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The candle-lit hall brimmed with hushed excitement, a murmur of voices rising and falling like the flickering shadows cast by the countless candles floating high above. This was a night steeped in tradition, one that marked the beginning of journeys yet unknown for each nervous first-year, clad in ill-fitting robes and clutching at their new wands as if these would anchor them in the vast, intimidating chamber. Great golden platters and goblets lay dormant on the tables, as though waiting to be called to life by the magic of the Sorting Ceremony.
At the head of the room, behind the teachers’ table, Severus Snape sat with an air of watchful reserve, his dark eyes glinting in the dim light. His gaze swept over the new students with the keen observation of a hawk, though the ceremony’s mechanics held little interest for him. Each name called by Professor McGonagall was a fleeting distraction, nothing more than a whisper of sound against the constant murmur in his mind, the silent deliberations that never seemed to rest.
He caught sight of Draco Malfoy standing in the line, his back straight and chin lifted, a small smirk tugging at his lips as he looked around, as though the entire ceremony were meant only for his amusement. When Professor McGonagall finally called out his name, Snape’s posture stiffened almost imperceptibly, a reflex of deeply embedded vigilance. Draco. His godson. The thought of the boy struck him with a heavy pang, a familiar ache mingling with the sharper sting of duty. What future awaits him?
Draco moved forward with the natural poise that came with generations of aristocratic breeding. His platinum blond hair gleamed in the torchlight, every strand meticulously in place, and his features held that unmistakable Malfoy hauteur—aloof, self-assured, with a hint of disdain etched around his mouth. Lucius’s shadow seemed to trail behind him, a cold presence that Snape felt as acutely as if the elder Malfoy himself stood in the room. The air around Draco seemed charged, heavy with the collective expectations of the Malfoy line and the unspoken, darker responsibilities that Snape himself could feel pressing down upon him.
The Sorting Hat barely touched Draco’s head before it called out, its voice echoing with swift finality: “SLYTHERIN!”
A small breath escaped Snape’s lips—almost a sigh, though his face betrayed nothing, a mask of cold composure honed through years of unyielding practice. He inclined his head ever so slightly as Draco made his way to the Slytherin table, where applause rippled through his new housemates, some of the older students nodding in silent approval. Slytherin would be the best place for Draco, Snape thought—a sanctuary of sorts, where he could be shielded from the poisonous prejudices of the other houses and the judgment that clung to his family name. Here, within the very walls that had shaped and scarred Snape himself, Draco could be close enough for him to watch over, to keep safe in ways that Lucius could never understand.
But as Snape’s gaze followed Draco, settling into his place among his new housemates, a shadow flickered in the depths of his thoughts, something dark and uncertain. An ache stirred in his chest, a feeling unnamed, but its presence lingered, gnawing and insistent. Images flashed through his mind unbidden—memories of Diagon Alley, where Lucius’s hand had rested possessively on Draco’s shoulder, his grip firm and controlling, his gaze one of iron authority. It was a look Snape recognized too well, one that spoke of ownership, not affection. He remembered it from his own youth, in the shadows of his past, in the oppressive weight of unspoken demands and sacrifices made in the name of loyalty to darker ideals.
That was another life, another time. He clenched his jaw, his hands curling slightly against the fabric of his robes as if holding back an impulse. He would not allow Draco to fall prey to the same darkness that had ensnared him. He had failed once, but not again—not with Draco. He would ensure that the boy’s life, though inevitably marked by the Malfoy name, would be better, lighter, spared from the bitterness and regret that poisoned his own veins. Slytherin House, a place so often seen as a breeding ground for ambition and malice, would become a bastion of protection, a carefully woven shield against the darkness that lay beyond these stone walls.
As the Sorting continued, Snape’s mind drifted once more, the ritualized calling of names fading into the background. Snape’s gaze shifted almost against his will to a boy standing at the end of the line, fidgeting nervously, his dark, tousled hair an unmistakable mark of his father. Harry Potter. The name clung to Snape’s memory with a bitter taste, sharper than any potion—yet the boy before him was far smaller than he’d imagined, thinner and more fragile-looking, his robes a bit too large for his frame. There was a hollowness to his cheeks, and the way he seemed to shrink slightly under the weight of so many eyes watching him unsettled Snape more than he cared to admit.
Had he not been cared for? A pang of something close to anger—or was it concern?—stirred within him as he noticed how Potter’s shoulders hunched, his eyes darting about with a wary alertness. There was something off in his posture, a guardedness that Snape recognized from his own childhood. The boy was no stranger to a hard life, though Snape found himself unwilling to linger on the reasons why.
