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there was a small gust of wind that flowed towards ivan, the wind moved his bangs to cover his eye sight. the raven stayed still, sitting there, letting his eyes rest briefly as he enjoyed the cool, fall weather. hearing leaves cracking slightly in the distance, he used his hand to move his bangs from his eyes. ivan's pupils dilate as he notices the silver haired, love of his life approaching him. his feet seem to be dragging through the dirt and leaves, right hand holding his left elbow loosely, teal eyes staring into the ground blankly. ivan gets up slowly and dusts himself off, but he is worried for till since it isn't like him to look this drained.
"till? what are you doing... here..?" ivan's breath shuddered when till pulled him into a tight hug. his lanky arms felt heavy around ivan's shoulders. till's his body cold, which was unusual for him because he was always radiating warmth and energy.
"carry me..... take me home please..." till's voice cracked as he pronounced 'home', sounding breathless and... devastated.
"of course, we can talk when we get there. if you need to cry then cry, okay? i'm not going to judge you." ivan gave till a little smile, his tooth visible as it was pressed against his bottom lip, dry from the cold. wrapping his arms around the back of till's thighs, the raven lifted him up as till wrapped his legs around ivan's back, and rested his face on the man's broad shoulder.
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"till... do you.. want to talk about it now?" till breathed heavily, a wet spot on ivan's shoulder from where teal eye's had been crying for the last ten minutes. till's eyes were glossy looking, and his lips trembled slightly. for whatever reason, even after they had gotten inside, till insisted on keeping his legs around ivan, so he decided to sit on the couch and let till sit in his lap, facing him as the silver haired boy cried into the raven's shoulder. not that ivan was complaining, of course. immense joy had sprouted from within him when till didn't want ivan to let go of him.
"it's mizi... i saw her and sua kiss... i never... i never had a chance to begin with... i don't know why i even tried." till almost sobbed again as he tried to talk about his feelings. the raven's heart ached at the sight of a distraught till. his hand moved to rest on till's waist, thumb tracing a circle in an attempt to comfort him.
"would you be okay listening to me for a bit?" the man looked up into till's eyes, void of any happiness, seeming lost and desperate for something to help him light up.
"okay.." voice cracking once again as he spoke. ivan formed a small smile before unexpectedly grabbing tills hand with his left, bringing it up to his lips to kiss till's shivering palm. teal eyes widened at this and his cheeks reddened. slightly offended, he tried to release his hand from ivan's grip, but there was no use with ivan's firm hold.
"till, there's nothing wrong with who you are, you were always so dedicated to making mizi happy, and that made me smile. she may not reciprocate your feelings, but it's not like she dislikes you. she knows your a good guy." he started off. till, still a bit red, was confused and almost annoyed at the raven's words.
"huh? do you even hear yourself... if she doesn't like me then i'm just a loser.." he still spoke with a tremble in his voice, even though he tried to sound like he was okay with that outcome.
"when was the last time you thought about yourself, till? because what i'm saying is the truth. all these years, only mizi has been on your mind. i'm sure you know everything about her, but you never noticed how close she was with sua. you were right about never having a chance, but that doesn't make you a loser." ivan spoke in a soft tone with a sense of sincerity. never breaking up in between his words, he hoped to get his point across to till.
"what are you even.. talking about you idiot... mizi is everything, and yet i couldn't even reach her-" his voice began to waver again, tears forming in the corner of his eyes, threatening to spill and further ruin his already messy eyeliner.
"but till, she's not the only person in this world with amazing qualities. i think it's time you opened your eyes and really took in everything around you. your surroundings, what you see, hear, taste, touch, smell, the people around you, everything. you live in a world with endless possibilites, not just one."
"but.. everything i did up until now was for her, so why.." till's voice started sounding harsher, getting fed up with whatever the hell ivan was trying to express. till tried to press his hand against ivan's cheek to stimulate pain, yet, it only encouraged ivan to tease till. with a small smirk, ivan brought till's finger closer to his lips, before licking and biting it softly.
"ivan what are you- let go of my finger you freak! you're disgusting ivan- ivan let go!" as till yelled, he noticed ivan smirk growing bigger. finally, the raven released till's finger from his lips, but still keeping his firm grip on till's wrist as he held it to his face again. ivan nuzzled his cheek into till's palm, even as he struggled to get ivan to release him.
"yell at me, call me disgusting, punch me, kick me, anything. take whatever actions you desire on me in order to satisfy your needs. please, till. i just want to be under your gaze, whether it's a harsh, or a soft one." ivan pleaded with an adoring look in his eyes, his cheeks were painted with a subtle rose tint as he heard till's breath twitch.
"w-what the fuck? let go of me ivan!!" till yelled and yelled, but to no avail, he was still in the other man's harsh grip. no matter how much he tried to push ivan away, the raven had wrapped his arm around till to hold him in place. ivan refused to let go of till, he wanted to cherish every second where he has the chance to touch the love of his life.
"ivan, stop- you're hurting me! you're going to give me bruises! fucking piece of shit-" ivan smiled as he saw till writhing, feeling satisfied that he was able to bring back till's energy, even if it was through negative act. content now that till was finally looking at him, and saying his name.
