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“Oh Yien…”

Mark was currently wrapped up in a burrito blanket on his bed as he didn’t want to face reality.

“You know you’re safe with me, right?” Jackson’s soothing voice is heard as he speaks in their native tongue.

Mark doesn’t say anything but his facial expression shows that he’s taking in the alpha’s words. That they’re reaching him and he’s opening up a bit by uncovering more of his face.

“There you go, that’s my Markiepooh,” The alpha is so sweet and the way he says one of his nicknames gets the omega to smile briefly.

“See? Everything is going to be ok, I promise,” Jackson continues and Mark lets out a small whine,

“Gaga I don’t---”

“No no, we’re not backtracking here. Listen, I’m telling you that it’s ok. What you’re feeling, what you’re going through. Love is love and there is nothing wrong with that.”

“But I shouldn’t be feeling like this. Especially not now…not with him…” Mark trails off as his expression shows raw emotion.

It’s been years and even many miles apart, Mark hasn’t been able to move on. And trust me, he’s tried. So many times he tried to keep his emotions and feelings hidden deep inside. With only Jackson knowing the truth and his deep dark secret. And that’s only because Jackson found out by accident and Mark was determined to not let anyone else find out.

Except now that he doesn’t get to be around him like he used to, he finds that it’s becoming harder and harder to swallow down these feelings…

“You should go see him,” Jackson interrupts his thoughts.

Mark lifts his head from where he was fiddling with the blanket and takes in the alpha’s sincere expression. Even though the alpha was super busy, he took time out of his day to check up on Mark. Even if that meant hiding in a closet somewhere on set for a more private conversation.

“What? Are you talking about his military discharge?” Mark questions as the alpha has to be out of his mind.

“Duh! It’s obvious that you miss him and want to see him. So why not use this chance and do it at his discharge? Fans and media won’t suspect a thing and he’ll be happy to have someone he knows there to greet him.”

Mark starts to shake his head as it’s a crazy idea and yet, the more he thinks about it, the more it sounds plausible.

“You’re off anyway, right? You have time in between your schedules as we both know you needed a mental break. So why not go to Korea and spend time with him? If anyone asks, come up with an excuse. Hell, go see the others! We all miss you Yien. You don’t have to hide because of your feelings. And I hate that you keep suppressing yourself. It’s ok to be you. So please, do this for me?”

There’s a sudden knock on the closet that interrupts Mark’s reply as the door opens and you can see one of the staff members talking to Jackson,

“Just give me a second, please, I’m talking to Mark,” The alpha replies respectfully as he shuts the closet door again, but Mark is quick to say,

“Go and do your thing, Gaga. I’ll be ok.”

Now it’s Jackson’s turn to whine, “Not until you promise me that you’ll go!”

“You wouldn’t dare---” Mark starts but Jacksonn remains firm,

“I’ll do it! I’ll cancel this entire photoshoot, don't tempt me, Yien! I’ll even postpone the show I was going to do and that one sponsorship---”

“Fine…I’ll go,” Mark caves as he knows the alpha always means what he says.

Jackson perks up like an excited puppy,

“You don’t know how happy this makes me! I know you’ll have lots of fun and I can’t wait to see the videos of you two reuniting.”

“Don’t start rooting for me,” Mark pouts cutely as it seems like the alpha is stanning him together with their leader.

Jackson throws him a wink,

“Remember to be you. Oh! And don’t forget that I love you,” He finishes as he gives Mark a loving smile.

The omega lets out a fond sigh before matching his smile,

“I love you too. Now go before it ends up on the news about another rumor speculating about us.”

This gets Jackson to laugh before he waves and the call soon ends.

Sheez, why couldn’t Mark fall for Jackson instead? People already suspected there was something going on between them from day one. None of the band members or staff batted an eyelash when it came to them two. Plus, Jackson is bisexual to boot!

And yet, Mark’s heart fell for someone unattainable, completely straight and…

Yeah, you get the point.

Oh why can’t he move on from Lim Jaebeom?

Mark is beginning to second guess himself as he stands in the background of the crowd and reporters that were here. Jaebum had quite the crowd gather to welcome him back from completing his military service. And as the time ticked by, Mark was growing nervous.

He should leave now while he’s still undetected. He could easily slip out with no one looking and wait back at the hotel where it’s safe. Then he could text or try calling Jaebeom and see how he’s doing. If he would even want his company after just coming out of service. Surely, he’d want to do his own thing and get back into his life like it was before military service.

Fuck, now Mark worries he might be selfish for doing this…

His hands trembled in the pockets of his jacket as he kept his hoodie up, baseball cap on, along with his mask covering his face.

Ok, just breathe. Jackson said everything would be fine. And he could simply see Jaebum here and then leave if the alpha already had plans. Yugyeom already was talking with him that they should hang out later anyway so---

Suddenly the crowd of fans started cheering loudly. It gathers Mark’s attention, his head lifting to take in many military men exiting. There’s several Kpop idols along with other celebrities amongst the men, but Mark’s heart didn’t start beating fast for them. It was only when his eyes searched desperately for the one alpha that he longed for. The one that he would follow to the ends of earth without hesitation.

The one that he could pick out amongst the crowd and instantly feel his entire being react---

It happens before Mark can even fully register it. But his body is moving and people are taking notice. Drawing everyone’s attention that it has Jaebum taking notice as well. His eyes soon locking with Mark’s---

It’s all the omega needed as he launches himself at the alpha. Jumping into the air as Jaebum reacts instinctively with his arms ready to catch him and he does. Mark wraps his limbs around the alpha as his hoodie fell down, the baseball cap being knocked off as the omega buries his face into the crook of Jaebum’s neck. The alpha smiling with his big ole dinosaur laughter being let out as he stabilizes them both. His hands tighten in his hug of the omega as you can see how his eyes lit up in seeing Mark after so long.

The fans are cheering at the interactions. Lights flashing as cameras are taking photos and recording as the news crews are no doubt ready to publish such a story. But Mark doesn’t hear them over the alpha’s laughter. He doesn’t see them as it felt like only them two in such a moment. Where Jaebum’s mint chocolate scent surrounded him, reminding him of the good days. Back when he felt whole and complete. Melting his heart and his body instinctively calms as if he’s been running on autopilot since the day they all parted years ago.

Oh how he longed to be in the alpha’s arms again…

After a few twirls, Jaebum helps to set Mark back down on his feet. The alpha ignores everyone else around them as he’s focused on him. And one can see the pleasant surprise on Jaebum’s face and such happiness from Mark being there to greet him,

“Mark I…is it just you?” Jaebum can’t believe his eyes as he keeps having to look at the omega to make sure he’s not dreaming.

Where he gently pulls down the omega’s mask to reveal those two canine’s peeking out as Mark gives him a shy smile,

“I wanted to…welcome you back.”

A warm welcome indeed.

“I thought everyone was busy with their schedules and we agreed to meet up at a later time, but you…you told me you were still in America in the group chat,” Jaebum still can’t get over the fact that Mark surprised him like this.

“Surprise,” Mark says sweetly as his scent matches.

Especially as Jaebum keeps touching him and being so close.

“Thank you,” Jaebum is speechless as he’s growing a bit emotional too.

Where you can definitely see it in his eyes before he ducks down to get the baseball cap that dropped earlier. He’s careful as he places it back on top of Mark’s head, the omega giggling softly as he knows this is Jaebum’s way of showing affection. And it makes him want to cling and soak in more moments. To get more of the alpha’s touch but his bubble is popped as the news reporters swarm in. Quickly reminding Mark that they’re not alone and instantly he puts his walls back up.

Jaebum can sense Mark tensing and see him taking a step back. It makes the alpha react instinctively as he doesn’t hesitate to move Mark closer to him, even making it where the omega was slightly behind him for extra protection.

“Lim Jaebeom, can you tell us what it’s been like doing military service?”

“What about the future now that you’ve completed your service?”

“Yes, Got7 has been going strong with everyone doing their solo activities. With recent events of you officially obtaining all trademarks of Got7, does this mean the group will be coming together again for another album?”

So many were talking over the other, before bodyguards could manage them back. Mark and Jaebum were used to this chaotic lifestyle though so the alpha easily fell back into it. His deep soothing voice came forth as he took control of the situation and his stature alone demanded attention. It truly felt like old times like this. Mark reminisced on the memories of going to music shows and events where he’d stand by his leader like so. His eyes were unable to look away as you could see it in his eyes of how fond he was of his leader. Showing that time apart would never sever the bond that Mark had with Jaebum.

Nothing and no one ever could because Got7 was the seven of them.

Seven or nothing

But Mark feared it would be his own self that would tear apart Got7. So he wanted to keep these feelings inside of him because he’d rather be able to still have such moments. To keep the balance between them as they’ve all come so far.

He just has to destroy these feelings for good…

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Mark worried that the car ride would be full of silence. But it appears it’s about to chaotic, as one ding after the next takes place in the group chat,

Youngjae: Mark hyung is in Korea?!

Jinyoung: I was about to say the same thing. Someone explain now

Jackson: Ah, Mark! I’m so happy!

Yugyeom: Bro, where are you now? I’ll leave the studio, just say the word. Let’s hang out, I miss you, hyung! ><

Bam: Man! I literally just left Korea! You can’t do this to me! How long are you staying for? Also, welcome back, leader!

Youngjae: Yah! No changing the subject even though yes, welcome back! We’re already celebrating your return on a different date. So if you’re hogging Mark, you better send photos right now!

Jinyoung: I want to see Mark too. *angry emoji plus middle finger emoji*

Another ding is going off before Mark can even fully process reading all the texts in the group chat before he can hear Jaebum’s soft chuckle,

Jaebum: Too bad, he came to surprise me, not you. *insert devil emoji*

Instantly, several dings come through but Mark doesn’t register them as he’s distracted by Jaebum’s smug expression.

“Are you really that happy to see me?” Mark can’t help but let it slip out.

It has Jaebum looking away from his phone to take in Mark’s raw expression.

“Of course I am,” The alpha doesn’t hesitate to say as he sits next to the omega, “What makes you think that?” His voice grows soft as he truly cares about Mark.

Mark grows anxious, his fingers fiddling with his phone case as he has to look away from Jaebum’s intense gaze,

“I um…because I don’t talk much…and I’ve been away for a while…”

It’s true, America is far away and if Mark isn’t in America, he’s been all around the world with only a few stops in Korea. And even before, Mark has always been the ‘quiet’ one of the group when it came to texting or expressing oneself properly. Especially if he’s not around the others in person, he tends to stick to himself and get lost in his head.

But over the years, the band members learned that’s how Mark is. That there’s nothing wrong with that either and they’ve learned to read through Mark’s actions on how the omega is feeling and doing. Though, it has become much harder since Mark moved back to America. Almost making it impossible to know what the omega is going through or thinking since they haven’t been physically there.

Well except for Jackson. Jackson has seen Mark more than the other members…

“It’s true that time has gone by, but I can assure you that you still mean as much to me as you did before you moved to America,” Jaebum tells him with such honesty.

As he reaches over to lightly squeeze Mark’s knee. Not knowing how much the omega has missed his touch. How much his warmth helped him. Giving him confidence to look back up to meet the alpha’s gentle gaze,

“I won’t lie, Mark. I missed you, we all do. The fact that you’re here before me…” The alpha stops for a second as he keeps looking at Mark like this was all a dream, “I’m so happy that I’m afraid I’m going to blink and you’ll be gone.”

Ah, so Jaebum has felt it too. Felt how being away from everyone didn’t feel right. Like each of them held a piece that only when they came together, did they feel whole like their own person.

“I missed you guys too,” Mark admits.

He misses seeing them everyday. He misses their group activities. Wishing he could surround himself in the group once more and never part again.

But that’s not how life works. And that deep dark secret inside of him is already trying to come out. Making Mark bite his lip as he wanted to say that he missed the alpha the most.

Especially as Jaebum was squeezing the back of his neck around his collar. Mark knew this was how the leader showed affection but the omega part of him keened in bliss and wanting to be greedy and say it was only for him.

“Well I’m glad you’re here and I hope you’ll be staying awhile,” Jaebum is hopeful as he eventually lets go and Mark has to keep the whine from coming forth.

Mark forces himself to lean away some, clutching the phone instead of reaching out for the alpha’s hand,

“I decided to take some vacation time,” The omega says like he didn’t just hop onto the plane to personally come see the alpha.

Where he lied to his family and said it was for a schedule. When he only told the company he’s working for that he had some personal things to take care of. So in all reality, Mark actually ran away. But everyone will see that he’s safe in Korea so it should be fine for a while.

Jaebum perks up at this,

“Then that means you can stay with me.”

Mark nods instinctively before he registers the words,

“Wait…” Mark starts but Jaebum isn’t taking no for an answer,

“You’re staying with me instead of some hotel,” The alpha insists.

“I don’t want to intrude. You just got back---”

“Mark,” Jaebum stops him from continuing as he leans in closer.

They’re mere inches away now as the alpha grows serious,

“You may be able to lie to the others but you can’t lie to me. You came here by yourself. I didn’t see any bodyguards or staff with you. Even when the press surrounded us, it was my staff and bodyguards that moved in and helped. And when we went to leave, you didn’t even have a vehicle waiting for you. Did you even book a hotel?”

It made Jaebum’s alpha instincts go crazy because Mark could’ve seriously been hurt! Even worse, he could’ve been taken by some random stranger!

Mark looks guilty but Jaebum doesn’t let him pull away as he cups the omega’s face,

“You don’t have to tell me the reason, but you’re staying with me until you leave.”

Why did Jaebum have to be so caring and perfect? He’s not even pushing to know why he did what he did. He’s just going to go along with it until Mark was ready to tell him.

Yep, here comes the tears…

“It’s ok, I never went anywhere, Mark. I’ve been here waiting for you to come back.”

Jaebum’s expression becomes so soft and sincere as Mark’s expression scrunches up with the tears falling.

And as he pulls Mark into his arms so he can hide his silent tears, Jaebum hugs him tighter as he whispers,

“Welcome home.”

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“It’s just how I remember,” Mark’s quiet voice is heard as the two step into Jaebum’s apartment.

Mark is about to get lost in more memories until the alpha perks up at what he said,

“Is that bad?” He lets out a bit embarrassed.

It pulls the omega back into the moment as he realizes his slip up. But Mark is quick, as his smile reassures the alpha before the omega looks towards him,

“No, it suits you,” Is all the omega says before he begins venturing further into the apartment.

As he tries to change the conversation by lightly picking on the alpha.

It takes a second for Jaebum to pick up on Mark’s teasing,

“Hey! Are you calling me old and boring?”

Mark’s giggle is heard from inside the living room as Jaebum is quick to take off his shoes and slide them next to the omega’s.

“I said no such thing,” He claims innocently as he’s happy that the alpha was still playful like he was back then.

The alpha snorts at that one as he follows after the omega and finds him pouting cutely.

“What?” Jaebum is curious to know before Mark replies,

“Your babies, they’re not here are they?”

Jaebum realizes that Mark was talking about his cats before his expression becomes soft from thinking about them,

“My parents were taking care of them while I was gone. They’ll be visiting soon to bring them back.”

Mark plops back onto the couch, “Ah right…” As he takes in that Jaebum is in his military uniform.

The omega’s expression soon changes as it starts to become raw and unreadable once again. Where he’s looking up at the ceiling as he’s getting lost in his head.

Jaebum doesn’t rush him, letting him think through his words as he busies himself with settling back into his own apartment. He looks around at his apartment, soaking up the details as it’s just how he left it before his service. All before eventually walking by with his bag he had while he was in the military and setting it down on the end of the couch. Letting Mark know that he’s here and listening.

It helps Mark as he seems to have found the words he wanted to say,

“I’m not interrupting anything, am I?”

“Interrupting?” Jaebum isn’t sure he knows what Mark is talking about, though he has an idea.

“Your plans for once you came out of military service. I know you talked with us about the many things you wanted to do. I’m sure you have plans that even the group might not know about. And then I kind of showed up out of nowhere and probably ruined them.”

Like spending time with his family; his cats. Enjoying time to himself as he got back into the groove of things. Or you know…meeting other people.

Yeah, let’s leave it at that for it’ll hurt less.

“You’re definitely not interrupting, Mark. I did have a few days to simply chill, but I can still do those things with you beside me like I have done in the past. In fact, it’ll be more enjoyable to do them with you.”

Oh

The way those words made Mark instantly happy should be forbidden but he can’t help it. It made him feel wanted and special. Making his heart want to connect more as his body became warm.

“Yeah?” Mark’s hope grows with his smile.

“Yes,” Jaebum matches his smile, “Now if you don’t mind, I’m going to take a shower. You have no idea how much I missed taking a hot shower in my own apartment.”

“I don’t even want to imagine what you went through in the military,” Mark says as he gestures for the alpha to do as he pleases.

Even giving him a playful push towards the hallway. Jaebum laughs as he picks up his bag,

“Do I smell that bad?” He lets out as he becomes playful too.

“You reek of alpha,” Mark tells him and Jaebum pouts,

“I thought you liked my scent.”

Mark bites his bottom lip as he blushes cutely,

“I do,” The omega admits and the way Jaebum smiles should be illegal.

The alpha reaches out, ruffling Mark’s hair as he says,

“I’m glad you’re still comfortable around me.”

Mark closes his eyes, his face scrunching up with adorableness as he’s not used to someone showing him such affection in a long time.

Well other than Jackson…

It’s not until Jaebum stops and pulls away that Mark opens his eyes to take in that the alpha was still looking at him.

“Hmm? Why wouldn’t I be? You’re still our leader. We’re still Got7. That’ll never change,” Mark says it so simply as if he’s just breathing air.

Jaebum’s expression becomes raw, “I know…”

Huh? Why is he looking at him like that?

But before Mark could ask, he found Jaebum’s phone going off with someone calling him. Mark watches as Jaebum takes out his phone to see it was his Mother calling.

“Go on, take it,” Mark says as he sees Jaebum looking torn because he doesn’t want to end their conversation yet.

But this was his Mother and he has missed her dearly at the same time. Yep, Jaebum will always be a momma’s boy.

The alpha answers the call as he thanks Mark silently, making sure to give a comforting squeeze of the omega’s shoulder before heading towards his bedroom.

Now Mark is left on Jaebum’s couch as the alpha’s soothing voice cuts off from the bedroom door closing. Left to go right back into his head unless he manages to distract himself with something---

A ding is heard and Mark instantly remembers the group chat from earlier. Oh yeah! He never did get to reply because he was too busy crying in the alpha’s arms.

Mark starts flushing as he recalls it too. It was so embarrassing because why did he have to fall apart when Jaebum just got back from military service? He was supposed to be welcoming Jaebum back and instead the alpha did it better than he could’ve---

Ding!

Mark pulls out his phone as several more dings are heard and now the omega really can’t ignore what might be going on in the group chat. Though he finds it’s not just the group chat going off, it’s also Jackson personally messaging him.

Jackson: How is it going?

Jackson: Is everything ok?

Jackson: Are you still with Jaebum? You’re not alone are you?

Mark sees Jackson has been texting him for a while now and the most recent one is of him worrying. So the omega replies to ease his worry,

Mark: I’m at his apartment. He’s currently talking on the phone to his Mother.

With that, he goes to the group chat where he sees the guys were picking on Jaebum for stealing Mark’s attention. And being greedy by trying to keep Mark all to himself. Before he sees Jinyoung’s threats that he’d find Jaebum’s ass even while still in the military. With Bam saying he’ll schedule a flight right now. All with Jackson being cheesy in between. But now it’s mostly,

Yugyeom: Hyung! Tell us where you are!

Youngjae: Send a text or a picture to let us know you’re safe!

Yugyeom: We’ll save you from Jaebum hyung no doubt kidnapping you!

Youngjae: He’ll bore you to death with books and get into a heated argument over mint chocolate ice cream again.

The guys are obviously joking and teasing Jaebum on purpose to get a reaction out of him. To get a reply from either of them so they can figure out what’s going on. This group chat is always chaotic with good intention and care all around.

Mark: He took me back to his apartment.
With that, he also sends a picture of him sitting on Jaebum’s couch.

The moment he sends the picture, he sees a text from Jackson.

Jackson: He’s texting me actually.

What? Why? Was it what they talked about on the car ride home?

Mark’s fingers start typing away,

Mark: He found out that I came alone.

Jackson’s reply is almost instant,

Jackson: Alone! What do you mean alone? Like no bodyguards alone?!

Mark can already imagine Jackson freaking out,

Mark: Everything was last second and I didn’t really have a plan. I just…I went instinctively like you told me to do.

Jackson was already typing when Mark texted and now he deleted what he originally texted before the little dots were seen moving again---

Several dings from the group chat go off.

Jinyoung: Mark! Now I’m definitely hunting down Jaebum. Did he make sure you ate? Did you come straight from the airport? You must be tired.

Yugyeom: Yoh, my hunch was right and I was already heading there!

Bam: I wanna come too! T-T

Youngjae: Wait, Yugs, are you really? Cause I was doing the same thing.

Yugyeom: Send me your location, we can go together.

Youngjae: Bet!

Jinyoung: Take photos for me

Mark can’t reply though as he gets a text from Jackson,

Jackson: Yien! I didn’t mean to not do it in a safe manner. Was I the only one that knew? This must’ve come as a shock to everyone.

I mean…he’s sure it did. Though his parents wouldn’t think twice about it and his company didn’t have to know his every move. And with him saying it was personal, it should be fine. Though not taking a bodyguard and only telling Jackson his exact location might’ve not been the brightest idea. But Mark only had one thought in mind when he couldn’t resist his instincts anymore.

And that was getting to Jaebum…

Mark feels bad as he didn’t mean to worry anyone and he doesn’t want anymore word to get out about it. Especially not the public as the rumors would be so far fetched and not the truth.

Mark: Gaga, no one else can know. Tell Jaebum some excuse, idk. He doesn’t know the real reason I upped and came here. Though he knows I did come to welcome him back, he doesn’t…he can’t know. He can’t.

Mark is getting worked up as he really did something stupid. It totally looked like he was so desperate to go to Jaebum. And if others start putting that together, they’re gonna know his secret.

They’re going to know he’s in love with Lim Jaebeom…

It’ll tear Got7 apart; it’ll ruin their lives that they worked so hard for…

And then he’ll lose them too…every last one---

Banging on the door can be heard. Making Mark jump as his head looks towards the area of the front door…

Meanwhile,

Jaebum frowns down at his phone as he’s been texting back and forth with Jackson. Where he couldn’t help but ask the alpha if there was something going on with Mark. But the alpha has been vague with him when normally he’s never held anything back when they’ve talked.

Jackson: He was fine with me when we talked on the phone.

Jaebum: So did he tell you that he was coming to Korea to see me?

Jackson: He mentioned going to Korea, yeah. What of it?

Like why did it sound like Jackson didn’t want to talk about this? Like he’s hiding something or…

Is he angry that Mark came to Korea to see him?

Jaebum is starting to feel all sorts of emotions and decides to put his phone down and hop into the shower. He wanted to have a clear head because obviously his hot headedness was trying to come forth and he was not about to let it take him over…

But as he stands under the hot water, he can’t help himself when it comes to Mark.

And now those emotions were rising, making him a bundle of all sorts of nerves. That when he hops out of the shower, he grabs the phone and dials the second person he knows that can ground him back from his hot headedness.

Jinyoung

The phone doesn’t even ring twice before Jinyoung answers and Jaebum lets out,

“Do you think Jackson and Mark are really dating?”

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“You seriously called me for this?” Jinyoung sasses from the other end of the phone.

“I’m being serious here---”

“Like I’m not? First, Mark shows up out of nowhere when we’ve all been missing him like crazy. And secondly, you’re going to bring this up again? Knowing how I feel about that topic?”

Jaebum curses under his breath as he didn’t mean to upset Jinyoung. It’s just that he’s the only other one that knows his secret. As he couldn’t chance telling the others about it. As he’s tried so hard to stop how he feels. But even as the years go by, they won’t fade away.

They only get stronger with each day that passes…

“I’m sorry but I…Jinyoung, you can’t let the others know but Mark, he came to Korea by himself.”

Jaebum gives it a second to sink in as he goes about his routine to try and keep himself calm. It doesn’t take long before Jinyoung catches on,

“You’re telling me that Mark came to Korea without anyone knowing?!”

So much could’ve happened so of course Jinyoung is going mother hen right now.

“Jackson knew but Mark came without any staff or a bodyguard. He took an uber to my release with no one there to pick him up. It was as if he didn’t have a plan after that. And that thought alone has me all over the place---” Jaebum managed to get dressed but now he’s pacing the bathroom.

“You?! What would’ve happened if Mark never showed up?! For the love of---Jaebum, you better not let him leave your apartment or I swear---” Jinyoung sounds like he’s about to lose control of his actions himself.

“Don’t worry, he’s not leaving my sight. But that’s my point, Jinyoung. He wouldn’t tell me why and I think this has something to do with Jackson,” Jaebum stops pacing as he runs a hand through his hair.

“Because Jackson knew?” Jinyoung doesn’t understand for surely the alpha would’ve been against Mark doing this, unless he didn’t know the omega would endanger himself like so.

“I texted Jackson and the way he was responding makes me think they might’ve had something going on between them. Jackson seemed upset, almost angry when I asked.”

There’s a noise let out from the other end as Jinyoung no doubt wants to drop everything and come figure this out now. But he’s still doing military service so unless it was a huge emergency, he couldn’t just up and leave.

“I don’t…I don’t know if they’re like that. I don’t want to think about it because it hurts from the mere thought if they were,” Jinyoung whispers the last part as you could already hear the pain in his voice.

Jaebum’s expression becomes raw,

“Trust me, I get it. It’s why I opened up to you that night about my own secret. The only reason I’m bringing it up is because if it’s affecting Mark this much to do what he did, I want to be able to do something. I want to be able to help him. But I feel like I’ve missed out on so much and Jackson was the only one able to remain as close to Mark as we all used to be.”

It makes his heart ache every time he’s reminded of that fact…

And Jaebum had wanted to reach out so many times and he had. But their schedules seemed to never align or it wouldn’t be the right time as the days went by. Since Mark had been in America, the time difference alone made it hard to stay in communication. And just when Jaebum thought he’d have a chance, he’d find that Mark was with Jackson through social media.

So he might’ve gotten lost in his work to try and cover up the emotions and pain he was feeling. Maybe even try to get with a few women to see if it would lead anywhere but it never did. It couldn’t because they weren't him.

They weren't Mark…

“If Mark didn’t want to give you the reason, I’d let it be for right now. In the meantime, just be there for him. If we can get close like we used to be, then maybe he’ll open up to one of us naturally.”

“But what if he feels like he can’t because of who it’s about?” Jaebum throws it out there as he feels helpless in this situation.

His hand balls into a fist against the counter as his expression reflects in the mirror of how strongly he feels for Mark.

As he wants to go out there right now and ask, but what if he’s wrong? He doesn’t want to start something or have Mark leave. If he’s right though?

Jaebum isn’t sure of the actions he might do if he got that answer…

“We’ll figure it out once we reach that point. But he came to Korea to get away, didn’t he? Bringing it up now wouldn’t do any good.”

Ah, Jinyoung’s right. He needs to keep a level head and not let his emotions get the best of him. The last thing he wants to do is ruin what he has with Mark and lose him completely.

“See? This is why I call you before I do something stupid,” Jaebum lets out to lighten the mood.

It works as it gets a small chuckle out of Jinyoung,

“Unfortunately, I’m not there constantly to stop you every time,” The male teases.

“Hey now! I’ve been doing good lately!”

“Only because you’ve been in the military and not in public much,” Jinyoung sasses.

Jaebum pouts, “I try to not make a fool out of myself.”

Jinyoung laughs some more and it eases the alpha as he feels like he’s more in control of himself,

“Whatever the reason is, I’m happy that he came to me,” Jaebum states softly.

Jinyoung’s voice goes soft as well, “Me too. Out of everyone, it’s always been you that helped to lead us when we started to stray away from ourselves.”

Jaebum can’t help it as his expression shows how much that meant to hear those words,

“I had my moments though. I wasn’t the best leader but I always strive to do better.”

“Oh shut up. It was you that kept us together and cried for us to remain as a group back then. Even before we joined Got7, you were a great leader when we formed JJ Project.”

Jaebum remembers those times. Back when he was just starting out in JYP’s company. Where he didn’t know he’d end up in Got7 and have his whole life change to the place he was meant to be. He never thought of being a leader but when he was given the chance, he took it and gave it his all. Loving the group he was put into and caring so much about the members. They were each a part of him and they were all there with the same goals and passions. So when that moment came and the others were finding it hard to keep going...Jaebum was faced with the possibility of the group splitting up and losing them and…

He cried

He couldn’t imagine his life without the others in it. He couldn’t imagine trying to continue with his passions if the others weren't there to do the same with him. They all worked so hard to get to where they were. All of them helping and relying on each other. They were a family; they were more than that to him. They were literal pieces of his soul that he needed them in his life in order to properly function.

Yeah, there were a lot of hard times back then. Many that fans still don’t know about. But they got through them together. All while Jaebum swore he’d do whatever it took to keep them afloat. Telling them that they’d make it out on the other side and have that freedom to show their true colors.

And look at them now. They were achieving that. Though slowly and with trial and error. They may still be facing some hard times, but they were doing it. They kept going, they kept in touch and met up with each other.

They were still Got7…

“You know, I’m starting to think we all need to plan a meet up with all of us together soon,” Jaebum can’t help but voice.

“I was thinking the same thing. Though I don’t know if I’ll be able to until my service is up but I only got a few months left.”

“Do you think Mark will stay that long?” Jaebum didn’t want to think about Mark leaving anytime soon.

“If not, we’ll go and kidnap him together,” Jinyoung says like it’s that simple.

“Oh so it’s fine if you’re in on the kidnapping but not when I do it,” Jaebum shakes his head fondly.

“Desperate times call for desperate measures. Now hurry up and go back out there and shower Mark in affection for me. Though I’m sure Yugyeom and Youngjae are doing a good job of that for us.”

Yugyeom and Youngjae…

Jaebum’s expression goes from confusion to shock as he suddenly can hear loud laughter inside his apartment.

Wait a second---

“Gotta go!” Jaebum hangs up the phone before taking off.

Not wasting anymore time as he leaves his bedroom and makes it into the hallway before he can pick up on Yugyeom talking,

“I’m telling you that I wasn’t speeding to get here!”

Youngjae’s laughter picks up as Jaebum enters the living room and can see the beta leaning heavily against Mark as he’s smacking Yugyeom’s shoulder playfully,

“Says the one who got pulled over while we were on the phone together.”

“You said you wouldn’t tell anyone!” Yugyeom lets out in panic of being scolded, “And I had to hurry before I missed my chance of seeing Mark hyung!” He whines towards the end as he clings to Mark’s side.

Mark gently pats the top of Yugyeom’s head as the male soaks up all the attention.

“I won’t tell anyone,” Mark reassures him but then there’s a sound of someone clearing their throat being heard.

It gains the three’s attention, all heads whipping up to see Jaebum standing there with a look of a leader about to get onto someone---

“Jaebum hyung!” The two let out before they’re hopping up to hug their leader.

They cut off his scolding and soon the alpha’s expression turns into a big grin as the two become such dorks when hugging him.

“Welcome back, hyung!” They both say at the same time.

As Yugyeom even tries to lift both of them up and Youngjae’s laughter grows as Jaebum didn’t like to be picked up. Mark’s giggles come out though and the three all smile as they look to see the omega watching the scene fondly.

Yugyeom sets the two back down onto their feet before detaching himself from Jaebum and hopping over the couch to get back to Mark.

“Ugh, you don’t know how much I missed seeing you in person!”

“Let me have a turn too!” Youngjae declares as he comes in wrestling.

Mark’s giggles only grow as it becomes chaotic and is caught in the middle.

“No, I still need five minutes!” Yugyeom shouts as Youngjae is trying to pry Mark away.

“You had him for ten minutes already!”

“So?!”

“So it’s my turn!”

But before either could properly get a hold of Mark, the omega finds himself being lifted up from behind. He goes up and over the couch like one picking up a cat before he’s being carried over the alpha’s shoulder,

“Where are you taking him?” Youngjae asks as Yugyeom whines cutely.

“I still haven’t finished my turn,” Jaebum says as he casually walks towards the kitchen and leaves the two in the living room.

Hello?!

Yugyeom’s and Youngjae’s faces were so priceless that it has Mark in another fit of giggles as he goes along for the ride.

“Is it time to eat?” Mark asks as the other two were quick to follow.

“Yes, you’re hungry too, right?” Jaebum asks sweetly as he sets the omega down in front of him.

Where to the two that walked in, you would think Mark just upped and vanished as he was well hidden by Jaebum’s broad shoulders alone.

“I forgot to eat before my flight,” Mark admits quietly and the two coo as they come closer,

“What?! We should go get something to eat then,” Youngjae insists.

“Yeah, I’ll drive---”

“You are not driving,” Youngjae cuts him off as he already knows that Yugyeom will speed to get them to a restaurant faster.

All while Jaebum was using the distraction to take in Mark’s words.

So he really came straight from his flight to go see him…

Why does that have to make him both happy and yet sad at the same damn time?!

Instantly, he can feel himself wanting to do and say things. Though he manages to stop himself at the last second.

Well, almost, as he couldn’t help but hug Mark.

It took the omega off guard as here he was in the middle of Jaebum’s kitchen with the alpha holding him like he was something so precious.

“Jaebum?” Mark questions as he’s blushing away.

His heart thumping away from having the alpha so close and affectionate.

“Uh…is he broken?” Yugyeom is curious as he’s not understanding what’s going on here.

“I believe he’s making up for lost time,” Youngjae whispers back and Yugyeom perks up in understanding.

Just like they were trying to do. Which is why Yugyeom sped when he normally abides by the law. And why Youngjae is currently trying to interrupt this lovely moment by kidnapping Mark himself. Waiting for the perfect chance when Jaebum eventually pulls back and then---

Youngjae takes Mark’s hand and pulls him away. Stopping the moment between the two as they had locked eyes and everything---

“Hurry, Yugyeom! Get the car ready! If we don’t leave now, our leader will keep Mark in his den forever!”

Both Jaebum and Yugyeom stand there in shock before the beta realizes that he needs to move. Scrambling forth, Yugyeom hurries before Jaebum can function,

“You two get your asses back now with Mark!” The alpha lets out as he takes off after them.

Youngjae’s laughter is back, Yugyeom’s grin big and cheesy as Mark can’t help but feel the love and affection. As it brings him back to more of the good ol days.

Making him see how much he missed this.

How much he needed this…

But why did he have to go and get drunk by the end of the night?

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Maybe it was from overthinking due to his feelings because it seems like Mark is back to being himself. As if Mark never moved back to America and they’re out having fun after a hard day’s work.

Jaebum has been paying extra attention trying to find signs to see what might be going on with Mark. But the dinner went so well with all of them enjoying themselves. And Mark was there smiling and laughing while sitting in between him and Yugyeom.

The drinks and food went around as did the many different conversations. It felt like any other day as if they rewinded and were back in their packed schedule days. Where Jackson was out doing his China schedules, with Jinyoung acting in between and Bam went to Thailand to visit his family and do some schedules there. It was those times where the four of them would get together or simply stay up late to spend time bonding.

“Have you been enjoying your time with your family?” Youngjae asks Mark.

Mark bites his lip shyly before nodding, “I have,” He lets out as he chews his food carefully, “It’s been nice spending the holidays with them and birthdays. Joey actually has his wedding coming up soon.”

“I remember the proposal photos, bro. I’m happy for them,” Yugyeom adds to the conversation as they’ve been keeping up with each other’s social media.

Mark had also posted in the group chat about Joey wanting him to be in the wedding as one of his groomsmen.

“It must be so nice to be able to marry the love of your life,” Youngjae feels a bit envious as he wishes he could find someone someday.

“Come on now, don’t be like that, you’ll find the one for you,” Jaebum insists as he rests his arm on the back of the booth they’re at.

“That’s easy for you to say, you’ve had several relationships,” Youngjae throws back as Yugyeom goes to say something before stopping as Youngjae looks at him too, “And don’t even start as we all know about that one woman who must not be named.”

Yugyeom coughs as he tries to cover it up with a sip of his drink,

“I told you guys I was only giving it a shot to see what would happen, it was nothing serious. Not like hyung’s was,” Yugyeom gestures with his head towards Jaebum.

“Me? A lot of mine were one night stands or mere flings---”

“No, he’s talking about the recent one that you dated for over nine months,” Youngjae points out and this is where Mark’s mood dampened fast.

Yep, his bubble popped as he went from smiling to laughing and now sitting there looking down at the glass of alcohol in his hand. Jaebum was too engrossed in the conversation to take notice. Especially as Yugyeom and Youngjae kept talking about it,

“We really thought something was going to come out of that relationship,” Yugyeom says as it was nowhere like how his was with that one woman.

It’s why they all joked about it on that one game show because it ended up being like some fling to pass the time. And Yugyeom couldn’t even lie and said he had feelings for her.

“Until Jinyoung called you out about if you were serious or not since you were going into military service.”

And it wasn’t long after that comment was made that Jaebum broke up with the woman. But for a while there, Mark thought the same thing. From the moment he found out, he thought it was like the other women. But then she stuck around, she appeared in more conversations and photos. She took up Jaebum’s time and this was all around the same time everything was happening at once, to what was going to happen to them as a group. And with them making drastic moves of leaving JYP and keeping Got7 going, Mark had to get away. The fact that she stayed that long in Jaebum’s life…Mark couldn’t handle it. So he used that chance and an excuse to move back to America to try and get over Jaebum. Not just for himself but for Jaebum because it wasn’t fair to him and also for the group, as they were already going through enough stress and big life changes.

