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It had been a little over three months since Grian arrived on the server, it was diffcult for other Hermits to adjust to a new hermit but everyone was nice and understanding none the less. However Grian himself was having a hard time adjusting to the server as a whole.The other Hermits being careful around him wasn't helping, He knew he was scary, he knew that people saw him a threat even they didn't say it out loud or to his face.
Grian knew he couldn't change their minds and he accepted that or so he though. After a long day of working on the base the alivan ended up in Mumbo's base waiting for his mustache man to reaturn. The bird picked at his feathers anxouisly making sure to stuff the fallen feathers in his pockets fully aware his friend would be concerned to find a pile of feathers in his base at any point. After a few hours Grian started to worry keeping an eye on the commons Incase a death notification came through, checking again to make sure Mumbo was on this server, he is.
As the sun set the mustache man flew into the base wipping sweat from his forehead "oh hey Grian" Mumbo says a little out of breath. "Hi" The bird man says with some relief. "How long have you been here?" he asks stuffing a few extra idems in his chests. "not long" Grian lied, he doesn't want his friend to know that he just needed to be with someone and not make his friend feel guilty for not being here sooner. "Well is there a reason you need me?" Mumbo asks turning to his hybrid friend giving him his full attention. "No" Grian says smiling at his friend.
"Well I have a few more redstone related projects to work on, if you promise not to press any buttons or pull an levers then you can join me" Mumbo says the sweater man stands up before flying on Mumbo's shoulder "I'm taking that as a yes" the mustache man chuckles continuing to work with the alivan on his back talking about his most reacent project. Mumbo knows since Grian came back sometimes he just wants to be near someone, to make sure this is all real, Mumbo isn't sure why but he know's his friend needs him and that's enough.
Back to working on his project Grian left Mumbo's shoulder sitting above him watch the man lay redstone dust carefully, Grian saw the button, he saw Mumbo place the button, he also say Mumbo give him a very pointed look when he placed the button silently telling him a firm No, but the stone button looked like so much fun. Birds get distracted by shiny things all the time, but for Grian his shiney things also include buttons, pressing said buttons.
With his silence flying the sweatered man flew over to the button, promising himself that he would just look at it, but like a scab you promise your only scratching around eventually the itch was too strong. By this point Mumbo had spoted him as he laid the last of the redstone dust, "Grian no" Mumbo says the bird man's pupils doubled in size as his eyes flicked from a worried Mumbo and the shiny button below his hand. "Grian i swear you will cause us both to have to respawn" The Mustache man steps closer "but shiny" Grian reaches down.
"G no-" but it was to late Grian picked at the itch and it made him satified for a minute, till the tnt blew them both up. Grian sat up in his bed, in his base all his gear gone. Only then did Grian regester his actions and felt guilty. He looked around his base picking up a spare bit of arm and flying over to Mumbo's base where the mustache man was frustrated, pacing around his room, making the bird man feel bad. Grian step forward meeting Mumbo's eyes "Sorry" Grian says looking at his friend.
Mumbo was upset and isn't proud of what happend next "you should be! that was weeks of work Grian! Void!" Mumbo throws his hands up pacing again. "I should have know you'd push the button, you always push the button! I should have used a test instead of the actually TNT, but why can't you do as your told?!" Mumbo shouted and as he did he regreated it. Tears started to fall from the alvians face "No, G, i didn't mean-" But Mumbo was cut off by the swoop of wings flying out of his base. "Shit" Mumbo cursed mentally kicking himself.
Grian on the other hand started to fly, to where? he had no idea, All that was ringing in his head was Mumbo's works 'why can't you do as your told?' why can't he do as he's told? Grian flew down landing in the shopping district tucking himself between to shops, he wings wrap around him as he cries. Hours, days, months, it feels like past before someone walked into the hiddie hole Grian created, the blonde lifts his puffy eyes to see a blurry figure "Grian are you ok?" Doc's voice rings, Doc isn't someone Grian typically talks too, to be honest the creeper cyborg hybrid kind of scares him. Grian backed further into the wall stopping Doc's advances towards him.
"Do you want me to get Mumbo?" the fellow hybrid asks crocuhing down to Grian's level still keeping his distance. The mention of Mumbo's name made the birdman shutter pulling his wings tighter around himself. "Ok so not Mumbo, do you want me to get Scar? I know your close with him" Doc offers, its true he is close with Scar they are neigbores after all, but Grian doesn't want to be a bother so he keeps his mouth shut. "ok, look man i don't know whats going on, but I'm trying to help and i need your help to do that ok?" Doc speaks slowly making sure the sweatered man heard him.