Yet, even through this glimpse of vulnerability, Snape felt the old resentment rise unbidden, the bitterness he’d nursed for years, mingled with the ever-complicated memory of Lily. The boy’s resemblance to James was uncanny—too much of it in the unruly hair, the careless posture, that stubborn tilt of his chin. It stirred memories of taunts, of the cold humiliation he’d endured as James Potter’s plaything. But as Harry glanced up, just for a moment, something in those green eyes stilled him. They were Lily’s eyes, vivid and clear, an echo of her warmth and strength that seemed to pierce through time itself.
The sight unsettled him, a wave of conflicting emotions swirling beneath his cold exterior. Could there be more of Lily in him than James? Snape found himself hoping, in spite of himself, that there was some part of her, some kindness or decency, that had withstood whatever life had thrown at the boy. Yet such thoughts felt dangerously close to compassion—a weakness he could not afford. He steeled himself against it, drawing his attention back to the Sorting Hat, which had been placed upon Harry’s head, hanging low over his brow as it deliberated.
The silence seemed to stretch, heavy with expectation. And then, the hat called out, its voice resounding through the hall: “GRYFFINDOR!”
A pang shot through Snape, sharp and swift, even as he forced his face into a mask of indifference. Gryffindor. The one place he had least wanted Potter to go, the house that would surely shape him in all the ways James had been shaped—reckless, proud, everything Snape loathed. And yet, despite himself, he could not stop his gaze from drifting back to the boy as he shuffled to the Gryffindor table, greeted by cheers and hearty claps on the back from his new housemates.
Snape clenched his jaw, dragging his gaze away and forcing himself to concentrate on the remainder of the ceremony. His mind, however, betrayed him, turning back to the boy with those green eyes, the hesitant, uncertain steps, the weight of expectation settling heavily on those small shoulders. He hated that he couldn’t look away, couldn’t silence the nagging thoughts in the back of his mind. He told himself it was only natural—Harry Potter, after all, was famous, and fame brought with it its own scrutiny.
Yet he knew it was more than that. There, in the flickering shadows of the Great Hall, he felt the old wounds of betrayal and loss stir painfully to life, pulling him back into memories he’d tried to bury. The sight of those eyes had awakened something he had long thought dead. He resented the boy for it, for the quiet reminder of all he had lost, for the hope that somehow refused to die. With a hardened expression, he straightened in his seat, letting his mind sink into its usual cold, controlled focus, determined to ignore the restlessness tugging at his thoughts.
The ceremony continued, the names called one by one, but Snape heard none of them, his mind lingering somewhere between the boy he had just seen and the memories of a girl who had been the only light in his life.
But a sudden, jarring interruption snapped Snape from his reverie.
“Drekana Sands.” It was the third time that name had been called.
Professor McGonagall’s voice was uncharacteristically strained, echoing slightly as the name failed to summon anyone forward. The hall, already thick with tension and excitement, stilled in an unsettling quiet, a few students casting puzzled glances around. McGonagall’s eyes swept across the rows of first years, her lips pressed tightly as she repeated, louder this time, “Drekana Sands?”
No one moved. The silence grew heavy, filled only by faint murmurs and shuffling as the students exchanged curious looks. Severus’s frown deepened as he shifted his gaze toward the head of the table, where Dumbledore sat watching with a curious, if unruffled, expression. A faint crease of worry touched the headmaster’s brow as he glanced at Severus, the question unspoken but clear between them.
“Unusual,” Dumbledore murmured, his voice carrying a subtle, thoughtful cadence. Though his face remained serene, Severus could see the sharpness in his gaze, the calculating precision he reserved for matters of some importance.
Snape seized the chance to remove himself from the hall. Potter’s face, that familiar defiant set of the jaw, those piercing green eyes—Lily’s eyes—had been an unwanted reminder of wounds barely healed. Any excuse to leave that room would suffice, and this mysterious absence provided him a suitable one.
“Perhaps a welfare check is in order, Albus,” he muttered, leaning toward Dumbledore just enough for his words to reach the headmaster’s ear. “I’ll look into the matter.”
Dumbledore’s lips curved into a faint smile, a knowing one, as though he’d somehow anticipated Snape’s offer. “Good. Do see what you can find, Severus,” he said, his voice bearing an unspoken trust.
