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‘Why him? Why that piece of shit! He doesn't understand Micheal like he does! He has shown nothing but disrespect and ignorance to Micheal…So why does Micheal have eyes for HIM! What's so special about Isagi Yoichi!’
Those were the thoughts running through Ness’ head as he kicked the ball intensely, using Mr.Blue Lock he practiced over and over again. Ness had a stern look on his face, tongue out he was heavily focused on his craft. Nothing could pull him away from his practice or his thoughts, not even the footsteps that could be heard as another player entered the room.
Panting, Ness dropped down to the floor. His breaths were heavy and his brows furrowed…why would Micheal say such cruel things? They've been through so much…so why..?
“You should just quit football.”
“Shit!” Ness slams a fist to the turf, over and over again “It's not fair! What the fuck! Stupid Isagi! Piece of shit!” he screamed angrily. Crap! Was Micheal right? He had fumbled an easy pass thanks to his own loyalty and respect for Micheal…was he right? Should he just quit football? His dreams? Micheal was probably-
“Hey Hey! Calm down would you? Your hand is bruised..” Ness felt a gentle hand grasp his own clenched one. He was immediately taken out of his thoughts when he found his team mate holding onto him, preventing him from doing anything else.
“Huh?” He looks up at the boy, he couldn't remember his name but he knows he was one of the guys who got subbed on, he was not on the current Bastard München team and was part of the blue lock project. Ness quickly broke out of the boys grasp to put on those translation earbuds
“W-why are you here? Everyone should be asleep. What is your name even” He immediately asks, ignoring the pain from the purple bruise on his hand..he hadn't even noticed how far he went.
“Woah..woah calm down okay?” he brought his hands up, like he was surrendering himself to the police. “I just couldn't sleep, so I came here..and you seriously don't remember my name?” He asks, slightly amused.
“I don't pay attention to the unimportant.” he says crossing his arms
“Whatever, I'll introduce myself then for you Ness.” he sighed, taking a step forward. He brought his hand out in a graceful manner, to Ness the boy looked like a prince. “Yukimiya Kenyuu…or Kenyuu Yukimiya to you since you're German.” he says with a smile “pleasure to be of acquaintance.”
“...Alexis Ness..or uh..Ness Alexis to you..since you're Japanese.” Ness repeats Yukimiya's own words while shaking his hand.
Yukimiya quickly gets back to the matter as his expression goes to a serious one. “Did you not notice how badly you were hurting your hand?” Yukimiya takes a look shaking his head
“c'mon let me bandage you-”
“I'm fine. It's only a bruise.” ness says quickly taking his hand back “you should worry about yourself you know, not the idiot team mate who can't pass.” he insults himself bitterly with an even more bitter smile. The self deprecation wasn't new to him, he wasn't proud how its familiarity brought comfort.
“..Mhm..” Yukimiya went silent after that small noise. He's calculating something, probably gonna just leave it be and stop the questioning..he's probably mad at me as well for messing up. Ness thought, staring at Yukimiya, his own face grimacing, remembering his failures.
“..Well..can you at least bandage these up if not for you, for me?” he requests instead, catching Ness off guard…Yukimiya didn't seem upset at him and he supposed it wouldn't hurt to humor Yukimiya..even if he thought those sudden words from the boy made him feel strange.
“Oh um..okay?..I mean I don't have any bandages…”
“That's fine, I have first aid under my bed in my room. I can take you there.” he offered
“Oh! No, that's fine really! I don't want to be a bother-”
“Please, I'm offering Ness, I dont mind..your wellbeing is important to me.” he said that so matter of factly Ness face turned warm, like a soft red. Yukimiya didn't comment on it though. It's rude to embarrass a cute boy like that.
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The walk from the field to Yukimiyas room was short and silent. Yukimiya had guided Ness back to his room with his own hand. Ness noted how soft they were, quite the opposite to Kaiser's own rough hands.
Yukimiya opened the door to his room “make yourself comfortable.” he reassured him. He leads him to his bed before kneeling down to find the first aid he mentioned, once he found it he quickly got to work tending to the injury.