Yet when he found out that Jaebum broke up with her…he was beyond elated. Almost as if he had a chance. Where everything he tried in order to move on, did nothing as those feelings came right back up to the surface. Making him want to react. But no, no no, that would be bad.

Very bad…

“We were already drifting apart by that time so it felt best to do it before I went into my military service,” Jaebum tried to brush it off but the two weren't having it.

Mark could feel himself shutting down as every word about her was as if someone was cutting into his heart. Where he felt like he couldn’t breathe as he was being brought back to that time.

“So you cut off all communication since then?” Yugyeom is curious to know.

Mark’s hand on his glass tightens before Youngjae speaks up,

“She hasn’t tried to message you or anything?” As he too would like to know.

But before Jaebum can answer, Mark takes his glass and downs the whole drink. Fuck trying to just get a warm buzz going. He needed something to distract himself so why not take the rest of the bottle while the others weren't looking. Why not drown his sorrows as they talk about Jaebum’s ex because it’s not like he has any right to be hurt like this. To be jealous or envious. To wishing he could’ve been in her shoes. Maybe if he would’ve been a woman then he might’ve had a chance. If they could’ve met by different circumstances then maybe…just maybe…

Mark got lost in his thoughts, only coming back out when he feels Jaebum moving and getting up,

“I gotta use the restroom, I’ll be back,” The alpha says before taking off.

It pulls Mark back to reality. Oh? How much did he miss? Hopefully it was over and they’d move onto another topic. Thankfully the two do, but it doesn’t take long for Mark to really feel the effects of the drinks on top of the one drink he had earlier. With Mark being a lightweight, it probably wasn’t a good idea in the first place. But now as he’s not holding back the omega side of him, he might end up making a fool of himself. Like how he’s already moving over Yugyeom’s lap to sit in between him and Youngjae.

“What the hell---” Yugyeom starts as he dodges an elbow to the face while Youngjae laughs before opening his arms out for Mark,

“Come here, Mark,” He encourages and Mark goes right into his arms.

It’s here that Yugyeom notices the empty bottle of alcohol,

“Wait, who drank this?” Yugyeom questions as he holds it up.

“I think you already know the answer,” Youngjae lets out in amusement as Mark snuggles up against his side and rests his head against the beta’s shoulder,

“I missed you guys,” Mark admits and the two instantly coo,

“Yep, Mark gets talkative and more expressive when he’s drunk,” Yugyeom smiles as the omega wants affection.

“I wanted to see you all so much,” Mark says and the two feel their heart’s melt.

Youngjae wraps an arm around the omega,

“We wanted to see you too. We had hoped to have done it sooner.”

“But I made it harder…I became distant…” Mark keeps talking even though he’s still carefully choosing his words.

As his mind is running and he wants to express himself more freely now that he can’t fully remember why he was holding back in the first place.

“No, it’s not your fault, hyung. We all became busy with our solo activities and life,” Yugyeom comforts the omega as he lightly runs his hand along Mark’s back in a soothing manner.

“I did,” Mark insisted as he looked so sad, “Because of myself…I had to distance to protect everyone…”

The two look up at the same time towards each other and share the same look.

What did he mean by that?

“Is he talking about being an omega?” Youngjae mouths to Yugyeom.

Yugyeom shrugs but it’s a high possibility as they all knew how Mark had been scared to be himself when they first met him. And no one could blame him for trying to hide what he was in a foreign country around a bunch of strangers when he barely knew the language at the time.

It was thanks to Jackson for being able to help coax him out of his shell, before Jinyoung helped with the language barrier and Mark told them what he was.

Jaebum comes back, his expression showing on his face at the change of seating,

“What did I miss?” Jaebum asks as he slides back down into his seat.

“Mark hyung might be a tad bit drunk,” Yugyeom says as Youngjae is eating up the cuddling session,

“He says that he missed us,” Youngjae adds as he keeps Mark close.

“Only a little?” Jaebum finds himself staring at the cuteness as Mark has his cheek all squished up against Youngjae’s shoulder,

“No, I missed you guys a lot,” Mark claims without hesitation.

The three all chuckle,

“I meant with your drinking,” Jaebum clarifies as Yugyeom is already taking out his phone to snap photos to send in the group chat.

“Not drunk, missing you,” Mark replies as he looks at the alpha longingly.

Jaebum takes notice as he gestures for the omega to come back closer,

“Come here, we can snuggle too,” He offers as he really hopes Mark will do it.

But Mark looks torn as he shakes his head,

“I can’t,” He lets out in a cute whine because he’s trying to hold back here.

“Why not?” Jaebum pouts with him as he doesn’t understand why Mark moved away in the first place.

“Because it’s not allowed,” Mark admits quietly as he looks sad now.

All three of their expressions drop in confusion as they look towards one another to see if the other might know. But the way they’re all looking concerned shows that they’re thinking towards the same thing.

“But you want to be near me, right?” Jaebum asks to be sure as he hopes it’s not what he thinks it is.

“I want to…but I have to hold back…” Mark answers as he said it so sadly too.

Did someone say something that’s making him hesitant? Was it his company that said he couldn’t get close to another alpha or something? Because Mark went to them and they’re betas, but it doesn’t make sense because Mark has been seen around Jackson and he’s an alpha. So what else could it be?

Jaebum’s expression is raw and unreadable as the two try to lighten the situation,

“It’s ok, hyung. You can snuggle with any of us,” Yugyeom encourages as Youngjae rubs Mark’s back,

“Yeah, no matter what anyone else said, you’re free to be you,” Youngjae adds as he hopes Mark isn’t holding back because of a company or what someone said.

“No, don’t tempt me…” Mark is beginning to tear up and the two feel for him as Jaebum is tapping Yugyeom to help move the omega to him.

For the alpha is seconds away from doing it himself. Not even waiting as Yugyeom was already helping to move the omega closer. Jaebum lifting Mark up the moment he gets his hands on him and pulls him right into his arms,

“I want you to be close, Mark. Just like we used to be. You can be close to your band members, there’s nothing wrong with that,” Jaebum voices as he adds the others in so it doesn’t fully give away the emotional wreck he’s becoming.

Where he’s longed for the days that they were only streets away and not seas apart. Where he’d get to see Mark everyday like he used to. Not months…hoping it wouldn’t turn into years…

The omega clings to the alpha’s broad shoulders, sniffling as he rests his chin on Jaebum’s shoulder, head tucked under the alpha’s chin,

“I-I can’t…I need to stay away…” His voice was laced with emotions as he closed his eyes to try and keep it together.

As he shouldn’t be this close to Jaebum right now, but it’s so hard as it felt so right. A silent tear falling and rolling down his cheek as he wanted to stay like this but he couldn’t.

He tries to pull back, his struggle weak, but Jaebum holds him tighter,

“I’m not letting you go, Mark,” Jaebum declares with such emotion.

Especially not when he knew something was going on. Afraid that if he let go, then he’d never see Mark again.

“Please alpha…” Mark sounded so broken as he couldn't stop the rest of the tears from falling.

Now the two were highly concerned as it’s clear something was keeping Mark away from them.

But what? And how could they have let it get this far without noticing?

As they’re quick to make sure no one around can see this moment as Mark ends up fully breaking down in Jaebum’s arms. His face buried against the alpha’s chest as his tears were silent. But you could physically see his body heaving and how tightly he held onto Jaebum.

The two felt themselves tearing up, especially as Jaebum was struggling to hold it together himself. As he has this look on his face that he knew more than them.

Of how it was tearing Jaebum apart…

Mark throws up into the toilet, his body having gotten worked up from all the crying. It didn’t help that he felt like shit for ruining the night for everyone. And now here he was throwing up in Jaebum’s toilet with the alpha helping to keep his hair out of his face,

“It’s ok,” Jaebum’s voice remains gentle and soothing.

Even as Mark whimpers before he throws up again.

“It’s a good thing we picked up some things on the way home,” Youngjae said as him and Yugyeom were already helping to get things situated.

Yugyeom takes the items out of the bag as he sets them onto the bedside table as Youngjae helps to hand Jaebum paper towels so Mark can wipe his face.

Mark leans heavily back against Jaebum as the alpha throws away the paper towels in the bin nearby. Mark’s breathing is starting to slow down as his body aches from throwing up.

“M’sorry,” Mark lets out and Youngjae coos,

“Oh Mark, don’t worry. We’ve all had our times of drinking too much. I remember when Jaebum hyung drank so much and Jackson and Jinyoung struggled to carry his ass to his apartment.”

Yugyeom laughs a little at the memory,

“We all assumed that Jinyoung knew hyung’s new apartment address at the time but he didn’t.”

Youngjae smiles too, “Jackson and Jinyoung spent forever looking for it as hyung didn’t give good directions.”

Jaebum does remember that night to a certain extent. And what should be a good memory still, it was making him tense at the mention of Jackson.

Mark feels the tension and instinctively he curls closer to the alpha and latches onto his hand,

“I’m good now…want sleep…” Mark is still obviously drunk.

“Yeah, let’s get you to bed,” Yugyeom says as he comes to help Jaebum get Mark up and off the floor.

“Should we get the guest room ready for him?” Youngjae questions but Jaebum shakes his head,

“No, I’m going to put him on my bed. It’s closest to a bathroom in case he needs to throw up again.”

Jaebum is careful as he lifts Mark up in his arms, the omega not fighting him as he’s falling asleep as they speak.

“You two should take the guest room and the couch, I’ll be watching over Mark anyway.”

There goes their leader being passionate as ever.

“If you need anything, just holler,” Yugyeom says as Youngjae nods,

“We don’t mind helping. Especially after what went down tonight…” Youngjae doesn’t finish the sentence but they all felt the same.

That they want to be there for Mark in his time of need as something was definitely going on. And they want Mark to know that they’re here, they’ve always been here for him.

The two watch as Jaebum gets Mark situated in the bed and find the omega was passed out already.

“Goodnight hyung,” Yugyeom says as he squeezes Jaebum’s shoulder while walking past.

“Goodnight,” Youngjae says too as Jaebum thanks them both.

Youngjae closes the door after Yugyeom and it was now Jaebum left alone with Mark.

And as the alpha sits down on the edge of the bed and watches Mark sleep, he can’t help those thoughts from resurfacing again.

He needs to have a face to face talk with Jackson…and soon…

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“I’m telling you that something is up,” Youngjae’s voice lets out in a hushed tone.

“Bro! Do I need to cancel my next schedule and come back?” Bam replies as Youngjae is currently face timing him.

Sprawling out on the guest bed, Youngjae frowns as he holds up the phone so he can still see Bam’s face,

“I…I don’t know man. Mark hyung was so drunk last night that he might not remember when he wakes up later. So I’m not sure if we should pretend it never happened or bring it up.”

Youngjae didn’t get much sleep last night as he couldn’t stop thinking about it. That whatever was going on, has been going on for a while now. Was it before they left JYP? After? It feels like it’s been going on for a long time and since they’ve been apart, it’s been harder for Mark to hide it. And they all know is a pro at hiding things when he’s constantly around others. He always cares about others before himself.

So how long has Mark been hurting for?

“There has to be something we can do,” Bam voices as he leans up in the hotel bed and starts checking something on his phone,

“I only have a few days left over here in Thailand and then I’ll be back. Maybe we can all get together and just hang out. You know how having us all in the same room does wonders.”

Youngjae nods, “I’ll text Jinyoung to see if we can go to him or if he can come out for a few hours. I’ll free up my schedule for whatever time is available for you guys. Mark needs this, he needs us. We’ll have to talk to Jackson too.”

Bam agrees with him as he’s always down for his band members,

“Ah, what about Yugyeom? Did he go home last night?”

Youngjae pulls the covers back up to hide some of his naked chest,

“No, we both crashed here last night in case Mark needed us. He should still be sleeping on the couch unless he’s been up before me.”

Bam makes a sad face, “I should’ve gotten right back on the plane when I had a chance…”

“Bam,” Youngjae feels for the male as they’ve talked about this before.

“I know, I know…” Bam sighs as he runs a hand through his bed head, “I just…I miss how close we used to be…Him and I…I should’ve never confessed…”

Given, he was lucky it didn’t destroy their relationship completely. But Yugyeom has definitely kept his distance and even spent time with women. He knew it was futile as Yugyeom was no doubt straight. But you know how stupid one can be when they’re in love.

And the only reason Youngjae knew about it was because he accidentally walked in on Bam confessing and Yugyeom turning him down. It was actually Youngjae who helped to comfort Bam as Yugyeom let the beta down as gently as he could before leaving the area. And Bam fell apart in Youngjae’s arms with the beta promising that he’d keep Bam’s secret.

“I don’t want you to get hurt like last time, but you know Yugyeom cares about you deeply. I’m sure he misses how close you two were as well and how you two used to fall asleep in each other’s arms all the time.”

“Our long limbs would always get tangled up too. An elbow in someone’s face, a foot caught in the sheets the next,” Bam laughs a bit as he recalls those times.

As you can see the sad smile and longing expression. All before Bam tries to get back to the topic at hand,

“How about I handle Jinyoung and you talk with Yugyeom?” Bam suggests before Yougjae shakes his head,

“Uh-uh, you’re going to talk with Yugyeom. I mean it. It’ll be ok, I promise.”

Bam tries to hide his face under the covers as he lets out a sound because Youngjae is not trying to torture him here. But Youngjae’s next words make him relent,

“Mark hyung needs us, remember? Do it for him.”

It’ll also help to hopefully mend that patch between them as Youngjae knows there’s been plenty of times where Yugyeom would subconsciously try and send something to Bam first. Or be thinking of him as he pulls up his name in his contacts before catching himself and stopping. He may not know Yugyeom’s reasoning for holding back and distancing himself from Bam, but he really does know that Yugyeom cares for him a lot.

That has never changed…

Bam eventually peeks out from the covers,

“Ok, I’ll do it.”

“Good, do it right now.”

“Now?!” Bam lets out as Youngjae’s expression is serious.

“Yes! That way I know that you did it and didn’t chicken out,” Youngjae insists and Bam looks hella nervous now.

“Fuck…wait…ok…fuck…Youngjae!” Bam whines as he’s going through the emotions.

“I believe in you! Fighting!” Youngjae encourages before Bam is heard screaming.

He then hangs up on the call with Youngjae, the beta shocked by this until he starts to hear someone’s phone ringing in the apartment.

Oh? Is he actually calling Yugyeom right now?

Youngjae scrambles to get out of bed. Hurrying to throw on his shirt as he goes out into the hallway. Sure enough, the ringing is coming from the living room as the couch can be seen with Yugyeom still laying on it.

Yugyeom was asleep, a frown forming on his face from being woken up. His eyes are still closed as he blindly reaches for his phone, one eye peeking open to take in who was calling---

The second he sees Bam's name, Yugyeom jerks into a sitting position as he’s wide awake now. His fingers moving so he can answer the call,

“Hello?”

Youngjae stops moving, latching onto the wall as he listens in. As he can see Yugyeom going from grumpy to smiling, his eyes softening,

“I’m surprised you’re awake right now,” Yugyeom lets out before a small chuckle comes forth,

“Uh no…no…I was already awake, you’re not bothering me,” He continued the conversation.

It makes Youngjae smile as he feels like this might help mend what’s been going on between them. But then he sees Yugyeom standing up as he’s no doubt trying to go to a more private place. And here Youngjae was just standing there so obviously!

Youngjae’s expression forms in a, ‘Oh shit!’ before he’s running to hide somewhere. And that just happened to be the closest room available,

Which was Jaebum’s room…

The beta has just closed the door when he turns to find quite the sight on the bed. Of Jaebum and Mark snuggling in their sleep.

Oh how cute!

Youngjae instinctively reaches for his phone to capture this moment but finds he left it in the guest room. Damn, this was such a precious moment too. Just look at how Jaebum was holding onto Mark protectively too like he could fend off anyone in the omega’s dreamland. And Mark clung to his front, head tucked under the alpha’s chin as he had one cheek squished against the alpha’s chest.

It made Youngjae smile warmly until he found Mark was stirring in his sleep.

Shit!

It should be clear by now, so Youngjae is quick to leave the room to head back to his own before Mark fully wakes up. And boy the more Mark comes to, he feels like he still must be dreaming.

“Bummie?” Mark lets out subconsciously as he picks up on the alpha’s scent.

Where he feels such warmth and security that makes him want to curl up against it more. Letting out a pleased sound as he’s instinctively letting out more of his sweet scent.

Arms come to wrap around him tighter, the omega purring in delight as he pressed up against the solid body. All until he hears a rough voice of,

“Mark,” From Jaebum as he’s waking up from being asleep.

Right away, Mark blushes, his brain coming fully online as he realizes their positions. Though he’s not sure on how they ended up like this in the first place.

Jaebum feels Mark tense, his heart beating super fast as the omega begins to stutter out words,

“I--I H-how…” Mark stops as his mind is becoming a jumbled mess.

The alpha pulls back so he can stare down at the omega who was red all the way up to his ears,

“Do you not remember last night?” Jaebum asks as Mark becomes shy and shakes his head.

He remembers going out, eating food and drinking a little. But the other parts are hazy right now.

The alpha can’t help but tease a bit,

“You clung to me all night long,” He says playfully.

As he wished that’s how it went down. But he wasn’t about to bring up the real reason right now. For seeing how much it affected Mark last night, he wants the omega to be relaxed and happy. To hopefully be able to let go and be himself this morning.

“I did?!” Mark gasps out before seeing that he’s still clinging to the alpha.

He lets go, ready to move back when he suddenly finds himself being rolled over. With the alpha hovering above him and looking at him with that intense and passionate gaze.

Thump

Thump

Thump

Oh he must be dreaming because holy shit, this was like the start to one of his sexual fantasies---

“Say it again,” Jaebum lets out and it takes Mark off guard.

On how the alpha’s tone seemed so affected but from what?

“Say it?” Mark isn’t sure what he means until Jaebum replies with,

“The nickname you gave me. Say it again,” Jaebum pleads softly as it’s been too long since he’s heard it.

Where he hated when anyone else tried to give him cute nicknames, but he secretly loved it when Mark would say them.

Mark’s expression becomes one of awe as he breathes out,

“Bummie…”

At seeing how much it meant to Jaebum as his whole expression showed his reaction to it. To his eyes that shined with such emotion. Mark has no idea the things it does to him. The things it makes Jaebum want to do.

But he has to hold back…

Except with the events from last night, it makes it harder for Jaebum to hold back. As he finds the words already trying to come out,

“Mark I---”

Suddenly the door opens and Yugyeom stands there in mid sentence of his own. Just taking in the intimate position from his angle that has the beta becoming super flustered in seconds,

“AH! I’m sorry, hyungs!!!” He shouts before he’s slamming the door back closed.

As you can hear Youngjae asking Yugyeom what was going on. But Mark can’t hear it. No, he can’t hear anything over his mind that’s now racing with those bad thoughts. That Yugyeom mistook this whole thing and now those two were going to think something was going on. And Jaebum…oh god, Jaebum---

Mark’s breathing was picking up as he suddenly pushed the alpha back before coming to a stand. It makes the world spin as he’s still hungover but he has to make some space. He has to make sure they all understand. But the words weren't coming out right and he feels a panic attack coming on.

“Mark,” Jaebum tries to come closer to help but the moment he tries to touch him, the omega smacks his hand away.

He can’t…he’ll break…he’ll expose himself. He needs to stay away…he needs to---

“Jackson…I can’t…I need…” He’s struggling with his breathing to get out all the words before he’s backing up with a whimper.

Jaebum stops, holding his hands up to let Mark know he won’t come any closer,

“It’s alright, I just want to help you breathe,” The alpha worries for the omega.

As Mark seems so scared and freaked out but before Jaebum can do anything else, the omega reaches for his phone on the bedside table and goes into the bathroom. Jaebum can hear the door locking right as he gets to it and curses mentally.

Shit, he just wants to help but breaking down the door might make it worse---

The next thing he hears is Mark’s phone ringing and Jaebum’s heart stops as he knows who the omega was calling. As it felt like a punch to the gut as Mark didn’t want him, but wanted another alpha.

Jackson

Sure enough, the call connects and Jaebum can hear Mark calling out for Jackson. It makes the grip on the door knob tighten, the alpha leaning his forehead against the door, as he tries to not let his emotions take over him. Where everything screamed at him to bust down this door to get to Mark. But just like there’s this barrier between them, the invisible one is much greater…

Jaebum backs off as he starts to hear Mark try to take deep breaths and moves, forcing himself to walk away as the pain helped to do it. Helped to push him out the door and not beg Mark to let him in.

The alpha wasn’t expecting the two to still be out in the hallway though. As the two were whispering in such a dramatic way, with their body movements so animated on top of that. At least until they took notice of Jaebum and both looked at him like deer trapped in headlights…

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“What do you mean they were in an intimate position?” Youngjae demands more answers as Yugyeom is a flustered mess.

After Youngjae was ‘casually’ leaving the guest room, he suddenly found Yugyeom bumping into him as he came back out of Jaebum’s room so fast,

“You tell me!” Yugyeom exclaims in a harsh whisper as he doesn’t want Jaebum to hear them, “But it was like that one Vlive where the camera panned and caught Jackson and Bam in an intimate position!”

What?!

“Why bring up that one of all things?!” Youngjae is becoming dramatic here.

For Yugyeom could’ve simply explained it in any other way and yet he chose that one to describe what took place?

“It’s what I automatically thought about, I don’t know!” Yugyeom is panicking in a dramatic fashion like Youngjae was.

As he grabs a hold of Youngjae like the beta was to him.

Youngjae goes to say something when the door to Jaebum’s bedroom suddenly opens with the alpha coming out---

The two look like deer trapped in headlights because Jaebum’s expression looked pissed off.

Oh god! He must’ve overheard him and is now coming to get them for interrupting some moment he was having with Mark---

The two cling to each other as Jaebum approaches but soon find the alpha walking past, his aura radiating off, ‘do not disturb’.

“Uh…” Yugyeom isn’t sure how to approach this.

Did something happen after he shut the door on the two?

The two share the same look before parting and following after their leader.

“Hyung---” Youngjae starts as Jaebum is hastily throwing on the jacket by the front door,

“Don’t,” Jaebum cuts him off and Youngjae is taken aback by his tone.

As if the alpha was struggling to hold himself together for some reason.

“Where are you going though?” Yugyeom tries as he stands beside Youngjae.

“Out,” Is all Jaebum is giving as apparently one worded answers are all they’re gonna get.

“And Mark?” Youngjae asks as there’s no way that Jaebum was pissed off at Mark was he?

“He’s fine now.”

Now?

Yugyeom opens to ask what he means by that before closing his mouth as Jaebum slides on his shoes and is gonna open the door to leave.

“Hyung wait,” Youngjae tries again as something is going on and it needs to be addressed---

Except the moment Jaebum opens the door, they find someone already on the other side,

“Jinyoung?!” Yugyeom and Youngjae let out as the male is already grabbing a hold of Jaebum and pulling him out the door.

Shutting the door in their face and leaving them there speechless…

Meanwhile,

“Jacks…”

“Listen to how I breathe…yep…just like that…keep doing it…in…and out…yes, you’re doing great…”

“But…” Mark can’t stop the thoughts that keep wanting to come back.

“Uh-uh, focus on me. Nothing else matters right now. In…out…”

Mark squeezes his eyes shut as he leans against the bathroom door. He had long since slid down it as his legs turned into jelly earlier as was trying to remain focused on Jackson. As the alpha knows about his attacks and how to help him through it.

Jackson keeps talking him through it, listening to his breathing calming down and becoming stable. And then he lets the silence take over a few seconds to make sure Mark’s breathing doesn’t fluctuate again before talking about something random,

“Did I tell you about this place I found that lets you play fencing anytime you want? It seems like a cool place and I’ve been missing that sport. I was thinking we could go together some time to just relax and goof off. We could go up against each other and I promise I’ll go easy on you. I’d never hurt you so you can trust me. I think you’ll have fun like that one time when we did it with the others.”

Jackson’s random talking always kept Mark out of his thoughts as the alpha had a way with words and story telling. But the moment he mentioned the others, Mark’s first thought goes right back to Jaebum.

“I fucked up, Jacks. Again.”

Mark leans his head forward as he pulls his knees up to his chest. Resting his forehead against both knees as he makes sure to speak in Chinese just in case anyone was listening.

Jackson notices and easily switches to their native tongue,

“No, I’m sure you didn’t, Yien. Youngjae and Yugyeom were there too, right?”

Jackson recalls the group chat and he’d seen some of the photos of their outing.

“Everything was going fine and I thought it would be ok. But then we got to drinking and they started talking about exes and I got wasted.”

Mark didn’t want to hear anymore about the women Jaebum had been with, or who got close to him like the omega always wanted to do. Who got to hold his heart briefly and for any time at all.

“Ouch, yeah, no, that’s understandable why you would want to drink to get away from that. It was what I would do every time I saw a certain someone acting in such scenes.”

“What?” Mark asks Jackson to repeat himself as the alpha had whispered the last part.

But Jackson was quick to move on,

“So you got drunk and then what? Did you throw up on him?”

Mark whines as he doesn’t even know what he did,

“I can’t remember anything after that. I just woke up this morning in his bed with him. But that’s not the worst part. The worst part is that Yugyeom opened the door and mistook us in some intimate position---” Mark’s breathing picks up a bit but Jackson intervenes,

“So? We’ve slept in the same bed with the others all the time, remember? During tours, plane rides or waiting in line. We’d be close and used to cuddle. Hell, you and Jinyoung used to cuddle all the time when you two would drink. Couldn’t pry you two apart.”

Jackson laughs softly at the memory and Mark is brought back to those times as well.

“Yugyeom probably thought he was interrupting a much needed time alone between you two as it’s been a while since you’ve seen him. I’d probably be flustered myself after witnessing such an event after so long of us being apart between the members,” Jackson reassures with the most logical reason he could think of.

“And so what if Yugyeom did think that?” Jackson throws that out there, “He’s had many questionable moments with Bam and he’s not one to judge like that in the first place.”

“I don’t want to ruin Bummie’s life though. Or what we worked for.”

“Bummie?” Jackson catches Mark’s slip up.

Mark becomes flustered now, “It’s what I called him subconsciously when I was waking up this morning. It’s what he wanted me to call him again before Yugyeom came in.”

Seconds of silence goes by before Jackson says,

“You should call him by that nickname every chance you get.”

Huh?

“No, I shouldn’t. That’s what I’m saying. I keep messing up when I should stay away---”

“Stay away? Mark, you are not about to stay away from him or the others. It’s not good for you to keep suppressing yourself. It’s ok to be you. To let your omega side out and just be you.”

Mark can’t help but swear he’s heard those words before as it comes from the back of his mind.

“It’s been so long though that I almost don’t know myself anymore. And since I’ve kept it down for years, I don’t understand why I’m slipping up so much since we left JYP,” Mark is trying to be good here.

Doesn’t Jackson realize how much is at stake? How he needs to keep holding back before one day he snaps and it ruins everything.

“Because you want to come back home.”

Home…Jaebum said that to him back in the car ride from his military service.

“That day we all separated, Markie, we all went through it. Feeling lost, feeling the missing pieces as we all left a part of ourselves within each member. I admit I got too much into drinking. Yugyeom dived into dancing, Jinyoung into acting. Youngjae went to become a radio host as he couldn’t sleep at night alone. Hell, you know how Bam has been struggling as he’s made some posts on social media about it as he wanted fans and us to know how much Got7 means to us. And Jaebum…our leader took it hard too. Even when we started doing solo activities, he made sure we were good. Waiting and leaning a hand to keep us afloat and going strong. All while trying to obtain our trademark and everything. All so we could have a home to go back to. Hoping that we’d all come back together again.”

Not just for the fans or to prove everyone wrong. But for them. For each other.

“I meant it when I said it was seven or nothing. I tattooed it onto my body like the others have in their own way. Yeah, I can do this and that on my own. I can get creative and branch out being solo. I could obtain all the money and what the world may have to offer. But it’ll never, ever, replace what Got7 is and has. I could lose everything but I can’t lose you guys. I’d throw it all away if it meant I could remain by your guy’s side. Just like how Jaebum never hesitated to sacrifice in order to keep us together and make it work. He feels just as strongly as we do and if any of you need me, I’m here. I’ll be there. So don’t hold back, Mark. Show the others, show me, show Jaebum, how much Got7 means to you. How much we mean to you. They miss you, they love the shit out of you. And they’ve always been asking me about you. They want you back as much as you want to be back. So fuck everyone else. What happens, will happen. But I can guarantee you that Got7 will make it through anything.”

Those words go right to his heart because he feels so strongly about Got7. It became his everything, his whole world. And it’s why he’s terrified of losing it because his heart decided to fall in love with his leader.

“I’m scared though, Gaga. The company didn’t like how close we were. They didn’t like me expressing my omega side.”

So many staff and people have said nasty things about Mark. About how an omega would be the downfall of the band. How Mark should’ve kept himself disguised and should’ve never come out as an omega. And how it escalated the rumors between Jackson and him ever since.

“We’re not in the company anymore, remember? We all left together hand in hand. Our leader made sure of it, so It’s ok to let go now.”

To be free to do the things that the company and others wouldn’t let them do.

Free to be themselves

Free to follow their passions

Free to show their true colors

Free to make their own choices

Free to love

Free to be together

Mark’s heart reacts with a strong rhythm as he feels the urge to go find Jaebum now.

“I gotta go,” Mark suddenly declares with emotion.

“What? Right now? Why? Is something else wrong?” Jackson is growing worried.

“Jaebum, I need to---”

The sound of the bedroom door is heard and Mark’s heart skips a beat. Was that Jaebum coming back?

The omega couldn't help himself as everything was screaming at him to go to him. So without further thinking, Mark hangs up the call on Jackson so he could unlock the bathroom door and open it. Hoping to speak with Jaebum…

But when he’s greeted with the two, his expression drops to one of sadness.

Especially as he can see the two look sad and lost themselves…

Previously and meanwhile;

“Jinyoung,” Jaebum calls out as he was shocked to see the male there.

Where Jinyoung had a hoodie up, mask covering his face as he kept a tight grip on the alpha’s arm. It doesn’t take long as Jaebum follows him to the car that the alpha was originally going to leave in anyway. And the moment the doors close, Jinyoung pulls down his mask to round on him,

“Why the fuck did you have to put those thoughts into my head, Jaebum?!”

Jinyoung is upset and he looks like he didn’t get a wink of sleep last night.

“Did you come all the way over here just to yell that at me?” Jaebum asks and Jinyoung sasses away,

“You’re damn right I did! I’m probably going to get into trouble for doing it but I could care less right now. Because my heart and mind are a mess and then I get several texts from Youngjae about Mark last night---”

The mention of Mark’s name triggers Jaebum into many raw reactions. So much so that it cuts off Jinyoung’s rant. Making the male breathe to try and calm down some as the silence takes over.

But the hurt on Jaebum’s face doesn’t falter one bit…

“Turn the car on and drive,” Jinyoung suggests as he can tell that the alpha needed to get away.

“Are you sure? Cause it has to do with him---”

“I said drive,” Jinyoung’s tone let's Jaebum know not to push it.

As Jinyoung knows what he’s getting into and that’s why he’s telling Jaebum to drive. For if he doesn’t, he’s going to get out of this car to try and save his heart from any more damage that’s about to come.

Silence takes over again as Jaebum starts the car up. Both feeling that energy as they don’t want to quite face reality yet.

So Jinyoung only waits a few more seconds before urging Jaebum to continue before he can chicken out.

Jaebum throws it into reverse, making it feel like they’re literally going back in time where all these emotions and feelings began. And then the alpha puts it into drive, his foot stepping on the gas pedal a little too hard as it shoots them forward. Perfectly representing how their lives changed when the others joined their group and became Got7. Where they were struck with all these emotions and feelings so fast. And with the car that kept driving forward, it showed that their feelings never faded. It just kept going and going, never stopping.

Not once…it only kept growing stronger…

“Mark”

“Hyung”

Youngjae and Yugyeom both say at the same time before they come and hug the omega. It catches Mark off guard but with how he’s been feeling, he really appreciates the hug right now. Though it doesn’t last long as Mark can’t help but ask,

“Where’s Jaebum?”

The two tense a bit, alerting Mark that he’s not going to like the answer.

It has him pulling back to look at them properly as the two don’t want to make eye contact while saying it.

“Well uh he…” Yugyeom starts while Youngjae winces as it looks like they’re trying to come up with an excuse.

But they don’t know either what’s truly going on,

“Jinyoung showed up out of nowhere and they drove off somewhere,” Youngjae admits.

He said it this way so Mark wouldn’t think Jaebum left because of him. Just in case something really did happen between the two.

It seems either answer was going to upset Mark though as the omega was hoping the alpha was still nearby.

“Oh…” Is all Mark says as you can see the dejection on his face.

The two feel for Mark as something really did happen between him and Jaebum; this confirms it.

But before they can do or say anything, the doorbell is heard going off…

And what do you know, it appears Jaebum’s parents decided to pay their son a visit. Not only to surprise him with his cats, but to welcome him back home from his service.

Yet, now the three have to figure out what to say to them as Jaebum was still not back. And the alpha just so happened to forget his phone back in the bedroom.

The phone call to Jinyoung was going to be an interesting one indeed…

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“They have to be in a relationship,” Jaebum says and it hurts both of them.

Cuts so hard and sharp like a knife that Jinyoung can’t help but jerk from hearing the words.

“You confirmed this?” Jinyoung’s tone comes out a bit harsh without meaning to.

As Jinyoung really didn’t want to believe it. He wanted to remain in denial as he liked it better when Jackson was simply unavailable. Where he’d hear during his interviews that he’s still single and doesn’t have time to date. Skipping over Jackson’s ideal type until the alpha finally admitted that he would like to pursue someone since he’s reached his thirties. Though hearing that he didn’t have to have kids stuck with him. Gave him hope in some twisted fantasy that maybe he could have a chance. Yet he’s not a woman that Jackson would openly talk about when it came to relationships. It’s only behind closed doors that Jackson admitted he was actually bisexual to the group members. So really, there was no chance right? For Jackson wouldn’t want to go public with a relationship with a guy. And that’s what Jinyoung kept telling himself so he wouldn’t foolishly admit his feelings to the alpha.

But with Mark…it seems like Jackson would do anything and everything with Mark…

“He hasn’t said it openly but the actions he keeps showing me makes me believe that they are,” Jaebum’s tone was softer with sadness as Jinyoung stared blankly forward.

As life was still going despite Jinyoung not wanting to face such a reality.

“Youngjae texted me the details of what took place last night though---”

“That’s where I’m getting at,” Jaebum lightly cuts him off as he grips the steering wheel tighter.

As Jinyoung glances over when Jaebum has to let out a long deep breath to try and keep his growing emotions from exploding,

“Mark…he acted scared to be close to me.”

“What?” Jinyoung can’t help but let out as it sounded ridiculous.

But recalling what Youngjae texted to him and that Yugyeom was present too…

It doesn’t sound real but it happened.

“It’s hard to explain but he’s hesitating, Jinyoung. He’s holding back as he’s second guessing his actions and words instinctively. Almost like it was programmed into his mind that he can’t be close to me.”

Jinyoung frowns as he’s trying to piece things together like the alpha was. As he knows Jaebum is frustrated and wants to help Mark like he would with any of the other members. But especially Mark as he holds such a special place in his heart.

“You remember when we all first met, Mark?” Jaebum asks as he faces the road.

As he’s not even going the speed limit; he’s simply driving to no set destination while they figure this out.

“I remember how you completely misunderstood him and you both argued,” Jinyoung sasses fondly.

Jaebum smiles a bit at the memory,

“I got hot headed over the language barrier, but the moment Mark left, I realized how it must’ve been in his shoes. The fact that he was surrounded by three people and barely understanding the language, it was no wonder he got upset and tried to defend himself.”

“You cried and showed Mark how big of a softie you really were,” Jinyoung teases as he heard about the story.

Of how Jaebum instantly followed after Mark and the second he saw the omega was crying, he got down on his hands and knees crying with an apology of his own.

“I felt even more of a tug on my heart when Mark revealed he was actually an omega!” Jaebum voices as Mark had come into JYP posed as an alpha.

It was no wonder Mark attached to Jackson so fast as he was the first alpha he could understand and understood him back.

Jinyoung remained silent as he could see it on the alpha’s face as he’s working things out in his mind. Waiting to hear his thoughts as he voices him a moment later,

“Because of the company making Mark hide himself, and the way people would mistreat him and judge him simply because of being an omega…I think it affected him more than we realized.”

Both recall how it was hard for Mark to open up when they all first met. How quiet and in the background he would be. Hesitant, shy and scared at times to say or do things. But slowly, over time, he would show in actions that he wanted to get closer. That he wanted to be a part of the group and cared about them. And it took them a while to realize that Mark must’ve been scared to accidentally reveal himself or ruin things for the group if his secret came out. For when Mark actually gathered the courage to tell them, it all made sense why Mark acted the way he did. That even before the company, his life was hard since birth and he’s had to adapt and do things in order to survive. Whereas betas and alphas, they’d never have gone through such situations or treatment.

But when Mark revealed what he was, they all showed him that he was still one of the group and that would never change. Even encouraging him to show more of himself regardless of the company. And it got them to show more of themselves in hope that it would make Mark feel more comfortable. It actually helped them all to be them even if the company was against a lot of their ideas, fashion, styles, taste, etc. They didn’t stop and Mark opened up more and more where he ended up telling fans he was an omega despite JYP telling him not to. And yes, it affected a lot of things but they got through it together.

