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Contrary to belief, Atsumu was actually shy. The front he put on was just a show of dominance and out of fear. He was always good at faking it. Which is why it led to all the rumors about him. He never really cared about his sexuality, but when girls came up to him he always had a spout of disappointment in the back of his throat. He blamed it on wanting to focus on volleyball. His brother, Osamu, came out to their parents as bi around their first year of high school. They were always so sweet and welcoming. Supporting their choice in volleyball and maybe no college. They just wanted the twins to be happy in life, and they were.
Atsumu had never kissed anyone. Even after the parties and multiple games of spin the bottle and seven minutes in heaven he was never chosen. Which maybe was a blessing in disguise. He had always been a hopeless romantic which made him want a special first kiss with someone who actually loved him. Osamu on all occasions made fun of the blonde for his love for Studio Ghibli movies. His Saturday night ritual of watching them became a habit for Osamu and Suna to join some times.
Atsumu is now 22 years old playing for the MSBY Jackal’s and still hasn't had his first kiss. Sakusa Kiyoomi and Hinata Shoyo joined the team about 3 months ago and Atsumu loves it. He loves being able to play with people he once had. Especially after promising to set to Hinata one day.
The setter’s persona had since calmed down from the last time he had seen the two. Maturing made him realize he didn’t have to fake anything for people who couldn’t care less. He made genuine friends with people on the team and he was the happiest he had ever been. He loved life. He loved having his Saturday night rituals. He loved going on walks through the city with Sakusa. He loved the late night karaoke with his teammates. He loved Osamu and his boyfriend, Suna. He loved going to his brother’s restaurant to listen to his brother’s ranting.
When Atsumu started to feel something towards the curly haired male, he immediately ran to his twin who seemed to laugh at his predicament. As far as Atsumu knew, Sakusa was a germaphobe. There was no way he would date someone like Atsumu. Sure he was a clean person, but he just had a feeling that he wouldn’t be interested.
Well that was before he knew him and now after knowing him for a month he figured out that the spiker had gone to therapy during college for treatment. He still has his issues, but he doesn’t mind being touched anymore. Which relieved Atsumu since he loved being able to touch people. It wasn't weird for him to be hugging or just touching his friends and family. He loved to be able to set a hand on someone’s arm while he was laughing or when drunk. He loved physical touch.
Fast forward to new years eve, he has a team party tonight. He was really excited. More than he should be to be honest. But he couldn’t help it. Everyone was gonna be together for the special day. Seeing the cute couples kiss as the time turns to 12 am. He loved the feeling of the environment of love and happiness. He must admit he felt a little sad for still being alone at 22. Never being able to feel the touch of someone who adores him. He sighs and runs a hand over his face. Today wasn’t the day to feel sad. The weather is beautiful and the team had built a snowman on Christmas Eve.
He already picked his outfit out the night before since he was so excited. He already agreed to go to the store for anything they needed. Which Sakusa also volunteered for. He wears his winter coat and jeans with a scarf in hand. Atsumu walks out his door to Sakusa’s door who was a couple doors away. He knocks and Sakusa’s door swings open. “Omi!” Atsumu exclaims happily. “Hi Atsumu” Sakusa gives a small smile as he exits his room. After closing his door they both head out with the list in hand.
Once they step out of the building they’re hit with the familiar sting of cold on their faces. Atsumu shivers while moving to put his scarf around his neck. Before he can even try Sakusa takes it from his hands and wraps it around Atsumu’s neck gently. “Don’t catch a cold Atsumu” He says simply as he turns away to walk again. Atsumu tries to ignore the faint blush creeping up onto his face as he pouts. “Omi~ I was about to put it on you just beat me to it” He whines. Sakusa flicks his forehead softly. “Be quicker next time” Sakusa smiles as Atsumu brings an offended hand to his forehead, glaring -definitely not glaring- at him.
At the store Atsumu was mostly the one to talk as Sakusa listened. This was usually what happened. Atsumu could talk for hours and Sakusa could listen for hours. “Aren’t ya excited for tonight Omi?” Atsumu asks, browsing the shelves. “Hm I suppose. It’s my first time spending new years with people.” Sakusa says. “What?? Are ya serious Omi?” Atsumu grabs Sakusa's shoulders to look at him. “Well my parents were usually travelling while I was growing up then I was busy with college.” Sakusa was so casual which made Atsumu whine. “I can’t believe it Omi. Don’t ya watch anything romantic?” He asks. “Not everyone is a total sap for romance Atsumu.” Sakusa laughs and shakes his head. “Well haven’t ya dated before?” Atsumu asks. He knows he’s pushing his luck right now.
