”
Yuta blushed and tried to hide it with his hands, “I really was completely clueless wasn’t I!”
“Oh yes, you would take me to those shops and wear those tight clothes with ripped jeans and whatnot then come out and ask me how they looked on you! You were torturing me!”
Johnny accused him with a fake hurt in his voice.
That got a laugh out of Yuta, “Hey but it all turned out right didn’t it.” he said as he placed his hand on his belly.
“It really did.” Johnny said as he placed his hand over Yuta’s smaller one.
-
It was a slow afternoon at the office, when Johnny’s phone started buzzing on his desk.
He quickly picked up when he saw it was Yuta.
“Hey love, is everything okay?”
“Johnny!” Yuta said with a strained voice, he immediately stood up from his chair, knowing where this was leading, it was time.
“Johnny, I think I’m going into labor!”
“Okay love, okay. Just breathe and sit down. I am on my way to you.” Johnny calmly said, he had to be calm, he couldn’t scare Yuta.
“Please hurry,” he whispered, “I don’t want to go through this alone.” As he muffled out a sob.
“That won’t happen, I am coming to you.” Johnny assured him.
“I will also call Taeyong to be there until I’m home. Just breathe baby okay, I will be there in no time.”
Johnny quickly got into his car. Called Taeyong and texted Jaehyun to let him know why he left the office early.
Johnny didn’t know he got home but he did, and quickly opened the door.
Yuta was sitting on the couch, his face pale, sweat beading on his forehead with Taeyong on his side.
“Oh Johnny!” His voice trembled.
Johnny quickly kneeled down next to him, pushing his hair back from his forehead, “I’m here love, what can I do for you?”
Yuta’s eyes were wide with fear and pain as he said with a shaky voice, “We need to get to the hospital, the contractions are getting closer.”
“Okay let’s get you there.”
They helped Yuta into the car, with Johnny next to him and Taeyong driving.
As they were approaching the hospital, Yuta’s breaths were turned into quick short gasps and his face looked like he was in agony, with each new contraction he squeezed Johnny’s hands tighter.
Johnny’s heart twisted with each passing moment, “You’re doing great sweetheart, you are so brave.”
Yuta looked at him but couldn’t talk over the pain he was feeling.
He just focused on his breathing.
In. Out. In. Out.
And they finally got to the hospital.
Taeyong stopped the car, “You guys go in, I will be on my way after I park the car. Jaehyun is also on his way here.”
Johnny was grateful for their friends, they were the chosen family as his and Yuta’s weren’t there at the moment.
They quickly got Yuta situated in a room and waited.
The hours seemed to stretch out and Yuta’s pain was becoming worse and worse.
Each contraction becoming more intense and his breathing more labored, he felt exhausted.
Johnny could sense his exhaustion and held his hand through it.
“I just want this to be over with.” He whispered.
Johnny was about to tell him he was doing good, when the door opened and Yuta’s doctor stepped in.
“Yuta, we have decided that it’s best for you and the baby to go through a c-section, as your body is feeling very weak at the moment.”
Yuta’s eyes widened with fear, his body began trembling, hands shaking in Johnny’s hold.
“I’m scared, Johnny…” he said with his voice cracking.
“I know my love, but it’s okay. You are strong, you can do this. Me and our baby will be waiting for you right here when you wake up.”
Johnny kissed his forehead before he was taken into the operating room.
Johnny kept on pacing in the waiting area, not being able to sit down. He hated the idea of Yuta being all alone, unconscious.
Jaehyun placed a hand on his shoulder comforting him.
“He will be out in no time. Yuta is strong.”
Minutes or hours passed he didn't know, but the door opened and a nurse came out.
“Congratulations Mr. Suh, you have a beautiful daughter, and your husband is safe and healthy. He will be waking up in no time.”
Relief washed over Johnny as he was led to his little baby girl.
He held her in his arms. She was so small, so delicate, so beautiful.
“Hey little one, I’m your daddy. We’ve been waiting for you.”
He walked out with their bundle of joy in his arms to their friends.
Both Taeyong and Jaehyun rushed over and cooed at the little thing in Johnny’s arms.
“She’s so small!” Exclaimed Jaehyun.
Taeyong laughed and said, “That’s because she’s in Johnny’s arms.”
Taeyong and Jaehyun left before Yuta woke up, even though Johnny told them not to.
They made some lame excuses which Johnny knew they just wanted them to have their own time.
Slowly Yuta began to wake up, his body felt heavy as he blinked his eyes open and registered where he was.
He looked around the room and found Johnny sat next to him with a bundle of pink in his arms.
“Johnny?” He called out with a dry throat.
Johnny smiled at him and leaned forward to kiss him.
“Hello my beautiful strong angel. You did so amazing. I’m so proud of you.”
Yuta’s eyes brimmed with tears as he looked down at Johnny’s arms and the pink blanket wrapped around a small face.
“A girl?” he asked in a voice laced with emotions.
“Yes my love, a beautiful girl.”
Johnny placed their daughter in his arms and whispered,
“Your papa is awake little one.”
“Welcome to our family my beautiful angel, we have been waiting for you for so long.” He looked up with teary eyes.
Yuta felt like the world was his. Johnny by his side, their baby girl in his arms. They overcame everything together and made this beautiful family.
“Our Hope.”
He whispered.
“Our beautiful Hope.