“It’s what jump started you into looking into legal action with the group,” Jinyoung says and Jaebum nodded,

“I always want you guys to be you and the company was hindering that as we were growing. And finding out that they wanted Mark to hide himself when we all originally thought it was Mark who wasn’t ready…I couldn’t hold back any longer. I wanted to set us free so I did everything I could to make it happen…”

“And you did,” Jinyoung reaches over to squeeze his shoulder in appreciation, “When it was time to renew our contracts and JYP didn’t want all of us or would listen to our proposals, you fought to buy our trademark.”

Jaebum was still beating himself up as it’s written clearly on his face,

“But Mark is still suffering…”

He thought things were looking up. Seeing the other members branching out with their solo activities and finally able to truly be themselves. And it seemed that way with Mark too but then over time…things became distant with them and he assumed it was due to trying to adjust to their new lives. To all the schedules and time differences, to opportunities and then his military service.

Yet knowing now…seeing how bad Mark’s mental health is right now…

He’s still trapped in the company he left years ago.

Still trapped in what this cruel world has put him through as society doesn’t pertain well to omegas.

Jaebum sounds like he’s about to cry when he says,

“He got so scared at being caught close to me that he started hyperventilating, Jinyoung. It was just Yugyeom and he reacted like that.”

It’s still so vivid in his mind and it makes his heart ache painfully,

“I wanted to help him so badly but I only made it worse. It was only when Mark called Jackson that he was able to breathe…”

Jaebum stops at a stoplight and has to close his eyes to try and will the pain to stop.

“So Youngjae tells me how Mark got drunk and wants to get closer but can’t…” Jinyoung is picking up on what Jaebum was saying,

“But Jackson wouldn’t---” Jinyoung starts before Jaebum opens his eyes and looks at him with such an expression,

“He knows, Jinyoung. He knew and didn’t tell us anything. Not only that, but it’s just me. He wants to get closer to me but he’s not allowed for some reason. So why? Did Jackson find out that I was in love with Mark?!”

“How am I supposed to know that?! I never told anyone your secret and this doesn’t sound like something Jackson would do---” Jinyoung throws back and Jaebum vents it all out.

“Love makes you do crazy things. You’ve told me before how you’d think Jackson would want to keep a male relationship on the down low. If he’s in love with Mark, then he must’ve found out how I felt. And because of that and the recent events, I…I think Jackson has been keeping Mark away from me on purpose,” Jaebum declares as his emotions are haywire and Jinyoung can’t help how he reacts.

He did it instinctively that it honestly shocks both of them when it happens.

When he slapped Jaebum right across the face…

It stills both before they hear cars honk their horns as the light has been green.

They’re both panting from getting worked up before Jaebum tries to focus on driving. Silence filled the car as their emotions came crashing down.

It’s not until Jaebum pulls over entirely and puts the car in park that he hears Jinyoung speak,

“I’m sorry.”

“Honestly, I’m surprised you didn’t punch me,” Jaebum lets out as he puts a hand over his face to hide the raw emotions.

Both their alpha instincts were going haywire but were slowly calming down as they valued each other’s relationship better than that.

“I get how it looks and I want…I want to say that it can’t be true. For there’s a reason Mark is like this and until we know everything, we can’t be fully sure,” Jinyoung tries to put together a logical response.

He’s supposed to remain level headed when their leader can’t. But when it came to Jackson and this situation…

“But it’s a possibility and you can’t deny that they’re most likely in a relationship,” Jaebum states as it’s also a logical explanation.

“What good will it do, Jaebum? So what if they are?” Jinyoung lets out in defeat as it’s breaking his heart all over again.

Jinyoung looks over at Jaebum when he says it. As Jaebum’s hand comes down and those eyes were still passionate as ever,

“A part of me wants to fight for Mark’s heart, while the other part knows I need to let him go.”

He wants Mark to be happy and healthy regardless of his own happiness.

“But if Jackson is mistreating him---”

“Jaebum---” Jinyoung warns but the alpha doesn’t stop,

“If he’s keeping Mark from me, I’m not going to let it go,” He finishes and he means it.

That fire and determination is clear as day in those passionate eyes as Jaebum isn’t a strong, good leader for nothing.

“What do you plan on doing?” Jinyoung needs to know as things were going to get chaotic for sure.

As he might need to actually whoop the alpha’s ass back in line.

“Until I see Jackson face to face, I’m going to show Mark he can be himself around me. And whatever happens during and after talking with Jackson, I’m not going to stop showing Mark.”

“And what if this causes a rift in the group? Your relationship with Jackson---” Jinyoung tries but Jaebum’s alpha is right at the surface,

“Stop defending him as if he’s completely innocent. If he’s hurting Mark and keeping him from healing and being happy, then there’s no relationship to be saved between him and me.”

Jinyoung finds it hard to swallow down the next words but he does. As subconsciously he knows Jackson knows something. And if he really is involved in such a way that it’s hurting Mark like this…

Maybe Jackson has been changing into a different man since they left JYP…

They’ve all noticed him drinking more often than not and he’d always brush them off or change the subject if they bring it up.

Yet Jinyoung still wants to believe it’s still the same Jackson that they know and love. And Jackson would never do anything to harm any of the group members like so. Never intentionally either.

“Ok, but we need to keep the others out of it until we know for certain.”

Jaebum goes to say something but Jinyoung levels him with a look,

“Until we know one hundred percent and talk with Jackson. Which, I want to be present for,” Jinyoung cuts him off and keeps going, “I’m all for showing Mark to be himself and I wish I could be there right now to help do it. Our main priority is helping Mark through this. So focus on that while I handle getting Jackson here where we can all sit down and talk about it.”

Jaebum juts out his chin as he’s still worked up but listening to Jinyoung’s words, he knows it’s what should be done. Even though the alpha wants to fix everything now and lay it all out in the open and do what needs to be done so they can all heal and move onward.

He knows life doesn’t work out that way.

“Besides, you need to have this talk with a level head because flashing your eyes at me tells me you’re way too hot headed right now to properly hear anything Jackson would have to say.”

It’s true and it makes Jaebum realize before trying to calm down.

“I’m sorry…It’s just with Mark I---”

“I know. Trust me, I know,” Jinyoung relents too as he gets it.

He’s in the same boat as Jaebum.

Jaebum deflates and looks like a drenched feline and Jinyoung reacts with a sad smile,

“You’re not the only one beating themselves up not knowing Mark has been going through this. But we know now and we can help him. We just have to go at his pace.”

“I just hope he’ll let me touch him. To hug him again at least…Hearing him cry like he did last night and the way he clung to me, Jinyoung…”

Jaebum doesn’t have to finish his sentence as Jinyoung knows it’s tearing the alpha apart that Mark is hurting.

“You need to go back to him before he thinks you left because of him.”

Jaebum’s look of shock lets Jinyoung know that the alpha didn’t think of that,

“Shit!” He curses as he’s already trying to pull back on the road.

Jinyoung can’t help but chuckle at his leader being a dork right now.

“It hasn’t been that long and I’m sure Youngjae and Yugyeom have been keeping him preoccupied---”

Speaking of, Jinyoung finds his phone ringing. He pulls it out of his pocket and finds it’s from Youngjae,

“See,” He lets out as he answers the phone and puts it on speaker, “Hello Youngjae,”

He’s expecting Youngjae’s cheerful voice but instead it’s in a panic,

“Uh, guys where are you at? Tell me you’re nearby.”

Why does Youngjae sound so concerned like something major was happening?

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“What’s happening? Is Mark ok?” Jaebum’s voice comes through as he needs to know.

All while he’s definitely speeding after flooring it back into drive and onto the road. He might’ve even done an illegal u-turn but Jinyoung doesn’t bring that up.

“He’s um…well it’s about him actually,” Youngjae sounds nervous as if he doesn’t know how to bring up the topic.

“And?” Jinyoung is encouraging Youngjae to keep going as Jaebum was driving recklessly.

“Yugyeom and I don’t know what to do! You two left so suddenly and then when we went to check up on him, he was coming out of your bathroom looking for you. I don’t know what to tell him. We don’t even fully understand what happened much less had the time to fully process what took place---”

Youngjae stops as the three can pick up on Yugyeom’s voice in the background,

“No no, everything is fine. Youngjae is getting in contact with him as we speak.”

What the hell is going on? Who else is there at Jaebum’s apartment?

“Youngjae, who is Yugyeom talking to?” Jinyoung questions as now his nerves were rising.

Did Jackson randomly show up? No, it couldn’t be. He was in China just this morning…

“Ok, so I can totally see where you got your kidnapping tendencies from Jaebum hyung---”

Kidnapping?

“What is that supposed to mean?! Mark is in danger?!” Jaebum doesn’t even hesitate to run that red light.

“We’re not going to be any help if we’re dead!” Jinyoung gets onto him.

Though when Jaebum tries to slow down a little bit, Jinyoung is smacking his leg and ushering him to hurry it up. Especially as Mark’s life depended on it.

“No, he’s safe! But your parents decided to surprise you and you aren’t here!” He’s finally able to get out, “And while Yugyeom and I are scrambling to find an explanation to your sudden disappearance, Mark is being a good distraction for them. Except now your parents are trying to leave with Mark.”

“They can’t take Mark away!” Jaebum declares as he turns a corner sharply.

Jinyoung braces against the door frame, “How upset are they?”

Jaebum's parents are just as passionate as the alpha. So you do not want to upset them.

As if on cue, they can hear Youngjae let out a surprised gasp before a mother’s tone is heard,

“Lim Jaebeom! You better be getting your ass home right now! I raised you better than this to just get up and leave when you have guests in your home!”

It was Momma Lim and she was not happy.

“There’s not even food in your fridge for them to eat breakfast! And you didn’t tell me that Mark was staying over! I haven’t seen my American son in so long and you were going to hog him all to yourself?!”

“But Mom I’m almost back---” Jaebum whines before she cuts him off.

“Now, Jaebeom! Before your father and I have him stay over at our home. He doesn’t even have but two days worth of clothes! Who packed his bag?”

It seems she’s more upset than just at her son.

Wait, how did she know that? Was Mark trying to leave personally?

Jaebum reaches the parking lot of his apartment complex before he’s throwing it in park,

“I’m coming right now!” Jaebum declares as he barely turns the car off before flinging the driver’s door open.

Jinyoung is shocked and yet amused at the same time as the alpha was running as if his life depended on it.

“He’ll be at the door in less than one minute,” Jinyoung tells her before he’s getting out of the car himself…

Jaebum doesn’t even get to the door before it’s opening and oh god, here comes his father---

“I have a good reason, Dad, I swear---” Jaebum lets out as if he’s thrown back in his teenage years.

But all he finds is his father hugging him, “My boy…” Vector voices as he clasps the alpha’s back in a loving hug.

Oh, so maybe he was overreacting a bit…

Jaebum relaxes in his father’s hold as it has been a long while since he’s seen his parents.

“I’m back,” He says as you can hear in his voice how his father can still affect him no matter how old he gets.

Vector pulls back with a smile, his hands moving to clasp Jaebum’s shoulders, before his smile turns into a stern expression,

“I’m happy you’re back son, but we need to have a talk about what we walked into.”

Jaebum has a hard time swallowing as yep, here it is---

“I apologize Sir. I came unannounced and needed to talk to Jaebum about a private matter. I even dragged him out without thinking about it as my time is limited,” Jinyoung’s voice comes to save the day.

Jaebum gives Jinyoung a look of so much appreciation as thankfully his back is turned so his father doesn’t see it.

Jinyoung comes closer as Vector doesn’t hesitate to pull him into a hug too,

“Aren’t you still doing military service?”

They pull back and Jinyoung nods, “I am. I actually managed to convince the sarge to let me have some time before having to head back soon and make up for it.”

“It’s good to see you, how much time do you have left?”

This was Jaebum’s chance to head inside and he did, his first thought going to Mark.

“Mark,” Jaebum calls out with urgency as he heads right into the living room where he hears the others.

Yugyeom and Mark perk up at hearing Jaebum before seeing the alpha enter the room.

“Yoh…” Yugyeom starts but is interrupted as the alpha doesn't stop moving.

As he went straight to Mark the second they locked eyes. Pulling the omega up and into his arms for a tight hug.

“Bummie?” It comes out instinctively and it makes the alpha let out a vulnerable sound,

“Don’t leave,” He pleads and it goes straight to Mark’s heart.

“I’m sorry for walking out but I was frustrated that I couldn’t help you. I wanted to help you so badly but I was only making it worse. So I forced myself to walk away for a moment to give you space.”

Jaebum pours his heart out with his expression that is so raw. If only Mark could see it like the others could as the rest enter the living room.

“It hurts to see you like that so please stay and show me ways I can help. Teach me so I can be of use like Jackson. For I want you to be you…”

Jaebum’s breath hitches at the end as he can only imagine what Mark must be enduring on his own. As he’s only been able to see a glimpse of it and knows the omega is hurting so much.

It makes him cry, his face burying into the crook of Mark’s neck as the tears keep flowing and he apologies,

“I’m sorry…I’m so sorry…”

He’s sorry that they didn’t know the full extent of his mistreatment within the company.

He’s sorry that they didn’t find out until way later about it.

He’s sorry that he thought things were getting better.

He’s sorry for failing Mark as his leader.

He just hopes he’s not too late to be able to make things right. To make up for it and help Mark properly heal. To be there for him now in his time of need.

Jaebum is saying all of this through his tears and it has Mark emotional too. Clinging back to those broad shoulders as he’s crying along with him.

“No…you’re a great leader…you’re the best I…it’s me…I’m the one who is sorry…I…please don’t cry…I’ll stay alpha…I want to stay…”

He wants to tell Jaebum so much but the words keep getting stuck in his throat due to the tears. But he can show it through action. So he holds on, burying his face against the alpha’s chest and doesn't let go. The two cry it out before Jinyoung can’t hold back anymore and comes to hug them both. Prompting Yugyeom and Youngjae to stop holding back as they do the same.

They’re going to get through this together..

They just have to ride out this wave…

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“Trust me, Mom. Whatever he needs, I’m going to provide for him,” Jaebum says without hesitation while talking on the phone with his Mother.

It’s getting late into the night after they had such a busy day.

“No, he’s taking a bath right now…I know…” Jaebum keeps the conversation going as he stands outside on the balcony of his apartment.

Even though he’s alone, he still keeps his voice low so no prying ears can hear.

“I’m in the process of learning what’s going on but I want to go at his pace. I want him to be able to open up to me,” He continues before his Mother is talking on the other end.

Jaebum paces lightly back and forth, his one hand running up and into his hair while he holds the phone against his ear with his other hand,

“I’m relieved that he wants to stay…I don’t even want to think about if he hadn’t come…”

Because then he wouldn’t have known that Mark was suffering.

Jaebum stops moving as he takes in his Mother’s words before saying,

“If he tries to leave and I can’t stop him then I’ll go after him. It doesn’t matter, Mom. I’ll put my life on hold for him just like I would do the same for the others in the group.”

You can hear the leader coming out of him. You can hear it in his voice how passionate he is about his band members. And though his Mother might not know his feelings involving Mark, she knows how much he cares about the omega.

“I know, son, that’s why I’m telling you to let your Father and I help. You’ve been telling me to keep things civil with JYPE and we have. You worked hard and were able to take legal proceedings to buy the trademark and everything is slowly being transferred over to all seven of you as we speak. And though I still firmly believe we should take action against them for such mistreatment, we’ve respected your guy’s wishes. But Mark really needs help, honey. I can look into some programs that could help improve his mental health as well as having everyone remind him of how much he’s truly loved and a blessing to be here. He’s such a sweet boy and I know you want to try and heal him with only your love and guidance, but that’s not going to stop your Father and I from showing our love and support too.”

“But Mom,” Jaebum whines passionately.

“Expect us to stop by more often and check in. Schedules or not, we love the both of you. Besides, your Father couldn’t help himself and already ordered a care package gift that’ll be sent to your home by tomorrow for Mark.”

It seems his parents are still upset over the fact that Mark barely packed anything on his trip here. And he knows that she wants more answers but Jaebum can’t honestly give her anything that he doesn’t know. Yes, he may have an idea involving Jackson but he’s listening to Jinyoung’s words and not saying anything until he knows for sure. And yes, he knows Mark came to Korea to see him and found out that he came alone, but not even he knew that the omega only packed for like two days with no plan. He just found out about what was in his bag this morning so he definitely wants to talk to Mark about it. But again, he wants to go at Mark’s pace. He’s just happy that Mark came to him.

That Mark can be safe and sound with him…

“I’ll take him out to get some clothes and things he needs, Mom, I got this,” He reassures and he means it.

Though he knows his parents mean well and are just as passionate and loving as he is. Not to mention, once you get Vivian’s momma instincts going, there’s no stopping her.

“You’re lucky, because I was so tempted to snatch him up when I found you weren't there. You better never leave that poor boy alone again.”

“I won’t,” Jaebum replies back in a soft tone.

“Good, now go love on that boy some more. I want to see happy and smiling photos and videos soon on social media.”

“I plan on it,” Jaebum says before they exchange a few more words and he tells her goodnight.

Putting his phone away, the alpha releases a breath and just stares up at the night sky.

Today clearly affected all of them. Where after the group hug, they all hung out for a bit with Vector going out to pick up breakfast for everyone. And then when Jinyoung had to leave to go back, Yugyeom and Youngjae went too as they had schedules to attend to and Mark didn’t want them to cancel those. They were reluctant to leave but they didn’t want to upset Mark more. So the three left together with Yugyeom taking Jinyoung back on his way. Before his parents told the two of them to go get ready. And that’s how they ended up spending the day with his parents. Where none of them brought up the topics that might trigger Mark as they just wanted to get him out of the house and enjoy himself. To remind him of the good memories he had here in Korea.

To remind him that his loved ones were here and that this was his home too…

It was nice, at least Jaebum is hoping it was the same for Mark.

As he hopes he’ll be able to help Mark let go and be himself again…

“Mark?” Jaebum calls out as he shuts the balcony door behind him.

He’s met with soft R & B music playing in the living room. He had turned it on earlier to help Mark relax as he took a bubble bath. It’s not too loud though that Mark wouldn’t be able to hear him over it, so he expected to get some sort of reply. Instead he doesn’t get any and what’s even stranger is that none of the cats came to greet him.

Hmm?

Instinctively, he’s already been pulled to go find Mark. Wanting to make sure that he was ok as he made it into the hall. He’s about to call out again when he notices that the guest bedroom door was open. There’s no light on either that would indicate Mark’s presence so where might he be?

The bathroom door was open with no light on too so he’s obviously not there. And he knows he wasn’t in the kitchen. So the only other two places would be his little studio area or---

Jaebum turns to face his bedroom door that he finds is cracked and that the light was on.

Oh? Did he forget something in here from this morning?

Curious, Jaebum knocks on his own door before opening it, Mark’s name about to come out when he stops at the sight before him.

Of Mark passed out asleep on his bed with his cats surrounding him…

Fuck, this was too cute!

Instantly, Jaebum has to take some photos and posts them in the group chat before putting his phone away.

Did Mark fall asleep waiting to talk to him? Or can the alpha think that maybe the omega was comforted by his scent?

He shouldn’t but it’s hard when Mark was looking so precious in his bed.

Fuck, he needs to remain in control and not pounce here.

He does move closer though as the day’s events go over in his mind. As he tells himself he’s only going to lay down next to him for a few before he’ll take the guest bedroom. But at this moment, he needs this so he can properly calm down and relax. Reminding himself that he can do something now that Mark is here and wanting to stay.

He also can’t help but be pulled back down memory lane. Where he ended up sleeping in Mark’s bed as the omega’s scent has always drawn him in and comforted him.

Does it do the same for Mark with his scent?

“I want to be closer to you than Jackson…” Jaebum can’t help but whisper out his thoughts.

For so long he’s been holding back. Keeping his feelings and thoughts to himself as he didn’t want to ruin what he had with Mark. As the company had been so strict with the no dating rule and he didn’t want to chance losing Mark or what the group had been working so hard for. As Mark came all the way from America to follow his dreams and passions. He wouldn’t have forgiven himself if he got the omega kicked out of the group because of his own feelings. And Jaebum loved and cared about Mark more than his own happiness. So he kept it to himself. Thinking that maybe these emotions and feelings will change but it only became stronger the more they grew together.

But that didn’t mean Mark felt the same and that was another reason he never told the omega his feelings. Because he’s most likely like a brother; a best friend to Mark and admitting feelings could ruin their relationship entirely. Even if the public didn’t know.

Yet now Mark and Jackson might actually be a thing? For how long? Before they left JYPE? After? It hurts to think that Jackson could be holding his whole world in his hands and didn’t even know it.

And it makes it harder to hold back…

Jaebum’s fingers reach out to brush along Mark’s cheek. The omega is still asleep as the alpha’s expression is so raw and vulnerable.

His alpha instincts make him want to act and take Mark away from Jackson. To show him that he is loved in more ways than one. To tell him everything he wished he could’ve said since day one of meeting Mark. That he can treat him better; love him back to himself. That he wants Mark to stay by his side forever. That he’d do anything for him.

He wants to be Mark’s alpha…

But like before, Jaebum holds back. So much was at stake and he didn’t want to scare the omega away. So he swallows the words back down. He takes a moment to just bask in Mark’s scent and aura.

And he ends up falling asleep with his hand gently gracing Mark’s so the omega will know that he’s here.

That he’s always been here…

When Mark wakes up it’s a bit hazy. He’s met with the light still on in the bedroom but the window outside alerts him that it’s still dark. Even more so, he can hear R&B music playing in the background softly.

Hmm? Why did he wake up?

Was it the need to pee? No, that wasn’t it. Especially not as he finds himself warm and comfortable. As a mint chocolate scent surrounded him and trying to lure him back to sleep---

Suddenly arms wrap around him tighter before the omega finds himself being pulled back against a solid chest. It wakes Mark up fully now as he realizes he’s not alone in the bed. That the cats have even disappeared and Mark is now taking in that he’s not only in Jaebum’s bed.

That Jaebum and him are snuggling…

Oh, how it makes his heart thump so fast. As Mark starts to wiggle out of shyness until he freezes---

Jaebum was hard, like rock hard.

Mark sucks in air as a blush begins to form.

What does he do?! The alpha is still asleep and it just has to be morning wood. Every healthy male gets it. And the Got7 members are known to get clingy in their sleep. But how does he get out of this situation?

Should he wake up the alpha or wait until he lets go subconsciously?

Mark is debating on what to do when he suddenly feels Jaebum grinding against him.

Oh fuck---

Mark gasps, his hands clutching the sheets as the alpha does it again.

“Bummie---ah!” The omega moans as a kiss is suddenly pressed at the back of his nape above his collar.

Warmth spreads through him, his body lighting up pleasantly from the alpha layering another kiss. And another, all while his hips keep up this slow grind.

There’s no way, there’s just no way that this was real. He must be having another one of his wet dreams for there’s no way that Jaebum was---

“Alpha!” Mark continues to moan, his thoughts cut off as it’s filling with pleasure.

As the omega’s body was reacting to the alpha. Where he’s about to slip right into his omega headspace if he isn’t careful…

Jaebum doesn’t say anything but he’s body is doing all the talking. His mouth kissing, biting, nipping and marking where he can reach. His hands moving to keep a hold of Mark, but also to rile him up further. A hand slipping up his shirt to feel the skin underneath. Groaning near his ear when he can pick up on Mark’s scent spiking so sweetly.

Mark swears that Jaebum gets even harder…

“Bummie please…ah! Why?...Nnn! I can’t…” Mark whimpers as his mind keeps blanking.

As he doesn’t understand why this was suddenly happening out of the blue. And why won’t the alpha answer him?

Dream or not, Mark still has that fear in the back of his mind and it makes him try to get away. But the alpha doesn’t want him to leave apparently, as soon Mark finds himself being manhandled onto his back with the alpha hovering above him and---

The alpha collapses on top of him, Mark letting out a verbal, ‘oof’ sound as the wind is knocked out of him. Like what the fuck is happening here---

All for a light snoring to be heard next into his ear.

Wait…it can’t be…can it?

Was Jaebum sleep walking or some shit?!

Mark’s heart continues to thump away as sure enough, the alpha is dead asleep to the world. Not even aware of what he had done. To make matters worse, Mark is now horny, confused and becoming a mess. All while Jaebum still has a boner while asleep on top of him!

What does one do in such a situation?!

Well getting away is not an option as arms go to wrap him right back up and now the omega was stuck in such a position. So Mark can only going over in his mind of what just happened and how was he supposed to act normal the next day?!

But hey! At least it saves him the embarrassment since the alpha remained asleep for the rest of the night. Mark only knows this because he couldn’t go back to sleep until the early morning.

And boy he was not happy to be woken up by their phones going off from the group chat…

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“No!” Mark whines cutely as he yanks the covers up and over his head.

The force rolls Jaebum away from him and abruptly wakes the alpha up.

Huh?

Jaebum sits up after having a good night sleep and stretches. His lips smacking together before he opens his eyes and takes in that the light was still on and, oh, is his R&B music still playing in the background?

Shit, that meant he fell asleep last night when he swore he was only going to lay there for a few minutes.

Another ding is heard from both their phones and Mark whines again,

“Make it stop,” Mark sounds on the verge of tears.

Did he not get much sleep? Because the omega gets like this when he’s cranky.

Jaebum is quick to find his phone so he can look into the group chat. He finds that they’ve all commented at different times about the photos he posted of Mark asleep with his cats. But now they seem to all have time to talk about a different topic,

Bam: Why do I have to miss out on all the chaos?

Youngjae: Are you jealous or something?

Jackson: What did I miss out on?!

Yugyeom: You only missed out on our group hug, eating together and Jinyoung making a surprise visit just to see Mark

Bam: I know! That’s why I’m sad! T-T

Jackson: I missed all of that in a span of hours?! >:(

Jinyoung: Someone is definitely upset.

Jackson: Hello! First I miss out on surprising Mark and then group activities?! And those photos! I’m jealous.

Bam: I’m already scheduling a flight back in two days, don’t tempt me to make it today.

Youngjae: It wasn’t really planned Jackson, it just kind of worked out that way.

Yugyeom: Yeah!

Jackson: No, no, I see how it is. If I must suffer, so do you guys so here, have photos of Mark and I

*inserts several photos of the two together. As well as ones that you can tell Jackson was behind taking the photos. For some of them were of Mark curled up on the alpha’s couch or in the omega’s own bed/hotel room. Even one of the after party from Coachella as they rode in Jackson’s vehicle.

The wave of jealousy came on fast, making Jaebum frown down at the phone. As well as prompting his chance to butt in,

Jaebum: This isn’t a competition you know. Besides, Mark is trying to sleep here.

You would think this would alert the others to quiet down but nope, they only get louder with multiple dings taking place at the same time.

Bam: Our leader is back with the land of the living!

Yugyeom: How come Mark is still sleeping?

Jinyoung: He literally fell asleep before you. What did you do?

Youngjae: Could he not stay asleep?

Jackson: My Yien! He must be letting out cute cranky noises as we speak.

Jackson wasn’t lying as Mark let out several noises from underneath the burrito pile that the omega had created.

“I’m sorry, Mark,” Jaebum apologizes as he gets up to turn off the light and head towards the living room.

Jaebum: I mean it, don’t make me have to put you guys on silent notifications.

Bam: Not our leader getting all alpha on us. ;P

Yugyeom: You would say that Bam

Bam: What is that supposed to mean? ><

Youngjae: Your threats are invalid over text.

Jinyoung: Don’t make me come back over there…

Jackson: Not if I get there first!

Jinyoung: When do you plan on coming back to Korea, Jackson?

Jaebum manages to turn off the music playing in the living room as the silence takes over for a second. Where his emotions catch in his throat from reading what Jinyoung wrote. How it’s already trying to make his hackles rise as he recalls their conversation yesterday. About how this involved Jackson in some way.

Jinyoung was being subtle about it but Jaebum knows he’s trying to figure out more information. So that they can eventually confirm or deny the allegations against the alpha.

But if he’s really involved with Mark being like this…

Jaebum’s eyes flash before he can get a grip on himself.

Jackson: Soon, even sooner if Mark needs me.

Well that answer was vague and didn’t help anyone.

Jaebum lets out a frustrated sigh before he can hear,

“Bummie.”

It has the alpha whipping his head up and looking to find the omega standing in the doorway to the hallway. Still wrapped up in the covers as his head peeks out,

“S’cold, snuggle,” Mark demands as his omega instincts are at the surface.

Where it’s harder to fight them when sleep deprived and the band members know it can go two ways with the omega. He’ll either become super clingy and cuddly. Or he’ll be feisty and L.A. gangster in a matter of seconds.

Fuck, Mark is too adorable right now. Especially as the cats are surrounding Mark in constant circles as they want his love and attention. Probably to also be fed but they can wait another minute as the alpha needs to tend to the omega.

“Come here,” Jaebum beckons softly as he already has his arms open to welcome him closer.

Where Mark waddles towards him and soon the alpha is pulling him into his arms faster. The omega lets out a pleased noise as he doesn’t hesitate to climb the alpha like a tree. Reminding Jaebum of a kitten and it has him cooing away.

His heart melted as he missed moments like this with Mark. The warmth spreading in his chest that he’s able to experience it again. That Mark wasn’t holding back.

The group chat may be going off still but Mark has his full attention as he holds the omega with ease,

“Shall we go back to my bed or to the couch nearby?”

Mark buries his face against the alpha’s neck as he clings to those broad shoulders,

“Just you…only need you…” Mark gets out as he snuggles up against such warmth.

Practically purring from the mint chocolate scent surrounding him.

Jaebum’s heart skips a beat before pounding strongly. Oh how Mark doesn’t even realize how much those words affect him! How much he’s been craving to hear those words spoken to him by the omega.

The alpha has to sit down on the couch before his legs give out from malfunctioning. The cats come to climb all over the couch meowing away, but Jaebum can’t look away from the cute bundle in his arms.

“Who do you like to snuggle up with the most?” Jaebum can’t help but ask.

He knows he’s pushing his luck but if Mark is like this, then maybe he can get more information out of him. For even like this, Mark isn’t going to make up words. He’s truthful and more himself as he lets all of him come out to the surface.

“I like to snuggle with all the members,” Mark starts as he’s fighting sleep, “But Bummie has always been my favorite secretly.”

Jaebum’s whole expression shows his reaction to those words. Where he can’t help himself and his hand comes up to remove stray hair from his face. His fingers gracing the side of Mark’s face with the need to touch him,

“Why did you stop then?” Jaebum wondered as they used to snuggle all the time when they shared a room.

But then they ended up switching with the members and he ended up sharing a room with Youngjae for a bit. As well as Mark and Jackson sharing a room then. All before they eventually got their own apartments…

“Not allowed,” Is all Mark says before he’s falling back asleep.

Jaebum’s heart tugs painfully at hearing that Mark felt he wasn’t allowed.

Because of JYP? Because of the staff and company rules?

Because of being an omega?

Or Because of Jackson?

Jaebum keeps Mark close, holding him as he was so precious to him. All before he gets the urge to show Mark that it was ok. That he hopes this will help Mark be more of himself. To not hesitate when he wants to do something. So with that thought in mind, he picks up his phone and takes a photo of him to send into the group chat. He wanted to post it on social media but baby steps. For now, he wants Mark to know it’s ok to show this around the others.

But that one alpha part of him wanted to challenge Jackson.

To let him know that he won’t back off even if he asks him too.

Still, he refrains from commenting on anything that might set Jackson off. Though just posting this photo might do it unintentionally.

All he puts in caption of the photo is,

Jaebum: Got him to fall back asleep.

Instantly, they members all commented,

Bam: I was wondering when he’d come snuggle. I miss those times :D

Yugyeom: Too cute! Hyung, let's snuggle next time!

Youngjae: My heart! Me too!

Jinyoung: He needs to do this more often so he can sleep. I don’t mind getting yelled at by Sarg if Mark wants to snuggle.

Jaebum waits to see if Jackson will reply but for some reason, he doesn’t.

Even as the day goes, he doesn’t. It seems suspicious but then again, Jackson’s break could’ve been over. It’s happened in the group chat before where they’d just come back where they left off before or hop onto a new topic. Or just comment about their day when they can before hopping onto the next plane or schedule.

But it didn’t help that feeling growing inside of Jaebum…

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When Mark wakes up later in the afternoon, he finds he’s no longer snuggling with the alpha on the couch. The alpha is still nearby though because the first thing he sees when his eyes open is Jaebum. Of the alpha in professional mode as he’s talking on the phone to someone and has his reading glasses on.

Fuck, he’s so handsome…

“No, I appreciate it very much. You guys have been so understanding from the start and now that my military service ended, you’re still giving me time to adjust before hopping back into my schedules.”

Oh that’s right, Jaebum had his own life and here he was in the way---

“Let me know what Mark’s company says. If there’s any problems, I would like to speak to them directly. But I’m hoping that by letting him do what he wants to do freely with the contract he signed, then working and collaborating with me should be plausible. It’s why we chose the companies we did so that anytime we could come back together with group projects, everything would run smoothly.”

Mark’s heart skips a beat from Jaebum being so damn caring. How the alpha didn’t hesitate to go right into leader mode again and take on responsibilities of his band members when he didn’t have to anymore.

It also didn’t help that Jaebum turns from where he was talking in the kitchen and notices Mark looking at him. The alpha throwing him that smirk that has Mark’s heart rate skyrocketing before he’s ducking back underneath the covers.

The cats all scatter while Jaebum eventually ends the call and now Mark can hear footsteps coming closer,

“I know you’re awake, Mark,” Jaebum chuckles softly as the bundle of covers curls up against the back of the couch.

The alpha comes to sit down next to him as he waits patiently and sure enough he can hear,

“You can’t keep looking at me with your intense gaze,” Though it’s said so quietly that Jaebum had to lean in to hear.

“Why? Does it scare you?”

He knows at first glance, his expressions and stature alone can feel quite intimidating. But once you got to know him, you knew he was a giant softie at heart.

“No, I’ve been comfortable around you for years now,” Mark answers truthfully as he doesn’t want Jaebum to think the wrong thing.

He hasn’t been scared of Jaebum since they first met and the alpha cried for him.

“Then why do you continue to hide?” Jaebum asks gently as he wants to know more about what the omega is feeling.

What his thoughts are and be a part of his world again.

“Cause I’m afraid of me…”

Of what he might do or say if he lets all of him come out to the surface.

Hearing those words pull at Jaebum’s heart.

“Your schedules, you should start them when you want to. I don’t want to hold you back,” Mark continues as he bites his lip out of nerves.

As he fiddles with his hands and looks down at a spot on the couch despite still being hidden by the covers.

“But I want to start them with you,” Jaebum says with such emotion.

Mark reacts to those words as you can hear it in his voice as he tries to contain himself,

“But I’m me…I’m an omega---” His voice cracks as he’s opening up more.

“I know and I want you to continue being you---” He tries to coax the omega gently.

“JYPE didn’t want me to release that information to the public. And I know you guys tried to hide it…But I knew it was the reason they didn’t want to renew the contract with me and you guys---” His voice was rising with emotion.

“Mark please, I don’t want you to blame yourself for that,” Jaebum cuts him off softly as Mark was getting worked up.

As he can’t hold back and needs Mark to look at him for what he says next. So he carefully pulls the covers back to reveal the broken omega underneath. Those eyes looking so lost and scared; almost defeated.

“We all want you to be you. From day one, we all promised to be ourselves no matter what happened in becoming an idol and even after becoming one. It was a promise to ourselves, to each other and our fans. So the fact that you felt you had to sacrifice that due to what the company believed was best, none of us wanted that. We would’ve done so much differently if we had known, if I had known. It’s why we tried so hard to get them to see it from our point of view. And why we all walked out together as JYPE didn’t believe all of our colors would be successful to their standards of the Kpop world. But look at us now. We’re still here, we’re still going. We’re still together. Companies took us in, they understood us. The fans are still here and waiting. We’re reshaping the Kpop world and proving to everyone that we’re still making it.”

They’re still getting sponsors and schedules. They’re still getting acting roles, interviews, contracts, modeling agencies contacting them. They’re doing solo concerts and traveling and being able to do their own thing without having to hold back. Even getting to collab with other artists that they’ve always wanted to collab with. They’ve gained so much through the hardships and yet Mark seems to have taken so many steps backwards as time went on. As if he was pulled right back in to the time at JYPE.

“That’s the reason though!” Mark starts before stopping and trying to start again before letting out a hurt noise.

As he looks like he’s about to break down and is still holding back. As he can’t risk his emotions and feelings coming out that it chances in ruining everything of Got7. So it’s better to hide himself. To push this part of him deeper inside and lock it up.

In order to protect Got7…

In order to keep his relationships with them…

“I was me but not my second gender. And we ended up leaving JYPE shortly after it went public of what I really am. So I can’t…I can’t help but think of how we grew as Got7 and rose into being idols under a fake second gender. If we would’ve still been able to obtain the things we did if I had come out as an omega since the beginning.”

Of the chances; of JYPE even signing him on. Omegas are considered the lowest status even in a rich setting. And there’s still a lot of hate and prejudice against their kind. Where they don’t even get the same rights or pay as betas or alphas. Add in the world of Kpop that already mistreats idols regardless of your second gender. Where they deem what should be a perfect idol. From how you look, to how you dress, sound, act, etc. Mark is one of the first omegas to have come out and survive the Kpop industry for this long.

“Since moving back to America, every time I would lay down at night, I can’t help but think of how I almost ruined Got7. That things could’ve gone so differently and if I would’ve hurt you guys in any way I’d…” Mark has to stop as he feels the tears coming.