“Never really had time for that either. What about you? Shouldn’t the prince of romance be in a relationship?” Sakusa asks, as they begin to browse the aisles again. Atsumu falters in his step before walking again. “Ah- um-” He stutters which makes Sakusa look at the blushing setter.“Wait- you’ve never been in a relationship?” It was Sakusa’s turn to be surprised. “I-I’ve never really had the chance.” He whispers, embarrassed. “That’s very surprising,” Sakusa muses.
They spent the rest of the grocery trip in a comfortable silence. Atsumu was embarrassed that Sakusa was surprised by the fact that he’s always been alone. It made him a little sad. The rest of the team teased him about it too. Especially when they found out he had never kissed anyone, which Sakusa doesn’t know -yet-. They didn’t bring it up much now because he told them how it made him feel. Gosh he loved how his team respected his boundaries. But that didn’t stop them from trying to set him up with a sea of men and women.
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When they’re walking back Sakusa was the one to finally speak up. “So you’ve really never dated anyone?” He asks. Atsumu can only nod as he feels the embarrassment rise on his neck and face. “Why not? If you don’t mind me asking.” Sakusa asks. “Ya know how I was in highschool. People only liked me fer my looks and never bothered trying ta get ta know me, so I jus’ never had my moment I guess. I love romance nd novels, nd those types of people never seem to go for me. I’ve always been more shy but it wasn’t easy to tell because of the persona I made fer myself in grade school” Atsumu says, avoiding eye contact. “I see. Have you ever tried to get to know someone who was into romance?” Sakusa says, walking closer to the blonde.
“Omi~ I already said that I don’t attract people like that.” Atsumu whines as he bumps a shoulder into the spiker. Sakusa just scoffs and shakes his head. “Ya’ know Omi. I’ve always wondered what my first kiss’ll be like” Atsumu says looking up at the sky. Sakusa seems to trip over his footing and stays silent for a moment. When Atsumu turns to him he sees Sakusa’s wide eyes and pink cheeks. “What Omi?” He asks. “Nothing nothing. Just my first kiss wasn’t anything special. I didn’t really want to kiss the person, but it was at a party.” Sakusa somehow covers his surprise about Atsumu’s untouched lips with his story. “Wow Omi. That really is terrible, I’m sorry that happened to ya” Atsumu says, concerned. “It’s okay. It was a long time ago.” He smiles at the blonde.
After they had put all the groceries away, Atsumu flops down onto his bed. Why was he so nervous for tonight? Was it because of the possible fact of Sakusa bringing his own significant other? Or maybe because he’s spending another night alone. He sighs into his hands as he feels a tightness form in his chest. He tries to avoid feeling like this by being around the people he cares about. The unfortunate victim today was Sakusa. Standing up and rubbing his eyes, he heads to the spikers room.
He knocks on the door and is met with a wet haired Sakusa. “Omi Omi” He says shyly. “Atsumu,” Sakusa says, smiling. “C-Can I come in?” Atsumu asks. Sakusa laughs while shaking his head. “You know you don’t have to ask.” He says, moving to the side. Atsumu walks in and plops down onto Sakusa’s bed. “What’s wrong?” Sakusa asks as he sits down beside him. He always knew how to read the setter. “I feel so lonely Omi-kun” He doesn’t mean for it to come out as a whisper, but it does. He feels a hand running through his hair slowly and it grounds him. “Tell me about it” Is all Sakusa says and so Atsumu speaks. “I just want ta be loved, Omi. I want ta be like Keiji and Bo. I want ta be loved like how Suna looks at Samu. I try to always be positive about it, but it’s hard when something you can’t have is surrounding me. Sorry for dumping this all on you.” Atsumu always talked and Sakusa always listened.
“That’s been on your mind for a while right?” Sakusa asks. Atsumu just nods and takes a small breath. He can’t cry today. “While knowing you, you also haven’t cried.” Sakusa lightly flicks his forehead while shaking his head. “Don’t make fun of me Omi” Atsumu sniffles. There was a moment of silence. “I’m here for you, so let’s get ready for the party and have the most preeminent night.” Sakusa smiles. Atsumu also smiles and looks up at Sakusa. He always knew how to get Atsumu out of his head. “Okay Omi. We need to decorate for the party anyway so I’ll see you soon.” He stands up from Sakusa’s bed and stretches slightly before walking out while smiling.
