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The Winds of Change

Summary:

"It's been a tough season, hasn't it?

Nakahara Chuuya is nothing if not perceptive, as always.

Written for Autumn!

Notes:

(See the end of the work for notes.)

Work Text:

“Gotta love when it starts to get colder outside.”

Nakahara Chuuya stands tall, his gait slow and practiced as he observes the browning leaves of Yokohama. The porkpie hat on his head remained still as the slight breeze raked through his long jacket. An expensive watch gleamed on his wrist as the two of you trek through the nearest park.

During mid-week early afternoon, the place is practically deserted, allowing the both of you to focus inward. He’d invited you out on a whim, and as usual, he didn’t beat around the bush:

“It’s been a tough season, hasn’t it?”

An understatement, really, and he knew it.

“Seems like it’s getting rougher and rougher every damn year. But its worth it during the downtimes, at least to me.”

The silence stretches out, almost uncomfortably so. The sound of the pair of steps echo against the nearby maple trees, which are beginning to wilt as they always do every year. Chuuya glances your way and let out a soft breath before he buried a hand into his pocket: a tic of his that you knew of.

“Not to get on some convoluted soap box but…” Chuuya stops after looking upward for a beat. “...take it easy on yourself. You’re doing just fine. We’re all new at this ‘life’ bullshit, and there isn’t any ‘right’ way to live. You just… do.”

The wind picked up slightly at the end of his sentence and you flinched at something that flew to Chuuya and landed on the brim of his hat. He stiffened, but gently reached up and scoffed fondly at the reddening maple leaf he held.

“Huh, would’ya look at that… almost like it heard me.”

Chuuya chuckled softly as he observed the leaf, a fond expression taking over his face, before he turned to you. His face is ever-so gentle as he deposits the leaf between your cold, outstretched fingers.

The maple leaf crinkles ever-slightly between your fingertips and you rubbed the rough surface as delicately as you could manage.

Chuuya smiles down at you and the maple leaf in your grasp:

“This is for you. Don’t forget what I said, yeah?”

Notes:

Hi Autumn, I want you to have this as a token of my gratitude for your friendship. I really value you pulling me out of my (very prickly) shell and I really enjoy hanging out with you and Xen. You are a genuinely good person and I know that is hard to believe or see sometimes. I said I had an idea of how to "repay" you for your kindness to me, and this is just a part of it. You've inspired me to work harder on self-acceptance and to trust the process. I hope that you truly know just how much you mean to your friends -- it's hard to really put it into words, even as a writer. I hope that this little drabble can help you compartmentalize your pain.

I realized I have the power to make Nakahara Chuuya speak to you, so I used it... and I hope that you come back to this when you feel sad. I think that the idea of someone to comfort you that you can "program" to understand you through a fictional medium helps me, and I hope that this Chuuya brings you some solace in your sorrow.

One day you will find things to love about yourself, I promise. You'll be okay.

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