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Nam-gyu clutched on the fork he was holding, the sharp tips of the metal being splattered with blood all over it. The dark-haired man’s head hurt, his body was aching due to all of the fights he had gotten into in the bathroom, another reason being because he just watched his friend died. Nam-gyu didn’t even know if he could call Thanos his ”friend” anymore. He had only been able to get close to that guy cause they had met a few times outside of Squid Game, and because of all of the shit thats been happening with that MG coin guy.
Nam-gyu’s hands were shaking, they were always shaking whenever he got nervous. Actually, right now it wasn’t even just his hands that were shaking. It was basically his whole body. He put down the fork and grabbed into the cross-necklace he had stolen from Thanos’ dead body earlier. Nam-gyu didn’t want to remember how the purple-haired guy looked in the bathroom, his eyes were wide as there were two stab wounds cause of the fork, MG coin freak stabbing him with it. He remembered the god awful smell, Thanos’ blood spurting everywhere. God Nam-gyu really didn’t wanna remember that.
The man clutched onto the cross-necklace, his hands trembling with fear. It was almost lights-out, he can still handle a few more games, right? Is he gonna be like that coward Min-su and decide to press the ”X” button tomorrow? No, theres no way. Nam-gyu wasn’t a coward. At-least thats what he told himself. The man looked at the cross-necklace with his hands trembling, remembering multiple memories he had with the purple-haired man. People often called Nam-gyu Thanos’ dog, as if the man would let that slide easily. But who was he to argue? He was always following that guy around, like a lost dog who had lost his owner. Yet now, Thanos is gone and yet again he’s being a coward with no-one to rely on.
Nam-gyu started fidgeting with the cross-necklace as he mumbled something, his voice stiff and his breath trembling. “Thanos, that fucking asshole.” The man started mumbling to himself as he opened the cross-necklace to see all of the colorful drugs there, this was the only way, right?
“That son of a bitch treated me like a fucking idiot.” Nam-gyu continued speaking, he didn’t know whether he was just angry at the purple-haired man, or if he was just trying to deny it. It didn’t matter right now though, right?
Nam-gyu’s hands trembled under his gaze as he opened the cross-necklace, taking a pill and throwing it down his throat. He gulped the drug down, his head looking up trying to find something, anything to distract him from his own thoughts and this whole situation in general. He pushed a hand over his face and dragged it down to his nose, looking back down on the opened cross-necklace and taking another drug. He closed the necklace and wrapped the chain around it, soon putting it in the pocket of his jacket. He didn’t know why he took two, did he take the other one cause he was feeling too overwhelmed? Or did he take it cause of the familiar purple-haired man? Nam-gyu didn’t want to think about it. He didn’t wanna think about anything at all.
He took a hold of the fork, the same fork that was covered in his friend’s blood. He could feel his eyes start getting watery, the man shook his head. He started to chuckle, why was he laughing? He didn’t know either. He just had to wait for lights-out to try and kill his opponents, yeah. He can live in this hell-hole without that fucker Thanos. He’s gonna prove everyone that he can. That he can live without that purple-haired man. Nam-gyu laughed to himself a bit more, god he was really pathetic.
He didn’t wanna remember it.
//
“Min-suuu.” Nam-gyu heard his purple-haired friend try to talk Min-su into switching his vote back to ”O”, he didn’t know why he was doing this but if he didn’t do this he’d be in big trouble, right? Nam-gyu climbed up on the wall in the other stall beside Min-su, his sweater-paws dangling from the edge of the wall as he saw that coward Min-su on the other side.
“I know you’re upset with me!” Thanos had said on the other side of the door where Min-su was, this was a really stupid idea, really. Nam-gyu had that thought ever since he had entered the bathroom with the purple-haired man. But he couldn’t stop now.
Thanos started speaking again, his voice more loud and now and he was speaking in english that Nam-gyu couldn’t understand. Though he had picked up the stuff the man had been saying in english, and had gotten used to it.
“I’m sorry, boy!”
“But still, you shouldn’t have betrayed me. That really hurt.” Nam-gyu could basically hear the pathetic tone in the purple-haired man’s voice as he spoke.
“Open the door!” As soon as Thanos said that, Nam-gyu had finally climbed up to the top of the wall on the other stall, his sweater-paws dangling from the sides as he spoke to Min-su.
“Hey, Min-su!” Min-su looked pathetic and scared in the stall, like he was getting ganged up by some rookies or something. But to be honest, he always looked scared.