As it blurs his vision and it upsets him for being such a cry baby. Where he doesn’t deserve to be crying as he put his loved ones at risk. He doesn’t deserve to be this close to them. To have the life that he has…

Hands come to redirect his attention. Mark stills as he finds the alpha using his thumbs to wipe at the falling tears. All before he ends up using his sleeve and the omega lets out a sound. His eyes opening back up when Jaebum pulls away and he’s able to take in the alpha’s sincere expression,

“We’re still here,” Jaebum says as he caresses Mark’s face, “We’re still Got7. As long as the seven of us are together, that’s all we need in order to survive. So we need you, Mark. I need you. More than ever you…you’ve seen sides of me that Jinyoung hasn’t seen. You’ve listened to me vent and express myself as a leader when I had to hold it together for the group. Things that the others don’t know because I’m the leader and yet you always held open arms for me to go into without hesitation. Even when the whole time you were holding back secrets of your own for the sake of others. Your second gender shouldn’t define your worth and we’ve been trying to show the world that by being ourselves and defying what it deems acceptable in society. So it’s time to show everyone you. To find you again and let it out. Show the world Mark Tuan and know that we’re here to back you up. It’s our turn to take care of you, so please, let me do this. I want you to come with me. I want you to show me more of your omega side. I’ll even get down on my hands and knees like that one time---”

Jaebum is serious as he goes to do just that but Mark stops him. Grabbing his shoulders,

“Bummie don’t---”

The alpha moves closer, their faces mere inches apart as you can tell how much the other means to them,

“I want to hear you keep calling my name,” The alpha breathes out as Mark truly has no idea how much the omega affects him.

Mark’s heart is thumping fast, a blush rising as this feels way too intimate now. Of course the omega is imagining it to be in a romantic sense as Jaebum isn’t meaning it in that way. He means it in an endearing way as well as wanting Mark to open up more around him.

“But what if…the others…” Mark is still holding onto that part of denial before Jaebum reaches for the omega’s phone.

“Then check the group chat. We’ve been talking about you since you were sleeping and they didn’t make a scene about us cuddling.”

“You sent them a photo of us snuggling?!” Mark lets out in worry as he’s quick to unlock his phone to check.

Sure enough, as he reads over the messages, Jaebum can feel Mark relax.

“See? It’s ok. Even if you’re not ready to show the world yet, you can definitely show us,” Jaebum reassures.

Mark goes quiet as he’s taking all of this in. Of Jaebum’s words going over and over in his mind…

Suddenly, Jaebum finds himself with Mark in his lap. The omega makes himself comfortable with his back against the alpha’s chest, before holding up his phone,

“Gotta make double sure,” Mark says and Jaebum finds the omega to be so darn cute.

The alpha doesn’t hesitate to wrap his arms around Mark’s middle as he leans in close. The photo being taken before Mark is sending it in the group chat,

Mark: Bummie and I were cuddling

The omega doesn’t think the replies will be instant because of course everyone is busy with their schedules---

Several dings are heard before the two are reading,

Yugyeom: Hyung! Should I come by later so we can cuddle?

Youngjae: Yah! Stop making me jealous!

Bam: That’s it! I’m getting on a plane right now so I can have MarkBam time!

Jinyoung: Did Jaebum put you up to this? Because he knows you and I used to be the top notch cuddlers back in the day. And I don’t like that Jaebum is trying to take my spot.

Oh? Not one comment was bad. In fact, Mark can feel the group's chaotic energy and good spirit. And how encouraging they are, like they want Mark to keep doing it.

So wait, he can do things like this amongst the group?!

Mark lets out a pleased sound before doing something instinctively…

Something stupid---

Mark presses a kiss to Jaebum’s cheek while snapping the photo and posting it in the group chat.

The dings are instant as the group is jealous and wanting Mark’s love and attention…

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This feels good…too good…

Where the group doesn’t think it’s weird or out of place. Where they’re all encouraging and trying to get more reactions out of him. None of them are upset that he’s openly being himself.

Was it really ok? Or was he still dreaming?

Mark was so into the group chat, that he doesn’t realize he’s leaning into the alpha’s touch. As fingers run softly through his hair and Mark keeps letting out tiny happy sounds.

Jaebum is smiling away while having the time of his life. Loving the fact that Mark was letting his omega out naturally around him. This is how things should be, how it should’ve been from the start.

The alpha’s phone goes off from a text not in the group chat, so Jaebum pulls his hand away for a second to grab his phone. But to their surprise, Mark had followed after the alpha’s hand instinctively. The omega stilling once he realized and now the two stare at one another---

“I’m sorry,” Mark is quick to say as he ducks his head shyly.

“No, come back,” Jaebum insists as he can feel Mark trying to leave his arms.

The alpha forgoes looking at the text on his phone as he keeps the omega in his lap,

“I wasn’t done cuddling,” Jaebum urges as he holds Mark close while leaning his head on the omega’s shoulder.

“But I---”

“Please?” Jaebum asks and how can Mark resist?

Just look at how cute the alpha was! And from his bed head and unshaven face, next to those glasses he’s wearing…

Fuck, Mark has it bad for this alpha…

Several dings are heard from the group chat that has the two looking down at Mark’s phone,

Youngjae: Did Jaebum fall asleep from their cuddle session?

Yugyeom: He hasn’t been responding for a while now.

Bam: Sus!

Jinyoung: He’s most likely reading over Mark’s shoulder. Isn’t that right?

Jaebum doesn’t hesitate to take Mark’s phone,

Mark (Jaebum): How are you going to get onto me and not Jackson? He hasn’t replied since the first photo of our cuddle session.

Bam: He’s alive!

Youngjae: *inserts laughing emoji* Cause it’s fun to tease you :P

Jinyoung: And so you’ll answer and be a part of this conversation. Besides, Jackson is probably immersed in his schedule right now.

Yugyeom: Watch, he’ll suddenly post a huge butt load of texts to comment on everything he missed like he usually does. XD

Bam: Even if it’s when everyone else is sleeping. Lol

Youngjae: That’s our Jackson

“Bummie?” Mark asks as Jaebum seems to be thinking about something.

Where his expression became deep in thought. As Mark doesn’t know what Jaebum thinks might be going on between him and Jackson. And how Jaebum is starting to think that maybe he was wrong. Maybe it just has to do with JYPE and how the world had been treating Mark since he was born.

But if Jackson knew Mark was still having problems with this, why didn’t he say anything to them? Why did it feel like something else was going on here?

Another ding comes in and makes Mark let out a sound. Pulling Jaebum from his thoughts as he focuses back on Mark. And seeing the omega with a raw expression, he looks down to see what he read,

Bam: Mark, how long will you be staying for?

The others are quick to say something too, especially since they know more than Bam at the moment. Though Jaebum is sure someone will feel Bam in later,

Jinyoung: Forever

Youngjae: For as long as he wants.

Yugyeom: I’m hoping for a few months at least.

Bam: Yah! I want that too but I don’t know when his next schedule starts and I want to make sure I don’t miss this chance of seeing him.

Jaebum can feel Mark tensing as he’s becoming overwhelmed, so the alpha jumps right in,

Mark (Jaebum): We’re actually going out today to get him more clothes and essentials as he’ll be working alongside me with my schedules.

The way Mark’s head shoots up after reading that. Jaebum has to dodge as Mark’s head almost collided with his chin,

“We are? I am?”

Like they talked a bit about Mark working alongside him but Jaebum is just going to make it official? Right now?! And he doesn’t recall talking about going out in public to get him things!

Jaebum just throws in a smirk, those eyes passionate as ever,

“Yes, so go get ready.”

Oh Jaebum can play so unfair at times. Does he even know that his heart was beating so fast right now?

Jaebum might not know that Mark’s heart was beating fast, but he does know how Mark’s scent got sweeter as he reacted to him. It has the alpha leaning in to whisper,

“You have no idea how much I missed your scent.”

Mark gasps as he realizes it was leaking out so strongly. The blush rising all the way up to his ears before he’s putting his hands up into Jaebum’s face,

“Enough with the teasing,” Mark shouts before he’s getting out of the alpha’s hold and running away.

The sound of the guest room is heard closing before Jaebum is seen pouting,

“But I wasn’t teasing…”

Ok, he can do this. He literally went out yesterday with Jaebum and his parents. So everything should be fine.

Except it’ll just be them two. No, it should be fine. They’re in the same band, come on, Mark. People won’t think anything of it. They think you’re just visiting and hanging out with one of your best friends. Someone who should be like a brother to him.

This wasn’t a date, so he needs to remember that. To remind himself to not slip up.

God, he was nervous and scared but he was also excited. He loved spending time with Jaebum and he truly missed the alpha.

Should he feel bad though that when he read what Jaebum texted to the others, his heart soared at the thought of something else?

No, no, he’s being delusional again. It has to be due to suppressing himself for so long.

Or it could be due to what took place last night…

He almost thinks about it before he’s quick to shake his head cause no! He’s not sure what transpired last night but it’s in no way what he thinks it is. But what is it? A condition? He doesn’t remember Jaebum having this issue before throughout the years. None of the other members have ever said anything about it. Though, after they all eventually moved out into their own apartments, it could’ve started then. But wouldn’t it have shown during tours with them? For they all shared hotel rooms still. So it’s recent? Like after they left JYPE? Or from being in the military maybe?

What if Jaebum isn’t even aware of it?! How is he supposed to bring it up? Cause ain’t no way he can talk to the alpha about it. One of the members? But who?

It has to be Jackson…

Mark bites his bottom lip as he stands in the center of the guest room. He’s already dressed and ready to go but he’s hesitating now. This would be a good chance to try and talk about it so that Jackson could hopefully calm his nerves and tell him he’s crazy. Jackson would never but he has a way with words that would make him think more clearly. And Jackson might know what to do or how to help.

Unfortunately, when Mark called Jackson, it went straight to voicemail.

Meaning, Jackson was doing something important and who knows when he’ll call back.

Ok, no, this was his sign to get a grip, everything was fine. He’s going to go out with Jaebum and have a good time. Do what bros do and forget that last night even happened.

Yeah---

Except, when Mark got back from spending the rest of the day with Jaebum, he found himself falling even harder for the alpha!

Jaebum didn’t have to slay that hard either as he dressed like the idol he was! Where Mark assumed the alpha was going to dress casual and maybe try to lay low. Oh no, Jaebum brought everyone’s attention as he wanted the whole world to know he was back from the military. And he gets it, as their lovely birdies would want to see what the alpha has been up to since getting out of service. But he brought so much attention to them both!

There was so many photographers and paparazzi trying to follow them around. Hell, one reporter tried to ask him what he was doing in Korea. If it had something to do with Got7 or not. Which made Mark feel slightly better for it wasn’t what he originally feared. Reminding Mark that no one suspected what was really happening deep within Mark’s heart.

So it did help him relax more but he was still hesitant that he might show too much. And he didn’t stick around the paparazzi for them to start talking about him being an omega. Cause he already refused to talk about the whole truth as he wasn’t ready for that. Yes, he gave his answer when he came out to the world that he wanted to be seen as him and not his second gender, so that’s why he hid it for so long. But it never fails wherever he goes, he’s reminded of what he is.

The day was nice though. It was most likely due to the fact that Jaebum stuck close to him and kept his attention. Kept Mark’s focus on the alpha and people weren't allowed to follow them into the stores or the restaurant so once it was just them two, it was really nice. He was able to let go; feeling like old times and none of the employees tried or said anything. Jaebum doing all of the purchases and most of the talking as Mark would tuck into his side. The alpha was happy to guide the omega and lead. Mark not knowing how much Jaebum missed being the leader. How it took over him instinctively when it involved the members.

But it was also bad because Jaebum bought everything and refused to let Mark pay. Even ordering things Mark didn’t say he wanted but had looked at on the menu. And didn’t hesitate to buy him whatever clothing or thing he touched. Jaebum’s excuse being that he wanted to make up for past gifts and time they couldn’t spend together.

Mark felt pampered and so spoiled. All while Jaebum kept him tucked under his one shoulder; a protective arm around him at all times.

The best parts were when he’d catch Jaebum taking photos of him and them together throughout the day. Of seeing Jaebum’s wide grin and how his eyes got while they laughed and enjoyed one another’s company. Even with time spent apart, it was like Mark only left for America yesterday. The two falling back into routine so naturally. Falling into their own world that by the time they got back, it was super late.

And Mark isn’t sure if it’s due to all the giddy and happy feelings still radiating through him. But he told Jaebum that he couldn’t wait to do the schedules with him. Like hello! He’s a love struck fool! He’s only going to torture himself but you have no idea how happy Jaebum got to hear that. How he immediately got on his phone to call his company to see if Mark’s company got in touch yet.

That’s how Mark ended up in his room as Jaebum refused to call it the guest room now. With Mark unpacking his things as he’ll be staying for a while. Especially as his company contacted him soon after Jaebum’s phone call and the omega made it official.

Was this a bad idea? Stupid?

He wants this though, he wants this badly. Missed it so much. But will he be able to hold back like last time?

His heart is torn with his mind while his body was already yearning for the alpha’s presence…

R&B music can be heard playing softly throughout the apartment as Mark tries to busy himself with putting away the rest of his things. But as time went on, all Mark can think about is Jaebum. It was just like before. Where his heart would ache so much since the moment Mark got on that plane all those years ago. Where it became so apparent of his feelings he had for Jaebum. How he didn’t want to leave the alpha’s side. And now Mark was hopping right back in to do it all over again. When he told himself that he left that day to protect Got7 and get rid of these thoughts and feelings.

But not even time could diminish what his heart wants and needs…

Mark’s phone ringing is heard as the omega ended up on his bed just staring up at the ceiling. The omega blindly reaches for it and lifts it up to find Jackson calling,

“Hello?” Mark answers tiredly.

Not physically but mentally tiredly and Jackson picks up on it,

“Yien…” Jackson replies with such concern and sadness.

“Gaga…I think I made a mistake coming back,” Mark voices quietly so only Jackson can hear.

“I’m the one that told you to get onto the plane,” Jackson eases his mind as if Mark could just blame him.

“But you didn’t make me, I did it on my own terms. And I knew better because I still had such strong feelings before and now…I don’t want to leave…”

“Then don’t,” Jackson says like it’s that simple even though they both know it’s not.

Mark lets out a small distressed sound, “I don’t know if I can hold back like last time. He wants me to let out more of my omega but I feel like if I do, it’ll all come out. He doesn’t feel the same, I know he loves me like a brother. And he’s such a great leader and alpha that he wants to do whatever he can to help me but it’s making it so much worse on my heart.”

“I did see him state in the group chat through your phone about you doing schedules with him,” Jackson brings up, “And though I missed your call and would always call you back, which I apologize by the way for I know you needed me in that moment, I wanted to call and talk about that. Because I know this is going to hurt you and if you feel like you need to step back or leave, I can come get you. But Mark…we’re Got7. You can’t run and hide forever. You have to let out these thoughts and feelings or they’ll eat you alive. It’s not good for your health or well being. You need to sort them out now before it’s too late.”

“I know, Jacks, it’s what I’m afraid of. What if I can’t let go? If I can’t move on? I know I need to, that I have to, but I…”

Mark thinks back to what took place last night,

“Do you know if Jaebum has any medical conditions? Or taking any medicine recently?” Mark asks out of the blue.

“Huh? Not that I know of. He did take medicine to help with his depression a couple years back but he’s been off those for a while now. Why?”

Mark doesn’t recall seeing any medication in Jaebum’s bathroom either unless the alpha hid them somewhere else.

“Well he um…how do I explain this…”

He doesn’t want Jackson to misunderstand but he’s not sure himself on what went down.

“Jaebum was asleep but sleep walking? I thought he was awake at first but he wasn’t…”

“Did he do something weird?” Jackson wants to know more as Mark sounded concerned when he asked if Jaebum had any medical conditions.

“I don’t know if you would call it weird. But he…uh…he kind of got sexual with me…we were cuddling in his bed and he was doing things to me…I honestly thought I was dreaming…”

It’s embarrassing enough trying to explain it to someone and remembering it made his body all hot and flustered. It has him rolling over onto his side, his back facing the door.

“He did what?! Sexual?! You’re not making any sense. Yien no I don’t---tell me exactly what he did,” Jackson sounded like he didn’t like this at all.

“You know what, forget. It’s stupid. I was still waking up from sleep so maybe I was imagining things---” Mark tries to brush it off now as he never should’ve mentioned anything.

But then the sound of his door opens and Mark lets out a loud gasp because oh fuck! Don’t tell him that Jaebum overheard him and now---

Mark stills as he’s afraid to roll over and look at the alpha but he knows he’s there. He can feel his aura as well as pick up on his scent.

“Yien? Why did you gasp like that? Hello?!” Jackson is heard calling out into his ear from the phone.

But all Mark can focus on is the footsteps nearing closer.

Of the bed dipping…

Where Mark soon feels those hands coming to touch his body before both him and Jackson can hear Jaebum’s voice near the omega’s ear,

“Baby…”

Oh fuck, the way he says it too!

Thump!

Thump!

Thump!

Mark’s heart is beating so strongly in reaction as his body lights up on fire instantly…

Jackson goes quiet so fast which is bad. Because Jaebum’s body is becoming flush against his back as he lays down next to him. And those hands are wandering to dangerous places.

Places that are making Mark vocal as he tries to resist,

“Jaebum wait…not again…you need to wake up…oh fuck…”

The phone ends up falling onto the bed as Jaebum doesn’t stop.

All before the call is ended by accident after Mark whimpers…

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Previously,

Jaebum can’t stop smiling. Where he’s got that cheesy dorky grin but lord he can’t help it.

He’s so happy right now!

Why wouldn’t he be when he got to spend the whole day with Mark and the omega was being himself! There may have been some minor setbacks but the moment Mark got into his element and went naturally with the flow, ugh! Jaebum’s heart soared!

It felt like old times. Back when everyone got to know each more and they had all grown comfortable around each other to show more of themselves. The group didn’t know Mark was an omega then yet, but Mark would show affection and let others do the same.

And when you really think about it, it probably helped Mark come out of his shell more thinking that since no one noticed he was an omega, that it was ok to touch and be loving towards his band members. That no one would deem it wrong or gross and he didn’t have to fear the others hating him.

Jaebum wished he would’ve known sooner about Mark for then he would’ve helped him even more to come out of his shell. But like how he had been patient back then and went with Mark’s pace, he knows he has to do that now. Yet, seeing Mark fall back into their little routine instinctively really did things to Jaebum. How it showed how much the two had been around the other and in each other’s life. How much they still meant to one another.

Thus making it hard to not want to react by pouncing and just showering Mark in love and affection. Regardless if they’re in public or not. But it also has those feelings and emotions threatening to flow right out. To spill from his heart and onto Mark if he’s not careful.

Shit, he needs to stop grinning like a fool!

It wasn’t even a date but it felt like one to Jaebum.

OK, breathe…calm down…

Except now he’s thinking about Mark telling him that he couldn’t wait to do the schedules with him. Basically stating that he wanted to spend more time with him!

Jaebum is literally vibrating with glee that he ends up letting out a happy sound as he moves about in place.

Fuck, wait, Mark is in the apartment with him!

Jaebum is quick to stop and look around him but he doesn’t hear Mark in reply or any sounds of someone coming to his bedroom door.

Ok, he really needs to calm down now before he reveals to Mark what his heart has desired for years. Of the crush he’s had on Mark since meeting the omega. A crush that Jinyoung reminds him every time that they’re alone and Jaebum can’t help but talk about Mark, how it’s way more than a crush. And yes, Jaebum knows this. Though at first, he was in denial because you know, teenage hormones. Or it’s just a crush cause look at Mark! He’d make any man’s heart go thump thump! Of course Jinyoung would pull up every song Jaebum has written about love that the alpha would subconsciously write about Mark. And as the years went on and Jaebum matured more and more, he realized it was more than just love.

Mark is the love of his life…

And music helped him vent. Helped him be able to put all his thoughts and emotions out there in the open that he so desperately wanted to let out in person towards Mark. Where it would have sad love songs because he knew he needed to let Mark go as surely the omega saw him as a brother, a leader. To love songs of want, need and desire. Accepting that these feelings are real and valid, even if it’s one sided. And the love songs where he didn’t want to hold back anymore and wanted to shout it out to the world to hear.

Jaebum always wondered what Mark secretly thought of his love songs. He’s always told him that his songs were good. But if Mark knew they were about him? So many fans assumed they were about his past relationships or a secret lover. To what one might feel to fall in love or imagining their true love.

But Mark’s been in front of him all this time and the omega had no clue it was him. No one other than Jinyoung knew that Mark was his muse.

Even now he can feel the need thrumming through him like a steady pulse. Every nerve in his body wanting to love on Mark. To go to him and want more of his touch and attention. To get closer and dye Mark in his love---

Whoops, he almost did just that as he had to stop himself from opening Mark’s bedroom door---

Instead, he’s quick to move down the hallway and towards the living room. Deciding to distract himself with putting on some music and feeding the cats. Yes, that’ll surely do the trick…

Not even the cats can distract him and the music is only making his feelings stronger. The urge to connect pulling at him---

He needs to let it out on pen and paper again.

So he does just that, diving into his passion as the words flowed so freely along his notebook. His eyes emoted every thought and feeling as it’s expressed on paper. The R&B music is adding to his creativity now.

And it helps to calm the alpha back in control so he doesn’t barge into Mark’s room to confess his deepest, darkest secrets. Where it’s late into the night now and finds himself about to drift off to sleep.

He tries to fight it as his instincts tell him to go to Mark. To check on him to make sure he’s good for the night. That he doesn’t need anything. As well as wanting to lay down next to him. But he knows he shouldn’t or he might not be able to resist doing something stupid like kissing the omega…

Where he falls asleep imagining what it would be like if he was able to kiss Mark and hold him in his arms…

And now here they were, Mark letting out a moan as Jackson tried calling back. But the phone ends up slipping underneath the pillows, the sound muffled as the omega’s sounds become louder.

“Jaebum!” Mark voices as the alpha places a kiss at the back of Mark’s nape above his collar.

The alpha’s hands are greedier than last time as they’re not afraid of going underneath clothing and mapping out his body. His body is soon burning with need as this wasn’t fair. As he’s always wanted this alpha and having him touching him like so. Touching him like he’s imagined countless times…

Mark isn’t going to be able to resist much longer---

“Nnn! Bummie…please…I can’t…Ah!” Mark’s voice is so affected too.

His scent going so sweet as every touch lights up his body. Those lips pure sin as they kiss, bite and suck down the back of Mark’s neck and to his one shoulder. The alpha bunching Mark’s top attire as those hands mess and play with his nipples.

“Alpha…it’s not fair…you’re not even awake…ah…ah…driving me…crazy…can’t think…”

Mark is trying to be so good here. Trying to resist and get the alpha to wake up. But the alpha seems he’s going to be deep asleep while continuing to touch and mark the omega. All while his cock is rock hard and pressed against Mark’s ass. His body flush against Mark’s back as he leaves his trail behind along the omega’s body. Even when Jaebum moves his hands to another spot, it still feels like the alpha is not only surrounding him, but touching him all over.

Mark whimpers before a high pitched moan is heard. A loud gasp following as the omega’s body jerks the moment the alpha exposes his bottom half. Just shoving his pants down to reveal slick coating his ass and thighs. His cock hard and leaking precum against his tummy.

And Jaebum doesn’t stop there as he felt the need to run his hands down Mark’s inner thighs. Groaning near his ear as fingers were so close to his greedy hole. All while still kissing any part of skin he could reach.

“Baby,” Jaebum lets out in an affected tone.

And Mark knows he shouldn’t. He should keep fighting it, but he’s weak at this moment. Especially when a finger circles right there---

“Alpha!...Please!” Mark is begging.

He knows he’s begging more on wanting the alpha to do it than to stop. As his omega instincts are right there at the surface and he’s about to go right into his head space. His control slipping the second he feels two fingers slip right into his tight heat---

“Oh fuck---”

Mark clutches the bed sheets, his face contorting in pleasure as Jaebum fingers him so good. Too fucking good as Mark is growing wetter, the sound of squelching mixing in with his moans. With Jaebum’s free hand keeping Mark against him and unable to get away. Making Mark take the onslaught of pleasure while layering kisses and bites over and over---

His sweet spot being hit as it knocks the air out of him---

Mark can’t even voice it properly as he cums so hard and fast. His body convulsing as Jaebum fingers him right through it; heightening his orgasm…

It takes a moment for Mark to come down and that’s only after the alpha has mercy on him and pulls out his fingers. Sweet kisses being pressed along Mark’s spine as little aftershocks are felt through the omega’s body.

Mark is so in his head space now as he can feel that the alpha was still hard but he wasn’t doing anything. Seeming content in just taking care of him and his needs, but it’s only fair right? Since Jaebum has him like this, it’s the least he could do.

And maybe Mark wanted to see his reaction. To keep him on him even though he shouldn’t. Especially if Jaebum were to suddenly wake up.

But Mark is already reaching out behind him, his hand cupping the alpha through his pants…

The groan he heard was so worth it. The facial expression he made even with his eyes closed had Mark moaning with him. Loving how the alpha still didn’t want to let go of him and held on tighter. His forehead soon pressing in between Mark’s shoulder blades as the alpha groaned with each stroke of the omega’s hand. Where Mark slid his hand inside the alpha’s sweats to actually feel him.

Fuck, he felt so hot and heavy. The alpha’s cock pulsing and so much precum beading the tip. It makes the glide easier and the second Jaebum jerked his hips forward, Mark felt like doing something naughty.

So fucking naughty as he doesn’t think twice. His body tingling at the mere thought as he coats his other hand in his own slick before replacing it with his current hand.

Jaebum’s drawn out groan fueled Mark and the fast pace of his heart. Feeling the alpha moving his hips more and more, short abrupt thrusts as if he was fucking Mark right now---

Oh, Mark has to squeeze his thighs shut at the mere thought. His hole more than on board with the idea as it even clenched down on air---

“Alpha…cum…please…” Mark begs before he loses control.

Before he tries to sit on the alpha’s cock like everything is screaming at him to do.

“Baby…” Jaebum’s voice goes high pitched, panting heard as the alpha was getting close.

His hips moving with abandon as Mark can’t help it. He needs to see it…

So he pulls Jaebum’s sweats down to reveal the long, thick cock and Mark has to bite his lip to hold back the needy sound. Torn between wanting to sit on it or suck it---

But then Jaebum was suddenly stilling, his groan almost breathless as he cums. Cumming long, thick ropes that coat Mark’s hand, the bed and Mark himself. Taking Mark by surprise before moaning at how hot it looked. The omega making sure to not stop until every last drop came out…

Thump

Thump

Thump

Their panting was the only thing heard amongst the R&B music. Reality about to crash down as the pleasure stopped and wasn’t there to cloud his mind anymore. As Mark could soon pick up on Jaebum’s light snoring as he realizes what he’d just done…

Shit, Shit, Shit---

Mark is careful as he moves, worried that Jaebum will really wake up now. But the alpha just rolls over onto his back, letting Mark get up as he rushes to a stand.

Just staring at the evidence on the bed as he had let his omega side take over…

Oh this was bad, so bad…and yet…Mark doesn’t know how to stop it…

Chapter Text

“Why did it take you so long to call me back?! What happened?! Yien, I was seconds away from getting onto a jet to get to you---”

“Everything is fine---” Mark reassures the alpha as he’s trying to stay quiet in the laundry room.

Because yes Mark is doing laundry before Jaebum can even suspect that something went down. He even changed Jaebum’s sweats and put on fresh sheets and everything. Freaking out the entire time too as he was worried that Jaebum would wake up. But he slept like a rock even when he turned off the R&B music and the washer machine started going.

“Fine?! You were talking about Jaebum sleep walking---acting---I don’t even know what you would call it! And then he suddenly appeared doing just that and then the call hung up!” Jackson is freaking out.

He’s been freaking out since he wasn’t there to physically see what had been going on. He could only go off of what Mark said and what he had heard. And let me tell you that it did not do anything good for his imagination.

“Gaga it’s ok, he didn’t hurt me,” Mark wants Jackson to know that.

For he knows how this looks.

“But something happened because I could hear it in your voice and you weren't answering when I kept calling back! It took you almost an hour, Mark! An hour!”

Jackson had been so damn worried that he was even tempted to call one of the band members to go check up on them that were nearby. Ok, so he did call and ask Yugyeom and Youngjae if they were nearby but they weren't. Yugyeom actually had a late schedule and Youngjae had been asleep when he called. And Jackson ended up lying for he didn’t want to worry the two because maybe he really was just overreacting. He thought about calling Jinyoung first too. Not only due to Jinyoung being his first thought to everything. But because he knows that the man would break out of the military in a heartbeat like he did once for his band members. Yet Jackson didn’t want to get Jinyoung in trouble or upset him if he had accidentally mistook what he heard.

Which is highly plausible right? Right?!

Mark bites his lip as he knows why it took so long but nope, nope, he can’t think about it---

“I know, I know,” Mark squats down in the laundry room, “I tried to wake him up…”

Mark is torn on what to do. On what to say.

Should he lie? Should he tell the truth? Jackson already knows his deepest darkest secrets so…

“Tell me the truth and I’ll tell you the truth,” Mark suddenly blurts out.

For Mark knows that Jackson had been keeping something from him. Or well, been in denial really. But if Jackson admits it, then he’ll tell the truth about what went down.

“What? Right now? And about what---”

“Gaga, you know what it’s about,” Mark whispers back in Chinese.

Because this whole conversation had to be in another language just in case Jaebum magically woke up.

A small buzzing sound is heard as Mark peeks his head up to see that the laundry was done washing.

Good, he can throw the stuff in the dryer. And then tomorrow morning if Jaebum asks, Mark can say he spilled food or a drink on them and that’s why he changed both their clothes. Does it explain how Jaebum ended up in his bed? Nope, but Mark hasn’t gotten that far yet.

“Yien, what does it have to do with that though?”

“Because…” Mark starts as he’s putting the clothes in the dryer before he lets out a noise while thinking about what went down earlier.

“When you have such strong feelings for someone and the dreams you have start to become reality…even if…even in such circumstances…would you be able to resist, Jiaer?”

Silence falls between them before Mark hits the button to start the dryer. His expression raw as he’s such a mess. As he had lost control in such a situation when he shouldn’t have. As he had gotten pulled right into his fantasy of Jaebum feeling the same and he couldn’t resist anymore. Going right into his head space as the omega in him purred in delight at having the alpha on him like that.

“I…” Jackson starts to reply as he stops for a second.

His tone of voice becoming raw with emotion,

“I would drink so I could try and stop such feelings and thoughts. I would drink to try and fill the ache of being away from him and I would drink to stop thinking about doing something stupid. Yet when I drink…it doesn’t work. It makes me think of him more. Makes me almost call him up without hesitation. Makes me dream about him in such ways that I know could never become reality. So if…god if I was put in that situation…No, I’d fail so fast because it would be him…”

See? Jackson gets it. He would understand. He’s always understood him because they both loved and wanted someone they couldn’t have. Someone who was straight and only sees you as a brother. Even if Jackson was in denial for a long, long time before he’d openly express it. Mark knew…

Mark always knew about Jackson’s feelings for Jinyoung.

“But Yien,” Jackson ends up whining as he’s realizing, “If what you’re telling me then…then that means he did things with you while he was asleep.”

“I know,” Mark says quietly as he’s sitting propped up against the dryer.

As his expression shows everything that he already knows what it means.

“You said he tried this the night prior, right?”

“Yeah…but it didn’t go as far as it did tonight…where I thought maybe he just wanted to cuddle.”

People do the strangest things when they sleep walk so it could’ve been innocent in the beginning. But tonight…god…Mark’s never heard of someone doing sexual things while sleep walking.

“Like how far…”

“We both came,” Mark is quick to keep it at that and for Jackson to get the point.

Thus explaining why Mark was doing laundry at the crack ass of dawn.

“Oh Yien…” Jackson’s tone of voice said it all, “But he called out that pet name…”

No words needing to clarify it as Mark knew the damage was done. That Mark knew it wasn’t him that Jaebum was most likely dreaming about or subconsciously anyway while in that state.

Almost like if Jaebum were so drunk and couldn’t remember it the next day. That’s what happened and unfortunately, Mark would be the only one to remember what went down. Something that would mean so much to Mark yet nothing to Jaebum.

Where Jaebum probably thought about his ex…about her…

If this kept up, it was going to be both heaven and hell.

“I don’t know what to do, Gaga. I don’t want to take back going on the schedules with him---”

“There’s no way you can still go through with this! For your own sake, you shouldn’t be around him when he’s asleep.”

“But if not me, then who? I don’t want something bad to happen to Bummie or someone to take advantage of him. If word got out or one of the staff members…”

“We should tell him about it. Hell, do you want me to? I know it’ll be awkward but if he does have some condition, he should go see a doctor about it that might be able to help him.”

“Awkward? Jackson, I’d have to tell him what he did!”

And Mark doesn’t want to imagine how devastated Jaebum would be to find out he did something like that to one of his loved ones. Though, Mark wasn’t against it by no means and thoroughly enjoyed himself but still! Mark feels guilty enough for losing control and he doesn’t want to hurt Jaebum.

It’ll ruin their relationship…

It’ll put such a strain on Got7…

Fuck, he never should’ve came back…

“Promise me, Jiaer…promise me…” Mark sounds on the verge of crying as he curls his knees to his chest with his head leaning forward.

“I can’t…I don’t want something like this to destroy you. You went through so much with JYP that you haven’t fully healed from. And I want you to be able to heal, Yien. I wanted you to surround yourself with Got7 and find yourself again but this…this is doing the opposite---”

“Maybe it won’t happen again. Or it could be random. Something could’ve triggered it---”

Jackson never thought Mark would fight to try and stay by Jaebum’s side again like this. Not when Mark had tried everything to stay away before once he realized his feelings were too strong.

Mark can hear Jackson letting out sounds as he’s torn now.

“Please,” Mark begs and Jackson whines,

“I’ll give it one more day.”

Jackson's tone then becomes serious as he means it, “ If he does it again before the schedules are supposed to start, then I’m calling it off.”

“Ok,” Mark let out as this meant he had another chance.

One where he won’t mess up again.

“Sheesh, Mark, you have no idea how much of a mess I’m going to be until then!”

“I’ll be fine,” Mark insisted even though his heart was already aching.

Jackson goes to say something when the front door suddenly rings.

Excuse me?!

Mark’s eyes go wide because no! What if Jaebum wakes up?!

“Someone’s here, gotta go, I love you, bye!”

Mark hangs up the phone before rushing towards the front door. Like who the hell would be ringing it constantly now too? And at such an hour?!

The omega practically runs to the door and looks through the peephole---

All before unlocking and throwing open the door to reveal the person behind…

The person being BamBam

“I’m back, baby! It’s your boy, double B! Skrrt! Skrrt!” He lets out in his energetic fashion.

Chapter Text

Previously,

Bam had just gotten off the plane and was walking through the terminal---

His phone goes off and Bam is shocked to see it was Yugyeom.

Oh? Wasn’t Yugyeom in the middle of a late night schedule right now?

Bam can’t help the way his heart reacted at the thought of Yugyeom wanting to talk to him even though it was late. Reminding him of how close they used to be. And how Bam didn’t hesitate to have the call connect to his one ear bud that was still in his ear,

“Hey man!” He lets out in excitement to hear Yugyeom’s voice.

“Hey Bam,” Yugyeom’s voice goes soft.

Fuck, it was just a hello and yet Bam was feeling all sorts of things…

“Did you land yet?” Yugyeom asks as Bam nods to the body guards that help direct him safely,

“I’m in the airport now heading towards the exit. Why? You missed me that much?” Bam was mostly teasing but he was hopeful that maybe Yugyeom did.

“I always do when you’re not beside me,” Yugyeom admits and Bam almost trips as he’s walking.

“I--I, shit, hold on…” Bam stutters to get out as he tries to play it off like something was going on at the airport.

When really it’s Bam’s heart that won’t calm down and neither will the strong emotions flowing through him.

‘Come on, Bam, he doesn’t mean it like that! Brotherly! Best friends! You need to cool it before you make a fool of yourself again---’

“I managed to get on a flight way earlier than expected. So I wasn’t going to surprise Mark and Jaebum hyung until tomorrow if you wanna, you know…hang out?”

Too late, he’s already saying stupid things…

“Ah, Bammie, I’m still in the middle of my schedule,” Yugyeom replies and Bam deflates.

‘Duh! You already knew this and yet you still tried to ask him to hang out! Idiot!’

“It’s another reason I called because I needed you to do something for me if you were already here in Korea.”

Bam perks back up,

“What?” Bam is curious to know.

“Jackson called me not too long ago to ask if I was near Jaebum’s apartment.”

“Ok…” Bam replies as he’s gesturing to Yugyeom that he’s listening.

As he begins to worry that something else must be happening. Especially after Youngjae updated him on what Mark has been going through. So they’re all in the loop now and want to be there for the omega during this time.

“He didn’t make it sound like an emergency as he reassured me it wasn’t. But I could hear it in his voice that something was making him…anxious? Upset? I’m not sure, but I knew that he was hoping one of us would go and check up on them.”

Bam makes a face as he’s trying to figure out what it might be. For if it wasn’t an emergency, why else would one of them need to go check up on them at such an hour? Shouldn’t they be asleep since they weren't starting their schedules yet?

“That must mean they’re awake,” Bam says as he decides he’ll continue with his original plan and head on over.

He tells the manager this as they’re heading outside and the van was already there waiting.