With a curt nod, Snape rose from his seat, his robes swirling as he left the hall, ignoring the curious looks of students who wondered what errand might have called him away. Potter, he noted, glanced his way as well, his expression marked by a curiosity Snape had no intention of acknowledging. The boy’s eyes flickered with a faint glimmer of something—an eagerness, perhaps, or merely the newness of the castle itself, he thought dismissively.
Snape’s footsteps echoed sharply down the empty corridor, carrying him toward the solitude of his office, his mind already turning to the task at hand. Hogwarts rarely failed to receive its students as expected; the system of enrollment was nearly foolproof. The names of every child who displayed magical talent within the school’s catchment area were automatically added to Hogwarts’ rolls upon the first signs of magic. It was a potent spellwork, one of the oldest woven into the very foundations of the castle itself, crafted centuries ago by the Founders to ensure that no young witch or wizard was left behind. The charm kept vigilant watch, seeking out any magical stirrings within its boundaries, adding names to the school’s list with remarkable precision—so remarkable, in fact, that its accuracy had never faltered in over a thousand years.
Only rarely did a student fail to arrive at Hogwarts for their first year. It was almost always a matter of Muggle families refusing to acknowledge a child’s abilities, their disbelief outweighing the undeniable signs of magic. Less frequently, a family in the magical community might attempt to circumvent Hogwarts, preferring to teach their children privately. But these cases were few, and such families often came to regret it, finding themselves unprepared for the dangers inherent in raising an untrained witch or wizard.
The name Sands , however, rang no bells. This was unlikely to be the case of a Pureblood family attempting to skirt the system. Snape quickened his pace, his mind piecing together what little information he could as he entered his office. The faint scent of aged parchment and potions filled the air, grounding him as he strode to his desk and unlocked a drawer with a tap of his wand. From within, he drew a thick, leather-bound tome, its spine embossed with the school’s crest—a record of every child with magical potential within Hogwarts’ bounds.
With practiced efficiency, he opened to the current year’s listings, his finger tracing down the list of names until he found it. Drekana Sands . A faint prickle of something passed over him as he took in the address: a Muggle orphanage on the outskirts of Galway.
So, a Muggle-born, then, and one with no family to escort her to the station. It was unfortunate, though not unheard of. Hogwarts employed an elaborate system of charms and spells to alert families, but once in a great while, a child’s guardians—especially Muggles—might overlook the instructions or dismiss them entirely.
Snape felt a flicker of irritation, mingled with something else he couldn’t name. It was rare for him to feel any particular way toward new students, but the thought of a young witch or wizard, parentless and perhaps abandoned by Muggle caretakers, stirred something in him. Shaking the thought from his mind, he stepped toward the large fireplace across from his desk, tossed a handful of Floo powder into the flames, and muttered the name of the orphanage, feeling the familiar tug as he prepared to step through.
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Emerging from the flames, Snape found himself in an unfamiliar, dimly-lit shop. The scent of dust mingled with the bitter bite of something more sinister in the air. The street outside was quiet, save for the occasional rustle of unseen feet scurrying through the shadows. The air was thick with the stench of something far more dangerous, and then— Smoke. The acrid scent cut through his thoughts like a knife, his instincts kicking into overdrive. His hand instinctively went to his wand as his steps quickened. Snape breathed in the frigid night air of Ireland, his sharp gaze taking in his surroundings: an aging orphanage, looming against a dark sky spattered with stars, the faintest trail of smoke curling from its windows. The chill in the air, however, was undercut by the caustic scent growing thicker by the second—burning wood and something fouler, charred fabric and the unmistakable metallic tang of panic.
Ahead, he saw children stumbling out of the building, clinging to each other in silent terror, soot staining their clothes and skin. A woman, presumably a matron, her bonnet askew, was ushering a cluster of children away from the blaze, her voice high and urgent. The flames crackled with sickening intensity, consuming the decrepit structure piece by piece. Snape approached her, catching her arm with a firm, urgent grip.
"Where is Drekana Sands?"
The woman, eyes rimmed with panic, shook her head, her face blank. She opened her mouth, a stream of desperate stammers escaping her lips, “I... I don’t know…”
A sickening lurch twisted Snape's insides. "Where is she?" he repeated, his voice low and dangerous.
“I really don’t…,” the woman mumbled, wringing her hands. “Father says…”
A child nearby looked up, his face streaked with grime and tears. “She’s still down there,” he whispered, his voice barely audible over the crackling flames and distant wails of other children.
