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“Good morning, Sakuma-kun” Sakuma raise his head and see his junior walking through the entrance of their changing room.
“Ah, Good morning, Ren!” Sakuma reply cheerfully but soon return his focus back to his smart phone.
“Anime?” Meguro asked while he put down his bag on nearby sofa.
“Un? Ah no, not anime just reading some story” Sakuma tore his sight from his phone and as soon as he meets with Meguro’s eyes, he stopped. “About us” Sakuma said with very small voice that Meguro could not hear.
It is indeed he was not lying, he was reading some story about him and Meguro. People called it fan fiction, and how could Sakuma read a fanfic about himself? Its all started weeks ago.
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Its was a rare day off for Sakuma and like a miracle, he got a day off in the same day as his favorite senior, Miyata-senpai. So, in no time, he called him and they agreed to spend the time together at Miyata’s house (which is deserted because Tamamori had a full day job that day).
The day started like any other day when they meet, they catch up about their favorite anime (there is no need to catch up about their personal live because it not important compare to anime). Until it is time to get lunch. While waiting for the delivery order to come. Sakuma randomly change the Tv channel, and he stopped right where the channel shows one of Meguro commercial, Sakuma unconsciously smiling.
“As expected from Ren, he is so handsome” Sakuma said with smile still lingering on.
Miyata look at him with understanding look. Sakuma always said many things about Meguro this and Meguro that whenever they meet, and Miyata quick to understand that his junior has feeling for Meguro, but the problem is Sakuma himself didn’t realize his own feeling. In Sakuma’s brain Meguro is just another cute junior and that’s it, but people around Sakuma understand that the he has romantic feeling to Meguro.
“You love him that much?” Miyata asked, “Meguro” Miyata continue because Sakuma made a ‘what are you talking about’ face.
“Of course I do! I love Ren!” Sakuma said brightly, and Miyata felt relieved because its not the first time that he and people around Sakuma tried to give hint to make Sakuma realize that Sakuma love Meguro (and the fact that Meguro reciprocate that feeling). But Sakuma next words bring Miyata hope to crumble. “He’s my junior and also member of the same group, how can I not love him.”
“I mean not as junior or member” Miyata pushed further, feels he had enough with this.
“Not as member or junior? Then as family?” Sakuma frown, and Miyata must give all his strength to not smack his junior head just to put some sense in it.
“Love as in romantic feeling.” Miyata said.
“Romantic? Me and Ren?” Sakuma frown deeper. “But we both man”
“Love has nothing to do with gender you know” Miyata said, “and I think Meguro love you”
“I hope he does, I’ll be sad if my group member didn’t love me back” Sakuma said sadly.
“Not that kind of love!!” Miyata frustrated, but at the end he let it passed seeing the big question mark hanging in Sakuma’s head. He gives up. When their delivery food come, Sakuma got distracted and the topic never came up again.
It was a week after that day, that Sakuma started to get some link from Miyata, he clicks the link with the exception of info about anime, but he found a webpage full of words. At first, he thought Miyata-senpai send the link to the wrong person. But then he read his and Meguro name scattered in the words that written. He thought ‘maybe some gossip about me and ren’, but then soon he realizes that it was a story, a love story to be precise, between him and Meguro.
Started with one story and the rest is history, Sakuma who is good with his imagination love to read the fiction stories, but he limits himself to just read the ‘safe’ story, once he by accident clicks one of story with sex scene that written so vivid, that Sakuma felt his body are shivering, and since that he chooses the story that cute and sweet.
Sometimes he was so absorbs in the story, that there are days he gets mad at Meguro just because fic-Meguro are cheating on fic-him, and he demand the real Meguro to apologize. Being a good junior Meguro said his apologize sincerely thinking he must make a mistake that he didn’t realize.
Or sometimes he gives Meguro hug out of nowhere, just because fic-Meguro acting so cute like buying fic-him some expensive present. He will hug the taller man and said “Thank you Ren!”, and Meguro always hug him back while saying “I didn’t do a thing”.
But the strange thing is he didn’t like to read another story that pair him with another member other than Meguro. He tried out of curiosity, but he just frowns trough out the story, and he just couldn’t finish the story.
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And that bring to what happened today, while Sakuma replay the memory on his mind, he unconsciously stares at Meguro’s face for a long time without saying a thing.
“Sakuma-kun? What? Something on my face?” Meguro asked like he was uncomfortable being stare by Sakuma.
“Ren!” Sakuma call him out of nowhere without answering the question. He got an idea to recreate the scene that he just read, before Meguro interrupted him. “Here, sit here!” Sakuma scooted over and make room on the two seated sofa for Meguro to sit. He tapped the sofa next to him urging Meguro to sit beside him, and of course Meguro obey to the request, once he leans his back on the sofa, Sakuma also lean put his head on Meguro shoulder.
“Eh?” Meguro clearly shocks. But Sakuma just frown, it felt different.
“No, its not right” Sakuma mumble, and Sakuma lift his head from Meguro’s shoulder. He proceeds to get up and standing in front of Meguro with intense gaze.