Bam is helped inside as he hears Yugyeom’s reply,

“He eventually told me not to worry as he managed to get a hold of Mark. But I’ve been trying to figure it out myself and that’s why it has me restless. I couldn’t concentrate and took a break.”

“And your first thought was to call me?” Bam questions in shock before Yugyeom didn’t hesitate to answer,

“Yeah, I can’t explain it but…just hearing your voice helps ground me.”

Oh stop it please!

Bam even lets out a sound as those words affected him.

“Well I’m glad I was able to answer then,” Bam lets out a bit breathless as he’s still reeling from the emotions,

“But don’t worry, I’ll head over there and check up on them. Maybe I can figure out what has Jackson acting like that.”

For something was definitely going on and they hope everyone is ok.

You can literally hear the sound of relief coming from Yugyeom,

“Thanks bro, it means a lot.”

Bam tries to not wince at the ‘bro’ part as it reminds him of his place.

“No worries. I wouldn’t be able to sleep until I saw them now. Though it’s probably just Jackson being Jackson,” He tries to reassure them both.

Because Mark is with Jaebum right now and that’s the safest place to be. Their leader is no doubt taking care of Mark as he has taken him under his wing to get the proper love and rest he needs.

Besides, Jackson can be dramatic at times, like that time with his vacuum experience. One would’ve thought the vacuum had come to life and was trying to murder Jackson from the way he told the story. Just to find out from an Auntie that cleaned Jackson’s house that the alpha didn’t know how to properly use the vacuum and it simply malfunctioned.

So maybe Jackson just wanted to get into contact with Mark but couldn’t. And was worried since he was all the way in China still and wanted to make sure the omega was doing ok. Especially since he had been busy with his own schedules and wanted Mark to know he was still loved and cared about.

“Probably,” Yugyeom agrees before Bam can suddenly hear people in the background.

Ah, his break must be over.

“Well I’m halfway there, so I’ll let you know how things go. I’ll only call if it’s an emergency.”

“Good. Be safe getting there and text me regardless that you made it.”

“Trust me, I learned my lesson the last time I forgot to text Jinyoung that I made it to my destination safely.”

Yugyeom and Bam both laugh at this before the line goes silent for a moment.

But only a moment before Bam can hear,

“Let’s hang out tomorrow, Bammie. Just you and I.”

The way Bam’s heart swells with emotion as his expression goes so warm and soft,

“I would like that very much.”

Of how he missed those one on one hangouts. As they haven’t had one since he admitted his feelings…

They exchanged a few more words before Yugyeom really had to go. The calling ending but Bam was still smiling…

Even as Bam approaches Jaebum’s apartment door, his energy grew as he was seconds away from seeing two of his members again---

So forgive him as he was super excited that he forgot how late it was, well early as hell in the morning. But Bam knocks away with the chaotic energy bubbling inside of him. Just waiting to unleash and be met with other chaotic energy as surely those two will be happy to find him on the other side of the door---

The door opens abruptly, cutting off Bam’s knocking as he comes face to face with Mark. Not hesitating to do his greeting to get Mark to smile. But he was not expecting to be grabbed by the front of his outfit before being yanked inside.

Bam gasps as he’s pushed up against the front door that was closed with his own body.

“Quiet,” Mark instructs in a harsh whisper.

Oh, the fierceness in those eyes too. Yep, L.A. gangster. Maybe there really was something going down!

Bam nods before Mark’s expression softens and the male finds himself being hugged next.

Ah, this is the Mark he remembers.

“It’s good to see you again,” Mark says sweetly as the two hug.

“Likewise man,” He let out as the two didn’t want to let go just yet.

As they both smile at being able to see the other again after so long.

“I hope I didn’t come at a bad time. But I couldn’t wait any longer. I had to get in some Markbam time.”

The two chuckle at this before pulling back, their smiles remaining on their faces.

“Did you really come from your flight and then straight here?” Mark asks in awe.

Bam nods, “I actually had gotten a flight for tomorrow but they were able to fly me out earlier and I felt it was perfect. That way we didn’t have to rush our time together before your guy’s schedules start.”

Bam was so thoughtful and you can see it in his face how much he had missed them.

“You’re gonna make me cry…” Mark says quietly as he can feel it coming.

As he didn’t deserve such great band members.

“It’s ok to cry,” Bam reassures him as he lightly taps his arm in comfort.

“But I don’t de---” Mark starts before he’s getting choked up on his words.

But Bam knew what he was going to say. That he didn’t deserve it.

“What makes you say that? We’re like a pack; a family. 7 or nothing, bro. We take care of each other. We love each other,” Bam reminds him.

But he’s him…

He’s a male omega…

He doesn’t deserve such great people in his life…

And to have such thoughts and feelings about their leader…

To what just went down earlier…

Would Bam still be saying this if he had come and seen it taking place? If he knew?

Mark’s expression is so raw as the omega tries to gather himself. Bam doesn’t push and instead tries to change the subject to make things lighter. As he’s already thinking that Jackson knows something and was right in needing someone to come check up on Mark.

But what about Jaebum?

“Did you want to lay down? Did I wake you up?” Bam asks as he’s already leaving his stuff and shoes by the door.

As he then takes Mark’s hand to lead him towards the living room so they can at least sit on the couch.

“No I…I was already awake,” Mark manages to get out as he follows willingly.

“Couldn’t sleep because you were thinking about me?” Bam teases and it gets Mark to snort.

“Totally,” Mark says and Bam laughs too before the couch is there before them.

But when Bam goes to sit down, he finds a notebook and pen on the coffee table,

“Oh? What’s this? Is this yours?” Bam is curious as he picks up the notebook after sitting down.

“Huh? No, it must be Jaebum’s,” Mark says as he takes notice of the notebook now too.

Where it’s still open as if the alpha had been writing in it before falling asleep.

“Cloud Nine,” Bam begins to read the title before quickly skimming, “It’s a song…Is it from the new album he’ll be releasing?”

This peaks Bam’s curiosity even more as he wants to read every lyric.

“I don’t know but we shouldn’t pry. This could be like his private journal,” Mark says as he goes to take it away.

But Bam is too fast and starts to read the words out loud. Mark stilling as it’s becoming clear what type of song this was. One that wasn’t just sensual but sexual as well. That romantic vibe flowing as a passionate man practically describes what he wants to do to someone while still keeping it pg and giving room to the imagination. But at the same time, letting you know what he’s about to do and what he wants.

Bam actually reads through the whole thing as this man was not embarrassed when it came to anything sexual. And honestly, the only reason he kept going was because he thought he knew what Mark’s reaction would be. That the omega would be so flustered. That he stopped trying to take the notebook because he had grown shy or would combust into laughter at Bam simply reading the words. When this needed to be sung by Jaebum’s tone of voice to get those sexy and chic vibes going.

Really, Bam just wanted it to be like old times where they did silly things like this all the time. Even teasing each other in good fun.

Except, when he finished reading and looked up to gauge Mark’s reaction, he wasn’t expecting how the omega was looking.

Like his heart was breaking…

Like he was about to cry…

Like how Bam reacted to Yugyeom’s one song about a woman…

Bam’s expression falters before he’s closing the notebook before setting it down on the coffee table. He then turns away from Mark as he quietly says,

“You too, huh…”

This seems to snap Mark back to reality that he wasn’t alone. That Bam must’ve seen his expression but Mark couldn’t help it.

Because it proved that Jaebum had been thinking about this before he slept walk to him.

That he was obviously thinking about her…

“What do you mean?” Mark tries to play innocent but let’s face it.

He can’t even hide it well right now as he couldn’t even say those words without his voice trembling.

It goes quiet and Mark is beginning to panic. His anxiety was rising as Bam was putting it together. As Bam wasn’t looking his way and it made Mark’s stomach drop…

Fuck, he keeps messing up. Bam must know something and is seconds away from telling him how disgusted he was---

“To fall in love with another band member,” Bam admits out loud.

Silence falls again as Mark’s eyes go wide. Bam totally figured it out! But how?! And that fast?!

Mark can’t even form words as he feels like he might throw up from how his emotions were going haywire. But then he sees how Bam is also in the same boat. How Bam has to clasp his hands together, a nervous laugh coming forth before he attempts to look towards Mark.

Afraid of Mark’s reaction…

It stops the panic attack Mark was about to have as the two just stare at one another before Bam says,

“You had the same look I did when Yugyeom released that one song and I heard it for the first time. Though, props to you, I cried on the spot.”

Cried from his heart breaking all over again…

Mark is still silent and Bam is growing more nervous because, did he just fuck up in reading this wrong? And now he just exposed himself and Mark will hate him now?

But Bam can’t stand the silence so he just keeps on talking, digging a bigger hole for himself,

“I actually confessed to him too, can you believe that? Wasn’t even drunk either. I was just stupid and high off of happiness and him that I randomly blurted it out during the last one on one hangouts.”

When was Bam and Yugyeom’s last one on one hangout?

Bam knows and recalling that time of rejection and the look on Yugyeom’s face makes it hard to take the next breath. As it comes out shaky and Bam wrings his hands together so he doesn’t cry.

He’s tired of crying over a love he knows he needs to let go of…

“Imagine if I would’ve just kissed him like I almost went with,” Bam lets out a pathetic laugh at that one.

He tried to but it came out hurt and it shut Bam up. As talking wasn’t doing anything but hurting him more right now. But he had opened up because if this was part of the reason Mark was hurting, then he wanted him to know he wasn’t alone. He wanted him to know that it was ok.

He wanted to let him know that he had someone to open up to.

Unless he had this all wrong---

“You really confessed?” Mark’s voice breaks through the silence and it has Bam looking at him.

Bam nods before Mark moves closer to him, their knees touching as the omega grabs a hold of the male to face him,

“Bam that’s…that’s braver than me,” Mark couldn’t imagine gathering the courage.

“Trust me, it wasn’t planned,” Bam lets out quietly with a sad smile.

Mark feels for him as his hands run soothingly along Bam’s arms,

“I’m sorry, it must’ve really hurt. I bet it hurts worse than keeping your feelings inside.”

“Oh yeah. I still have nightmares about the look on his face,” Bam doesn’t even try to lighten the mood, “But that wasn’t the worst part. It was how Yugyeom closed himself off from me and put this distance between us.”

Mark’s expression falls right with him,

“It’s why I could never…I can’t…” Mark can’t even finish his sentence from the mere thought of Jaebum doing that to him.

But knowing Bam went through it. Was still going through one of his worst fears…

The tears start flowing,

“I’m so sorry…” His words getting choked up as he didn’t hesitate to wrap Bam up in his arms.

Bam starts to get choked up too as he clings back,

“It’s ok…I mean it’s not, but we’re still Got7. He didn’t try and get me kicked out and he stayed in the group. Didn’t expose me when he could’ve either. We made things work and got back on talking terms. Hell, because of you, Mark, we’ve been talking a lot more and now he wants to do a one on one tomorrow with me again.”

“Because of me? I didn’t do anything…” Mark gets out through his crying.

Bam holds him firmly as he smiles through the tears,

“I’m serious. Because you came back, we’ve been talking not just through group chat but privately too. Even talking on the phone. It’s almost like the old days before we took different paths.”

“You’re just trying to make me feel better,” Mark says as he pulls back but Bam is quick to clasp his hands on the omega’s shoulders so he doesn’t get far.

“Look at me, would I lie about that? I just opened up to you about being in love with Yugyeom. I have no reason to lie about anything else.”

Mark can see it in Bam’s eyes too that he’s telling the truth.

“No one else other than Yugyeom knows your secret?”

Bam shakes his head, “Youngjae found out by accident but he’s been so sweet and supportive. It helped a lot knowing he didn’t hate me or find me disgusting either.”

So it was really ok to be open? To let someone other than Jackson know?

“Jacks…he knows…about me…”

Recognition clicks in Bam’s mind as he pieces it all together. No wonder Jackson was acting the way he was!

Bam wipes at his tears before using his own sleeve to help wipe Mark’s face,

“Say it,” Bam encourages after the two take a moment.

As Bam felt a small weight lift off his chest from being able to tell another member his secret. And he knows it’ll help Mark too.

“I can’t…”

“You can,” Bam encourages as he’s a safe space for Mark.

Mark bites his lip, his hands immediately trying to cling to his thighs but Bam takes them away and intertwines their fingers,

“It’ll be our secret.”

Mark feels Bam’s love and care that it helps to ease his nerves some. Reminding him of all the hardships they had gone through together. All the ups and downs and not once did Bam abandon him. He always remained by his side…

Mark squeezes his eyes shut, his heart beating so fast. He’s clinging to Bam’s hands as he wants to say it. As he fights through the fear and nerves---

“I’m in love with our leader,” Mark lets out with a tiny squeak.

Bam had to lean in just to hear it but Mark did it. He said the words to someone other than Jackson.

And boy was Bam proud as he squeezes their intertwined hands and beams at him,

“See? It feels a bit better getting it off your chest doesn’t it?”

Mark opens his eyes to take in Bam’s sincere expression. The omega won’t lie, it does feel a bit better.

“You don’t hate me?” Mark asks as he almost can’t believe it.

“Hate you? What? Never, love is love. And who wouldn’t fall for those two? It makes me wish I was a woman at times, or a fan, so I could at least have a chance. But sadly, sometimes hearts don’t sync up like bodies do. And sometimes we fall for the wrong people---”

“Or they’re your mate but you’re not theirs,” Mark finishes and Bam reacts to that.

“Mates…true love…Jaebum’s been rubbing off on us hasn’t he? I thought I was the only one who thought the same about Yugyeom. But it seems you’re really in the same boat as me.”

The two match their sad smiles,

“Pathetic isn’t it?” Mark lets out and Bam nods,

“I’ve been trying for years but I can’t let go of these feelings.”

“I thought moving back to America would do the trick too,” Mark vents and Bam feels for him.

“That long?”

Mark shakes his head, “No, longer than that. I…I never had good relationships with alphas other than my father. Even growing up in school where I tried to keep myself hidden, I didn’t have friends. It wasn’t until I came here to Korea…where I met Bummie…he was the first alpha to not only come find me and apologize after an argument…he was the first alpha to see me as an equal and want to be my friend…”

Jaebum literally won Mark’s heart over with his tears and passionate nature.

“Wow…and we all thought it was Jackson to be the first alpha,” Bam voices.

“Jackson was the second but because of Jaebum and I having a language barrier, it might’ve looked like Jackson was the first.”

“Damn…and if you hadn't fallen then, I’m sure it was when our leader fought so hard to keep us foreigners on the team so we could all debut together.”

“It definitely showed me that I picked the right alpha to follow and trust,” Mark says sincerely.

For Jaebum was just as young as them and yet fought with everything in him against JYP to keep the group together and have them debut. To give them a chance to show the world that they could do it. To prove their worth and change the Kpop industry.

“He didn’t have to do any of that and yet he only saw a future with us,” Bam adds as they both find themselves growing emotional again.

Mark is quick to try and wipe at his eyes before the tears could fall,

“It’s why I can’t tell him, Bam. Why I don’t want to ruin what we have. He’s given me so much and helped me get to where I’m at today, that I would rather hurt like this…than lose him and everyone…everything we’ve worked so hard to achieve.”

“I get it, Mark, I do. I was lucky with Yugyeom and I plan on doing the same thing. And hey, maybe one day we can both finally let go. For there’s no other place I’d rather be. Got7 is my home, you guys are my people.”

Bam leans into Mark’s space so the omega will look at him,

“So please don’t stray too far again, ok? We need you in order to survive. I need you.”

Mark’s face contorts with emotion as he takes in every word from Bam. And now it’s Bam’s turn to pull the omega back into a hug as they hold each other. Neither pulled back until they were ready. And when they did, they still remained on the couch. Both of them continued as they whispered about their secret loves. Of what they do that drives them crazy, etc. It became light and loving and before they both knew it, they fell asleep on the couch together…

But when Bam was rudely woken up and ended up on the floor, he found that a third person ended up on the couch with them.

The third person being Jaebum as Bam was still adjusting to the bright morning light from the window outside…

And yep, Bam was seeing what he was seeing, because Jaebum had Mark caged in on the couch---

The omega was still asleep as the alpha was subconsciously trying to get closer, his eyes opening but you could tell he wasn't fully awake…

But the alpha knew who the person was before him,

“Mark…”

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Man, what a crazy dream he must be having. For Bam has heard about not getting enough sleep that you can start to hallucinate. Hell, he’s had dream paralysis before and some weird ass dreams. So obviously this must be what’s going on. Especially since Mark and him just had a conversation about how the omega was in love with Jaebum.

So what does Bam do? He gets up and lays down on the other couch before falling back asleep!

But that could be bad for nothing was stopping Jaebum from---

Snuggling…the alpha actually just wanted to be close and snuggle this time. Even tangling their limbs together as he has Mark in between him and the couch. Being protective as he holds the omega close and away from any intruders that might come in. All before he’s back to snoring away lightly into Mark’s hair where hours go by for the three…

“Such an adorable sight to see,” Vivian coos as she takes several photos with her phone.

The cats meow around her as she takes one last photo that seems to stir Mark awake.

Hmm?

Mark’s eyes slowly open and he finds Mrs. Lim smiling in his line of sight.

“Morning sweetie,” She greets softly.

“Morning,” Mark lets out as he starts to fully wake up.

Not understanding why she’s giving him such a playful look until the omega takes in that someone is attached to him. Where the moment he moves his head, he comes face to face with Jaebum’s chest.

Oh! What happened to Bam?

Wait! That meant Jaebum slept walk to him again last night. Which means something could’ve happened---

But when Mark manages to sit up, he finds that Bam was still nearby. That he was asleep facing the couch with his back to them.

So did that mean nothing happened? Or nothing that Bam was aware of?

Fuck, it didn’t help that Mark slept through it if Jaebum did. But as Mark feels along his clothing, he’s fully dressed along with the alpha and he doesn’t feel anything wet or sticky…

Vivian lets out a light chuckle, “You must’ve slept well.”

Mark admits that he did. From Bam’s heart to heart with him, a good cry and well um, yeah, let’s not think about that one with Mrs. Lim standing right there---

Mark nods, completely unaware that his omega scent is strong right now. Or that he subconsciously had reached out to touch Jaebum for comfort.

God this omega was too adorable at times!

The alpha reacts to him in his sleep as he tries to curl around the omega. Making Mark flush as he needed to get up before Jaebum accidentally does something inappropriate in his sleep.

“B-bathroom,” Mark lets out shyly as he gets up off the couch and heads down the hallway.

It’s even cuter when the cats followed after Mark instead of continuing to beg Vivian to feed them…

When Mark returns from the bathroom, he finds Jaebum and Bam were awake and talking. The two hugged as it was good to see one another again. All while Vivian fed the cats for her son so the two could catch up.

“No way, you showed up last night and I slept through it?” Jaebum was embarrassed as his mother laughs,

“It sounds about right. Once you fall asleep, you sleep like a log. It’s why you used to be late going to school because you would sleep through the multiple alarms set up,” Vivian teases.

“But I’ve been doing so good lately!” Jaebum tries to convince her.

“I don’t know, man. You were the same during training and after debut for a while,” Bam doesn’t hold back.

Jaebum pouts from his spot on the couch,

“But once we got our own places, I did better.”

“Ah, true. Cause then we switched to picking on Yugyeom,” Bam remembers as Mark makes his entrance now.

“Maybe you’re just catching up on much needed rest,” He states quietly.

The two perk up, Jaebum’s eyes going right to lock with Mark’s. And the omega ends up tripping over his own foot as he can’t help but think about last night---

“Wow, bro!” Bam exclaims as both him and Jaebum jumped up from the couch to catch Mark.

Though it ended up being Jaebum since he was closer. And now Mark’s becoming twice as shy and embarrassed as the alpha had his hands on his waist to keep him steady,

“You good?” Jaebum asks as he has no idea of what went down last night!

Of the things he does to him!

“M’fine,” Mark tries to get out as being this close to Jaebum makes it hard to calm his beating heart.

Bam is such a sweetheart as he takes notice of Mark’s struggle and comes to his rescue,

“Oh, I almost forgot! I brought goodies with me from Thailand. My mom threatened me that if I didn’t give her gifts she got for you two, that I wouldn’t be allowed to step foot inside her home.”

It breaks the moment between the two as they focus on Bam hurrying to grab his bag…

“Mom, do you plan on staying all day?” Jaebum asks as the day goes on.

Where all three were cleaned up and dressed after eating his mother’s breakfast. And as much as he loves his mother, he would like to have Mark back by his side now. As he’s very much pouting towards her for keeping the omega next to her.

“Why? Am I interrupting something? She teases her son further.

Mark is thankful for the distraction as it kept Jaebum from noticing that he slept walk or the change of sweats. Though Mark made sure to get the same color as his last sweats. And he was able to sneak the laundry on by while she conversed with her son in the kitchen earlier. So to Mark, it was a win win.

“It’s our last day before our schedules start,” Jaebum hints and his mother smiles,

“I’m well aware, which is why I wanted to soak up as much time as possible with my son,” She even emphasizes her point by hugging Mark close.

Bam snorts at Jaebum’s reaction of jealousy. Where both Mark and Bam mistake it as Jaebum being jealous of Mark taking up his mother’s affection. Because they know how much of a momma’s boy Jaebum is. But in reality, Jaebum is jealous of his mother for taking up Mark’s attention and affection.

“Your son is over there, Mrs. Lim,” Bam joins in on the teasing.

“Oh, you’re right,” Vivian plays along as she lets go of Mark before acting like she’s going to go over to Jaebum.

All before coming to sit next to Bam and hug him next.

“Mom,” Jaebum lets out as they’re all laughing.

But god, when Mark lets out those giggles, the alpha can’t stop how big his grin gets.

It makes Vivian happy to hear that sound too and right away, she’s pulling out her phone,

“I demand a group photo before I go.”

The boys can’t deny her as they move instinctively closer so they can huddle and take the photo.

“Ah, wait, we need to get closer to all get into the shot, hold on,” She lets out before Mark isn’t expecting what she does next.

Where she gestures to her son before helping to move Mark right into the alpha’s lap.

The omega grows shy right away and is about to protest. But Jaebum seems content like this as he doesn’t hesitate to wrap his arms around Mark’s waist,

“Smile,” Vivian says and Mark is quick to give a shy smile while the other three grin widely.

Vivian looks down at the photo as her smile grows,

“Yes, it’s perfect. I’m sure the fans will love it too when I post this later.”

Mark’s expression drops as he tenses in Jaebum’s hold. The alpha can feel it and wraps Mark up tighter,

“Do you not like that idea?” Jaebum whispers.

He knows what his mother is trying to do but this may not be the way to go about it. Mark might not be ready and if the omega told him right now that he’s against it, he’s going to make sure his mother doesn’t post it.

“I…” Mark starts as the fear and worry grows.

Of what the fans will think if they saw it. Of what others would say.

“Should we take one with you in my lap too?” Bam suggests as he tries to ease Mark’s worry.

“Skinship is normal, honey. And you guys have always been close,” Vivian states softly.

But the world knows he’s a male omega now…

‘Tell me, Mark, what do you think the world’s first thought would be if you debuted as the only male omega in a group of six other boys? What do you think they’ll focus on knowing that you’re around them almost twenty four seven…that you’ll live with them? The fact that I even let you step foot into this building was a huge risk in itself, Mark. One slip up, one heat, one scent…you could ruin so many lives. Omegas are kept at home for a reason…they have caretakers for a reason…so what makes you think that I should give YOU a chance when there’s better betas and alphas out there? When you’re literally a walking liability? Yeah, you got visuals, but that’s it. You’ll only bring down everyone around you. So why don’t you do us all a favor and go home. Back to America, back to the little rights you have before you lose them…’

“Mark?” All three call out his name as the omega had a flashback from his trainee days.

Mark jerks when someone reaches out to touch him. As he’s feeling trapped in his own skin and has to move.

“I…I…need a moment,” Mark stutters out as he’s already trying to leave the room.

But as he’s heading into the hallway he can hear Jaebum say,

“It’s happening again.”

Mark slows his pace in the hallway as he keeps his head down and listens out.

“Let’s just give him a moment, son.”

“I thought we were doing good. We even went out yesterday---”

“Jaebum, I don’t think he’s ready to take on the schedules with you,” Vivian cuts him off gently.

Silence fills the atmosphere and Mark’s expression falls. As his hand trembles on the door knob of the guest bedroom.

No, if he doesn’t do something then Jaebum will do these schedules alone. And if he’s still sleep walking, there’s no way that Mark wants to leave him alone. Jaebum is such a sweet, good alpha and he wants to protect him and help him in any way that he can.

But would he really be helping or just hindering Jaebum more by staying by his side?

“Mark.”

Mark lifts his head and finds Bam coming closer. You can see on his face that he’s hurting from Mark hurting.

“I’m sorry,” Mark says but Bam shakes his head before taking his hand,

“Nah, don’t be,” He says softly as he opens the guest bedroom and pulls the omega inside.

Bam cuts off any outside noise as it’s just the two of them now.

“You can let it out, I’m listening,” Bam encourages.

Mark’s expression becomes so raw, his hand shaking slightly in Bam’s hold,

“I’m afraid of being me. I’m afraid that being around Bummie or any of you guys for that matter is bad. I shouldn’t have come out…I should’ve stayed hidden.”

Bam lets out a hurt noise as it breaks him to hear that Mark felt that it was safer and better to not be him.

“But it was hurting you, it was hurting us,” Bam is honest.

Mark looks to Bam at hearing those last four words. And he can see Bam’s expression matching his,

“You shouldn’t have to hide yourself, bro.”

“We lost fans, sponsorships, opportunities---”

“So?”

It stops Mark as he can’t believe Bam would be so calm about that. After everything they worked for…

“The ‘fans’ we lost weren't our actual fans so good riddance that they’re gone. But our lovely birdies have stuck by our side through thick and thin and have been waiting for us to come back as one. And yes, we lost some deals and maybe loads of cash that could’ve made us richer. But at what cost? Your happiness? Your freedom? Fuck that, because I don’t want it. The others don’t either. Remember what we talked about last night? When JYP didn’t even believe in us but we did? When everything and everyone at the time was against us? When we had nothing, we had each other. And even if we fail today, right now, right this second, you know what we’ll still have? Each other.”

Bam gives him a warm comforting smile, “Even if we have to start over from scratch, it’ll be ok. We’ve already been trying to build everything up again since we left JYP. it’ll be ok if it takes a while longer. And this time, we don’t have to hold back. We can do it how we want. Live our lives how we want. Together.”

Silent tears fall down Mark’s face as the words are getting through to him,

“Will it really be ok, though?”

You can hear in Mark’s voice how hard his life has been. From his experiences to countless people’s words and actions doing such damage that one doesn’t just heal from the next day. Not when it’s built up for so long.

“Of course,” Bam reassures and Mark lifts his hand to wipe at his tears.

“I feel like all I do is cry lately,” Mark admits but Bam keeps comforting him by lightly nudging against his side,

“Cry, you’ve been holding strong and taking care of others for years. It’s time to heal and love yourself. So cry all you want, no judgement here, man.”

“Thanks,” Mark says and he means it.

Bam offers him another smile and Mark shows one back through the tears.

“Ah, this reminds me of when I posted on social media when I was down. Though everyone got to see Jackson’s reply back, no one saw how you all reached out too. Especially you. You not only called, but texted me straight away. You’re always looking out for me and I always want to do the same for you.”

Mark truly has people that care for him. The six of them that have been there by his side for years now…

Mark starts to feel hopeful again. That maybe, just maybe, it’ll be ok. As long as he has the others…

“If only I didn’t have these feelings on top of everything,” Mark lets out and Bam knows he’s talking about being in love with Jaebum.

“I wish I could help you out with that one. But know you’re not alone.”

“Yeah,” Mark lets out sadly.

“Hey, if it helps, you guys are still trending.”

Trending?

Mark looks confused by that so Bam pulls out his phone to show him,

“Have you not been on social media since you came here?”

Now that he thinks about it, no.

Bam shows him what he means as he looks and finds that he is indeed trending with Jaebum. And it’s due to the video of him surprising Jaebum at his military discharge.

That was days ago! But fuck, that means he’s already been---

Mark’s dark thoughts stop as he takes in the many comments. Of fans from all around the world with the hashtag, Got7. Where they’re all happy and full of smiles. Many were excited that Jaebum was out and that Mark came back to Korea.

Wait, they’re happy that he came back?

None of them talk about being disgusted or hating it. None talk about Mark being an omega either. Just that they’re happy for them. That they’re glad that the members are still close.

Oh…so they don’t suspect anything? Even though he’s a male omega?

“See? You have nothing to worry about. Trust me, every time Yugyeom and I were together, no one ever suspected that I had feelings for him. Not even Yugyeom did. Everyone knows how close we are and grew up together so you’re good.”

But so many people told him when he was growing up…JYP himself even said…

The realization on Mark’s face was full of relief before he suddenly moved towards the door.

“Um…Mark?” Bam asks as he isn’t sure what was happening.

Mark doesn’t stop though as he throws open the door with determination. He even strides with confidence down the hallway and back towards the living room where Jaebum is talking with his Mother. All for Mark to interrupt with a fierce passion,

“Can we post a group photo on my social media too?”

It stops the two in mid conversation before Vivian ends up beaming while Jaebum is left in awe. Bam comes forth with laughter as yep, this was their Mark.

“Sure thing, honey, how do you want us to pose?” Vivian asks as she pulls Mark closer.

Jaebum is shocked further as Mark goes right up to him and sits down beside him. Before holding out his hand for the alpha to take,

“Can I, Bummie?” Mark asks so sweetly and Jaebum melts instantly.

Not hesitating to take Mark’s hand as the omega scoots in closer before they’re practically squished up against each other’s side, their hands intertwined.

“Like this,” Mark says happily as he’s looking at the alpha.

Having no clue what he was doing to Jaebum as he’s malfunctioning. As he’s looking at Mark so preciously. And this is how Vivian takes the photo. With Mark smiling at Jaebum with his two fangs peeking out. Bam laughing at the scene from his spot of standing behind the couch. And Vivian with a proud expression on her face as she captured it all.

And if Vivian ended up taking multiple photos, all of which showed Jaebum leaning in with each frame. Where a huge dorky grin takes over before he’s placing a kiss to Mark’s cheek. Well, the world doesn’t have to see those.

But Mrs. Lim is starting to see that something was blossoming between her son and Mark…

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Yugs: I’m on my way! :D

Bam’s whole face lit up when reading the text from Yugyeom.

He wasn’t backing out and he was even coming to him! Ah! He must be dreaming!

Bam: I can’t wait! I’m literally vibing in my seat!

Bam looked like a snake as he was lightly swaying back and forth with such a big grin on his face.

All before he gets a notification that appears on the top of his phone.

Oh? Mark actually posted the photo?!

Bam is quick to click on it and sure enough, Mark posted the photo they took earlier with the caption,

‘Feels good to be back home.’

He even tagged all the members in a group album as he quickly added more photos of his time out with Yugyeom, Youngjae and Jaebum. As well as photos when Jinyoung was there briefly before he left. And photos of just Bam and him. There was also a photo of Mark and Jackson from their last time spent together before the omega flew over to Korea.

Bam’s smile grows as he doesn’t hesitate to like and comment on the photos, choosing the one of just them two as he replies with,

‘Likewise man!’ With a big heart for all to see.

And it doesn’t take long for fans and people to see it. As many comments and likes were coming through…

Mark holds his phone nervously as he did it. He posted the photo. Of course he added more just to be on the safe side. As well as really wanting to show off his precious members and let them know that he truly appreciated them. And to let the lovely birdies and his family know what he’s been up to.

But man he can’t help these nerves---

Ok, breathe, remember to breathe---

It takes literal seconds and the moment Mark opens his eyes again, he can see people were already liking and commenting. That no one was bashing him or even remotely thought something was going on between Jaebum and him.

Now with the photo with Jackson and Mark…Well, that was a different story as fans and many people speculated that the two were together. But Mark doesn’t pay that any mind as he happily texts Jackson,

Mark: It’s ok! They don’t know! No one suspects a thing! They’re liking it and are encouraging…I can be me, Gaga!

Jackson’s reply is almost immediate,

Jackson: See?! I told you that you had nothing to worry about. I’m happy for you, Yien. Our fans have been very understanding and they’re happy that you can be you. Just like how we want you to be you.

Mark can even see Jackson liking the photos as well as commenting on them. Especially the one of them together,

‘My Yien! Markson forever!’

It isn’t long before the group chat starts going off,

Youngjae: Yah! Who told you that you could go and get all sentimental and cute today?!

Jinyoung: I have my serotonin for the day, thank you.

Yugyeom: It’s not fair, I’m driving so I can’t see. :(

Youngjae: There you go breaking the law again. Lol

Jinyoung: You better put your phone down right now!

Jackson: Does it count the same for me if I have a self driving car?

Jinyoung: Jiaer!

Jackson: I kid I kid. I have a driver as I’m heading to the next schedule.

Bam: Don’t worry Yugs! I’ll call you to let you know the lowdown.

Yugyeom: :D

Mark can’t help but giggle at the silly antics before he sees Jaebum joins in,

Jaebum: I’m proud of you, Mark

Fuck, the way those words make him react. How it cuts off his giggles as he’s currently hiding in the bathroom still. The flush adoring his face and yep, Mark has to squat down against the door as his heart beats so fast.

Jinyoung: Please show us more of you.

Youngjae: Yes! We love seeing your cute side!

Jackson: When you get all cuddly and sweet too.

Bam: How you help us so instinctively and even feed us.

Bam: Yugyeom also seconds on the feeding part because you take care of us so well!

Jaebum: You encourage us to be us, Mark. So let us encourage you to be you.

Bam: Like how you’d get your nails done with me!

Jinyoung: How you helped work out with me and help with my acting

Youngjae: You always uplifted my spirits and went against the haters that would fat shame me back in the day.

Bam: Yugyeom says how you would help us with learning English and guide us when we go to places like America.

Jackson: You’re very supportive too! Always wearing my merch before I can even ask.

Jaebum: He’s worn mine too. Even wore it before the next clothing line would launch.

Jackson: He wore mine on stage that one time too!

Jinyoung: Why does it look like you two are trying to one up the other?

Meanwhile,

Because Jaebum is! Here Jaebum was trying to encourage Mark and hope he’ll let more of himself out. And here Jackson went and had to make him jealous because yes! He doesn’t need to be reminded of how much merch Mark has of his. Or the jewelry he’ll give Mark and that damn cologne he gave him that one time!

And ok, it didn’t help that he had seen the photo of Jackson and Mark and how everyone kept commenting about how much of a couple they are. How they’re perfect for one another, etc. It’s messing with him and only adding fuel to the fire. Especially as no one thought the same thing in the photos with him and Mark.

Is he not boyfriend material for Mark or something?!

Jaebum: Well Mark and I share that red hoodie that I know he still has because he took it to Korea with him and was in his bag.

There, that’ll show Jackson as everyone knows about the famous red hoodie! It’s been shared between them since their trainee days and even if it’s tattered and worn, they keep wearing it.

Mark lets out a noise as he had no idea that Jaebum knew he had taken the hoodie with him to America. Much less, that he knew it was in his bag when he flew back over here! And of course Jackson remembers the red hoodie because Mark took that thing everywhere he went since he moved back to America. Though, only Jackson knows that Mark would wear it in the comfort behind closed doors.

Jackson: It almost got thrown away actually.

Jaebum: What?!

Youngjae: No way!

Bam: Oh snap! Why does this feel like it’s about to go down like it had with chicken wings that time?

Jinyoung: That one was entirely your fault Bam.

Bam: Hey! I admitted to it!

Youngjae: Yeah, years later and on stage so no one could get onto you!

Bam: Yugyeom is laughing away in my ear.

Jackson: It would’ve been by accident! Mark and I shared a hotel that one time and the hoodie got packed up in my bag. That when I arrived back at home, my Mom was doing the laundry and about tossed it. But Mark had called me in a frantic mess as he couldn’t find the hoodie and that’s when I found my Mom and stopped her from trashing it.

Mark lets out a squeak because Jackson did not just out him like that!

Mark: I wasn’t frantic…

He tries to correct but Jackson being Jackson,

Jackson: No, I remember it specifically because you were not only on the verge of tears, you were also going L.A. gangster on me. Because I insisted on packing our bags while I let you sleep in. Which to be fair, I kept you up all night in the romantic city of Paris. So I wanted you to be well rested before we both had to hop on separate flights. You even threatened me that if I didn’t bring you back the hoodie personally in the allotted amount of time that you weren't going to talk to me for months.

Oh my god! Why is Jackson torturing him like this?!

Youngjae: *Inserts the laughing emoji*

Bam: Bro!

Jinyoung: I have to get back to my duties now.

Jinyoung left the group chat…

Jackson: Wait no! Come back!

…

Jackson: I didn’t even get to say goodbye. :(

Jaebum on the other hand is currently going through a wide range of emotions in his studio. He mainly went into here due to needing to do something for the company before his schedules started. But then the photos got posted and he wanted Mark to know how proud he was of him. And that he hoped Mark would continue being able to move forward.

But how in the hell is he supposed to process such information when Jackson made it sound like him and Mark had some romantic time in Paris of all places?! Where he got excited over the hoodie and that Mark had it with him overseas but after reading over and over Jackson’s texts just to make sure he’s not letting his hot headedness take over his judgement…

It really seems like there’s something going on between Jackson and Mark.

Yet it has to mean something with Mark having the hoodie with him though, right?

Right?

Jaebum tries to text Jinyoung but the male beats him to it,

Jinyoung: No, just no, I can’t right now. I know what you’re thinking as I’m already thinking it and I’m not dealing with it right now.