Ness was relatively quiet as Yukimiya helped him. He took the time to look around the mostly barren room. It was a simple room, though he had noticed some stand out things. Yukimiyas closet was open and it showcased his organization skills, seeing as his uniforms were neatly hung and folded. On his wall was a photo of his family as well as a few photos of him out with the other blue lock players, including Yoichi.
“You’re actually friends with the other players?” Crap he didn't mean to say that out loud. Yukimiya looks back at Ness shrugging. “I didn't know them before Blue Lock.” he explains “But we grew close..were still rivals and I obviously have my football goals prioritized but I still have my friendships from that. I'm closest with Karasu and Otoya.” He adds
“Oh okay.” His response was plain but he was feeling a lot of things at the moment. The long quiet filled the room as Yukimiya continued to tend to him while Ness drowned in his own thoughts. Yukimiya would glance up from time to see a distressed expression drawn on the german’s face. He had an inkling on why it was..though he was a bit annoyed at Ness’ inability to catch up to Kaiser and Isagi’s flow he understood him. He needed to show Ness’ that he can better himself without relying on another player much less Kaiser.
“...You were like a cancer, you know?”
“..A cancer?” Ness’ eyes widened. He was talking about his shitty play he knows. “I know..Kaiser opened my eyes to that..” He murmured “I'm gonna quit..Kaiser made me realize that I shouldn't be in Bastard München muchless football..I'm not cut out for this.” He said degradingly followed by small laughter. “You shouldn't waste your supply on someone as worthless like me I mean without MichaelI-”
“Are you fucking serious?”
“Ha?”
“You’re pulling my leg right?” Yukimiya stops what he's doing staring back at him “How can you say something so demeaning and pathetic? Especially to yourself.” Ness froze as he stared back at Yukimiya in pure shock.
“Why are you letting Kaiser dictate your life? Why are you so loyal to that piece of shit? I mean you're an amazing player Ness. The only reason why you were struggling so badly is because you couldn't keep up with Kaiser or Isagi. Even then all you had to do was let go of Kaiser and focus on creating a chemical reaction with any of us.” Yukimiya rants “Why the loyalty to Kaiser despite that ass throwing you out Ness?”
Ness was speechless, struggling with his own words he felt tears run down his face “Without him I'm nothing!” He argues “I wouldn't be in Bastard München without him! He's helped me improve!”
“The only thing he's taught you is to bark and roll over.” Yukimiya retorts back coldly. “You need to be selfish on the field to improve, that ideology of yours is slowing you down.” Ness bites his lip annoyed, he glares at Yukimiya in response. “You don't know anything! Michael is the only one who believes in me and my dreams!” he gasps, wiping the forming tears from his face.
“If he wanted the best for you he wouldn't tell you to quit like that.” Yukimiya claimed “You know that deep down too. His thumb brushes the droplets of water rolling down. “...Don't quit football..strive away from that set ideology of yours and play for yourself. It's more rewarding and you can improve as a player.” His harsh tone dissipates into a more nurturing one.
Ness’ pupils dilate as if he had some sort of epiphany. The tears rush in hard and he sobs. “I..I shouldn’t have passed to Michael.” he expresses tearfully. “It should've been Yoichi, he would have been able to make a perfect direct shot…”
“Hey hey hey wait a minute.” Yukimiya wraps an arm around Ness' shoulder “I know I was giving you a bit earlier but don't beat yourself up like that. You understand your mistakes and will improve, that's what matters.” He reassures Ness’ “Don't give up football, get it? I want to play against Germany in the World Cup and I'd be excited to beat you.” He proclaimed with a playful cockiness which lightened the atmosphere.
Ness sniffled, punching Yukimiyas arm “Alright, I guess I'll keep playing. Wouldn't want Japan to steal Germany's win.” He chirped with a grin “I hope you keep playing for blue lock, if not I wouldn't mind you joining Bastard München too..” he mumbles the last part “..I'd love to play with you.”
Yukimiya softly smiles. Letting out a comfortable sigh he finishes bandaging up Ness’ fists. He brings the midfielders hands to his mouth pressing a gentle kiss to his knuckles.
“I'll be waiting.”