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"so you tie up your hair and you smile like it's no big deal.. i thinks that's it" he scribbled the words in his notebook quickly so he would remember them, he would tidy up the finished piece later. he sat back and let out a breath, a smile coming to his face as he finally completed what he had been working on for so long.
the door to the studio opened behind him making him spin the chair around, his boyfriend stood there smiling. "hey love, whatcha doing?" the red haired man said sweetly making his way to the brunet, planting himself sideways on his lap.
"i think i just figured out the last part of the song i've been working on, you wanna hear it?" his boyfriend nodded "of course, sing it for me" they moved to the couch so that tyler could play his guitar while he showed the song to josh. he played a few notes on their own before singing along, as he played josh couldn't help the tears that collected in his eyes, and eventually falling down his cheeks.
"you don't have to be sorry, no" he finished the song and put the guitar down, finally looking up at his boyfriend to see his tears. "oh baby, it's okay i'm here" he pulled the red haired man to lay against him in a hug, he laughed slightly through his tears.
"you know i always get emotional when you talk about your past, so now that it's in a song- you just blow my mind every time, that was beautiful, ty. i'm so glad that you're still here today. i'm happy that you're alive"
they stayed on the couch for a while holding each other, they both still got so emotional whenever tyler's past was brought up. it was rare for tyler to talk about it, but when he did josh couldn't help but feel every emotion that he had over the years he'd known his best friend.
- - flashback - -
"hey! what's your name?" joshua was timid as he walked over to the girl on the swing, she was just sitting there looking at the ground not swinging and josh was curious. his mother said that he should try talking to other kids his age and make some friends, so he pushed passed feeling nervous.
"umm, ben" she answered after a while, josh's face turned to one of confusion as he sat on the next swing and looked at the other child for a moment.
"but you're a girl?" they picked their head up and looked over at josh, a frown on their face. "no i'm not, i'm a boy!" josh, despite still being a little confused just shrugged his shoulders "okay!"
they played for what felt like hours before their mothers called them over to leave the park, both boys running together while giggling over something one had said. their mothers were both so happy that they had become friends, joshua's mother asking him to introduce his friend.
"this is ben!" joshua said with a big smile on his face, the boy beside him smiling along. before his mother could reply the other woman spoke, "oh i'm sorry, honey. she always does this, her name is ruby" the little girls face instantly fell, no longer smiling. josh was confused but didn't question anything, whispering "goodbye, ben" as he followed his mother.
- - flashback over - -
tyler and josh were getting ready for the show backstage, tonight was the night tyler was going to play the new song. to say he was scared would be an understatement - he was terrified. what would people think of it? would this out him? do people already know?
a hand on his shoulder snapped him out of it before he could overthink any longer, turning to see a worried looking josh tyler smiled. "are you okay, ty?" tyler nodded, stepping closer to pull his boyfriend into a hug, "just a little nervous.. what if they hate me after this" josh pulled away and pressed a kiss to tyler's cheek, "they won't, i don't think anyone could ever hate you, tyler" tyler shrugged but hearing the support from his favourite person never failed to make him feel a little better, so he took a deep breath and they walked out of the dressing room and to the stage together.