Which is understandable as Jinyoung is fulfilling his military duties and not in the comfort of his own home. So he has to hide his emotions while being surrounded by many people.

But what does Jaebum do? His mind is racing and he knows what he wants to say. He knows what his body wants to do as he has to stop himself from opening up his studio door to go to Mark.

No, he can’t do that. He can’t just tell Mark his thoughts and feelings.

Especially if Jackson and Mark are actually a thing. And asking Mark if they’re a thing and finding out that they are…oh, Jaebum doesn’t know how he’d handle it.

Besides, Mark is finally moving forward with progress and is smiling and laughing. So ain’t no way in hell Jaebum wants to ruin that!

Ok, breathe…calm down…yep…

Jaebum forces himself to sit down. He can hear the dings from the group chat of Jackson whining that Jinyoung was gone and Bam and Youngjae talking with him. Jaebum knows he should reply with something but then he hears the front door ringing.

Oh, Yugyeom must be here,

Jaebum: Yugyeom’s here, gotta go

Jaebum took the out and left the group chat before he said or did anything else stupid. Even making sure to head out the studio so he could greet Yugyeom. But he wasn’t expecting Mark to do the same thing. As he finds Mark leaving the guest bathroom at the same time, the two bump into one another---

They both instinctively reach out to steady the other, both stilling as they pick up on each other’s scent. As they lock eyes and instantly their hearts react. Their touch is warm as it lingers and neither pulls away as if they’re lost in a trance. Like a magnetic pull that keeps drawing them in, wanting to get closer…

“Mark…”

“Bummie…”

The two let out at the same time before they can hear conversation coming from the front of the apartment,

“Bammie!”

“What’s up?!”

They can hear the excitement and cheerfulness in their voices and it brings them back to reality. Where the two pull back even though they were reluctant and Jaebum can feel his fingers slipping from Mark’s body.

“We should go greet him,” Mark says as he’s already ducking his head from blushing.

But Jaebum can only focus on how Mark is already moving away from him. How his hand reaches out in wanting to stop the omega before he manages to hold back, his hand still in the air slightly.

With Mark so unaware of the longing look in the alpha’s eyes. Of the love and devotion he has hidden deep within that so badly wants to come out…

And Jaebum has no idea how hard it was for Mark to move away. How each step felt heavy as he wanted to turn around and go back. How Jaebum’s touch still felt hot on his skin as he craves for more. How his heart aches as he yearns to connect and get closer.

As he tries to force the thoughts and feelings back down to keep under lock and key…

But as time goes on, will it be able to stay that way?

Chapter Text

Bam and Mark hug,

“I miss you already,” Bam frowns as he lightly pats Mark’s back.

Mark smiles softly as he stays in the hug with Bam,

“We’ll see each other again,” The omega reassures and it brings a smile to Bam’s face,

“Yeah? You promise?”

“I do. It won’t be like last time,” Mark states and it makes even Jaebum and Yugyeom smile from their position off to the side.

Mark goes to pull back when Bam is quick to lean in to whisper something so only the omega can hear,

“Anytime you need to vent about him, don’t hesitate to call or text me.”

With that, Bam pulls back as he gives him his signature smile and a little wiggle of his body. It gets Mark to giggle as the other two males pout,

“Aish, what do you two got going on?” Yugyeom whines in jealousy.

Just like how Jaebum is already trying to glue himself to Mark’s back with the need to touch,

“Yeah, what did you say that had Mark reacting like that?” Jaebum would like to know.

Bam laughs as he finds Yugyeom pulling him to his side, reminding him of when the male used to be so possessive over him. How he didn’t want to share his best friend and let others get in between them.

It was nice and Bam easily falls back in his place besides Yugyeom,

“Wouldn’t you like to know,” Bam teases as he even throws in a wink towards the two.

It has Mark laughing again, his smile growing before Jaebum’s phone goes off,

“It’s probably my manager again.”

“We’ll get going then. Good luck guys, fighting!” Yugyeom instantly goes back to being cheerful as he’s always supportive of his hyungs.

“Thanks,” Mark replies as he waves at the two with Jaebum seeing them out despite his phone ringing.

It’s not even an hour later when Mark receives a notification that Bam posted on social media. The omega smiles as it’s a photo of Bam and Yugyeom hanging out at Yugyeom’s parent’s restaurant. And you can see how happy Bam was to be close to Yugyeom again. That Yugyeom even sat next to him in the booth and they’re smiling away.

‘I missed this…us…’ Bam posted above the photo as the caption.

Mark hearts the photo and though he doesn’t say anything, Bam knows that the omega was happy for him. And that he understood what he’s going through.

The omega goes to leave social media when he can’t help but think,

‘Did Jaebum like his photos?’

He knows that the alpha saw them from how he messaged in the group chat. But did he see the video of them trending too?

Mark looks up briefly from his spot in the living room. Jaebum was still in his studio working so it would be safe to look.

The cats seem to sense Mark’s nerves as they come to curl around him on the couch. Mark biting his lower lip as he pulls up the video that he admits that he’s watched way too many times to count. But how could he not? When Jaebum looked so damn attractive for one and two, the alpha’s smile…

Ok, calm down beating heart!

His scent was going to give away how much a simple video affected him if he didn’t stop now. But Mark takes a chance to look down and back at the comments, his breath hitching as Jaebum not only hearted the fan’s video…

He commented on it,

‘It made me so happy to see him again. Like a dream come true.’

Stop! Jaebum wasn’t allowed to go being the sap that he is! For now his heart is beating such a rhythm, his stomach getting that butterfly feeling and---

Mark lets out a noise as he can’t help it before flinging his body down against the pillows of the couch. The cats scatter from the sudden movement before peeking out from their hiding spots to check up on what could be happening.

And that Mark is having a hard time containing his emotions.

What is he? Some fanboy?! Yes, he so is and it’s not fair as his feelings keep growing. As he wants to be more; as he wants to get closer to the alpha in so many ways. Especially now as he keeps glancing down the hallway and hoping Jaebum will come out of his studio soon.

Did Jaebum comment on the photos of them together?

Mark shouldn’t look but the urge is too strong and now he’s pulling up the photos he posted. His heart refusing to calm down as he lays on his side and is afraid to even breathe---

Jaebum did! Even the one where his mother tagged them in too!

‘I’ll always keep the nest safe so you can keep coming home.’

He answered Mark's caption to the photo album. And the second comment on Mrs. Lim’s photo only made his heart react more,

‘I hope I get more moments like this.’

Just reading that made Mark want to please Jaebum and do that. However many photos or videos. Mark would be so eager to please just to see the alpha happy and smiling. To hear his laughter and more of his praise. To be able to read such sappy and passionate comments even though he’s not meaning it in the way that the omega wants him to.

But Mark can dream…

Jaebum, Jaebum, Jaebum

Yep, the urges are growing and this is why Mark tried to stay away. But his omega instincts were right at the surface and wanting to come out. Not wanting to be suppressed as Mark really wants to be close to the alpha right now.

But he’s working! He’s in professional mode! Mark needs to be good and not disturb him---

The omega can’t stop himself as he just needs to check up on him. That should be fine right? Just one peek and then he’ll be satisfied and can cure this itch he has thrumming under his skin.

Mark feels naughty as he tip toes towards the studio door. His hand already reaching out to touch the door knob…

Meanwhile,

Jaebum is in work mode. His reading glasses are on as he’s looking over paperwork and making sure everything was set to go. He already answered emails and talked with his manager about the finalized schedule. And he was pleased when Mark’s company put up no issue and the omega was set to follow Jaebum’s schedule. Of course, the alpha would share his profits as he’d pay every damn dollar he had if it kept Mark by his side. But Mark’s company requires money for things in order to operate so Jaebum didn’t hesitate to accept the conditions. Though Mark will not be happy with that once he realizes. But the alpha hopes to keep Mark distracted so they won’t backtrack. Because Mark is so worth it. Whatever he can do to help him heal and keep moving forward, he wants to do it. Besides, the foreign line already contributed one percent of what they made while Jaebum and Jinyoung are/were in military service so the alpha wants to pay Mark back in any way he can. None of them had to do that. But they all agreed upon it since military service is a requirement in Korea and they wanted to help and pushed themselves harder to help provide for their members. Even Youngjae and Yugyeom joined in as the others will all do the same once the two are enlisted as well.

Jaebum stops what he’s doing as he here he goes thinking about Mark again. How though Mark went back to America and has been struggling. He knew the moment after that talk about providing one percent of their earnings, that Mark truly pushed himself to obtain more money. He took brand deals, sponsorships, more modeling, fashion shows, etc. He even did twitch streaming when he was supposed to be at home relaxing with his family just to bring in some extra cash. He collaborated with other female artists and went from one schedule to the next, nonstop. All while still taking the time to support the group members and showing up when they needed it most.

God, Mark was such a blessing and Jaebum could never thank the omega enough.

And now it was his turn to show Mark…

Mark, Mark, Mark

The alpha wants to see him. He wants to hear his voice, his laughter. To see those eyes locking with his. To have him close and feel his touch.

Just one peek, one moment…

Jaebum is already turning in his chair as he can’t fight the urge growing. His body is already moving as he’s about to get up when the door knob turns and he finds the door opening.

Taking in Mark in all his glory. No make up, no fancy clothes, just him and his natural beauty. The way those eyes shine brightly, his expression soft as they lock eyes and his voice so sweet,

“Bummie…”

Jaebum can’t stop the words as they come right out,

“Hey darling.”

Darling?

The alpha realizes what he said and he’s unsure of how to proceed. Looking like a dork as he’s a fumbling mess when he shoots up to a stand. Worried that Mark might leave---

But the way Mark reacts to that, the awe written on his face, as a beautiful flush blooms next. As the omega part of him purrs at the pet name and wants to hear more. Jaebum can even pick up on Mark’s scent growing sweeter.

So maybe Jaebum doesn’t stop himself this time when he says,

“Can I call you that?”

Would you want to be my darling?

Was it ok to keep doing something like this? To not hold back?

Mark’s fingers go to mess with the door frame as he fights with himself to not move closer. But it was hard when Jaebum was already heading towards him. As the alpha stops before him; that mint chocolate scent luring him in. Those fingers that are gracing his body and Mark is already leaning in subconsciously, his fingers needing to touch the alpha back,

“You sure it wasn’t a slip of the tongue?” Mark asks as his heart is hoping for something.

Anything that he can latch onto like Jaebum will magically return his feelings.

“Cause Jackson he…he slipped up one time and called Lay baby…” Mark tries to get his thoughts out but it’s hard when Jaebum is pulling him into the studio.

His touch so warm and his scent surrounding him and filling his mind with nothing but the alpha.

“Not when it’s you,” Jaebum breathes out against his ear.

Mark has to bite back the sound that wants to escape. As he’s hallucinating and taking this all the wrong way. But boy was it hard not to fall into this dreamlike state,

“Please I…” Mark almost begs so sweetly for more.

Almost lets it slip that he needs more; that he needs this alpha.

“You can,” Mark manages to get out and the omega can feel Jaebum’s smile against his face.

“Thank you, my darling,” Jaebum says with such a soothing, deep tone.

Mark’s scent spikes sweeter and the alpha can feel his fingers trembling. Making Jaebum take a hold of Mark’s hands and intertwine their fingers as they remain close. Jaebum continuing to whisper against Mark’s ear,

“You like it when I call you darling,” It’s a statement even though it comes out breathlessly.

As it’s affecting Jaebum in so many ways. Like he can imagine that they’re together. That they’ve already confessed their feelings to one another and were strengthening their bond.

But Mark wasn’t in love with him…

He wasn’t Jackson…

Yet if there was a chance, a moment, something, then Jaebum wants every second of it.

Even if it’s just in his head…

Before Mark could answer, his phone went off now. It breaks the moment, bringing the two back to reality as they take a step back. Mark reaches into his pocket for his phone and they both see that Jackson was calling.

Jaebum feels his heart tug, a final squeeze of Mark’s hand before he lets go as he knows the omega will answer the call.

But to his surprise, he finds Mark looking back up at him,

“I won’t take long, so can I hangout with you in your studio?” Mark sounds hopeful.

Jaebum’s heart soars, the smile coming right back as he’s nodding like a dork,

“I’m looking forward to it.”

It has Mark smiling too, a giggle coming forth,

“Me too, Bummie.”

The phone ringing ends but neither move yet as they stare at one another. Their smiles are so genuine and just for the other. And when Jaebum reaches back out to brush his fingers along Mark’s, he finds the omega latching on,

“On second thought, let me text Jackson that I’ll call him later.”

As Mark doesn’t want to part from this alpha.

Oh Mark shouldn’t spoil him like this for it’ll make it harder to resist. As it feels like Mark was picking him over Jackson. But he must be imagining things. Even as Mark does just what he said. Even as Jaebum moves him further into his studio.

Even as the two get lost in one another. Getting lost in the passions that they shared. Sitting close, bodies having to touch in some way. Their conversation going from business to schedules, to playful and back to work. Taking breaks and even then, they’re glued to one another. Even in the silence as one reads while the other focuses on a task at hand, it’s comfortable. It’s light, it's warm, it feels so right.

And what’s ironic is that it feels like old times. It feels like all those times they’ve been by each other’s side. Almost as if telling them that it’s always been like this. So simple, so easy, so natural to fall in love with the other.

That it’s always been them.

That their true love was right beside them all along.

And it’s only become more prominent since they had parted when their contract ended with JYP.

And now as they’ve come back together again, it’s clear to see that these thoughts and feelings will never change.

It’s only going to make things harder…

It’s going to make one lose control and cross over that line…

But neither want to stop…not even when nightfall comes around and Mark finds himself in a similar situation as the night before.

Where Jaebum is sleep walking again after they both fell asleep in the alpha’s studio.

With Mark waking up to Jaebum going down on him…

Chapter Text

Jaebum to Jinyoung:

I know it’s the crack ass of dawn but I have to let it out somehow. About a dream I had that I’m telling you, Jinyoung, it felt so damn real. It was about Mark…

“Oh…fuck…” Mark moans out, his eyelashes fluttering.

Mark was feeling good, too good and he didn’t understand why. He remembers being on the studio couch and sitting next to Jaebum. He also remembers how late it was and that they should really try and get some sleep before their schedules started bright and early. But neither wanted to end the conversation. That is, until Mark must’ve fallen asleep first.

The omega doesn’t know how much time has passed but as he opens his eyes, he knows he’s still in the studio. As his fingers grip a hold of the couch and his hips try to rise. All just to find hands keeping him spread by his inner thighs.

And a tongue that licks a fat stripe over his tight heat---

“Oh!” Mark’s body trembles, his scent spiking as he finds he’s not only hard, he’s dripping slick.

As a tongue keeps working over his hole and making him release another breathy moan,

“Wait---” Mark tries as his brain can’t catch up to what’s going on at the moment yet.

As his body is being taken over by pleasure when his mind is still trying to wake up from sleep. But then he hears a low growl that has Mark moaning verbally. And a deep voice that he knows all too well,

“Mine…”

Fuck, did he sound so possessive as his actions proved it. With those hands kneading and groping his flesh. All while diving back down to eat him out. Not even hesitating to slip his tongue inside with two fingers.

Mark’s back arches, head thrown back as his moaning gets louder. As he’s definitely awake now and his cock flushes a pretty red with a string of precum beading at the tip.

“Bummie…please…I can’t…fuck!”

Mark’s nails dig into the cushions, his thighs quivering as the omega can’t function properly to stop this. As a voice in the back of his head tells him he needs to stop this. But he can’t. Not when it feels this good, this right. Not when he’s going right into his head space with his omega instincts coming out so naturally.

“Alpha!”

Jaebum lets out a pleased groan from hearing Mark call him that. As it vibrates along Mark’s greedy hole which Jaebum presses kisses against.

Like wow, just wow. Who knew an alpha could go to town on him like that? Where he’s not even hesitating and eating him out like he was some fine dining. As Jaebum is getting drunk off his slick and groaning in pleasure himself. His cock hard as he slowly ruts against the couch as he continues to pleasure Mark.

As Mark doesn’t even realize that his body is marked up in all sorts of love marks, his shirt bunched up towards his armpits. His bottoms were long since thrown somewhere with the alpha’s own hoodie as Jaebum must’ve been loving on his body for a while now. And Mark can feel it as he’s so close already. As his body is ready to release and let go; to come apart for the alpha before him.

“Fuck…Bummie…No…I’m gonna…I’m trying…oh shit…shit…cumming!”

Mark reaches out to cling, his one hand gripping the back of the couch, the other tangling in Jaebum’s hair. All while his thighs clamp around the alpha’s head. Jaebum groaning as so much slick oozes out and Mark’s cock spurts cum onto his stomach. With Mark letting out constant breathy sounds, his body convulsing and toes curling.

Mark’s body slumps back onto the couch, his breathing harsh as he needs a second to come back down. Yet Jaebum chooses this time to sit up, locking gazes with him even though you can tell that the alpha wasn’t fully awake. Not with how his eyes were glossed over but fuck, it was still doing things to Mark. Making him feel like Jaebum was looking right at him, only him, and with his movements, it almost felt like he was awake.

That this was real and not some dream or medical condition…

And the way Jaebum held that eye contact all while licking at his fingers in such a sexual, sensual fashion? Oh it had Mark whimpering with need.

Just look at this sexy, chic and shirtless alpha. Showing off all those muscles and happy trail that went down into the sweats that hung low off the v of his hips.

Of how Jaebum moaned as he continued to taste Mark on his tongue. Reminding Mark of what just went down…

A fresh line of slick oozes out, the omega’s cock still hard. Just like Jaebum’s was. As he can see the outline of it through the alpha’s pants.

And Mark wants, god he fucking wants so bad!

It doesn’t help how easily you could fall into this fantasy. How easily the omega reacts to the alpha before him,

“Alpha…” Mark calls out as he’s ready to beg so sweetly.

Yet he manages to bite his lip to try and stop himself. But Jaebum doesn’t make it any easier. Not when he’s still looking at him with such heated passion. All while he takes his free hand and pulls his pants down, revealing his cock that stood tall and proud.

And taking his hand that’s still covered in Mark’s slick to stroke himself off…

Talk about a hot as fuck sight to see,

“Baby,” Jaebum calls out and Mark reacts in both bliss and jealousy.

Because why can’t he be the one?

Why does it have to be her?

He wants to have Jaebum’s heart.

But even if it’s like this, even if just a moment, he wants it,

He needs it…

“Bummie…” Mark calls out as he reaches his arms out.

As he spreads his legs to entice the alpha back to him,

“Take me…love me…” Mark pleads with that look in his eyes, his expression full of want and need.

Use me…choose me…

And Jaebum doesn’t hesitate as he goes right into Mark’s arms. As his nose brushes right along Mark’s scent glad that’s hidden underneath his collar. His hips grinding down, their cocks brushing and both were turning into a moaning mess.

Where it feels like Jaebum is just as desperate as him. As if he can’t get inside fast enough because the need to connect is so strong. His cock slipping in Mark’s slick and the omega whines in such need.

“Please…” Mark keeps repeating the word even as his heart beats so fast.

Even though he shouldn’t, he can’t stop. Even if this made him some whore, he didn’t care. Not when Jaebum was all over him like this. As Mark helps him get out of his pants. As Jaebum isn’t afraid to manhandle Mark into position.

As the alpha’s cock was right there, the tip trying to press in---

Just like this…

“Yes…do it…inside…push your cock inside…need you alpha…wanted you for so long…fuck…don’t stop…Fuuccckkk---”

His hole matches the beating of his heart. His body on fire and so wet for this alpha. The omega braces himself as it knocks the breath out of him. As the moment Jaebum’s cock pops inside, it’s like a switch is flipped inside of the alpha.

Taking him on a ride as he fucks like a wild animal…

Mark can barely catch his breath, sounds being knocked out of him with each thrust. His greedy cunt squelching as Jaebum dives his cock back inside. Over and over again, groaning and grunts filling the studio walls. Hands possessive as they grab a hold of Mark’s hips, keeping the omega in place and forcing him to just take.

To take the onslaught of pleasure. Of Jaebum’s cock carving inside of Mark and hitting his sweet spot. Pounding away with abandon as Mark’s body trembles in bliss.

“Yes!...Yes!...Alpha!...There!...Right there!”

Mark’s fingers slip on their hold of Jaebum’s arms as his body was folded in half. The omega watching where the two of them were connecting. Of Jaebum’s cock going in and out. Mark’s walls clamping down with each thrust. Slick oozing past as the alpha can’t get enough. Groaning in time with him as his expression shows how good he’s feeling.

All while he keeps looking at him. That heated and passionate gaze is strong even when sleep walking.

And god does it do things to him. Making it feel like it’s real---

“Fuck…Bummie…can feel you…” Mark has tears in his eyes from feeling so good.

From being overflowed with everything of Jaebum. And it doesn’t help that he can feel the alpha pulsing inside of him. That he’s growing thicker as he’s about to cum.

“Oh shit…you’re gonna cum inside…fuck…I want you to cum inside…please…please…give it to me…alpha I want it…cum in me…cum with me…cumming…Bummie I’m---”

The moment he feels his hot seed, Mark can’t help it as he’s cumming too. As Jaebum leans forward, wrapping an arm around the omega’s waist as he shoves his cock as deep as it can go. Releasing inside and groaning against Mark’s neck. Mark cumming so hard that he can’t even voice it as he blacks out with pleasure…

All for Mark to come back to with Jaebum still inside of him and snoring away in his neck.

Whelp…

It was like water washing over him and Mark tries to school his expression.

Ok, clean up first, wallow in misery later. So Mark does just that. Cleaning up the studio and praying he didn’t stain the couch with his slick. He was able to get Jaebum mostly situated as he got the alpha back in his sweats and his shirt back on. He needed to do a bit more cleaning but when he felt Jaebum’s cum come out into his underwear, yep, Mark needed to take care of himself now.

He would need to take a shower and he could do that fast before coming back to finish the task. So without further ado, he goes to do that. Totally not expecting Jaebum to actually wake up while he’s in the guest bathroom though!

But it’s Jackson’s fault as he decided to call Mark because whoops, the omega forgot to call him back after texting hours ago that he would. Not even caring what time it was as Jackson wanted to check on Mark to make sure he was good.

So you could only imagine the gasp Mark let out in between the shower running and Jackson talking away, when the omega heard the studio door close behind him.

“Mark?” Jaebum calls out.

“Yien?” Jackson calls out with concern at the same time into his ear, but Mark was too busy trying to still his beating heart.

Jaebum was awake?! What does he do?! What does he say?! What if he comes to the bathroom as the evidence was still all over him and in him?!

He’s trying to think of what to do but Jackson is so loud as he lets out,

“Is it Jaebum? Is he slee---” that Mark fears Jaebum is going to hear it.

“Jackson!” Mark is quick to cut him off before he stands there frozen for a moment.

Listening out, for surely Jaebum was going to confront him---

Thump

Thump

Thump

A sound of another door is heard as it was down some ways in the hallway. Alerting Mark that the alpha went into his own bedroom.

Oh?

Did Jaebum not think anything of it? Was he safe?

Mark isn’t taking any chances as he makes sure the bathroom door was locked before telling Jackson they have to text and to give him ten minutes.

And while Mark is making sure to wash as much evidence down the drain as possible, Jaebum is holed up in his bedroom texting Jinyoung.

Telling him all about his dream he just had…

The dream that wasn’t really a dream at all…

Chapter Text

Jinyoung: So you woke me up at the crack ass of dawn just to send a whole story of your wet dream? Who are you? Bam?

Jaebum pouts cutely as he texts back,

Jaebum: I’m being serious here!

Jinyoung: I know because you literally waxed poetry about Mark where Bam would be describing the man’s dick.

Jaebum: I’m telling you that it felt so real! I’ve had several dreams about Mark since he’s come back to Korea. But this one um…I actually came from it.

At least, that’s what it definitely looked like as he stares down at his sweats and still felt somewhat sticky. He’s going to need a shower but that’s not what’s important right now. What matters is the fact that he had a wet dream with Mark right there! Because when Mark fell asleep, Jaebum couldn’t resist the urge to cuddle so he did and ended up going right into dreamland.

So did Mark wake up and feel his boner or something? Did he let out embarrassing sounds in his sleep? Oh god, what if he slipped up and said his name in his sleep?!

Jaebum had worried when he woke up and found Mark wasn’t there, so in his hurry, he went to search for him. Just to hear the shower running and Mark calling out Jackson’s name…

Nope, no, he’s not going to let his mind wander on that one. He’s just going to hope that Mark woke up before his embarrassing moment and had been on the phone with Jackson prior.

Why did that not make him feel any better?

A text comes through that pulls Jaebum from his thoughts,

Jinyoung: I don’t know what you want me to say…Congrats? But I’m sure knowing you, you’re being tormented right now so you need reassurance, but Jaebum, I can’t give you any. Does it help that I’ve had dreams about Jackson? No, especially not the ones where Jackson is my kissing partner. So you have to remember that it’s not reality. It’s a dream…and that’s all it’ll ever be.

Damn Jinyoung really knew him too well.

Jaebum: Even if it’s only in my dreams, I hope it continues.

Because in his dreams, Mark returns his feelings. Mark wants him, no needs him! He feels the same and it’s such an elated feeling. The warmth that comes forth and goes right to his heart. Overtaking the sexual pleasure as Mark has always meant more than just some mere attraction.

If only it could be real…

The event from yesterday suddenly comes to mind---

Jaebum: I accidentally called him darling yesterday.

The reply is almost immediate,

Jinyoung: What?! You brushed it off like it was nothing, right?

But Jinyoung knows him too well as he knows what Jaebum is going to say before he texts it out,

Jinyoung: You told him you meant it, didn’t you?

Jaebum runs a hand through his hair before typing,

Jaebum: He asked me if I said it by mistake, even brought up Jackson calling Lay baby by mistake. But I told him the truth and he…he liked it. I wasn’t dreaming that.

Jinyoung: You must've hit your head. Are you sure you’re not morphing your dreams with reality now?

Jaebum: This was yesterday afternoon! Jackson even called but Mark didn’t answer and wanted to spend more time with me. It was almost like he chose me…like he’s been wanting to get closer to me.

Jinyoung: You need sleep…oh wait…that’s what you should’ve been doing and yet here we are texting.

Jaebum: What if Jackson is Mark’s bias but I’m his bias wrecker?

Jinyoung: Yep, I’m going back to sleep for the last thirty minutes I have. I suggest you do the same before the start of your schedules.

Jaebum: Wait, no!

But Jinyoung does not reply and Jaebum throws himself backwards onto the bed. How is he supposed to handle these thoughts?! There ain’t no way he’s going back to sleep so he might as well clean himself up and get started on his day early.

Just how was he gonna face Mark after though?

Meanwhile,

Mark: First off, no, he wasn’t sleep walking. He was actually awake. We fell asleep in the studio last night. It’s why I didn’t get a chance to call you back, I’m sorry. ><

Jackson: Ah, so that’s why we’re texting now.

Mark: Yes, I had woken up before him and decided to shower to get the day started but he woke up shortly after me. And you almost blurted it out for him to hear!

Jackson: I’m sorry!!!!! I was just concerned, Yien! Please don’t be mad. T-T

Mark can’t help but smile for he knows that Jackson is animating what he’s texting as they speak.

Mark: Everything’s good, we just have to be more careful.

Mark was finishing up getting ready as he’s in the guest bedroom now.

Jackson: By the way, I might’ve googled what Jaebum’s condition could be when you hung up the phone earlier. And he could very well have Sexsomnia.

Oh my god, Jackson did not put that in his google search history!

Mark: It has a name?!

Which means that it could easily explain what’s been happening at night. Mark doesn’t even get a chance to put down the phone as Jackson texts back,

Jackson: Yeah, it says though it’s rare, it can be triggered from stress, fatigue, sleep deprivation, drug or alcohol use which I doubt in Jaebum’s case. But, the last two triggers, they seem mighty plausible. Which are intimate relationship difficulties as he did break up with that one woman after dating her for nine months and she was his longest relationship since being in this business. And close physical contact with a bed partner, which in your case, Markiepooh, falling asleep next to him and cuddling when asleep.

Meaning Mark was right and that Jaebum is only doing these things to him because he’s right there when the alpha was asleep. And that he’s most likely seeing her just like his bad thoughts keep telling him.

It means nothing like how he wishes it to mean…

Jackson: It also states that the person does sexual acts not of their control and has no recollection of it. Some cases show that the person can become violent during sexual acts as well…

Mark is quick to reply to that one,

Mark: He has not been violent any of the times it’s happened.

Jackson: But is that because you’re willing? What happens if you don't want it? Or he took it too far?

This also verifies Mark’s worries on if the omega wasn’t there during Jaebum’s schedules, what would happen? What if someone else got involved? Jaebum’s whole life could be ruined in a blink of an eye.

But he could also ruin Jaebum’s life if this got out that he’s involved with the alpha…

He needs to tell him, but how? When’s the best time? What can he say?

Mark: Are we sure there might not be something else happening?

It’s not like they’re doctors here so just going off of google isn’t the smartest idea.

Jackson: I don’t know what else to do! Tell me, did it happen again? Because if it did, Yien, even if I have to fly to Jaebum myself, I’m not letting you put yourself through this just for his sake.

Mark stares down at the text. His heart was torn on what to do. Because if he tells Jackson the truth, he won’t be able to stay by Jaebum’s side. Jaebum will find out and then he’ll lose him.

Just like how he lost him to that woman for nine months…

He can’t…he doesn’t want to leave the alpha’s side. Forcing himself to stay away as long as he did was torturous enough and now that he’s back next to him…now that he’s had a taste of Jaebum’s love…fuck…maybe he’s the losing his mind. Maybe he’s in such denial that Jaebum isn’t even sleep walking or whatever you want to call it.

Maybe Mark is going feral and he’s hallucinating all of this…

And yet Mark doesn’t want it to stop…

Suppressing oneself for so long was bad in so many ways. Physically, mentally…that now that he’s letting himself come out more and more freely, it was hard to stop it. As he finds his fingers already texting back to Jackson,

Mark: No, he didn’t do anything last night.

The lie came so easy even though the thoughts of last night are right there at the forefront of his mind. Reminding him of how they connected. Of how Mark is already craving for more.

Fuck, this was bad. This is why he tried to stay away. Knowing once it starts coming out, he won’t be able to stop it. He can’t control the omega side of him that he’s put under such lock and key…

Jackson: The moment, and I mean the moment it does, if it does! You need to tell me.

Tell him Mark, tell Jackson. Hell, tell Jaebum! Stop this before it gets out of control---

Mark: I will, Gaga, but everything is fine and I’m happy going on these schedules with him.

This one wasn’t a lie as he enjoys being with Jaebum. As he wants to continue spending time with him. Whether more of those ‘moments’ happen or not. He truly just wants to remain by the alpha’s side.

And loving him silently…

They talk for a bit longer but soon the day had to get started. Where Jaebum spent some time with his cats before his manager came to pick them up. Both unable to properly address anything as they were whisked away and back into the hectic life schedule they’re used to having. Where no embarrassment or thoughts could fully take place as they were taken to one place to the next. Talking and dealing with staff, body guards, the manager, and all sorts of strangers. From having to change make up to outfits, bright lights in their faces to interviews, etc. They barely had time to stop and eat, much less a moment to think.

But it did good for them as then they couldn’t think about the love they held for one another. They couldn’t think about those dirty thoughts or how even in the same room, the two longed for each other. Stealing glances when the other wasn’t looking. Their bodies touching one way or another just to remind them that this is real. That they’re still here beside them. And the small moments they do have a break, they always migrate to the other. Using that time to bond, even if it’s in comfortable silence. To sharing food or drinks. To get a smile or laugh out of the other. To just be in their presence before the next schedule.

It continued like that for weeks…

And not one of those nights did Jaebum sleep walk….

Chapter Text

“A Got7 comeback? I…I’m not sure…It would be hard this year,” Jaebum is honest as he’s currently doing a live for his fans, “I’m sorry.”

With everyone’s schedules, Jinyoung still having a few months to go in the military and just finding time to come up with an album…it would be nearly impossible. Though it was on the band members mind, trust me. They’ve been wanting to come together again, not just for the fans but for each other. It’s just that the time hasn’t been right. And with Mark’s mental health, Jaebum doesn’t want to push anything until they’re all ready.

But he can see in the background when he glances off to the side how it’s already affecting Mark. How the omega is curled up and giving this heartbreaking look. And it pulls at Jaebum’s heartstrings as he doesn’t even think twice and reaches out,

“Mark, come here,” Jaebum gently urges.

Mark shakes his head no as he tries to curl up further under the blankets but the alpha refuses to let him hide.

“Come say hi to our lovely birdies,” He keeps trying as he gets up to go to him.

“But you’re supposed to be promoting your new album,” Mark pouts cutely as he doesn’t want to interfere with that.

Jaebum takes Mark’s hands in his as he tugs him up to a stand,

“I can still do that with you by my side,” Jaebum reassures with a sincere smile.

But Mark was nervous as he’s already been next to Jaebum this long. As he shouldn’t even be involved with Jaebum’s new album and yet he has been there every step of the way so far. And he’s scared he might’ve hindered Jaebum, but the alpha still remains so sweet and caring towards him.

And continues to surprise him as when Jaebum goes to sit back down in front of his phone, he pulls Mark right into his lap.

“Bummie…” Mark lets out shyly as he ducks his head and tries to hide against the alpha’s broad shoulder.

Jaebum beams away though, especially as he takes in the comments popping up like crazy. Making him lean in to whisper into Mark’s ear,

“Look Darling, they’re happy to see you.”

Mark lets out a pleased noise from hearing that pet name again before registering the words. His head lifting as he takes a peek himself. Sure enough, he takes in the many comments that keep going by so fast,

Mark!

*heart* *heart* *heart*

Ah! It’s Mark!

Mark is still in Korea?!

Is he staying with you?

He’s so cute!

Adorable!

So handsome!

Mark! Mark! Mark!

Our prince!

How have you been?

We missed you!

Mark is liking the positivity that he doesn’t hide anymore and actually shows off his two little fangs in a smile,

“I missed you guys too,” He lets out sweetly.

Jaebum is cooing away, his expression so soft for the omega as he can’t stop watching him. Loving the fact that Mark is letting out his scent more too and has come out of his shell so much since he first came back to Korea.

What have you been up to?

What have you two been doing?

Will you be coming out with an album too?

Mark takes in more comments as he takes a moment to think of what he wants to say,

“Um…I’ve been staying with Bummie and spending time with the others. I missed them a lot.”

You can tell Mark is nervous about speaking what’s on his mind with the way his fingers mess with the material on Jaebum’s clothing. But you can also tell that Mark wants to connect with his fans so he’s trying to push past his nerves.

We’re happy for you!

Take all the time that you need!

We don’t mind waiting!

Fighting!

We love seeing updates about you guys, especially moments of you all together!

Or even with members that can meet up and spend time together!

We will always love and support you!

“Even though I’m an omega?” Mark can’t help but let out before he can stop himself.

Instantly, you can see Mark’s eyes go wide as he felt he shouldn’t have asked that. But then the comments come pouring in,

You’re still you, Mark!

We’re happy that you can be you!

You’re perfect the way you are!

Thank you for coming out in such a toxic industry! You’ve given hope to so many other omegas and people out there.

You allow us to be us, so of course we want you to be you.

You’re so brave!

Show us more of you!

Mark beams and it’s such a breathtaking sight as the omega truly appreciates their fans and their kind and supporting words. Where Mark feared there would be a lot of hate and disgust but there wasn’t any in the group chat right now. Even as the fans coming into the live grew with word that spread about Mark also being in the live with Jaebum. And the alpha takes notice of that as he whispers into his ear while pointing it out,

“You see that? You’re doing that, not me. They’re here for you.”

Mark can’t believe it as more and more fans are commenting with his name in it. The awe on his face gives it away before Mark is looking away to look at the alpha. Like he can’t believe this was real. But Jaebum squeezes his thigh in comfort,

“They never left that day when we all walked out together hand in hand.”

Oh…OH…it takes a second for it to settle in but when it does, it truly sets in that this was real.

He doesn’t have to hold back anymore. He doesn’t have to hide who he is. He’s not in that toxic company anymore. He’s not in such environments growing up where he needed to blend into the background. He can share and express his passions solo and with his band members.

“I can be me,” Mark says as it clicks and Jaebum nods with a growing smile on his face.

Matching Mark’s happiness and excitement before the omega is turning towards the phone,

“Thank you,” Mark lets out as he’s so happy.

A giggle coming forth as he can’t contain it and it melts Jaebum’s heart. All before Mark shows how sweet of an omega he is,

“Ah, but we can’t forget about Bummie. It’s thanks to him that I’m able to be myself. He’s the reason I wanted to come out as me in the first place. He’s done so much for me since the start and even now…he’s such a great alpha and leader.”

Jaebum takes this in as he had no idea he was the reason. He assumed it was Jackson who helped coax Mark out into revealing who he was.

“He’s been working so hard too, not just for us, but our wonderful fans as well. So please support our leader with his new album and tour. I was lucky and was able to be beside him during his journey of putting it together, so I know he put his heart and soul into it just like he does with everything.”

Mark doesn’t stop there either as he keeps going on and on about Jaebum. And the alpha was eating it all up, enjoying every second of Mark interacting with the fans and talking about him. Where the omega had no idea how hard it was not to do the things he wanted to do. As he had to hold himself back from the words he wanted to say; his hands twitching in wanting to perform actions that he knows he can’t.

But god did Mark look breathtaking being so happy and smiling. To those giggles and his eyes shining so brightly. Of how Mark would give shy wiggles of his body while he takes a moment to make sure he’s got the right words before speaking again. Letting you know that he means every word as he knows how powerful words can be.