Atsumu decides on wearing baggy-black jeans with a brown button up shirt. He wanted to at least look like he felt good. Dressing nice always lifted his spirits
When he arrives downstairs he immediately picks up the cleaning supplies and cleans all the counters and surfaces. “Shouldn’t that be my job?” A voice asks from a little too close. Atsumu squeaks. “Omi~ You can’t do that. I was focused.” He blushes. It’s hard not to when a handsome man is just a couple inches from you. “Since when did you like cleaning?” Sakusa asks, stuffing his hands in his pockets. “Hmm I don’t know. I guess I just picked up the habit from you. Can’t stand dirty places anymore. Makes me shiver.” Atsumu says, as he physically shivers. Sakusa laughs and shakes his head. “You’re unbelievable Atsumu.” He just smiles. “Tsum-Tsum” He hears as an arm is thrown around his shoulder. “Hi Bo-kun” He says laughing.
“What’s goin’ on over here? You guys look like you’re bonding over cleaning supplies. Don’t tell me Kiyo has you held a gunpoint” Bokuto asks as he shakes the setters shoulders. Atsumu looks at Sakusa for help who just backs up a couple inches and shrugs. “I was jus’ getting a head start for Omi’s cleanin” Atsumu pouts and turns away from Sakusa. “Well that can wait. Keiji wants to say hi!” Bokuto exclaims happily while pulling the setter away from the other spiker. Sakusa just shakes his head as he finishes the task at hand.
“Hi Keiji” Atsumu exclaims warmly. “Atsumu, hello.” Akaashi sends him a small smile before they form into a small conversation. Atsumu always liked Akaashi. He was amazing for and to Bokuto. He could feel a pit of jealousy planted in his gut. He was a lot of things Atsumu couldn’t be and it hurt.
After they finish their conversation, Atsumu sluggishly walks back over to Sakusa. “Omi! How could ya let him move me like that?” He says, feigning his hurt expression. He stands closer to Atsumu and smiles. “Well, I can’t have you to myself.” He says before he goes back to cleaning. Atsumu pouts before he sits on the clean counter beside Sakusa. “Are ya excited for tonight, Omi?” He asks as his feet swing. “Hmm I don’t know. I like spending time with the team, so I don’t mind.” Sakusa says, not looking up from his cleaning. Atsumu hums and watches Sakusa clean.
Atsumu didn’t know anyone was watching the two of them talk about who knows what. Akaashi and Bokuto were watching the two with a smile. “Do you think either of them even realize they like each other?” Akaashi asks, taking a sip of his wine glass. “I think so. The way they look at each other like they’re the only two in the world. Sakusa only really tolerates Tsumu’s touch and they go out at least once a week. He even goes to Tsumu’s dorm to watch movies with him, he doesn’t like going to anyone else's.” Bokuto adds as he leans against the wall. “Atsumu gets lonely a lot and I think Sakusa knows that. I’m not saying he doesn’t like him, but I’m saying he just wants Atsumu to be happy whether they’re together or not.” Akaashi smiles. Akaashi really wanted them to be together. He sees how happy the spiker makes him. He deserves happiness.
When the party starts, Atsumu is excited. It’s around 8 pm, so they still had a few hours before the countdown. Sakusa and him were sitting on the couch together playing mario kart with Meian and Inunaki. He had his legs draped across Sakusa’s lap while playing. “Hey! Who just hit me with the blue shell?” Atsumu whines. He turns his head when he hears Sakusa laugh. “Omi~ Don’t tell me ya betrayed me! This is the end of the world!” Atsumu says. He finished third right behind Sakusa. He slides himself off of the couch dramatically. “This is the end of the world!” He says dramatically. “Sorry Atsu. I don’t like playing nice. Get off the floor, it’s dirty” Sakusa smiles down at him as he offers a helping hand. Atsumu takes it as he plops back onto the couch.
“I’ll beat ya this time Omi!” Atsumu says. Sakusa smiles at him as he sees the look of determination cross the setter's face. He looks over to Bokuto and Akaashi to see them smiling at the two of them. He clears his throat and looks back to the screen.