Snape’s jaw clenched. His mind focused, the usual strict adherence to the Statute of Secrecy dissipating like the smoke. As far as he was concerned, the Ministry could clean up this mess later—if Drekana Sands was trapped in that building, there was no choice. With a deft flick of his wand, he cast a protective charm, feeling the spell cocoon him in a thin layer of magical insulation.
Ignoring the horrified murmurs from the crowd, he strode into the inferno, each step echoing in the fragile structure as flames licked greedily at the ancient wooden beams. Inside, the smell of burnt paper and smoldering fabric was suffocating, thick and cloying. Embers floated through the air, sizzling as they fell onto the stone floor. His gaze darted around; most of the rooms lay deserted, their furnishings already half-consumed by the advancing flames. But there was no sign of her.
He strained to recall the child’s words—“down there.” His mind seized on it, scanning the hallways until he spotted an iron-banded door, half-hidden by a drape of smoke. He dashed to it, wrenching the door open. Beyond was a narrow staircase leading into darkness.
The smell of fire was tinged with something rancid here, something that turned his stomach. As he took the first steps downward, a scream ripped through the air—high, desperate, and raw. It sent a shockwave through him, dredging up memories he had long since buried, a scream that had once torn through his own life and left him gutted. But he pushed the memory back, swallowing it whole, and focused on the present, on the life still within reach.
Drekana.
Each step was more treacherous than the last, bits of the building already crumbling around him. At the base of the staircase, he finally saw her. Drekana Sands. A small, wiry girl, chained to the damp cellar wall. She looked utterly vulnerable, her clothes torn, her skin bruised and smeared with blood, streaks of dirt mingling with her fiery red hair. Her blue-green eyes, bright even through the grime and agony, were wide with terror, flickering between him and something else in the room.
He followed her gaze to a figure crouched in the shadows. A man dressed in clerical robes, muttering incoherent prayers, his eyes glazed with fervor. His mouth moved, mouthing phrases about “God’s will” and “purging the witch,” his voice as broken and fractured as his mind. Snape felt a surge of rage unlike any he had felt in years.
“God… demanded…” the man droned on, clutching a rosary in a bloodied hand, as if it would protect him.
The flames crawled along the walls, growing closer to where Drekana hung, chains cutting into her delicate wrists, her head drooping. She looked up at him, her eyes flickering with a strange awe, as if she couldn’t quite believe he was real.
Snape’s hand moved, instinctive, his wand slashing through the air. “Aguamenti!” Water burst from the tip, dousing the flames around her in a hiss of steam. He moved swiftly, casting a Severing Charm on the chains. They clattered to the ground, and Drekana fell forward, collapsing against his chest. She was light, far too light, shivering uncontrollably despite the inferno raging around them.
“You’re safe now,” he murmured, his voice low and steady, though his own heart thundered. He felt her flinch, but she clung to him, her frail arms wrapping around his neck. Snape held her more tightly, shielding her as he stood. He cast one last look at the priest, who was rocking back and forth, lost in his delusions, mouthing fervent prayers to an indifferent god. The man’s eyes flicked to him, a spark of recognition dawning as he looked at the girl in Snape’s arms, but before he could speak, Snape turned away, his lip curling in disgust.
Without another word, he clutched Drekana closer, her small head resting against his shoulder. He closed his eyes, concentrated, and with a firm twist, disapparated, leaving behind the crumbling wreckage, the fading screams, and the ruined whispers of madness.
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The cold night air bit at Snape’s cheeks as he appeared before the towering iron gates of Hogwarts, Drekana’s small, battered form cradled tightly in his arms. The journey from the orphanage had been harrowing, her body fragile, each bruised limb delicate and thin as parchment. He dared not risk her through the Floo network; Hogwarts’ protections against outside magic—and all it held safe—were stringent. Here, though, just outside the castle, he could almost feel the old wards hum, sensing his urgency.
With a flick of his wand, the gates swung open. They creaked, the ancient hinges echoing as though the castle itself were stirring, awakened by his call. Shadows shifted in the corners of the grounds, flitting between the trees of the Forbidden Forest and vanishing into the misty Black Lake. He strode through, his footsteps crunching on the gravel pathway as he pressed forward, his arms and heart weighed with a mixture of grim duty and protective resolve.
Ahead, Hogwarts loomed. Each towering stone parapet and ivy-clad wall seemed to watch his every step, the castle's deep-rooted magic vibrating beneath his feet. Hogwarts was a fortress of knowledge and power, built to withstand the weight of centuries, and even now it whispered its secrets to those who sought refuge within its ancient walls. The enchantments in the stone, woven ages ago by the founders themselves, spread over the grounds, welcoming all who entered with its warmth. Tonight, however, was colder, almost foreboding, as if the castle sensed the darkness Snape carried with him.