"i'm not trying to hurt you till, you're the one who's trying to break free with desperate attempts. i'm not going to let you go that easy." ivan had only slightly loosened his grip around till after he finally gave up struggling.
the raven haired laughed. till was then met with ivan's cocky grin. the gray haired snickered, annoyed.
"till, do you know how attractive you truly are?" ivan smirked as he had spoken in a more hushed tone, so his voice had sounded an octive lower. this voice, deeper than what till is used to, it sent a shiver down his spine. till's breath hitched and his cheeks bloomed a soft red.
ivan, being the freak that he is, grabbed onto the lanky man's waist, caressing him, and buried his head into the crook of till's neck. ivan inhaled till's scent. more than anything, he wanted to praise till. touch till. worship, till. claiming till as his is ivan's only goal in life, and he knows he will reach that goal sooner or later.
in his husky voice, ivan spoke into till's ear. "you're my everything till. i can't live without you."
till's eyes widened at those heartwarming words, he felt himself blushing furiously, and he hated that vulnerability. unsure of his thought process, he stopped before forcing the words out of his mouth with a slight tremble.
"then die."
a silent pause had passed before ivan moved his head from till's neck. black eyes similar to an empty void met blurry teal ones that reminded one of a lost sea. with his gaze still full of adoration, ivan moved a hand up to cup the back of till's neck as he brought their foreheads together.
"i'll love you until i draw my very last breath..." ivan spoke in a hushed tone, his breath mixing with till's from the short distance between their lips. till's breath had quickened, his eyes shot wide open as his face was red, similar to a ripe a strawberry.
"ivan...?" till asked weakly. as his lips trembled, the silver haired moved his hands to firmly rest against ivan's chest, ready to push him away if necessary. full of love, ivan breathed out as his lips inched closer towards till's.
"till..." with a small smile, ivan closed his eyes before closing the gap between their lips.
"mph!!" till's yelp was muffled as he tried to push ivan away, but there was no use with the strong hold the raven had on till's neck. when ivan pulled away, he grinned as he saw till's blush spread to his ears and his neck.
"don't kiss me! you're so disgusting ivan- i'm not even into men!! you know i like mizi, why are you doing this?!" till stumbled over his words. his lips quivered as he closed his eyes tight and kept on trying to push ivan away.
"you're so easy to mess with till, and you're reactions are always so adorable." the raven spoke as he rested their foreheads together again. upon being called 'adorable', till had an outburst.
"WHAT. IM ADORABLE?!!!?!?!?!?! YOU CAN'T CALL ME THAT I'M- I'M A MAN IVAN. IM NOT ADORABLE I'M MANLY!!" as till continued blabbering, ivan chuckled and kissed till once again to shut him up. and just to annoy him further, ivan bit till's bottom lip. his snaggle touch came close to piercing till's soft lips, but unfortunately for ivan, he didn't have the heart to make till cry...
at least...
not yet.
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"ivan.....can you let go now...?"
"no, i'm not going to let you go. you're safe in my arms, let yourself relax. please?" ivan was satisfied with spooning till as they laid on the couch together. the raven's head (unwillingly by till), was buried into the crook of till's neck as he occassionally placed a few kisses on the porcelain skin. everytime ivan's lips met till's bare neck, he shivered. at this point, the silver haired was annoyed with ivan's..... clingyness? till had no idea how to identify whatever ivan has been.... doing..
"ivan. please that's so fucking disgusting, please stop kissing me please please please-" having heard enough of till's complaining, ivan moved a hand up to cover till's mouth.
"will you ever love me back?" ivan asked as he licked the shell of till's ear, earning a shriek out of till as he elbowed ivan in the stomach. ivan groaned as he moved his hand from till's mouth, and wrapped that arm around the other's chest instead.
"why would you ask me tha- AGHH" till screamed as ivan bit into the back of his soft neck, drawing blood in the process. he licked the wound and sucked on it softly. till began whining at the pain, tears had formed in the corner of his eyes. yet, despite his crying, the blush all over till's neck was obvious.
"no matter how much you may try to deny it, till, i know you like me being this close. and you love the feeling of my lips all over you." the raven smirked as his buried his nose into till's hair, and was met with a faint scent of coconut. ivan was surprised by this because growing up, till used to always use strawberry scented shampoo.
"i- ugh!" till huffed as he squirmed in ivan's hold, trying to turn his body around to face ivan, and once the raven realized this, he loosened his hold around till.
"what is it, missed seeing my handsome face?" teased ivan, his signature smile painted on his face. the one he always had when he wanted to get a rise out of till.
"and what if i did?" till mumbled out, his gorgeous face was tinted red all over.
"then i'd be ecstatic. the one and only, amazing, singer song-writer, till, missed seeing my face...." ivan was caught off guard when till grabbed the back of his neck and pushed their lips together. his eyes widened, never believing that till would be so bold as to take the initiative.
ivan smiled as he closed his eyes and wrapped his arms around till's waist, pulling him closer. till pulled away from the kiss, out of breathe as he furrowed his eyebrows slightly.
"you're perfect till." ivan kissed till's nose,
"you have always been, and always will be..
my god, and my universe."
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