At 10 pm Atsumu and Sakusa were in the kitchen together as they made mac n cheese. The team was doing karaoke in the living room and it sounded horrible. The team had already ordered pizza, but Atsumu had opted for mac n cheese. That’s all he craved when he was drunk. Sakusa was stirring the pot of noodles as Atsumu hummed the song being sung. It was heaven to Sakusa’s ears. “Your voice sucks.” Sakusa turns to smirk at the blonde. He hears Atsumu’s gasp. “Yer so mean Omi Omi” Atsumu whines as he pushes him. “I’m an honest man Atsu” He says as he pushes him back, which turns into a play fight.
Atsumu jumps onto Sakusa’s back and starts to ruffle his hair. “Hey!” Sakusa says as he puts his back to the counter to get the blonde off of him. He turns around and puts himself between Atsumu’s legs and tickles him. “Omi no! S-stop please!” Atsumu begs as he laughs. Tears form in his eyes as Sakusa finally stops. “Yer evil Omi” Atsumu wipes his eyes while laughing. When he opens his eyes he’s met with Sakusa already staring at- not his eyes? His lips? He sees the spiker gulp and looks back up at his eyes. Atsumu blushes as they don’t break eye contact. “Atsumuuuu” Inunaki stammers as he walks into the kitchen. “Do you know when the pizza will be here?” The libero says, throwing an arm around the two. “U-um should be in a couple minutes.” Atsumu stutters as he turns to Inunaki. “Okayyy” He slurs before walking back out.
There’s an awkward silence as Sakusa clears his throat and steps away from the setter. Sakusa drained the noodles and he added the rest of the ingredients. He can feel Atsumu’s eyes on him and it’s making him nervous for some reason. His face heats up as he tries not to think about Atsumu’s lips or smile. “It’s ready.” Sakusa says as he takes a swig of his beer trying to not show his nervousness. “R-Right.” Atsumu says as he slides off of the counter. The blonde feels weak to his knees as he and Sakusa walk side by side together back to the group. The pizza arrives as they sit by each other. They turn on Shrek much to Sakusa’s demise. The green ogre grossed him out. He doesn’t mind right now as his and Atsumu’s knees are touching. They’re both quiet as he sees Akaashi staring at the two of them again. This time he ignores it because he knows why he’s staring.
It’s 11:58 pm and they turn on the timer for the countdown. The couples get together as they have their drinks in hand. Atsumu naturally drifts towards Sakusa who is leaning onto the wall in the back. “Omi Omi!” Atsumu says as he walks up. “Hi Atsu. Are you excited?” He asks, smiling. “Of course I am! The feeling of a new year is refreshing.” Atsumu smiles. They continue having small talk as the time goes by. “10 seconds everyone!” Miean exclaims. They gather closer as they count down. “5” Miean says. “4” Bokuto yells. “3” Sakusa looks at Atsumu “2” Atsumu looks at Sakusa. “1” Atsumu sees the spiker look at his lips. “Happy New Year!” Everyone says as the time hits 12:00 am. They stare into each others eyes as everyone kisses their partners. “Atsumu” Sakusa’s voice sent a shiver through Atsumu’s body. “O-Omi” He stutters out. “Can I kiss you?” He asks as he wraps a hand around Atsumu’s waist. Atsumu gulps as he nods his head, not breaking eye contact.
Sakusa places his other hand on Atsumu’s jaw as he leans in. Atsumu closes his eyes nervously. His body shivers as he feels Sakusa’s lips on his. He wraps his arms around the spiker’s shoulders. Their lips slot together perfectly as Atsumu grips onto the spiker’s curls. Sakusa swipes his tongue across Atsumu’s bottom lip. He’s running out of breath. He opens his mouth unconsciously as he feels a tongue push into his mouth. He whines at the feels. Has he been missing this his whole life? Sakusa brings his other hand to the back of Atsumu’s neck, trying to pull him even closer. Atsumu feels warmth blossom in his chest as he can feel Sakusa’s heart beating against his. The dizzy feeling he gets when a hum comes out of Sakusa’s mouth.
He pulls back from the kiss, but keeps his hands around the spiker’s neck. “Happy New Year Atsu.” Sakusa says, eyes filled with want. “Omi. I-I like you” He stutters out. Fuck he shouldn’t of said that. “I like you too.” Sakusa says without blinking. They’re broken out of their trance with a whistle. He looks for the source of the noise and of course it’s Bokuto. “I’m happy for you guys.” Akaashi says, smiling at the two. Atsumu looks back at Sakusa and blushes. Atsumu smiles as he hugs Sakusa.
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~ Happy New Years!!