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Backstage was a chaotic, pulsating heart of sound and movement. Crew members barked orders, hauling amps and untangling miles of cables, as the thrum of bass tests reverberated through the walls. The air smelled of sweat, metal, and cigarette smoke.
Lars, arms crossed and jaw tight, was in a heated argument with a roadie. His voice cut through the din with the kind of force that made people step back.
„I told you— the snare sound has to cut more. I'm not playing behind a goddamn pillow!"
The roadie nodded hastily, avoiding Lars's glare as he adjusted the mic positions again. Just a few feet away, Dave sat on a road case, his guitar resting against his leg, the strap twisted between his fingers. His expression—half scowl, half smirk—betrayed his irritation. Every beat of Metallica's soundcheck felt like a personal affront.
He leaned back, his eyes narrowing as he watched James step up to test the mic. James's voice, raw and commanding, filled the empty venue. The familiarity of that voice was a knife's edge cutting through Dave's pride.
The memories were never far: late nights in grimy rehearsal spaces, the shared bottles of cheap whiskey, the riffs that had burned like fire between them.
Jason loitered by the side of the stage, his bass slung low. His eyes darted across the chaos, and when Marty appeared from the opposite direction, their gazes collided. Marty, with his mane of dark curls, gave a brief, polite nod.
Jason hesitated, returning the gesture with a strained smile before turning away. The silence between them was thick with unsaid things—neither hostile nor friendly, but something stranger, something more human.
The night grew heavier as the festival roared on, a beast of light and sound. Dave slipped outside, away from the frenzy. He needed air, something clean to fill his lungs. He lit a cigarette, the flare of the lighter briefly illuminating the sharp angles of his face. The humid night clung to his skin as he leaned against a metal railing, watching the shadows shift with every flicker of stage lights.
„Thought I'd find you out here."
The voice was gravel, low and familiar. Dave turned his head and found James Hetfield standing a few feet away, the neck of his guitar in one hand, a cigarette dangling between his lips.
„You look like you're gonna explode, Mustaine." James's mouth curled in a half-smile.
„If I do," Dave muttered, the corner of his mouth twitching, „I'll make sure you're standing in the blast radius."
They stared at each other, and the tension that lived between them tightened like a wire drawn too taut. But there was no venom in it tonight—just a weariness that came from too many years of shouldering the same weight.
James exhaled smoke into the thick air, his eyes never leaving Dave's. „You always were dramatic."
„And you're still predictable."
James laughed, a rough sound that broke apart the silence. He took a step closer, propping his guitar against the railing. His movements were languid, but his eyes stayed sharp, watching, always watching.
„You don't have to keep doing that." James said after a beat.
„Doing what?"
„Pretending this doesn't matter." He gestured loosely between them, the unspoken history hanging heavy.
Dave's fingers tightened around his cigarette."I'm not pretending anything. You're the one who shoved me out the door, remember?" His voice dropped, bitter but controlled. „And now you're what—offering a truce? A smoke and some small talk to smooth it over?"
James tilted his head, his eyes narrowing. „It's not about smoothing it over. It's about calling it for what it is."
„And what is it, exactly?"
James didn't answer right away. Instead, he looked out at the darkened horizon, the glow of the festival lights casting shadows across his face. „We've both been carrying it for too long," he said finally, his voice softer. „All the noise... it's exhausting, man."
Dave watched him, the cigarette burning down between his fingers. His gaze softened, almost imperceptibly. He remembered the nights when James was just a kid with too many dreams and not enough patience, the way they'd played until their fingers bled.
„You know," Dave murmured, "it's been a while since really talked like this. Just the two of us."
James's lips twitched, a hint of a smile that didn't quite reach his eyes. „Yeah. There's always been a lot of noise between us."
The quiet stretched, not uncomfortable, but thick with a strange kind of understanding.
James turned back toward his guitar, plucking the strings softly, the notes humming low and sweet in the night air. His fingers moved with an ease that belied the raw power behind his playing. The stage lights caught in his hair, casting copper highlights that shimmered against the dark.
Dave's eyes traced the movement of James's hands, the subtle flex of tendons, the sureness of touch. He knew that kind of mastery because it lived in his own bones.
„You still play like your life depends on it." Dave said quietly.
James's fingers stilled for a moment before continuing. „Maybe it does."