And if Mark doesn’t stop soon, Jaebum is going to snap and kiss the omega in front of thousands of people---

“How long do I plan on staying in Korea?” Mark repeats the question that brings the alpha back down to Earth.

Crashing this fantasy between them as he soon realizes how precious time was once more. And how Mark would eventually be going back to America whether he liked it or not.

“Um…” Mark lets out as his expression becomes sad at that as well, “I do want to go to one of Bummie’s shows before I head back but yeah, I’ll be returning back to America soon.”

So Mark didn’t plan on going on tour with him…

Jaebum tries to school his expression as he doesn’t want Mark to feel bad. Because of course the omega would want to eventually go back home to his family and get back to his own schedules. Maybe now, he’ll take on more offers and not be afraid to show more of himself. To live his life how he wants to---

Yet this feeling kept building inside of him…that same feeling he had that day when he saw Mark off before he got on that plane…

A feeling that he has a hard time holding back. As even the fans can see it on his face of how he didn’t want to see Mark leave his side again…

The live soon ended and Jaebum had excused himself for a moment. Which was fine, because Mark too, needed his own moment. Where reality was trying to crash around him. Reminding him that Jaebum’s tour literally started next week. And tomorrow, his album will be released and all the promotional shows and things he’s done will start airing. On top of him going to perform one of his songs live for the world to see.

And Mark knows it has nothing to do with him and it never will, but man, do the songs hurt to hear. Songs that Mark knows Jaebum wrote about his ex. The alpha didn’t have to tell him either. As he watched him in the recording studio. As he listened to every lyric, every word cutting him deep.

And when he went to sing Cloud Nine…

Mark had to step out during that one. Claiming that he had an important call to take about work. All so he could try and get a grip on himself. As he needed to be supportive and he’s proud of the alpha. He made sure to show that because Jaebum was very talented and his voice was that deep, soothing tone that the world needed to hear. He didn’t hesitate to praise him and give him feedback when he asked. Listening to the other songs along with him as the alpha really wanted to know his opinion and make them perfect.

Yet at the same time, Mark doesn’t want this to reach anyone else’s ears, especially not her. Afraid that she’ll hear it and know before trying to crawl back into Jaebum’s life. What then?

Mark doesn’t want to think about it. Instead, he tried to focus on how Jaebum’s personal music has always been like his journal. Music has been his way of venting and releasing his inner thoughts and feelings. Something he has every right to do and Mark will always continue to support that and what he wants to do. So if he wants to release an album about his ex, you bet that Mark will back him up one hundred percent.

He just…he can’t go on this tour with him. Until he can get his heart and these feelings under wrap, if he went now…it’d tear him apart all over again like it did watching Jaebum’s relationship growing with that woman.

Telling himself day after day recently that it’s not him. It’ll never be him. Even though he wishes for it. Wanting more than anything to have a chance at holding the alpha’s heart. To show him how he’d treat him right…

But he’s not the one on Jaebum’s mind and he knows his place. He’s just a band member, a close friend; a brother. And even though Jaebum had talked about Mark coming with him on the tour, Mark might’ve used this chance to gently put that barrier back up. To not only protect his heart, but do what is right for the alpha. And by telling his fans, it’ll hold him to it that he doesn’t back out.

Though Mark has no idea what he’ll do once he goes back to America. He hasn’t even told his company when he was coming back. But he hopes to hop back into schedules to keep himself busy so he won’t be tempted. So he won’t break and try to come back until he’s completely moved on. Because that’s what he needs to do. He needs to move on so he can be there for Jaebum like the alpha is there for him.

Just the thought of parting hurts though…

It’ll be fine, right? Jaebum isn’t having any more sleep walking moment and he’ll be going on tour and constantly moving about. So everything should be fine and Mark will be ok.

He’ll be ok…

The omega looks ready to cry, his expression so raw as he subconsciously clutches the material where his heart lies underneath. Where it aches so painfully. Threatening to break all over again---

The phone rings, taking Mark out of his head as he takes his phone out on instinct. Finding it to be Bam calling him as he wonders if he had watched the live just now,

“Hello?”

“OH MY GOD! Mark, please tell me that you’re alone and able to talk with me! This is an emergency!”

It sure sounded like it with how Bam’s tone of voice was.

“Yeah, I’m alone. Is everything ok?” Mark grows worried as he even comes to a stand in case he needs to go to him personally.

“I don’t even know where to begin! Or what to say! Am I dreaming?! Wait, no, the proof is right here! All over me! All over this very bed!”

Uh…what is Bam going on about? But before Mark can even get out another word, Bam beats him to it,

“Mark, it happened! We had sex!”

Excuse me?

Mark’s eyes go wide, the shock taking over as he’s trying to process it,

“You…him…were you drunk?” Mark needs to know more as he’s going from shock to awe.

“You would think, but no! It wasn’t even me that ignited it! It was Yugyeom! And all because of the show I did in Thailand. You see, two of the clips started trending after it was aired. One was about me talking about going on a blind date. As you and I both know how I’ve been trying to move on from these feelings since my confession and failing. And the other clip is of me finding another male attractive, which, I won’t lie, he was very attractive and I thought, you know what? Screw it. I’m going to say what I want to say and let everyone know. Because why not? Hell, Mark, I’m telling you. Ever since you had the courage to come out as an omega, it gave me the courage to not hold back either. So I didn’t. I was me, all of me and I did not care if anyone else knew. I’m gay, there! I’m hella gay! Though I was more subtle on the show, everyone got the point and it’s trending and Yugyeom saw it. And because of you, because of that…he not only got possessive, he fucked me like no tomorrow. And I know, I know, we could both deny it and say it was some jealousy, heat of the moment thing. But what about the second time? Or the third? Or how we fucked all over his home like we were in some porno?! He had me in all sorts of positions, Mark, I’m telling you! He didn’t hold back for any of those times and even got me in his bed. I’m covered from head to toe in more than just cum. Just holy fuck! We fucked! It’s not a dream!”

Bam was no doubt falling onto his back on the bed as he let out the last part in a happy squeal. Mark taking in every word as he joins in on his happiness and excitement,

“I’m happy for you, Bam. So does that mean you two confessed?”

“Well his body did all the talking for the most part. But once we grew tired, we literally laid on the bed just staring at one another. And he does the sappiest thing by showing off that goofy grin while gently caressing my face and telling me that he loves me. That he’s been in love with me, but didn’t realize his feelings until after I confessed. Telling me that my confession brought things to light and made his feelings so strong that it scared him. Which is understandable as it can be a powerful feeling. Add onto the fact that you always thought you were straight or weren't in a lot of relationships before. It was why he told me that he tried dating someone else to make sure. Because he didn’t want to ruin what we had and he was thinking of Got7 on top of my feelings. He didn’t want to half ass it and he didn’t want to tell me to wait while he got his shit together. Plus he had been terrified because of society. But he told me right away how it didn’t work out with the girl as all he could think about was me. And since so much time had passed then, he was afraid he was too late. I also didn’t ever bring it up again and tried to move on, acting like everything was good so he tried to do the same. Obviously we’re both idiots, you don’t have to tell me. And us hanging out like we used to brought everything right back to the surface. But it took him seeing me in those videos, that made him lose control in all the best ways. Just…thank you, Mark. Really, thank you. You helped me get my best friend back as well as bringing me closer to the one I love. I…fuck…it’s making me emotional…I never thought this could happen…” Bam starts to get choked up as he lets it all out.

As it settles in that it happened. That this was real and he wasn’t dreaming. And how good it felt to be able to tell someone. To tell a loved one that loves and supports him. Sharing in this moment as he understands how he feels and what he’s going through. And though Mark isn’t getting his happy moment like Bam was, he’s still so sweet as he says,

“You deserve it, Bam. You deserve to be with the one you love with all your heart. Doesn’t matter if you’re both male. Doesn’t matter what society deems may be ‘wrong’. It’s your life and if you’re both happy and in love, that’s all that matters. You know you got me and Youngjae. And I know the others will be just as supportive, especially Jackson.”

As Jackson has shown many times that he supports all types of love throughout his career.

“But I’m like you, Mark. I feared so many things as I didn’t want the others to suffer because I’m gay. I held back so much and then you were so brave when you came out to us and told us that you were actually an omega. You have no idea how that resonated with me. How that told me that it was ok to be me. You even went to nail appointments with me and encouraged me with my fashion tastes. How you and even our leader wore outfits that society would deem that only women should wear. Youngjae won’t hesitate to kiss our posters and Jinyoung will even show affection with us out in the open. And then Yugyeom told me that no matter what, he wouldn’t deny it if we got caught. That he’d tell everyone we were together…You guys have been so fucking supportive and loving and caring and I…I don’t know how I got so lucky. I don’t ever want to lose you guys…I love you all…I love you so much, bro.”

Mark finds himself growing emotional with Bam,

“I love you too,” Mark doesn’t hold back as he wants Bam to know it, “Just like Yugyeom said, no matter what. So keep being you.”

It takes a second for Bam to get himself together before he’s able to talk again,

“That goes for you too. So don’t hold back either,” Bam lets out in between sniffles.

Mark smiles, “I don’t plan on it. At least…” Mark trails off as he looks towards the closed door to make sure Jaebum wasn’t around.

But Bam knew what he was going to say,

“I wish you could get your happy ending too.”

The way Bam said it showed how much the male truly cared about Mark. Making Mark show off a sad smile,

“Hey, we’re focusing on you here. You haven’t told me everything yet. Like where is Yugyeom now?”

Bam lets out a small whine as he knows Mark is trying to brush off the topic but he respects that. Knowing how much it hurts and so he obliges by continuing with the conversation from earlier,

“I fell asleep but he didn’t wake me as he had to go to the company. He left me with a sweet note and told me that he’d be coming back home soon to me. He even put a dorky smiley face.”

God, Bam has it bad as he sounds so damn happy when he talks about Yugyeom. Mark is happy for the two and the conversation continues for a bit more until he finds Youngjae calling him. Bam telling him that he had texted Youngjae earlier to let him know they needed to talk. So Mark lets him go so Bam can tell Youngjae what he just told him. Telling him he better see some photos of them but none sexual please. Bam laughed at that and said don’t worry. They’ll be blasting photos and videos like normal of the two of them. Because again, no one suspects that they’d be a thing.

If only he could do that with Jaebum…

But well, he’d need Jaebum to be in love with him…

Wishful thinking, right?

Meanwhile,

“Jinyoung, I need help. Tell me how I can keep Mark by my side! He says he’s not going on the tour with me,” Jaebum sounds seconds from breaking down.

As he’s already kneeled down before his bed with his head lightly thunking against the bed sheets. All while he’s facetiming Jinyoung by the way,

“First off, stop what you’re doing, you goof,” Jinyoung sasses in a loving way.

As he can’t help but smile at the dork Jaebum was being,

“Secondly, maybe doing a whole album basically talking about your love for Mark wasn’t the smartest idea.”

Jaebum stops moving for a second before whining into the mattress and then turning his head to pout at Jinyoung,

“I couldn’t stop myself!! And you can’t even say it's because Mark has been staying with me. There’s some songs that I came up with while in the military.”

“This doesn’t help your case any.”

Jaebum pouts further, “But I made it more appealing to the fans---”

“Meaning you put a word or two in there so they think it’s about a woman or for in general and not your everlasting love for Mark,” Jinyoung calls him out on it.

Because Jinyoung has watched Jaebum do this to almost all of his love songs about Mark. Though sometimes, Jaebum felt risky and left it open or would use words like, baby, etc.

“I don’t know how to stop it,” Jaebum is back to being face down against the mattress while Jinyoung lets out a sigh fond,

“You’re a hopeless romantic who once he falls, he falls hard and doesn’t want to let go. It’s both a blessing and a curse really.”

Jaebum says something but it’s muffled from his face against the material.

“What was that?” Jinyoung snorts at the alpha still being a dork.

Jaebum lifts his head, “I said, then what does that say about you? When you’re so far gone with Jackson that you had sex with that one closested actor. You even had him blindfold you, all while you fantasized it being Jackson.”

Jinyoung goes full sass mode, “I had a weak moment and I don’t want to hear it when we both know you only pretended to date that girl. For nine months too! Trying to fool yourself and everyone that you could move on but yet, here we are once again…”

Jaebum doesn’t deny it as he squishes his one cheek against the bed,

“It has to be Mark,” Jaebum lets out as his expression becomes so raw.

Jinyoung’s expression matches his, “If it makes you feel any better, I dreamt last night that while I was in the middle of one of my acting scenes, Jackson came in right when the girl was supposed to kiss me. And that stupidly, handsome, why can’t he be into me in real life of a man, waltzed right up in all seriousness, pulled me back into his arms before telling me that I was his and then kissed me.”

Jinyoung goes through the emotions as he recalls that dream, his lips forming his expression into that cute duck face,

“It’s all your fault for talking to me about your dreams and now I’m getting them!”

“Surprisingly, I haven’t had those dreams for a while now. I don’t know if it’s due to my schedules starting up or just the fact that it feels like old times with Mark and I. You know, like he never left for America and we’re just off doing a duo schedule while you guys are doing solo activities. I guess I fell back into the routine like he was always going to be by my side. That he wasn’t going back…”

Mark has been giving him so much of his time and attention too. It’s been so much of them and then just them two alone. Of course the group chat is in between and they do meet up with the others from time to time. Though Jackson has been super busy himself, he'll text in the group chat and I know he’s talking with Mark personally. But if he asks him something, Mark drops everything. He’ll ignore everything else and focus on him. Before he even knows what he might need, Mark is there providing it like food or something to drink. Or to help him with a sound or giving ideas with a dance move or outfit. It’s been so nice, so loving, making Jaebum feel so loved and warm.

Making him feel like they’re a couple or something…

Morphing his dreams and reality together…

“Oh Jaebum…” Jinyoung’s voice rings through his thoughts as Jaebum comes back to reality.

As he doesn’t realize that he was crying until he reaches his hand up to find his cheeks are wet from tears. As his heart aches and longs for Mark to stay. As he doesn’t want to go through that pain he went through when Mark first left all over again.

“I have to let him go again, don’t I?” Jaebum voices as he sounds so heartbroken.

As he’s not asking Jinyoung, but telling himself what he must do. Even if everything in him doesn’t want to do it.

“Enjoy the moments that you can have. It’s what you’d always tell me, remember?” Jinyoung tries to comfort him the best he can.

But they both know nothing will stop this pain except the one they yearn for.

The one they can’t have…

Jaebum wipes at his eyes with his sleeve while nodding,

“You’re right. Hey, maybe once you get out, we can do a JJ Project or something,” He tries to make it cheerful again.

“I’d like that, but there’s something you and I would love even more. What our fans have been waiting for.”

A group comeback…

Jaebum perks up at that,

“I want that, but I don’t know if time would line up for all of us.”

But Jinyoung smiles, “I believe in Got7 just like how I believe in you for keeping us together. I know you’ll find a way.”

Jaebum takes the words to heart, a smile coming forth through the tears.

He’ll have a way for Mark to come back home again…

Back by his side even if it’s just for a little while…

“I’ll see what I can do, thanks Jinyoung.”

“However we need to do it, I’m ready.”

For even if it’ll hurt, the pain is worth it.

Their smile

Their laughter

Their warmth

Their touch

Their voice

Everything of them

About them

‘You’re perfect’

‘It’s worth it’

Anything to get another chance, another moment with them…

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Bam keeps trending into the next day. As people wonder if the male was coming out and he doesn’t deny it either, he embraces it. Telling everyone on his social media that he’s happy to be him, to be free. As he even thanks his family and the members. All of them openly showing their love and support to him. Where Mark even got to witness Jaebum immediately commenting on his post about how proud he is. Going right into leader mode as he expresses how Bam has grown under his wing and that he’s happy for him. Practically dotting on him like a father would and Mark knows Bam truly appreciated it since his father passed away when he was so young.

Mark watched sweetly from the sidelines when Bam had called Jaebum and cried happy tears. As the group chat had been steadily going off as they continued to shower Bam in love and support.

But that’s not the only thing that’s trending as it was announced about Jinyoung being in a new drama once he gets out of the military service. With many fans around the globe excited to see the actor once more.

And Jinyoung appreciates it dearly, but he can’t help himself when he notices that the reason it started trending was due to Jackson posting it on his social media. Stirring up all these damn emotions---

He’s already trying to facetime the alpha even though it’s a high chance he won’t answer. But Jinyoung still can’t help in reaching out like he’s been trying to do more and more in the recent years. Telling himself that he needs to stop pushing the alpha away because of his feelings. To stop running away as time was limited and precious. Where before when he would take constant roles in between schedules, he always knew they’d come back together again. He had that security with Got7 and their schedules together. But since they left JYP and walked their own paths, those moments started to become far and in between. Jinyoung soon realized how big of a gap had formed between them. And how hard it was to go back, to have moments by his side. So if not now, then when? He didn’t want to lose Jackson completely. As he understood Jaebum all too well.

Even if it hurts, even if he’ll never know about his feelings or be able to return them…

He still wanted more moments; to remain by his side for as long as he can…

He wants to be back close again like they used to be…

To Jinyoung’s surprise, the call actually connects and soon Jackson’s face appears---

Fuck, is all Jinyoung can think about as of course the alpha was still in bed. I mean, it was the crack ass of dawn and Jinyoung had a small break from his military routine. But he didn’t take into account that Jackson literally just woke up and had to be him! With not only checking up on what his band members were doing first thing when he wakes up. But to also be looking this damn fine with an unshaven face, bed head and his shirt off for Jinyoung to ogle at.

And yes, that’s exactly what he’s doing before he can stop himself…

Luckily, Jackson’s voice gets his attention again before Jinyoung loses control,

“Jinyoung! It’s good to hear from you! What are you doing? Oh? You’re in uniform I see. Damn, look at you. It suits you,” Jackson keeps going as he gets animated.

As Jinyoung smiles away as he truly missed this. Missed hearing his voice and his thoughts. Even if to others, they might feel like Jackson had too much to say. That he was just sprouting words but the alpha means what he says. That his mind moves faster than most and he’s very vocal and wanting those he cares about to hear him. To know that he cares and sometimes he has to get all the words out in order to process them himself. To focus on them so he can take in the moment as his ADHD will try and get in the way sometimes. But he always means well.

He’s always been a kind and caring alpha…

“You must’ve called because you saw my post, didn’t you? Or is it just wishful thinking that you were thinking about me too? Because it’s almost ironic, or maybe it’s fate? For when I woke up today, you were the first thought on my mind.”

Just like Jackson was his last thought on his mind before he went to bed yesterday.

“I did see your post. Do you know that it’s trending?” Jinyoung gets Jackson to focus on his first question.

As he’s too much of a coward to tell Jackson that he thinks of the alpha way too much. At all times of the day and night and with everything that he does.

Jackson’s eyes light up, “It is?! I thought it was just Bam’s since Youngjae posted in the group chat of it yesterday…”

The alpha trails off as he pulls it up on his phone and finds that his post was in fact trending.

“Hey! That’s good though! It means others are looking forward to seeing you back in action! And for those that don’t know about you, need to. So I’m glad that I could help! You’re a heartthrob, Jinyoung. A natural that belongs on the screen with your charm alone,” Jackson gushes away as he even places a hand on his chest in a dramatic fashion.

Jinyoung eats it all up too as his smile grows. His expression becoming as soft as his heart was from feeling warmth due to the male before him.

“It’s just a promotional poster though. I won’t start with the filming until I’m released from the military.”

“It’s still exciting! And something to look forward to. Which, you know I’m always looking forward to anything that you do. Like how I’ve been looking at your military photos and videos too. My lord! You keep getting more handsome as the days go on! Staying fit like always. Man, I’m jealous as it’s been hard sticking with a diet so I don’t get my fencer thighs back again. But you, *whistles* gah! You must have everyone’s attention there.”

Stop it, this is why he kept running away! How easily Jinyoung fell into motion like this with Jackson. With the alpha being everything he wanted and needed. But he knows these words are meant in a different kind of love. That this ‘flirting’ is Jackson wanting to hype up his loved one and make them feel good in their own skin.

‘He doesn’t want you like you want him…’

Yet Jinyoung can’t help but flirt back as he means it in a sexual way,

“Maybe I want to keep someone’s attention on me.”

As he throws in that sexy smirk and playful eyes that draw you right in.

“Yah! What did I tell you about playing with my heart?!” Jackson lets out dramatically as he fanboys on his bed.

Jinyoung smiles at his cuteness, a laugh coming out naturally,

“Says the one lounging about in his underwear like this is some modeling gig,” He teases lightly.

Jackson lets out a smile at this, his eyes shining with emotion before the alpha goes quiet for a second. Only a second as he lets out almost in a whisper,

“Should I surprise you like this during your discharge from the military?”

Excuse me, what? Did he hear that right? Because there ain’t no way he fell asleep and was having another one of his fantasy dreams---

It shows on his face and Jackson curses as he drops the phone. It’s here when Jackson picks the phone back up, that he takes in more of the alpha’s surroundings. As he notices several empty alcohol containers on the bedside table.

“Jiaer…are you drunk right now?” Jinyoung lets out in concern.

Surely those are from last night and not this morning…right? But even so, why was Jackson drinking so much last night? Did something happen?

“Does it matter? I have time before my next schedule. Well, I’m supposed to be sleeping until then actually. But I’m fine, it’s fine. You’re fi---”

No wonder Jackson was being more flirty than normal. He’s drunk…

“It does matter. In fact, you’re going to get off this phone right now and sleep it off,” Jinyoung sasses as his expression shows raw emotions.

Jackson whines, “But I miss you! Wang Gae, Park Gae, remember?!”

Ugh, why does this alpha gotta be so cute at times?!

“If you want to talk to me again, do it sober,” Jinyoung tells him as he’s trying to remain firm and not let it show how his heart hurts.

How he hates that Jackson will turn to drinking instead of reaching out to them. Or that he can’t be there to help the alpha out. Wondering why he’s been drinking so much lately.

“Fine…I’ll talk to Yien instead…” Jackson deflates.

Ouch, that felt like he was shot through the heart with that one.

“Mark is busy right now with Jaebum’s live performance that is airing as we speak,” Jinyoung throws out there as he’s not thinking about it.

He just throws it out there with some bite because he’s hurt from Jackson’s words. And apparently Jackson didn’t like what he said,

“Yien is never too busy for me. We’ve sworn Markson forever. Watch, I’ll call him right now,” Jackson lets out with fire in his eyes and passion in his tone.

All before he hangs up on Jinyoung, leaving the male to stare at the reflection on his phone. Where Jackson missed seeing how Jinyoung couldn’t hold it back anymore and his expression showed such heartache…

Bam and Jinyoung weren't the only two trending, as Jaebum now was too. Why? For his visuals of course! For the live performance he did as his new album was out and his concert tour would begin soon. As starting tomorrow, the rehearsal and such would commence but today, right now?

Mark is currently in both heaven and hell as he watched the live performance in the backstage area. Where he couldn’t possibly get any closer or he’d be like the fangirls screaming and cheering.

And Mark would not be able to resist as he was already having a hard time not going out there to climb Jaebum like a tree. Just look at him! Just listen to that voice! Even with the song’s lyrics, Mark is able to get through it as he can’t look away from the alpha. As he sees him putting his all in it and god could the alpha move his body in ways. Putting him right back into memories of Jaebum touching him, surrounding him, caging him in…

Mark has to bite his lip as he’s recalling that night---

Nope, ok, he needs to calm down. Reminding himself that he’s backstage where anyone could come into the dressing room again. Like Jaebum for instance and he does not need to be smelling Mark’s need here. Where Mark needs to get a hold of himself right now. But it’s hard! Especially so when it’s been a while and he’s had a taste of Jaebum’s passionate love!

Yet, it’s not like Mark could just ask him. And it’s not like he can go out and find that satisfaction. No other man interested him, nor does he have the time to take care of his needs right now. Though, Bam had been so very kind to pick him up something when he asked that he’ll definitely be using later tonight to get out all these building emotions.

But first, he needs a distraction---

His phone rings and he finds someone is trying to facetime him. And that person was Jackson. Yes! This would be a great distraction as he answers without a second thought,

“Hey Jacks---”

“Markiepooh! Tell me, you’re not too busy for me right?”

Ok, Mark has to take a moment because why is Jackson coming at him so passionately right now? Wait, is he still in bed? What’s going on? It doesn’t help that Jackson is moving the phone in such a way that it’s almost nausea inducing. And it distracts him so much that he doesn’t notice Jaebum coming into the room.

“No, I’m never too busy for you,” Mark says as he hopes Jackson will stop moving.

As it looks like the alpha’s movements were sluggish and clumsy and yep, those are definitely alcohol containers he sees. Meaning, Jackson was drinking his feelings away about Jinyoung again.

“But Jinyoung called and said that you…” Jackson even points at his phone like Mark was literally right in front of him, “You were too busy for me because of Jaebum. Which he doesn’t have to tell me that as I know that he’s been taking up the majority of your time. But you still find time for me, unlike Jinyoung as he’ll tell me he’s too busy with his acting…”

Mark’s back is facing the door as he’s trying to calm down Jackson. As you can hear it in his voice and Mark can see it on the alpha’s face. How he’s close to breaking down again and Mark wishes he was there to help him.

“I’ll always have time for you, you know this,” Mark reassures in a sweet, soothing tone.

Not noticing how Jaebum’s original excitement of coming back here died the moment he stepped into the room. How he wanted to see Mark’s reaction to his performance, just to find Jackson had Mark’s attention. And now his hand gripped the door handle as he tries to hold back this fast rising emotions when Jackson speaks again,

“I don’t like it…don’t like feeling like this…I don’t like being away from you…from from….” Jackson stutters as the words are failing him while he tries to not break down.

As he can’t bring himself to say his name again or he’ll cry,

“I need you…” He lets out as he wants this pain to stop.

Of how Mark understood him and helped numb the pain. For if he’s not alone, he can act ok. He can distract his thoughts for a little while. And if he’s with Mark, he doesn’t have to hide or act ok. He can be himself completely and talk freely about his thoughts and feelings. But if he’s alone, drinking is usually the only way to make it stop. Drinking until he’ll black out---

“Gaga, you’re drunk again,” Mark cuts him off gently, though you can hear in his voice how it affects him.

How he doesn’t like that the alpha was doing this to himself. That he’s hundreds of miles away but luckily Jackson was resting at his parents home in China.

Jaebum watches how Mark’s expression drops, his eyes full of emotion as he stares down at his phone.

“Fuck, I know. Shit, you told me not to…I promised! I promised you I wouldn’t and I…I was doing so good too. But I couldn’t…I can’t…you weren't here and I…I’m sorry,” Jackson apologizes as even in his drunken state, he knew how this would affect Mark, “Don’t be mad, please…I’ll do better just…Mark, are you crying?” Jackson stops as he takes a good look and can see it.

See how Mark’s face contorts as he hurts for Jackson. As he doesn’t want Jackson to relapse.

“I shouldn’t have left…” Mark breathes out as he was selfish leaving Jackson’s side when he still needed him.

“No, it’s good you left,” Jackson is quick to cut off his bad thoughts, “You needed to get away from all of this, from everything. You needed to find yourself and I never wanted to stop that. So believe me when I say that I was doing that. I didn’t pick up a single bottle since you left as I wanted to show you so badly that it was ok. That I was getting better and that everything would be alright. Because of you, I’ve come so far, I’ve gotten through so much. You’ve been there during my drunken nights. You fought and argued with me all before holding me when I didn’t deserve it afterwards. You always reached out and were there anytime and before I even realized that I needed someone. You followed me to all those after parties just to look out for me, to take care of me when you shouldn’t have to. You kept me from going under, even declined alcohol to show your support with me as you stood by my side. Always, every time I looked, you’d be standing right there. Always in arm’s reach… Mark look at me,” Jackson pleads as he wants Mark to hear it.

To know from drunk or sober, it was the truth and it came from the heart,

“I love you,”

Jaebum feels his heart about to break as Mark doesn’t hesitate when he says,

“I love you too.”

As Jaebum forces himself to not react as it’s not his place. And he knows that. He said he was going to be ok with it. And he will, just not right now. Not today. But one day…maybe…

Besides, he’s still their leader, he’s still their band member. And Jackson is obviously going through a hard time. Something the others and him have suspected but Jackson never confided in them But it’s good that he had in Mark.

“It’ll be ok. I’ll do what Jinyoung told me to do and I’ll sleep it off and then when I wake up, I won’t touch another bottle again unless I know I can handle it. And I won’t unless your by my side and you’re ok with it. Because you mean more to me than alcohol or the pain and heartache. You’re my Yien like I am your Wang---”

Mark giggles despite the tears and situation as Jackson cracked such a joke in his drunken state. Knowing it would lighten the situation and get Mark to smile,

“That’s what I wanted to see. Now please do more of that. And I hope to see you smiling when I wake up later. So no worrying, ok? We got this, together, Markson forever.”

“Markson forever,” Mark tells him and Jackson smiles sleepily before he ends up hanging up the phone.

Mark wipes at his eyes and Jaebum uses this chance to pretend that he just entered. Reenacting like he just walked in and makes sure the door makes a louder noise this time---

The omega turns in shock as he pockets his phone before taking in Jaebum and his expression changes. That even though the alpha could tell Mark had been crying, the omega tried to hide it as he came forth. As he gave all his energy in wanting to congratulate him,

“Bummie! You did it! You were great and badass---” Mark’s words cut off though as the alpha suddenly pulled him into his arms.

Holding him like this and so tightly as he wanted to provide comfort. As he wanted to be the shoulder Mark would lean on. To show him everything; the good, the bad, the ugly.

To choose him…

For something, for anything…

“Bummie?” Mark lets out as Jaebum refuses to let go.

“Do you remember all the times you’d do this for me?” Jaebum whispers.

Mark stills as he does start to recall all those times,

“I’m the leader, I’m supposed to take everything onto my shoulders and help guide everyone. I used to think that I couldn’t express when I was frustrated or when I felt lost because you guys all looked up for me. You were counting on me and I couldn’t even tell Jinyoung such thoughts and feelings. But then you, someone who still had a language barrier with me at the time…you noticed right away and didn’t hesitate to do this.”

He remembers being so lost and frustrated at the time. Where yes, he fought and argued and put his all into wanting Got7 to debut. He was going up against JYP after already securing a spot and it could all backfire and he’d end up getting sent home too. But all of them were pushing and working so hard. Trying to understand each other, to learn their language and push themselves to show, to prove they could make it. And Jaebum had worried it would all be for nothing. That he’d disappoint the guys and seeing their faces as their dreams might get crushed and they’d all have to go home---

Jaebum had lost sleep as he didn’t want to give up hope. He didn’t want to rest for a single second until he knew for certain that they would debut. But of course he’d get upset and frustrated. That it was natural to have these thoughts and feelings because he’s human too. And yet he was afraid of showing it.

All until sweet Mark stayed up late just to find him. Going right up to him and pulling him into a hug just like this. Where no words needed to be said as Mark guided his head to rest on his shoulders and he held him. Letting him know that he could lean on someone. That he didn’t have to carry everything on his own.

Mark had no idea how such an action made it to where the omega became his safe haven. Became his anchor, as Jaebum was able to let go in Mark’s arms. All his emotions, thoughts, feelings, would calm as the omega grounded him.

“I remember how much you wanted to understand us that you and Jinyoung would teach each other in between breaks or during training. You’d stay up all night if you had to. And though you stuttered over the words that night, you kept trying until I could hear them properly…” Jaebum continued as it meant so much to him,

‘I’m here, lean on me.’

Showing him such fierce passion in those eyes as he held such an expression. All while holding him once again so he could understand that way.

“Ever since that day, you just knew every time I needed a moment to rest.”

And Mark was there. Always so sweet and caring. Didn’t matter the time or where they were at. He’d even show up where the alpha was at if he felt something was off through text or during phone conversations.

“Like the wind beneath my wings…” Jaebum breathes out as Mark means so much to him.

Mark latches on as he listens and recalls with the alpha. As he feels Jaebum gently guide him and tucks the omega’s head underneath his chin while he holds him. Mark closes his eyes as he breathes in the alpha’s scent. As he soaks up his warmth, his scent calms and grows sweet. His heartbeat matching Jaebum’s as the alpha whispers out,

“I’m here, baby, lean on me.”

Mark’s breath hitches as it must’ve been his imagination. His eyes opening, the words wanting to come out as he wanted to ask. To look at the alpha to make sure. But he’s scared of it being a lie. Of him just being crazy.

So he latches on instead, trying to bury his face deeper against the alpha’s chest. Squeezing his eyes shut as he wants to stay in denial. As the alpha continues to hold him without any more words being said.

Just them two…

Their warmth

Their touch

The other’s heartbeat

Nothing else mattered at this moment…

Not when it’s been everything they ever wanted…

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Mark didn’t tell him about the phone conversation but he didn’t have to. Even if Jaebum didn’t know the details, he was happy that Mark leaned on him. That he was able to eventually get a genuine smile out of him and a laugh.

They even enjoyed food that was brought there from Youngjae showing his support. And the two ended up talking about the performance and what needed to be done tomorrow before just goofing off or falling into comfortable silence. Mark even teased him a bit about how Jaebum took to reading before going up on stage like he used to do back in the day. A way that helped the alpha calm his nerves and shift his mind a bit that it helped him be able to perform and focus better.

It’s adorable really and Mark made sure to that just to get Jaebum all riled up with his spiel of being chic and sexy.

But time flew by and now they’re back at Jaebum’s apartment for the last night before the tour would start. As rehearsals and getting things ready would start tomorrow…

Mark laid in the guest room after taking a bath to relax, his eyes taking in the ceiling fan slowly going around in circles.

And now his thoughts go right to Jaebum like they always do. Yep, Mark understood Jackson so well as when he’s alone, it can get so bad.

Speaking of Jackson…

Jackson remembers even after sobering up and it showed when he sent Mark a photo of him throwing away the empty alcohol containers. Of course he also sent lots of emojis of the, ‘please forgive me’ look. Which Mark could never stay mad at Jackson for too long anyway. That much has been shown throughout their relationship both on and off camera. And the omega lets Jackson know that he’s still here for him and that he needs to reach out to him first.

Between texting Jackson, the group chat and personally texting each other as Mark wanted to let Youngjae know that he appreciated the food, that feeling was creeping it way back up under his skin.

That craving, that need…the urge to connect again as it’s not fair that Jaebum is so close and yet he can’t be that close again.

Fuck, he never should’ve gotten a taste of his love!

Cause now he’s horny and he chances to look towards the bedroom door…

Nope, he’s not about to have those thoughts. Though there’s R&B music playing and Jaebum was doing last minute things for work before he’d be in bed himself. Really, it was the perfect chance to take care of things…

Mark can’t help himself as his body begins to heat up more. As he squeezes his thighs shut at the mere thought of doing something like this with Jaebum nearby. Something so naughty as touching himself with the thought of the alpha himself…

It should be fine, right? Just this once? Just for a second…

It doesn’t help that Mark was in Jaebum’s hoodie either. That he took it when the alpha wasn’t looking after he threw it over the back of the couch before heading to shower. As Mark keeps breathing in Jaebum’s scent. His mind is already trying to fall into his head space. Taking him back to those moments of Jaebum coming to him in his sleep.

Of those hands greedy and possessive and touching as they pleased. Mark’s body feels like it’s being branded by the alpha’s touch as his own hands try to mimic what Jaebum did. As he’s getting lost in the growing pleasure, his body moving that his phone ends up getting shoved underneath a pillow at one point. All as Mark was getting too hot and needed to take his clothes off. Wanting to feel more of Jaebum as he reacted to him so fast, so naturally. Slick is ready to coat the bed but Mark uses Jaebum’s hoodie to place underneath him. Moaning at the thought of dirtying the alpha’s hoodie in such a naughty way.

It only fuels the fire; turning him on even more…

“Nnn, alpha…” Mark moans out before biting his lips.

The R&B music continues to play in the background, drowning out his sounds so it doesn’t reach the hallway. But inside, he’s so vocal, so needy. Unable to stop himself as his hands roam his body. His cock stands tall and proud as he teases himself. Doing the things Jaebum did to him as his mind keeps telling him that the alpha was here. That the alpha was the one doing it. Falling right into his head space as he doesn’t hold back the sounds,

“Yes…touch me…please…Bummie…want it…need it…”

His back arches, head lulls back on the pillow as his hips aren’t afraid to move. As Mark plunges two fingers inside his tight heat. Slick oozing past and down his ass and thighs. Dripping all over Jaebum’s hoodie as he’s so wet for his alpha.

Fuck, his, he wants Jaebum to be his. And when he’s lost in pleasure like this, his mind tells him that Jaebum is his. That Jaebum wants him and feels the same. That even with the alpha sleep walking, the alpha still touched him, still connected with him…

If only he’d do it again. Do it right now---

Mark glances towards the door, eyes half lidded and blown in arousal. His facial expression showed such bliss and how much he wanted the alpha to barge right into this room and take him. To come connect with him again even if it was due to the alpha sleep walking.

Mark wouldn’t even think twice and spread his legs like he was doing now,

“Please…alpha…need more…I need it…need you…”

Imaging Jaebum’s hands kneading and spreading his thighs. Using them broad shoulders to get to the main prize like he did before. Getting him a taste as he can’t resist. Smirking against his most intimate area as he’d feel Mark clenching down on his fingers and tongue. Would slide his hands along his body and feel him tremble from his mere touch. Feel how much he affected the omega.