“Ren open your arms” Sakuma demand, and as soon as Meguro opening his arms wide, Sakuma put his ass side way on the taller man lap. Meguro accept him with an ‘ufhh’, and before Sakuma told Meguro to hold him, the younger man already put his arms around his body, maybe he afraid that Sakuma will fall down.
Sakuma put his head on Meguro chest, and for a while he felt Meguro move a little bit here and there, in the search of comfortable position for both of them. Sakuma smiles contented feeling the warmth, it the same position with me fic-Meguro and fic-Sakuma doing.
“Ren, stroke my hair” Sakuma said again, and felt that one Meguro’s hand leaving his body and started to strokes his hair repeatedly. The difference height and build between them, made Sakuma fit perfectly in Meguro’s arm, Meguro could embrace all of Sakuma, and Sakuma’s head could lean easily on the man chest without restrain on his neck.
“You’re so warm” Sakuma said closing his eyes, in his mind he couldn’t stop thinking that no wonder fic-himself really loves being hug by fic-Meguro, he never knows that it will feels this warm in Meguro’s arm, and listening to the faint heartbeat of Meguro is calming. Sakuma think he found his favorite place beside his home.Sakuma raise his head and look at Meguro that haven’t said a words at all. Sakuma think that his junior looking more handsome at close range, and he also catch a glimpse of Meguro’s red ear.
“Ren” Sakuma calls, he thought Meguro has a fever because his ear is so red. But when Meguro look down and meet his eyes, Sakuma freeze.
‘Thump’
‘Thump’
‘Thump’
‘Eh? What is this?’ Sakuma felt his heartbeat skip and suddenly started to beat faster. He felt his face getting warmer.The longer their eyes meet the hotter he felt. Feeling embarrassed he look down and hide his face in Meguro’s chest once again.
“What is it Sakuma-kun?” Meguro asked with soft voice, and Sakuma could feel the vibration from every words. He sure that his face already becoming so red by now.
“Sakuma-kun?” Meguro asked once again, stopping his stroking movement.
“Nothing, it’s just… Nothing.” Sakuma shakes his head and stubbornly refuse to look at Meguro. “Your hand… don’t stop” Sakuma said in small voice. So, Meguro continue to strokes his head and didn’t say another word further.
Envelope in the warmth, Sakuma forgotten about his noisy heartbeat, he just feeling so calm in Meguro’s arms, and he feel sleepy.
“Ren… ” Sakuma said like a whisper.
“Yes?” Meguro said signing that he listening.
“I think I love you” and with that Sakuma fell asleep with a smile on his face.
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Meguro stopped his hand movement in shock listening on what his beloved senior said. He looks and realize that the said man, that just make Meguro’s world turn upside down, is sleeping with beautiful peaceful expression on his face.
Meguro let out a big sigh,he alreadyhad romantic feeling for Sakuma since before their debut, but he knows that Sakuma treat him just as friend and member of the same group, equally as the other member, and he felt that being beside Sakuma is already enough, he didn’t want to pursue his love any further (not like other people, Meguro and Sakuma are the only two person that don’t realize about each other feeling).
He doesn’t know what is wrong with Sakuma today, but being this close with Sakuma make his heart beat loudly, he was so afraid that Sakuma will hear his loud heartbeat, that why he just keeps silent because he didn’t trust his voice wouldn’t tremble from nervous. But hearing the last words before the man fall asleep make him think that he had a chance to be together with Sakuma.
“Wait for me Senior, I will try my best to woo you so you fall head over heels to me” Meguro said full of confidence and hug the smaller man a little bit tighter.
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Extra 1:
Tamamori frown as soon as he gets home and being welcomed by gloomy Miyata.
“What’s wrong? Wasn’t you just meet with Sakuma? Why? The ending of the anime was far from what you expected?” Tama asked, it’s weird to see Miyata this gloom after seeing Sakuma. Their meet up usually ended with laugh and also tons and tons of new anime goods.
“Nothing” Miyata sigh, “just the usual Sakuma and Meguro stuff”
“They haven’t gets together yet?” Tama raise an eyebrow. Miyata just nodded. “Unbelievable”
Tama didn’t like the look of gloomy still lingering on his lover face, he know how important Sakuma is for Miyata.
“Why don’t you call Abe-chan?” Tama propose an idea. “I mean he is smart. I think he know what to do”
Miyata face light up at the idea, and soon he searches for his phone.
“Hello, Abe-chan?” Miyata start “about Sakuma.” Tama couldn’t hear what Abe said, he just listening to Miyata words.
“So, I need to let the idea of love between men to Sakuma? Oh! I think I have an idea, there a thing called fan fiction, I think this one will work” Miyata said with bright face.
Miyata still talk at the phone for few more minutes, but all that Tama care is his lover mood already getting better.
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Extra 2:
Miyata looking at his phone as soon as he heard that got new message, and found out that Abe just sent him message with picture attach to it.
Miyata smile when he looks at it. The picture of sleeping Sakuma on Meguro’s lap, the look of love from the younger eyes is obvious to anyone that looking at it. Few words attach to the message.
‘I think it will be success this time.’
_THE END_