The admission hung between them, naked and unguarded.
„You always had that fire." James added, his voice low. „Even when you were just a punk kid with a chip on your shoulder. I respected that."
Dave's laugh was sharp, bitter. „Respected me so much you threw me out."
James met his gaze head-on. „I had to. You would've burned us both down."
The words cut deep, but there was no malice in them. Only truth.
For a moment, Dave didn't speak. His chest tightened, the familiar sting of old wounds reopening. But there was something else, too—something quieter, warmer. He swallowed hard, feeling the weight of years shift, just slightly.
„You ever wonder what it would've been like?" he asked, his voice barely above a whisper. „If things had been different?"
James's eyes darkened, a flicker of something unspoken flashing through them. „All the time."
They stood there, two men shaped by the same fire, bound by rivalry and regret, and maybe—just maybe—something more. The night pressed in around them, but for once, the noise seemed far away.
And in the silence, they both breathed.
The silence between them hung like a breath held too long—heavy, fragile, and on the edge of shattering.
James shifted his weight, the neck of his guitar resting against his broad shoulder as he studied Dave. His lips parted, as though he might say something else, something deeper, but—
„Hey, Het! Mustaine!"
Lars Ulrich's voice barreled into the space like a freight train, breaking the moment in half. He stalked toward them, still gesturing wildly at a hapless roadie who trailed behind him, looking ready to quit.
„The guy's an idiot," Lars muttered, waving a hand toward the retreating figure before turning his full attention on the two men. „I've been telling him for an hour that the kick drum needs more punch, but does he listen? No."
He stopped short, glancing between James and Dave. A grin tugged at his mouth, sharp and full of mischief.
„Wait a second." Lars's eyes gleamed as though he'd caught them mid-crime. „Are you two actually talking? Without throwing punches? Or guitars?" His grin widened. „Hell, I don't think I've ever heard Mustaine speak to Hetfield without at least three insults. This is weird."
Dave didn't miss a beat. His smirk sharpened into something razor-edged as he exhaled smoke from the corner of his mouth. „What's your excuse, Ulrich? You always talk, but never say anything important."
James snorted, his shoulders shaking with laughter. He flicked ash from his cigarette, a wicked smile curling his lips as he shot a sideways glance at Dave. „You two should just kiss and get it over with."
The words hung in the air like a lit match.
Dave's eyes flicked to James, a glimmer of something flickering behind the usual guardedness. His smirk didn't falter, but there was a spark in his gaze—sharp, intent, maybe a little curious. He didn't respond to the joke, but the chemistry between them hummed just beneath the surface, like a chord struck but not fully resolved.
Lars rolled his eyes, oblivious to the undercurrent.
„Yeah, sure. And pigs'll fly right after Mustaine signs up for group therapy."
„Only if you're the counselor," Dave shot back dryly. He crushed his cigarette beneath his boot, a little smirk tugging at his lips.
James watched him, his grin still lingering as he adjusted the strap of his guitar. His body language was relaxed, but there was an edge of something else in his posture—something coiled tight, like a spring wound just shy of snapping.
„Mustaine," James said, his tone low but warm, „you ever get tired of all this?"
Dave arched a brow. "Of what? You?"
„Of this." James gestured around them—at the noise, the chaos, the rivalry that had become second nature. „The whole thing. Carrying it around. It's a lot of damn weight, don't you think?"
Dave's expression flickered, the usual bravado cracking for a split second. „Yeah." he admitted, quieter now. „It is."
Their eyes met again, something unspoken passing between them.
Lars, still oblivious, clapped a hand on James's shoulder. „Come on, man. We've got a set to kill." He glanced at Dave with a grin that was more teasing than hostile. „Try not to set anything on fire, Mustaine."
Dave smirked, but the intensity in his gaze didn't waver as he watched James walk away.
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The roar of the crowd was still a phantom in Dave's ears as he lingered in the shadows of the side stage. His pulse thrummed with the aftershock of adrenaline, fingers still twitching with the memory of strings pressed beneath them. The air smelled of beer, sweat, and the faint metallic tang of stage equipment cooling after the heat of performance. The night was humid, sticky against his skin as he leaned against a metal railing, cigarette unlit between his fingers.
The world had gone quiet, but the noise inside him hadn't.