“You said you got scammed in a rental deal and have no place to go anyway.”
As Nam-gyu said that, Thanos had started banging his head on the other side of the door grumbling something that sounded like ”Open the door!” Nam-gyu didn’t really understand, he was probably speaking english again as he talked with Min-su, the dark-haired man’s arms dangling on the wall. “Let’s play one more game, we’ll protect you, I swear.”
“So when we vote again tomorrow, press ”O”, all right? Come here.” Nam-gyu had started to try and bribe Min-su once more as he moved his arms with his sweater-paws as he spoke. His hands then clutching on the edge of the wall and jumping, trying to get his hands on Min-su. Though, for Min-su’s luck, when he tried to get out by pushing the door open, Thanos had somehow gotten in, speaking in english once more. “Woah, boy. Sit the fuck down.”
The man put his hands on Min-su’s shoulders, making him sit down on the closed toilet-bowl. Min-su having a pathetic and scared look on his face as his eyes widened. “Look Min-su, before I came here, I went to a bridge to kill myself.” Thanos had started speaking with a sympathetic look on his face as he talked with Min-su.
Nam-gyu could feel his eyes widen slightly at that, there were still some things that he didn’t know about the purple haired man, and one of these weren’t really a surprise. After Thanos had said that, the man had started explaining the stuff that had happened before he got in Squid game, the whole bridge and suicide thing, Nam-gyu wasn’t really paying attention. But he didn’t really have a choice due to Thanos’ loud voice echoing through the bathroom. Thanos had started getting mad and yelling something in english at Min-su, god Nam-gyu really didn’t wanna get involved with this, but he had no other choice.
Nam-gyu had heard a familiar voice near him, probably talking to Thanos and telling him to back off with the voting. The man had fallen back down to the floor and went out of the stall to see the MG coin freak interfering with what him and Thanos’ “talk” with Min-su. Before he could even blink, the whole bathroom had roared into chaos as MG coin guy had informed his side about Thanos and him interfering with the vote, and then he heard the purple-haired man yell after then, saying something like that the ”X” team was gonna attack the ”O” team. Nam-gyu could already feel an on-coming headache to come as the whole room began to fight with each-other. Nam-gyu getting himself someone to fight, too.
Screams and clattering objects echoed into the room as he fought his opponent, catching a glimpse of Thanos choking MG coin freak. Really, Nam-gyu couldn’t bother to remember the guys name. It was a distaste to his mouth. As if he’d even wanna say it. Nam-gyu fought with his opponent, pushing in punches as he got thrown to the floor, he smelt a god awful stench beside him as he got pushed down. He turned his head, quickly, trying to see who’s pool of blood was causing the smell.
He saw a familiar field of purple hair.
And a fork stabbed into his neck.
Nam-gyu panicked as he saw the pool of blood and blood spurting coming out of his friends neck. The man grabbed Thanos’ necklace first, he could feel his gaze blur no matter how much he tried to focus in the situation he was in. His hands were shaking rapidly as he got the necklace, soon heading for the fork. As soon as he grabbed the fork that was drenched in his friends blood, he had began stabbing his opponent with it. Blooding splattering right onto his face as he did so. He saw Nam-su hide and get out of the bathroom, but that was the least of his worries right now. He looked over at the purple-haired man again that was laying dead on the bathroom floor. God, what did he get himself into? His mind was a whole blur, he couldn’t think of anything yet at the same time he was thinking of everything.
Ah, Nam-gyu thinks he can’t handle this anymore.
//
In the end, that scene was repeating constantly in his mind. The smell of the blood flowing down from the purple-haired man’s neck. The smell of it, the blood spurting out of his opponent as he stabbed the guy with the same fork that Thanos had gotten stabbed with. He could feel his eyes watering, he ran a hand over his face once more. Rubbing his eyes aggressively as he tried to think of every insult known to mankind for Thanos. Ah, he was pathetic.
Nam-gyu didn’t know whether he missed Thanos or not, was this sadness or anger he was feeling? Was it grief? No, Nam-gyu wasn’t that type of person, right? He wasn’t scared. He wasn’t pathetic, not at all. He didn’t need anyone to rely on. He can handle this game alone. He can win the money and go back home.
But would that alone solve all of his problems?
Nam-gyu doesn’t wanna think anymore.
In the end he keeps thinking.