Grian nods "good, now do you want me to get Scar for you?" Doc asks, Grian nods against his better judgment deciding to feel bad about it later. Doc smiles "ok, I will sit with you till he arrives" Doc says making himself comfortble against the wall and sending a whisper to Scar who thankfully is online. Doc and Grian sit in silence neither one daring to move, Doc afriad he's going to scar the newest hermit and Grian afriad that he'll make everything worse, thats at least what the thoughts are telling him.
"Doc! Grian!" Scar's voice is muffed yelling outside the hidden hole, "in here!" Doc speaks loud causing Grian to flinch slightly. Scar's head peaks around the corner finding the two. Scar steps closer "Hey G" Scar states stopping behind Doc. "Are you ok?" Scar whispers Grian just shakes his head "ok, do you want to go to my base?" Scar asks watching Grian's movement carefully. Grian losend his wings allowing them to fall to his sides, he nods. Scar smiles "alright, lets get you out of this hole" Scar streaches out his hand allowing Grian to take it when he's ready. "Tell me when you two make it to your base" Doc says patting Scar's shoulder before walking back into the shopping district.
It took a minute but Grian was eventually holding Scar's hand as they walked to the nether portal. Grian refused to let go of Scar hand, letting it ground him to this server. Once in Scar's base the vex, elf, hybrid made sure the alivan was comfortable before going to make some cookies and hot chocolate leaving Grian alone in the livingroom, the exact opiosit of what he needed right now, but Grian isn't sure how to communicate that to Scar so he sits in the silence.
Grian felt it, like he was being watched. He knows that they are not here, he knows mentally they can't reach him even if they tired, Xisuma asured him of that. However, Grian starred down the wall in front of him the world sinking around him, it was becoming hard to breathe he felt the suffocation of the end, felt the eyes borrowing into him, he heard their words 'why do you keep interacting with those humans?' eyes, end, air, 'we told you to leave them be' another sharp breath 'why can't you do what your told?' Grian's nails dig into his arms the world fading around him the world incasing him.
He saw them the faces of those he cares about, screaming at him to stop, to snap out of it. Tears pour down Grian's face as he borrows in on himself. "stop it" Grian mummbles "please stop it" he sobs 'you did this' the voice hums 'you are responsable' it rings, it hurts 'why can't you just do what your told?' disappointment, shame, death. Grian clawed at his arms causing blood to seeping through his sweater. "please" Grian begs.
Scar enters the room to find his friend bleeding and crying as he rocks back and forth, acting quick Scar places the mugs down and rushes over "Grian?!" Scar says worried but he doesn't receive a responce, "Grian, Grian?" nothing, Scar is scared to touch his friend afriad he'll startle him more. "what do i do? what do i do?" he panics before pulling out his communicater and contacting the only person he knows would be able to help Grian. The door swung open shortly after Mumbo doesn't even acknowledge Scar immediately going to Grian's side keeping his hands away from the bird man.
"G, G its me Mumbo" Mumbo keeps his voice even and controlled hidding his worry. Grian doesn't bugged his sobs had subsided but he was still mummbling appolgize and pleds. "Grian, It's Mumbo, your best friend, please come back to me bud" Mumbo pleds Grian's eyes open before closing again, Mumbo realx's a little, hes at least hearing him now. "You can hear me thats good, Grian i need you to breath, can you do that for me G?" Grian nods his head still hiddin in his wings.
"Good, ok, in one, two, three" Mumbo counted waiting for Grian to catch up "Great, now out three, two, one" Mumbo breathes out with Grian. The duo does a few diffrent breathing techniques to calm Grian down meanwhile Scar made another cup of coaco and pulled the cookies out of the oven bring it all to the livingroom. When Grian finally retured from his head space he was met with two pairs of worried eyes and the smell of baked goods. Grian chirped, words not coming easy to him. "Hey G, you back with us?" Mumbo asks moving from the ground to sit beside his friend who nods "good" Mumbo sighs "look Grian what i said to you was mean and i shouldn't have yelled at you, i was just frustrated. A little at you i will admit" the mustache man quickly follows up with "but not completely at you, I should have been more careful i know that now, but maybe next time i don't leave buttons lying around" Mumbo chuckled.
Grian smiled an noded "Hug of forgivness?" Mumbo asks opening his arms. Grian quickly falls into them not wanting to let go. "Well now that everyone is ok, I made hot chocolate and cookies" Scar says making his presents known. The three enjoy their cookies and cocoa, Grian falls asleep shortly after burring his head in Mumbo's shoulder. Mumbo keeps his hand running through his friend's hair before meeting Scar with a worried look "i think this is more than just me being upset with him" Mumbo states plainly. Scar nods "definelty, were you ever told what happend by him" Scar says gesturing down to the passed out blonde, Mumbo shakes his head taking a sip from his mug, "but whatever happend serouisly messed him up Scar, and i'm not sure how to help him" Mumbo sighed. The two continue to talk while the alivan with a mysterious past continues to sleep for the first time in awhile.