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Logan has a secret. One that he’s never been able to talk about, a secret that has been bottled up for so long he’s afraid to even touch it.
James “Logan” Howlett, the Wolverine, is a woman. At least he thinks so? He’s fairly large, 6’2 with abs of literal steel and a solid frame that would make any bodybuilder envious. He’s always been seen as a “manly man,” covered in hair, angry, and known for his ferocity. And because of toxic masculinity and others expectations of him, he hasn’t been able to connect with that part of himself to really see if he’s transgender.
Thankfully, times were extremely different, being trans was even more difficult when Logan grew up compared to the 21st century. But even with all the positive and negative changes affecting trans lives, he still didn’t know much about it. Logan assumed that being transgender was still just as hard as it was 200 years ago, and he’s only partially correct, so any hope he had of coming out was stripped away.
This all changed when Logan met Wade. Wade is cisgender but very…eccentric? He doesn’t care what people think of him, he says and does whatever he wants, and he does so with, seemingly, overwhelming confidence. This shocked Logan. A merc who just runs his mouth is the last person he thought he would team up with…or fall in love with.
After the fiasco with the TVA Logan and Wade happily settled down in a place together. The same building as blind Al, but a different apartment to avoid the constant noise complaints they would receive from her during their many, many, sexual escapades.
However, the thing about being transgender? It's hard to keep it inside for too long, hell Logan has kept it successfully under wraps for almost 200 years, but the truth will always boil over at some point. And that point was today. Sitting at their breakfast table early in the morning with Wade yapping about God knows what. Logan cracks.
“…And get this honey badger, his dick wasn’t even that big! I told him to put that shit back in his pants and think long and hard about-“
“Wade.”
“…flashing random people because one day he’s gonna get made fun of. But maybe he’d like that-“
“Wade.” Logan repeated a bit louder this time.
“Hm? What’s up pup cup?” Wade asks, taking a huge bite of his breakfast while looking at Logan like he’s the most important thing in the world.
Logan swallowed hard, “I…I have something to tell you and I don't know how you’ll feel about it…” He takes a long pause. It was common for Logan to have a hard time talking about his feelings, he did better sharing how he felt through action, so this was extra difficult for him. But Logan felt like this had to be the day. This was the time. He had too.
Wade looks slightly surprised and motions for Logan to continue, not wanting to ruin the mood or cause Logan to close up his feelings like a clam, Wade withheld any jokes.
“For a long time I've felt…different? And I don’t know how to really explain it…and I sure as hell don’t understand it, but…I think-“ Logan pauses. Takes a deep breath and prepares for the worst.
“I think I'm a girl.” He confesses quietly. Almost incoherent, but Wade hears him loud and clear.
The room is quiet for a moment, then standing up from his chair, Wade walks over to Logan and hugs him into his chest.
“Logan. Logan, please look at me.” Wade begs, holding Logan’s chin softly forcing her to look up. Logan looks at Wade slowly, with tears in her eyes that she wouldn’t dare let fall.
Moving his hands to hold Logan’s face, Wade begins to speak gently, “Logan, you are the light of my life.” he smiles, “I’m beyond grateful to know you trust me and I’m so proud of you. Man or Woman, you are the sole reason I wake up in the morning, the reason i’m still working so hard to live to this day no matter how depressed I get. I love you, never doubt that.” He chuckles a bit to himself, “Well you and Mary Puppins of course.” he laughs.
“Logan, I love you for who you are on the inside. And I accept you for who you are and for who you want to be. if you know that you’re a woman? I’m just grateful that you had the courage and confidence to tell me.”
Wade hugs her again “Thank you for letting me know the real you.” The tears in Logan’s eyes begin to fall silently, embarrassed, she turned her head away from Wade.
Usually Wade would tell him- her that crying is okay and there’s no need to hide. Crying is a sign of emotional strength. But just for today, he lets it go. ”Tell me how I can help you, peanut? How can I help you feel better in your own skin?”
Logan looks at Wade distraught, “I don’t know. I don’t even know what all of this means. It’s just a feeling? I wish it would just go away but it doesn’t. I’ve been alive for centuries, I've survived countless wars and battles and it just keeps growing stronger. I just felt like I couldn’t outrun it anymore.”
Wade steps back to think, “Hmm, since this is so new for both you and me, you living it outwardly and me being your amazingly talented and hot boyfriend, maybe we could do more research about it together?” He cocks his head to the side in an attempt to make eye contact with Logan and smiles when he finally catches her eyes.
“We can make you the most stunning girl in the whole world! Just you wait, It’ll be so much fun!!” Wade claps his hands while jumping up and down, this brings a very tiny smile to Logan’s face.
“I appreciate it bub, I really do. But I'm no woman. Hell I'm far from it…I’m tall, hairy, muscular…it just wouldn’t work.”
Wade huffs and rolls his eyes, “Oh please baby girl, you can’t be so old that you think there aren’t a plethora of gorgeous women in this world who are taller than you, have way more body hair than you, and I bet you a million dollars that there are even some who could probably bench press you with minimal effort!” Getting down on his knee he looks Logan in the eye.
“You are just the blueprint for a beautiful woman who I have yet to meet. But so far? I know she and I are gonna get along just fine.” He moves in slowly to kiss the top of Logan’s forehead.
“Wade…thank you…”
“No problem, peanut.” Wade proceeds to smile viciously, “So any ideas for a new name or are we sticking with Logan? Logan’s pretty but it could also be Lulu, Lainey, Lucy, Oh!!! Or it could be Winifred, that’s blind Al’s middle name, I bet you she would be honored to share-“
Logan laughs and wipes the remaining tears out of her eyes. “We’ll see bub, we’ll see.”