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Cold
It was too cold
Luka’s body was always cold, so much so that he thought he wasn’t human anymore. He never knew what warmth was, he always was alone and nobody gave him the privilege of being loved. And when he thought that finally he could feel that, they dirtied him; they destroyed the last drop of hope. Even so, Luka wanted to be loved, but he was afraid of being hurt in the process. Even now he wishes one day he can be in the hands of somebody, without feeling dirty, feeling sick and used.
…
“Luka!” Hyuna called his attention from afar and approached him, behind her, was a group of unknown people. He doesn't like to talk with new people but “thanks” to hyuna he has to.
“Hey, I am going to hang out with these guys, do you want to come on with us?” Hyuna smiled
Luka frowned and gave her a complicated look, it was too obvious that he doesn't want to hang out, and hyuna knows —But she always plays dumbs—
“I don’t feel…”
“OKAY; LET’S GO!!” luka had not finished speaking when Hyuna took his arm and show him to her friends
“Guys, he is Luka, he seems bored but he’s very funny!” Luka tried to move away Hyuna but was useless so he resigned
“Hi, Luka! I’m Mizi, she's my girlfriend; Sua, And they are Ivan and Till! Nice to meet you” Mizi smiled joyfull
“Mizi, i think we can present ourself” Ivan Laughed softly
“Oh…right, sorry” Mizi blushed and lower the head embarrassed
Hyuna laughed very loud —Oh my god, Luka eardrums almost explote…—
“Okay, let’s go!” again…
…
Everybody was walking —To a place that Luka didn’t know I guess— in front of Luka, they walked so fast, and he can’t do that. Anyway he can just leave and nobody will know, or that what he thought
Without luka knows, Ivan approached silently
“I don’t think we are recreating the tortoise and the hare” ivan joked—with a very stupid joke—Luka didn’t look at him and just continued looking the sidewalk
“And i don’t know if you know that in the ending the tortoise win” answered dryly still no looking at Ivan
Ivan laughed a little high, luka turned to Ivan frowning, what the hell is he laughing about?
Ivan put his hand on his mouth and said “Hyuna was right, you are funny, Lukie lucky!” Smiled from ear to ear
…Luka wasn’t joking ???
That wasn’t funny ???
And
Lukie…Lucky ???
What the hell is wrong with this guy? Luka was stunned and started to convince himself that he should run even if he cannot run afar one meter. Luka looked unbeliever at the thing at his side and turned again to the sidewalk — Damn, how long it took to arrive??
“It seems you are not too talkie, don’t worry. I like to talk too much, actually i said my first word at ten months of age!” Okay, that’s unexpected…
“It notices”
“ Aw, thank you!” smiled Ivan joyfull
“That wasn’t a compliment”
“Oh” ivan’s smile faded away
“We’re here!” Hyuna shouted
Oh, it was a Bakery. Maybe it wasn’t bad idea come with them, after all Luka wanted to eat something sweet —Meanwhile ivan was faking crying with Sua—
The group sat in the tables meanwhile Mizi approached to a customer
“Hi, Mia! How are things right here?”
“Hallo, Mizi. today there have been many customers”
The little conversation was heard for the group but they didn’t pay attention
“Mizi is a frequent customer there?” Luka asked
“No, she works here. She is the manager” Sua answered while she smiled softly
Luka nodded and didn’t talk again
The waiter took the order and left, after everybody started to talk among them. Luka knew that he didn’t belong with them, he was not even from the group.
And then again, Ivan started to talk with him, Luka resigned and simply listened to all the dumb things that Ivan was saying, then Ivan started to tell him about his hobbies. He plays piano and that marveled Luka
“That’s great, I play the violin. I think that it's a good pair” Luka said with quiet tone try to hide his happiness
Ivan eye’s show stars, and nodded fastly “Yeah, yeah. I was in many recitals accompanied by the violin, and it sounded beautiful! We should play together someday” Smiled gladly. Luka considered his offer but he didn’t say anything and just nodded. Ivan just keep smiling until the food arrived
While he was eating, he started to look at the group. Everybody was very joyful, they always laughed and smiled for rare things, and Sua. Sua seems cold and quiet, but when she sees Mizi it's like something on her changes. Her soul is dark but then there is a big light around her, a warmth. Luka felt wrong for a second, and started to remember some things from his past. Then there is Till, it's obvious that he feels something for Mizi, but it's rare because it’s no love, it’s dependence. He clings to her, to the feeling. He finded a way to make himself happy without actually feeling. On the other hand, Hyuna…Simply lives ???
But Ivan, Luka didn’t know it was through his eyes , they were black—Luka knows it's almost impossible that the humans had black eyes— But with Ivan, Luka cannot see anything of color, Luka can’t read his eyes, can’t see a story in them. It’s like he died a long time ago, but his emotions and her big smile proves otherwise.
In that moment, Luka wished all the happiness in him, Ivan was the only whose story is unknown, but he continues. And that makes him feel angry.
Apparently, Ivan noticed Luka’s look, a simply smiled again
But this was different, in the center of hir iris, a red pupil appeared. The look was intense.
Then, Ivan approached his hand to luka hair and ruffled it, but for a strange reason, the touch didn’t feel bad. Actually it was…nice, but rare.
“Eat, i tasted that dessert the other day, it's delicious” he said almost whispering
But Luka was still thinking about one moment ago, he started to eat but he couldn’t forget the feeling.
A simple touch, he knows its absurd
…But felt so good that it felt bad
No.
No.
No again.