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lovesick.
rui kamishiro was lovesick.
it was horrible. these unknown feelings swelled up inside him as he was forced to look away from you, trying to keep his dignity. love? he had never fallen in love with someone, not this badly. the way you did your hair, the way your eyes sparkled when talking about something you like.
that sweet smile you gave him as you greeted him.
all of these things drove rui insane. it was unfair! unheard of! rui kamishiro, kamiyama genius scholar, the weirdo who had a knack for making robots, falling in love with the very girl he had declared his best friend. horrible. it was horrible. he felt perverted every time he thought of how warm and soft your lips would feel against his. and a sense of self-loathing came over him. god, why couldn’t he be normal about his feelings?
it was farcical, the way you unknowingly had this boy wrapped around your fingers, how hopeless rui was for you . he could never get with you, you were too kind, too pure, too perfect for the likes of him. he was okay with just being friends. that’s all he needed. that’s all he deserved. however he couldn’t take control of the overwhelming ache that came over him every time you talked about another ‘hot’ guy, or whenever you wished that you could date someone like him. his heart dropped every time and you were oblivious to it.
that’s why he just decided to give in, just tell you how he felt. he was scared, obviously he would be. he could lose his best friend, for gods sake! he just couldn’t hold back any longer, and he couldn’t bear thinking about you every moment of the day waiting for a single hint or clue on whether you liked him the way he liked you. you probably didn’t, his love was intense and not normal, you deserved much better. someone normal. not him.
his head hurt as he picked up his phone. his heart was thumping. what if you hated him? what if you made fun of him? he was smart enough to know that the worst thing you could say wasn’t no. you were just doodling in your notebook as your phone rung ah, it’s rui, how come he’s calling you this late at night? you pick up the phone
“heya!” you greet enthusiastically “is everything alright?”
rui remained silent as he felt some of his worries drift away, the sound of your voice soothed him. nothing else could make him feel this way
“im alright, im not disturbing you right now right?” he asks, something seems off. he sounds off, he was probably lying to you about being alright but you decide to ignore it.
“hm? i’m not doing anything ahah don’t worry”
“do you think we can meet up? i have something i want to talk to you about” there it was. his tone was the same as it always was but behind his words you felt a hint of worry? you couldn’t exactly place your finger on it but to make sure he’s alright you agree. the phone call ends as you walk out the house to meet up at the playground nearby kamiyama. stupid but it was you twos favourite place, it was where you first met up after school. it was comforting. you didn’t bother to throw on a coat, too warm even in the winter nights.
you see him and you give him that same smile you always gave him. his heart dropped to his stomach as he saw you, that smile of yours was too cute, too perfect. god, he couldn’t even focus on anything properly.
“ruiii!! hii!!”
“hey!!” he replies, his voice smooth and happy. the little inflictions in his voice were cute to you. it was safe to say you loved rui, his presence was so comforting and he had helped you through your darkest times. he was the light in those horrifyingly lonely moments. it was him that was there for you, it was him that took care of you. for that you were eternally grateful. for that, you promised yourself to always be there for him, the same way he was there for you.
“how come you suddenly wanted to meet, it’s kinda late you know~” you grin, it was a dark evening, enough for hum of the bright streetlights to be heard. he had to get this off his chest. he had to. otherwise he would hate himself. just say it and get it over with rui, it’s not that hard. it’s just a simple sentence. come on-
“i think im in love with you”
you freeze for a moment. did you hear him right? you couldn’t have right? oh silly you, being delusional as always
“please say something” he says quietly. guess you heard him right after all. his expression was pained. you widened your eyes at that. rui kamishiro did not suit the sadness, it hurt you to see your best friend in pain. especially when your the cause of it.
“a-are you sure??” you say in disbelief. no one had ever been in love with you. people saw you as the hopeless romantic that obsessed over a new hot guy everyday. that feeling of never being someone’s crush had contributed to your past pains. making you feel unloved and alone. but this? this was new. and you looked up at him with a look of.. you didn’t even know. at the moment the only intelligible thing rui could see in your expression was surprise his heart ached as he nodded. he messed up didn’t he? he was so stu-
“i love you too” the only words you could choke out. that momentary look of surprise had been replaced with fondness as you softly smiled up at him. his heart skipped a beat. now he was questioning if he was hearing things correctly. he said no words as he pulled you into a desperate embrace; holding you as if you would disappear if he stopped.
“are you lying?? are you for real?? do you actually mean that or-“
“why would i be lying? rui, i love you. i’m sorry i didn’t tell you before. i love you. i love you i love you i love you”
at this point tears were running down your face as you ran your fingers through his slightly messy hair softly. he gently caressed your face as he pulled you closer. he looked so content, so calm. after all, a huge burden had finally been lifted and his best friend reciprocated his love. god, that was such a good feeling. you look up at him, your mascara was slightly messy from your little crying moment. he smirks back down at you, deciding not to comment on the fact that you look like a cute raccoon. even now, with your makeup messed, he thought you were still as beautiful as the day you two had first met. rui pulled your face closer as his lips meet yours. you shared a kiss as his arms wrapped around your waist, pulling you closer. he didn’t want to let go. this was his dream. this is all he wanted and the universe finally gave him a chance. your lips part.
“i love you so much” he whispers out.
hm, guess he was right; your lips ended up feeling amazing on his own.