In a low mutter, he cast an incantation that set off the emergency wards. A series of deep, resonant chimes rippled through the air, loud enough to echo in every corner of the school, stirring the silence. The sound, unfamiliar and jarring, brought a shocked hush over the Great Hall.
Within the hall, students had just started on their evening meal, forks frozen mid-air, whispers darting back and forth among the tables as the staff and students looked around in confusion. Draco Malfoy exchanged a nervous glance with his housemates, his usually pale face drawn even paler as he leaned in, trying to catch a glimpse of movement by the main doors. Across the hall, Harry, Hermione, and Ron exchanged concerned looks, and Harry half-stood, his eyes narrowing as he spotted a dark silhouette moving swiftly along the outer corridor.
At the head table, Dumbledore rose, his presence steady and calm as he looked out over the sea of anxious faces. “Please,” he intoned, his voice a low reassurance even as his sharp gaze flickered toward the doors. “There is no need for alarm. Continue with your meal.” But even his steady words could not quell the torrent of whispers spreading like wildfire through the hall, especially among those seated closest to the entrance, who caught a brief, harrowing glimpse of Professor Snape’s face as he strode past, his features twisted into something far grimmer than the usual stern mask.
As Snape swept past the Great Hall, he paid no heed to the murmurs, his every thought consumed by the fragile, still-breathing form in his arms. He took the quickest route to the infirmary, the castle's winding corridors stretching before him, each footstep echoing like the toll of a bell. The torches lining the walls seemed to sense his urgency, flaring brighter as he passed, casting long shadows that danced against the stone. In a way, Hogwarts seemed to be guiding him, aware that a young life hung in the balance.
The infirmary doors flew open ahead of him as he approached, as if by instinct. Inside, the familiar scent of antiseptics mingled with the faint herbal aroma of healing potions. The walls, draped in heavy, pristine white curtains, seemed almost reverent in the quiet, the usual hum of students and a bustling mediwitch replaced by an expectant stillness. Madam Pomfrey appeared from around a corner, her eyes widening as she took in the sight before her.
“What on earth… Severus?” Her voice softened, eyes flicking to the blood and ash streaked across the girl’s face, then back to him. “What happened?”
“A rescue,” he murmured, voice taut. “From an ordeal far below the standards of decency.” His words were cold, bitten out, his fury only barely contained. “See to her immediately, Poppy.”
Madam Pomfrey’s gaze sharpened with professional determination. She moved forward, her wand alight as she began summoning gauze, salves, and potions, her fingers gentle but precise as she assessed the damage. Burns, deep bruises, cuts caked with dried blood… the wounds ran far deeper than she dared consider. Drekana’s breaths were shallow, but as Pomfrey applied a cool balm to her wounds, the child’s tense muscles gradually relaxed, the calming draught starting to take effect.
Footsteps sounded outside the infirmary doors, and moments later, Dumbledore swept in, flanked by McGonagall, their expressions darkening as they took in the scene. Dumbledore’s usual twinkle was absent, replaced by a somber understanding that sent a chill through the room. McGonagall, her usually stoic face pale, placed a hand to her mouth.
“Severus,” Dumbledore murmured, stepping closer, “what has happened?”
Snape’s gaze didn’t waver from Drekana, his eyes sharp but unfathomably dark. “She was found chained in the depths of a burning building,” he replied, his voice low and dangerous. “I arrived just in time….”
The girl lay silent on the bed, her bruised eyelids fluttering, her tangled red hair spread like flames against the pillow. A faint flicker of recognition crossed her eyes as she turned toward Snape, her gaze clinging to him with a sort of desperate hope before she closed them again, surrendering to the pull of exhaustion.
Snape stood beside her, unmoving, his gaze locked onto her face as though he could will her back to health through sheer force of will. Behind him, Dumbledore and McGonagall murmured in low voices, their conversation urgent but measured. He could feel their eyes on him, their silent approval mixed with unspoken questions. There would be time for those later; for now, all that mattered was the child who lay pale and broken before him.
As he watched her, memories he had buried long ago flickered at the edges of his mind—memories of another young girl, red-haired and bright-eyed, whose life had also been torn apart by darkness. Lily . Snape’s heart twisted painfully, but he forced the thought away, refocusing on the present, on the child before him who had somehow awakened a fierce protectiveness he had thought dead.