He was lost in the rhythm of his thoughts, replaying each note, each moment where his anger, ambition, and passion had bled into the music, when the sound of footsteps brought him back. He didn't turn at first, but the weight of the presence was unmistakable.
„Still brooding, Mustaine?"
The voice was rough, familiar, and warmer than he expected.
Dave glanced over his shoulder as James Hetfield appeared, a half-empty bottle of whiskey dangling from one hand. His silhouette was sharp against the stage lights, but his expression, soft with something like weariness, was far more human than the mythic figure who had owned the stage an hour before.
„Didn't figure you for the sentimental type." Dave muttered, raising a brow as James stepped closer.
James smirked. „I'm full of surprises." He offered the bottle, tilting it slightly toward Dave. „Here. Thought you might want some."
Dave studied him, his eyes narrowing as he reached out, his fingers brushing against James's for the briefest second as he took the bottle. „What's this?" he asked, holding the glass up to the light. „A peace offering?"
James chuckled softly, leaning against the railing beside him, his arm brushing Dave's shoulder as he gazed out over the dark, empty venue. „I'm not gonna pretend I know what's going on in that head of yours," he said, his voice low and even. „But I'd be lying if I said we haven't both been through a hell of a lot."
Dave took a long pull from the bottle, the burn of whiskey spreading warmth down his throat. He let out a breath, slow and heavy, before turning to meet James's gaze.
„You don't know half of it." he said quietly, the words carrying a weight he rarely allowed to surface.
James didn't flinch. His eyes stayed on Dave's, steady and open, with none of the guardedness that had marked so many of their encounters. For a moment, the years of animosity, the sharp edges of their rivalry, seemed to fall away.
The silence stretched, not tense but full—like a held chord, resonant and rich with meaning. They drank in turns, passing the bottle back and forth without words.
James broke the quiet first, a crooked smile playing at his lips. „You're not so bad," he said, his voice teasing but with a thread of sincerity beneath it. „For someone so egotistical."
Dave huffed a laugh, his eyes gleaming with something softer than the usual sharpness. „And you're not as much of an ass as I remember. For someone so full of himself."
James chuckled, shaking his head. „Touché." He shifted slightly, his body turning toward Dave, his posture relaxed but his gaze intent. „You know, I've always respected your playing."
Dave's brow lifted. „Is that so?"
„Yeah." James admitted, leaning his elbows on the railing. „I don't think I ever said it. But you've got fire. Always did."
There was a beat of hesitation, a rare vulnerability settling over Dave's expression. He shrugged, trying for nonchalance, but his voice softened. „I've always loved your playing. Just don't tell anyone I said that."
James's grin widened. „I wouldn't dream of it."
The whiskey was nearly gone now, the glass bottle warming between their hands as they passed it back and forth. Dave, the sharp edge of his usual defenses dulled by the drink, allowed a small smile to linger on his lips.
„You ever think about it?" he asked suddenly, his voice quiet but clear. „What it would've been like if we'd stuck together?"
James's eyes darkened slightly, a flicker of something unreadable crossing his face before he nodded. „Yeah," he said. "I do."
Dave tilted his head, his smirk turning playful but no less meaningful. „Maybe we should jam together. Sometime. See if we've still got it."
James's brow arched, a slow grin spreading. „Like the old days?"
„Why not?" Dave shrugged, the movement easy and almost boyish. „We're both here now."
James laughed, the sound rough but genuine. He leaned in just a little, the warmth of his presence palpable. „Guess it's not the worst idea you've ever had."
They stood in companionable silence for a long moment, the bottle empty between them, the tension of years worn thin by the shared weight of history and the unexpected comfort of understanding.
Dave's gaze softened as he glanced sidelong at James. „So..." he began, his voice quiet but teasing, „when's the tour start?"
James chuckled, shaking his head. His eyes, bright with amusement and something deeper, met Dave's with a knowing look. „Not today." he said. „But who knows. Maybe we'll get there."
Their eyes held for a beat longer, a shared moment of truce, camaraderie, and something unspoken that neither could quite name. The rivalry would never fully disappear—fire didn't burn without fuel—but for now, it was banked, warm and steady instead of consuming.
As the night pressed on, the noise of the festival a distant hum, they lingered in that fragile, fleeting stillness, two pieces of a story they both carried, finally fitting together in a way that made sense.