“Inside…I gotta have you inside…I can’t…it’s driving me wild…”

His omega instincts are going crazy as the urge to be filled by the alpha takes over him. His hands slipped out before scrambling to find the toy hidden up underneath the pillows. His body is moving as he’s desperate. His mind imagines that he’s touching Jaebum’s dick and not some dildo. That as he places it over the hoodie and kneels forward to position himself, that he’s straddling Jaebum and ready to ride him. That the alpha has hands on his hips and guiding him. All while looking at him with that heated, passionate gaze. Not looking away once as he slides inside of Mark. Making Mark moan and go high pitched. Taking Jaebum all the way to the hilt before whimpering.

Working himself up as he starts bouncing, his eyes closing, head tilting back to show off more of his neck, as the pleasure keeps rising and rising. As it feels like Jaebum is there with him, his mind full of delusions as he pictures the alpha touching him all over. As he takes his cock over and over again. Calling out his name as his own cock throbs and is about to explode.

‘I’m here, baby.’

‘My darling’

‘Baby’

‘Mark’

‘Mine’

“Yours alpha…yours…fuck…Bummie…cumming…I’m---!”

Mark goes down one last time before he’s cumming all over himself and the hoodie. His body gives out as he manages to catch himself on his hands when he falls forward. The dildo slips out and Mark whimpers through his panting, calling out the alpha’s name as it takes a moment to come down from his head space…

It’s when Mark is coming down from his high that he begins to panic, because holy shit! He did not just do that in the alpha’s apartment, much less with the alpha not even a room down from him!

Oh but he did and he’s so shy and embarrassed. As he quickly gets cleaned up before diving back under the covers. The soiled hoodie was left in the corner of the room as he’ll deal with that later. For right now, he needed to tell someone or his heart might not calm down!

So he reaches for his phone to text Bam, but well, what do you know he accidentally face timed someone…

Someone by the name of Youngjae…

The two stare at one another, both with shocked expressions and silence falling---

Before Mark is seen freaking out and about to hang up but Youngjae stops him,

“Wait! Mark hyung!” He’s flailing about in a dramatic fashion as well.

Mark doesn’t know why he stopped but he did. His eyes taking in Youngjae just as shy and embarrassed as he was.

“Don’t go…let’s just take a moment to breathe. I know you didn’t mean to facetime me during…” Youngjae winces as he doesn’t know how to say it lightly, “You know,” He goes with instead, “But if it helps, I saw nothing but pitch blackness.”

Mark goes back to freaking out like some scared kitten and ready to hang up but Youngjae is hurrying once more,

“I only heard towards the end so not even two minutes---ok, one minute of it!” Youngjae corrects himself as Mark’s finger hovers over the end call button,

“But it’s fine either way. We’ve bonded over porn before and Yugyeom even admitted to the world that he watches porn on the daily so this can’t top that,” Youngjae keeps going in hopes that it’ll help.

It does help to calm Mark some but there’s no way that Youngjae can be this calm and collected. That he can look at him like nothing happened when he must’ve heard it…

“I masturbated about our leader, Youngjae,” Mark says in such a monotone voice.

As he wanted to clarify that this was actually happening. And yep, Youngjae was nodding in agreement but isn’t looking at him with hate or disgust,

“I might’ve heard that part, yes.”

And he’s ok with that?!

“Is this…did it go worse with Bam confessing or something?”

Cause how is Youngjae this calm?!

Youngjae offers him a friendly smile, “You know, you would think this is how I would find out with Bam, but no. Though, Bam would be going into great detail by now about his alone session.”

Youngjae says it to lighten the mood and it works. Mark’s shoulders slump from being so tense as he sees that it was ok.

“You’re really not upset about this?” Mark still can’t fully believe it and Youngjae tilts his head to the side,

“Should I be? I feel like you should be the one more upset. I accidentally invaded your privacy because I didn’t hang up when I should’ve…”

As Youngjae had realized Mark didn’t mean to call him, that much was apparent when he saw darkness and heard Mark pleasuring himself. But Youngjae had been in such shock at what he was hearing that he froze up.

Youngjae flushes as how it must’ve looked now, “Shit, Mark, I’m sorry. I swear I’m not a pervert or anything. It just caught me off guard and when I could finally function properly, hearing you call out his name, well, I might’ve wanted to see if, you know…” Youngjae makes hand gestures before Mark seems to pick up on it.

“You wanted to see if Jaebum was in the room with me.”

Youngjae flushes more as he nods, “Which would’ve been completely fine if you two were together you know!”

It would make sense too if Youngjae were being honest here with the past events that have been taking place since Mark came to Korea. But Youngjae wasn’t about to let that information out. As he wanted to get some other information if he could.

Mark’s expression falls though, a sad smile forming,

“I’m not her.”

“Her?” Youngjae repeats as Mark messes with the pillows on the bed,

“His ex…he still has feelings for her.”

Oh…now that Youngjae thinks about it, it would explain why Mark had gotten so drunk that night. As he recalls them all talking about Jaebum’s ex,

“Oh Mark, I’m sorry. If I had known I wouldn’t have---”

“It’s ok, you didn’t know,” Mark gently cuts him off so he doesn't feel bad,

“He’s straight, Youngjae. I never had a chance to start with.”

Youngjae frowns as he knows about that all too well,

“Bam and I connected over that too. During one of my acting gigs, I got to be around the cutest, most handsome man I’ve ever laid eyes on. And being pansexual, you can only imagine how hard it was for me as we hung out during the whole filming offset and in between scenes. He was so sweet too! He followed me around like a lost puppy, just ugh! My heart couldn’t handle it as he ended up with the other lead actress. Even if it was just for the film, watching it hurt. But that man was definitely straight, he had a girlfriend at the time too,” Youngjae whines near the end as his expression turns into a sad pout.

As he had been tortured during that time as it was both heaven and hell.

“Which one are you talking about?” Mark was curious to know more as he didn’t know about this.

He thought Youngjae had a thing going with Minnie since he was on a show with her one time. Guess it didn’t work out or maybe it wasn’t a crush like he thought.

“Danny Mendes,” Youngjae tells him and before Mark can ask anymore questions, he’s receiving photos of him.

Of Youngjae’s time together with him.

“Oh, he is very handsome,” Mark agrees and Youngjae lets out a noise,

“See! Bam kept teasing me that we can’t help but fall for tall, lanky men but he’s so right! I’ve had crushes and feelings for other men before and women too. But nothing ever came out of it due to schedules and not having time and just, you know how it goes in this industry. I gave all my time to Got7 and wanted to keep us afloat from JYP trying to cancel us at any chance they got. Especially as JYP said if we failed right after debut, it would be because of me and I wasn’t even on the team yet…” Youngjae’s expression goes through several emotions,

“But with Danny…Mark I totally get how you feel. There’s just something about him that not even time apart can make these feelings go away. Our time may have been for that short time but it meant so much to me compared to all the others. So I can’t imagine how hard it must be on you…On how strong you are that you came back. I couldn’t…when we parted after the film ended, I could never go back. I wouldn’t be able to handle it. Both you and Bam are amazing to be able to do it. I still can’t get over how Bam managed to tell Yugyeom and survive that heartbreak but look at him, he’s with Yugyeom now.”

“I don’t think we’ll get that lucky like Bam,” Mark says as he lays there talking to Youngjae.

The two having this heart to heart as the omega opens up more,

“You’re strong too, you know. To be able to watch the one you love kiss another even if it was just acting…I wouldn’t last a second. I’d lose my shit and punch something, someone…”

“I know how you get when you go all L.A. gangster,” Youngjae reminds him and the two laugh a little at that.

“I’m glad that Jaebum kept his relationship with her on the downlow. For if he had broadcasted it all over social media openly…if I had seen any photos of them kissing or being too close…I don’t…I don’t know what I would’ve done…but I don’t think I could’ve stayed as long as I did.”

He would’ve lost control and told Jaebum his feelings or someone would’ve found out real quick. Thus forcing Mark to have to part with Got7…

“You’ve had feelings for him that long?” Youngjae doesn’t really ask it per say, more like confirming it.

Mark nods as he bares all to Youngjae, his fingers threading through the blanket on the bed,

“Since the very beginning I was falling in love with that man.”

It felt good being able to tell Youngjae this.

Though what Youngjae says next takes him by surprise, “So you and Jackson were never a thing?”

“A thing? What?” Mark is confused by this as it shows on his face.

“Come on, you can’t be serious here. The whole fandom swears that you and Jackson are a thing, Mark. Remember when the staff at JYP would get onto you two because they felt you two were too close and touchy feely?”

I mean yes, Mark recalls that. He recalls how tight JYP and the staff tried to keep a leash on Mark. Reminding him that he shouldn’t get too close or touch them. Shouldn’t taint them or distract them with his mere presence. But he thought it was because they knew he was an omega. And the fans, yeah they would cheer and get excited if they did anything Markson related, but he didn’t know everyone was taking it seriously.

But maybe, he didn’t pay it any mind or see it because he’s been so in love with Jaebum to take notice. As he was trying so hard to not let it slip out and took comfort in being able to be himself with Jackson. That he didn’t have to hold back as Jackson accepted his touch and touched back. As Jackson and him bonded over so many things. From languages, to being foreigners, to loving someone they can’t have…

“Jackson has only had eyes on one person since he came into this industry and it’s never been me,” Mark admits before he can stop himself.

His eyes going wide as he wasn’t supposed to tell anyone else about that secret. As he can already see Youngjae about to freak out,

“Yah!---”

“Youngjae, you have to promise me you won’t tell anyone!” Mark is quick to say as this can’t get out.

Though luckily Mark didn’t say who he was in love with at least.

“But! Who? I want to know now!” Youngjae is going through several emotions before you can see him flailing his legs into the air, “Mark this is going to be torture! How come he’s never told any of us?!”

For he understands why Mark hadn’t but Jackson? Unless it was someone they all knew…

“Youngjae, stop while you’re ahead right now,” Mark states fiercely.

Yep, it was the L.A. gangster already coming out to the surface as Mark becomes protective over Jackson.

“See?! This right here is another example of why people would assume something was going on between you and him,” Youngjae points out quite literally as he holds his finger up towards him.

Hell, there were a couple of times that Youngjae thought the same thing. Hence why he asked the question.

“We’ve never done anything sexual sober or drunk,” Mark informs him.

Youngjae can’t help it as he starts laughing,

“What’s so funny?” Mark would like to know too.

It takes a couple of tries before Youngjae can contain himself,

“No, I’m sorry, it’s just…man, this is crazy when you think about it. How you and Jackson can say and do one thing and everyone assumes you two are together. And yet you’re actually over here pinning over our leader and no one bats an eyelash at those posts or videos.”

“I think it’s crazier how risky Bam and Yugyeom have been with their social media posts and no one has picked up on it at all,” Mark throws out there to add to the craziness.

Which gets both of them laughing as Youngjae continues,

“You’re so right. Like Yugyeom posted a photo of him topless in Bam’s bedroom of all places right after Bam came out. And not one comment suspected anything! He even wrote the caption, ‘I’ll always be by your side’ with a heart at the end, a heart!”

Mark lets out several noises at that one because why can’t he be that lucky?! But really, he’s happy for the two.

Their laughter quiets down before Youngjae looks at Mark with a sincere look,

“Mark, can I be honest?”

Mark raises an eyebrow from his spot on the pillow, “Aren’t we already being honest here?”

Youngjae’s expression remains loving, “I kind of had a feeling that you were in love with Jaebum before all this.”

What?!

It shows on Mark’s face of the shock before Youngjae continued, “It was only after finding out about Bam confessing to Yugyeom and what took place afterwards. It was then that I started to notice the same signs that Bam had towards Yugyeom, except it was you towards Jaebum.”

So Youngjae knew what to look for because of that, even though he wasn’t looking for clues on purpose. He never would’ve noticed otherwise as it showed how well Mark had been hiding his true feelings.

“For that long, you knew? And didn’t say anything?” Mark is left in awe.

Youngjae throws him his sunshine smile, “A lot of things were happening at the time that I didn’t want to stress you out anymore than we all were. I was hoping that one day you’d be comfortable and confide in me. And then after some time, I thought that maybe you had already moved on since we left JYP and that you and Jackson had gotten even closer…” He makes hand gestures again.

Oh, well, at least now Mark didn’t have to hide from Youngjae.

The two talked a bit more, the atmosphere light and loving as the topic soon fell onto Jaebum’s tour starting tomorrow. That he wishes both of them luck and that if Mark ever needed him, he’s there for him.

But Mark lets Youngjae go as it’s getting super late and they both need sleep. As Youngjae was already falling asleep on the phone.

Except Mark can’t sleep as his mind goes right back to Jaebum. Right back to the problem he had earlier. How he’s got it bad for the alpha and that he needed to stop this. That it wasn’t healthy for either of them. Because let’s face it, Jaebum will be with someone again. Even if it isn’t her, it’ll be someone else. And Mark can’t let his emotions and feelings ruin what he has with Jaebum or Got7.

He’s going to have to let him go this time…for real…no backing out…no coming back until he’s moved on. And when he leaves, he needs to really, truly, move on…

His breath hitches, the tears coming forth at the mere thought…

Because how can he go back now, when his home became Jaebum?

Mark closes his eyes, the silent tears falling as he clutches onto himself in a hug.

Telling himself that he was going to tell Jackson tomorrow so he knows he won’t back out…

Meanwhile,

Jaebum is in the same boat. As he lies on his bed, wide awake and the R&B music wasn’t helping his thoughts any. As he keeps going over what he overheard between Mark and Jackson’s phone call.

An arm lying over his eyes to cover up the silent tears falling as his other hand clutches at his chest.

They’re in a relationship…

They’re in love…

He shouldn’t get in between that…

He needs to really let Mark go…

But how? He can’t! Even now, he wants to confess to Mark. He wants to fight for him. To beg him to stay. To choose him---

He needs to be the better person. He’s their leader for crying out loud! Think about Got7!

It’s moments like these where Mark would show up and he’d lean on him. Moments like these where Jaebum wants to go to Mark, like right now…

But he can’t…he won’t…if Mark is happy with Jackson…if Mark wants to go back…

He didn't get any sleep that night as he stayed up the rest of the night due to his thoughts and feelings. And he finds he’d lose more sleep as he wants to take in every last moment he can. As he knows the clock is ticking down.

As he knows his heart is going to go right out that door with Mark once again…

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If Mark had told him, if he had said the words, ‘I’m in love with Jackson’...

To have it verified that they’ve been together…

It would’ve been bad as he wouldn’t have been able to hold back.

It’s probably a good thing Mark didn’t say anything about it yesterday. But it’s been plaguing Jaebum’s mind because he doesn’t know the truth. And these bad thoughts keep going around in his head. These urges that keep rising that he has to keep pushing back down.

He doesn’t want to lose Mark; he doesn’t want to leave his side…

‘Be his alpha’

‘Tell him’

‘Fight for him’

‘Don’t waste your chance again’

‘You’ll lose him…you’re already losing him…’

Jaebum shuts off the shower like he can shut off his mind. Like he can simply turn off these feelings and make them go cold like how his body was feeling the moment he stepped out onto the bath rug.

But he can’t. His heart reflects in the mirror. His eyes told the whole story; as his expression of heartache remained…

No amount of running a towel over his face is gonna change his reflection looking back at him.

Of his soul wanting to keep connecting to the omega…

Mark to Jackson:

‘I need to go back, it’s getting out of hand. My thoughts…my feelings…my actions…’

Mark understood why Jackson took to drinking at times because of how overwhelming it can get. How you can’t shut off these thoughts or feelings. How it takes over everything of you that it becomes so hard to not react.

‘When he had slept walked for the last time months ago, I…he…we…we went all the way. And I thought I could do it, but I can’t. Gaga, I can’t…I need to move on but I can’t do that when I’m with him twenty four seven…I’ll break…I’ll snap…I’ll react…I want him so bad it hurts. I literally masturbated to him when he was a few doors down! I’ll go feral if it stays like this…’

But even so, Mark knows he won’t be able to leave on his own. He doesn’t have the strength like he did last time. Where before, he didn’t have a taste of Jaebum. He didn’t know what it was like to be held by the alpha in such a way. In the most perfect way as he always dreamed of. And now experiencing that, he doesn’t want to go. He wants to stay forever. He wants to beg and plead and do anything. But it’s not healthy and it’s not fair to Jaebum. So he has to leave and he knows that Jackson will make sure he does. He’ll make sure to keep him afloat so he doesn’t drown completely---

His phone rings as Mark stares down at it with such a raw expression. As he’s tired, lost, broken and these thoughts keep going around and around---

“Jiaer…” Mark answers and Jackson is already talking,

“I told you, Yien! Shit…I didn’t want it to get that far because of this very reason! I don’t even know how you’re surviving because if I had a taste of Jinyoung, it’d be over,” Jackson lets out in his native tongue as he feels for the omega.

As he’s upset because he doesn’t want Mark to be hurting like this. As this wasn’t why he wanted Mark to go to Korea in the first place and now he feels responsible for the omega’s pain.

“I know I…I’m sorry…I just…I love him, Jacks…I love him…” Mark replies back in Chinese as his voice cracks with several emotions.

“This isn’t good for you. This isn’t what I had hoped for. You said yourself that you need to leave---”

“I know! Trust me, I know! But I can’t---I was able to walk away before but I can’t---I can’t---” Mark is growing emotional.

Even now, he’s trying to stop himself from leaving. To find an excuse, something, anything!

“You can and you will. Because I’m coming. I’m going to get onto the next available flight and we’re going to leave together,” Jackson tells him in his alpha tone.

Because he knows that Mark needs to hear it. He needs to get it through to him and he needs him to know that he’s not alone.

And it works cause their voices go down a notch as Mark takes a moment to gather himself. To contain these emotions as he’s fighting with himself.

After a moment, Mark’s breath comes out shaky,

“Ok…but I don’t want this to hurt Bummie. So I can’t just leave before seeing one of his shows because I promised I would.”

Though it may sound like an excuse and him clinging onto more time, he wasn’t lying. He even told their fans that he wanted to see one of Jaebum’s shows before going back to America. So Jaebum is counting on that and Mark doesn’t want to let him down. Not when Jaebum has been such a great alpha and leader. He deserves all the love and support in the world.

So for just a little bit longer…

Jackson lets out a breath himself, “One show and that’s it. I had already gotten a flight so I could come surprise Jaebum and then we’d leave together anyway, so…”

Mark shows a sad smile as Jackson knew him too well. That he already had things planned because he knew how hard it was going to be for Mark to leave before he even told him…

“Thank you…” Mark whispers and Jackson lets out a light chuckle,

“I hope to hear that again after I carry you onto our flight,” He lets out in a whisper too.

Because he knows how hard it was for Mark to leave the first time…

There’s a knock on his door and Mark realizes the time. Damn, they should’ve left by now.

“I gotta go but keep me updated.”

“I got you, Yien. Remember that, ok?”

“Yeah,” Mark breathes out before the call ends and the omega goes to open the door.

Not knowing that Jaebum had been on the other side for quite some time. That his hand had been raised to knock prior but then he heard Mark and Jackson in a heated conversation. Though he didn’t know what they were saying since they were talking in Chinese. But he did hear his name at one point. And when the voices died down, Jaebum couldn’t wait much longer. As he worried about the omega. As he worried he was losing Mark faster. That he was the reason for the argument---

The door opens and the two immediately lock gazes. Both holding raw expressions before Mark offers a small smile,

“You ready?”

Already, Jaebum had to swallow down the word, ‘no’. But his hand falls back to his side as he shows Mark the same small smile back,

A small nod of his head before, “You?”

Mark had to duck his head for a second to hide how his face screamed he didn’t want to go. But the omega is able to put up his mask before lifting his head back up,

“Whenever you are.”

Which would be never but Jaebum coughs to clear his throat so he doesn’t say that. But he’s unable to stop himself from reaching out to take Mark’s hand in his. Their fingers brushing and god did it feel so right. As the pull was there and the two intertwined their fingers instinctively. Latching on for another moment. Like they could convey everything silently.

Like they could remain in this dream…

When they arrived, everything moved so fast. So much needed to be done as the first show would start tomorrow so they had to make sure everything was prepped and ready. The long hours going by fast as they rehearsed; checked the sound equipment. Made sure the cameras and the angles were set up right. That all the dance moves and songs fit in to the time slots.

There wasn’t much time for breaks, much less time for the two to have moments together. It was mostly Mark in the background watching the alpha. Trying to take in every detail he could to memory. Not looking away as the stylists would adjust the alpha’s outfit or do a touch up on his face and hair. As Mark tried to sneak in a few breaths of Jaebum’s scent. Resisting the urges to get closer. To interrupt the alpha at work as he put his passion and soul into everything he does. Knowing how much their fans were waiting and excited to see Jaebum perform tomorrow.

Mark couldn’t be selfish. He had to face reality. He had to do this.

He had to let Jaebum go…

Except that was proving to be quite difficult the moment everyone got to go home. Where Jaebum instantly locked eyes with him and headed towards him. Smiling at him so softly as he wanted to be by Mark’s side again. As he pulled the omega right into a hug,

“Eat with me?” He asks with hope in his voice.

Afraid that Mark would turn him down. That he’d be too tired and want to sleep. Though Jaebum made sure that they got to share a hotel room. As Mark didn’t question it since they used to share rooms and stayed in cramped places while on tour before. So even if Mark said no, at least they could be in the same room until tomorrow.

“I’d like that,” Mark answers.

If Jaebum wants to celebrate, he doesn’t want to hold him back.

But why did Mark have to go and picture it like a date? Where it was just them two at some rundown diner. Where Jaebum had been so excited and his dorky self….

The two of them walked from the hotel through the night air as they stuck close. Their sides brushed as they laughed and had a good time. Where Mark fell right back into that routine again. Where it felt so domestic and sensual. As Jaebum even hand fed him some of his food while Mark giggled at his cuteness when the alpha’s cheek was puffed out from feeding him back. Where they talked about everything and nothing. Just enjoying each other’s company. Getting lost in each other as the cameras and flashing lights didn’t even register. As no one else existed in their world as the two stayed at the diner well past the time of finishing their food. And how the walk back to the hotel was a much slower pace as neither wanted to go back. Where the two kept looking at each other, their fingers brushing by accident the first time. But totally on purpose the second time from Mark. And there really was no excuse to Jaebum taking his hand in his, other then so that they could cross the street. But Mark took it; he latched on…

Every excuse, every thought, every feeling…

Mark wanted to remain in this dream, this fantasy of his for a little bit longer…

Just a bit longer…

Until they got back to the hotel and Mark let go of Jaebum’s hand while the alpha unlocked their room. As Mark tried to restrain himself by making sure he went to the one bed and not the alpha’s. And telling him that he was tired, which wasn’t a lie. But he couldn’t tell him that he wanted to keep spending time with him. That he wanted to be on the same bed as him. Where now, as he laid in bed and sleep should take him, he finds himself drawn to Jaebum. Feeling his gaze on him as Mark fights to keep looking towards the other wall with his back to the alpha. Clinging to the bed sheets as he has to do this.

‘Let him go…you need to let him go…’

Even as the tears threaten to fall when he finally hears the alpha’s breathing evening out and he’s asleep…

Hoping, praying it won’t happen again because he can’t…

‘Let him go…You gotta---’

But then he feels the bed dip and those hands find him again…

That deep soothing voice whispering into his ear,

“Baby…”

Here he goes again…

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It’s like the alpha knew what he was trying to do. Like he knew he was trying to let him go. And here he was doing this to him.

Healing him yet damaging him at the same time…

Pulling him back in though it’ll end up with him pushing him away once morning comes…

Both heaven and hell as he’s showering him in the love he’s always wanted and yet it’s not meant for him…

It never was meant for him…

“Bummie please…I can’t!” Mark tries to put up a fight this time.

Even though his body is reacting. Even though his soul wants to latch on to him. His heart can’t take it. His mind reminding him that this wasn’t real. He needs to wake Jaebum up before it’s too late.

Before he’ll fall back into this fantasy…

But those hands keep touching him, trying to lure him back in. Those lips pressing against his skin as warmth spreads more throughout his body. His scent is trying to surround him in a loving embrace. All in which if conveying a message that words have failed to reach. In wanting to show his love so desperately.

And Mark feels it so deeply that it affects him greatly.

Hurting him so good…

“Alpha…no…wake up…wake up!” Mark pleads, his hands attempting to push Jaebum off of him.

As the alpha rolls Mark over onto his back and cages him in. The omega looking ready to cry as he stares up at Jaebum. As his eyes are open and looking back at him with that intense heated gaze of before. But he’s not awake. He’s not the one he’s seeing,

“Jaebum---” Mark calls out his name but is taken by surprise when the alpha suddenly dives down.

Capturing his lips with his in a kiss full of heat and passion. Causing Mark to whimper into the kiss as the emotions were overwhelming. As his mind was short circuiting, his body going weak. The alpha giving him no time to breathe as if he was the one that needed to provide him air. To be able to breathe his love into him so he’ll continue to need him.

That by the time Jaebum does let off, Mark is panting and the alpha is letting out a breathless,

“Stay…”

Fuck, the alpha was begging and it goes straight to Mark’s heart.

“Don’t go…”

As he’s cupping Mark’s face and saying more words against his lips,

“Choose me…”

All before kissing him once more. Deepening the kiss as Mark can’t help it. He can’t take it. Not when he can feel Jaebum’s love. Not when it’s everything he’s wanted, dreamed of. And how easily it was for Jaebum to pull him into his head space. Unable to fight his omega instincts as he’s kissing back. As he’s getting lost in Jaebum…

But this was bad, so bad, as one second, they’re kissing and the next, Mark finds them both naked. With Jaebum taking their clothes off in such haste like he couldn’t wait any longer. As if he too needed to feel Mark again. Skin on skin, those hands mapping out his body, driving him crazy as it’s like he knows. Like he remembers from the times before. Knows what he likes, what gets him going. Marking, kneading, groping. All while kissing him as if he can’t get enough. Only stopping in between to keep pleading,

“Be mine…”

How could Mark resist? How could he not take it to heart?

“Bummie…Alpha…” Mark pleads back.

As he latches onto those broad shoulders. As his body trembles under his touch. As their cocks rub in such sweet friction. As he’s so wet and wants to beg for the alpha to shove his cock inside---

But he can’t…he shouldn’t…he needs to stop this…he needs to---

“Stay…” Jaebum keeps going and Mark lets out a hitched breath as he’s falling apart.

“I can’t…I want to…but I can’t…Bummie we can’t…I shouldn’t…”

“I want you…” Jaebum says it with such emotion too.

As he nuzzles against his face,

“I need you…”

Mark lets out a pained sound, his heart breaking,

“Don’t…my heart…you can’t keep saying such things…making me believe…making me fall harder…”

Jaebum goes to kiss him again but Mark manages to push the alpha back some. Back enough where he can see Mark’s expression and the omega is seconds from breaking completely,

“I have to let you go, Bummie…we both need to wake up…” Mark says it as his voice cracks and the tears fall.

And for a second, Mark actually thinks Jaebum might be awake because the alpha stopped. And the way Jaebum reacts to him, like he’s taking in every word he’s saying. As if he’s picking up on his body language, his emotions, and the tears falling. Because the alpha lifts his hand and caresses his face, his thumb swiping away a fallen tear.

It makes Mark’s breath hitch before his expression contorts and he’s crying even harder. As Jaebum was comforting him even when asleep. As Mark knows he’s not awake as the alpha says three words that have the omega releasing a heartbreaking sound,

“I love you…”

It’s not fair…it’s so not fair…

“I love you…”

Jaebum keeps repeating it as he’s moving again. As Mark can’t even fight it as those three words rock him through the core. Where he closes his eyes with the tears still falling and he feels it. Feels the next sound cutting off as Jaebum slots in between and he feels him pushing in. Mark’s hands slipping down Jaebum’s body as the alpha comes closer. Caging him back in once he’s all the way to the hilt. How perfectly they fit together, how right it still felt even as his heart breaks further with each slow thrust. As Jaebum makes love to him, his arms wrapping around Mark in such a warm embrace. Mark crying against the alpha’s neck as he wraps his arms around Jaebum’s back,

“I love you,” Jaebum keeps repeating the words against his ear.

Saying it with such emotion, such passion. Pleading for Mark to hear him, to understand. To accept his love back as he wants to keep connecting. Saying it like he knows he’s losing Mark. Wanting Mark to stay by his side.

Wanting Mark to say it back…

‘Choose me’

‘Be with me’

‘Love me’

‘Not him’

‘Not her’

Just how Mark wanted the same thing. As the words threaten to come out but he can’t because he’ll never get over him if he says it. He won’t stop this if he does. And it hurts…

It hurts…as he knows he’ll never stop loving Jaebum…

The sob that comes forth is muffled as Mark bit his lip so hard it bled. As the pleasure and the pain of his heart mixed together. As Jaebum continued to hold him through this moment as if his love could heal everything. Having no idea how much it was reaching deep into Mark’s soul.

“Ma---I love you…”

Ma? What was he about to say?

“Ma---love you…” Jaebum can’t help it as he’s growing emotional too.

As the pleasure was rising but both their hearts were breaking.

“Ma…” He tries again but it cuts off as he’s crying too.

As their bodies were connecting but their hearts couldn’t fully reach each other. Not even when they both end up cumming. Not even as they were coming down.

Not even when Jaebum tried fighting it, but soon his body gave out. His hold on him letting go and it’s then that Mark can’t hold it back anymore. As he continued to hold the alpha as he cried. As those three words come out as he meant it from the bottom his heart,

“I love you…”

Even if he’s not the one Jaebum wants…

Even if Jaebum was in love with another…

Even if he’ll be tortured like this until his last breath…

Jaebum was the one for him…his mate…

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That’s what he was trying to say right?

Mate

Was she his mate?

Mark shows off a pained smile before trying to laugh it off, though it almost turns into a sob.

No, he can’t think about it. Not right now. Not as he stands under the water in the hotel shower.

He managed to get everything cleaned up and like it never happened. Taking the dirty laundry to the laundry room the hotel had and bringing back fresh linen. He even sprayed a descenter that Bam had also got him when he asked, though Bam thought it was for another reason. You know, cause Mark is in love with Jaebum and the alpha didn’t need to be picking up on his sweet scent giving that indicator away. Especially if he was going to be pleasuring himself with the dildo. But in no way, did Bam know that Mark was going to use it for this. As Mark had wanted to be prepared in case Jaebum slept walked again. Though Mark thought it wasn’t going to happen again.

And now look at the mess he’s in…

How is he going to walk out the door now? Much less, get onto a plane that’ll take him hundreds of miles away?

What if he sleep walks again?

Fuck, what does he do? The tour has already started and Jaebum’s first concert day is tonight. And Mark’s suitcase is already packed with Jackson coming to the show as well. There’s no backing out now but he can’t leave. He can’t leave Jaebum like this.

If Jaebum truly had this condition and what Jackson told him was true…from what took place last night…it could happen to another…

‘You need to leave’

‘Stay’

‘This isn’t healthy for you’

‘Don’t go’

Jackson’s and Jaebum’s words go back and forth in his mind. Making him torn on what to do…

Mark stands on the bath mat as he doesn’t even dry his hair off. His arms wrapped around himself as his expression remains so raw. Where he feels like he’s going numb, but when he goes to subconsciously bite his lip, pain runs through him. Grounding him back into the moment as he tastes blood.

That’s right, his lip…

Mark lifts a hand to feel where he bit it so hard earlier that he busted it…

His eyes then lift to look at the reflection in the mirror. Taking in how he looked like this before. Back on the day he found out Jaebum was becoming serious with that woman. How Mark had wanted to tell Jaebum so badly those three words he held back…

Mark to Jinyoung:

Did Jaebum ever tell you if he loved her?

Mark never pried into Jaebum’s love life. It was less painful that way and he was glad that Jaebum didn’t talk about her when they had moments together. But if it was one person that knew all about the relationship Jaebum had with her, it would be Jinyoung.

Mark sits out on the balcony as it wouldn’t be long now before the day would start. Where life would continue to move on even if the omega wasn’t ready. As his one leg bounces while he waits for Jinyung to reply. Knowing that the male was up by now.

Sure enough, he hears a ding and Mark has to take another moment before checking. A hand running through his hair as he curls up on the chair to try and bring comfort to himself. Preparing himself for the answer,

Jinyoung: Why message me out of the blue about that?

Oh…right, it does seem weird doesn’t it? But how does he word it where it makes sense and not give away about what’s been going on? About the feelings he has for Jaebum? Because one slip up, Jinyoung will tell Jaebum. Those two don’t keep secrets from each other.

Mark hesitates on how to reply when he knows how he can bring it up without giving away too much,

Mark: The album he did. The songs are about her, right?

To Mark’s surprise, Jinyoung replied soon after,

Jinyoung: Is that what he told you?

Damn, he should’ve known Jinyoung would be evasive. Meaning, he wasn’t about to give away information on Jaebum unless the alpha himself wanted to. So it also let Mark know that this album was personal and not just something for the fans.

Well, this didn’t help him any…

But maybe if he gave away a little bit more---

Mark: Not indirectly but since staying with him, he’s been talking in his sleep some nights.

Yeah, there we go. Nothing bad or alarming, but enough to hopefully prompt Jinyoung into telling him something. As he needs to confirm these thoughts he’s having so he can put a stop to this.

But would it stop him really?

Mark is fidgeting in his chair as he ends up leaning his head back while letting out a huff of air. What is he even doing? What did it matter? To just shatter his heart completely like it was going to help him stay away? It still wouldn’t solve Jaebum’s sleep walking. Unless…unless she really was his mate and she came back into the picture…

A ding brings him out of his thoughts. His hand is shaking a bit now as his emotions are becoming haywire.

Jinyoung: Go on, I’m listening. Has he been talking about her in his sleep?

Mark: He hasn’t said her name, just pet names. And she was his last relationship and the longest one he’s had in years so it has to be her. Which his relationship with her is being brought back up with this album, so it would explain the sleep talking I’m sure. So I was wondering if he still had feelings for her. Worried that he might still be hurting as he never talked about her much with me. So I don’t know how far or serious it was, though I’m assuming almost a year had to mean something.

Shit, he didn’t mean to word vomit there but it’s too late now…

Guess he’s been wanting to get this out for a while and he hasn’t really talked to Jackson about her. As he didn’t want to mention her name period or see her face---

Oh? Jinyoung was typing already,

Jinyoung: Pet names huh…interesting. But there’s nothing to worry about. For even if this album was about ‘her’, the fact that he’s doing a whole tour and able to sing and perform them, means he’s already getting/gotten over her. At least, that’s what we would think. But knowing Jaebum, he’s always used music to express what he’s wanted to voice passionately. And in a lot of cases, when he wasn’t able to say what he wanted to say at the time. Or when he can’t hold his thoughts and feelings back anymore. So why not ask him, Mark? Are you afraid of the answer?

Ah fuck, when he thinks about it, the most logical response would’ve been just to ask him. Something a friend, a loved one, a brother would’ve done. Something Mark should’ve done, except Jinyoung didn’t know how he felt about that woman. How he felt about Jaebum.

So this must seem a bit weird to him.

Mark: I’m…

Mark stops what he was about to text. For he could lie, he could even come up with a white lie. But it didn’t feel right as Mark wanted to shout it. He wanted to scream out these emotions and feelings as they’ve become so strong, so wild, so passionate---

He fell too far…there was no backing out now…

Mark: I’m afraid of the damage she might’ve done. Of the hold on his heart that she might still have. That he might not be able to move on.

Like he had a chance…like he could convince Jaebum…like he’d be able to hold the alpha’s heart in such a way…

His fingers still hesitate over the letters as he wants to type more. But this was going into dangerous territory. Yet, he’s doing it instinctively,

Mark: Last night, it sounded like he was trying to call out the word ‘mate’.

The way his heart clenched when he typed that word made him clutch the front of his clothing where his heart laid underneath. Where almost hearing Jaebum call that word out made Mark realize how much the alpha meant to him.

On why he couldn’t let Jaebum go…

Jinyoung’s response was immediate,

Jinyoung: You need to tell him, Mark.

Tell him?! Is he crazy?!

No, because that’s what Jackson said he should’ve done too. Which was to tell Jaebum about his sleep walking and what’s been going on. And the logical part of his brain tells him he needed to do it too. But that fear, those bad thoughts…they grip him in a tight hold. Coiling around his heart as he knows what will happen if he does.

Mark: I know…but that’s what I’m afraid of most. Afraid of losing him…afraid of losing Got7…

Tears hit his phone as Mark typed those words out but didn’t send it. His finger hovering over the send button as his breath hitches. As his shoulders hunch forward and his expression breaks once more.

Just a little bit longer…just another hour…a minute…a second…

Mark closes his eyes as he tries to get a grip on himself. Jaebum was going to wake up soon and he can’t be out here falling apart. He needs to hold it together. This is Jaebum’s big day! Don’t ruin it…

Mark hears the bathroom door closing inside the hotel room. It jerks him into sitting up and he almost drops his phone. But he’s quick to catch it before he’s locking it and pocketing his phone without looking. As his focus was to hurry and get his shit together before Jaebum came out of the bathroom. So he goes to a stand, wiping at his face with his hands to try and get rid of any trace of him crying.

He can do this…he’s got this…only one more day, no…less than that…because their flight would leave before morning came tomorrow…

Mark has to cover his face with the sleeves of his hoodie as the tears threaten to fall again…

Meanwhile, Jaebum was indeed awake but he’s not faring well either. Why? Because he had the worst dream ever. No, it was more like a nightmare. Of his worst fears as he was losing Mark. As he lost him…

He wants to go back to his dreams where he had Mark. Where he’s able to hold him freely and they both expressed their need for each other. But it was like reality was even reaching his dreams as he couldn’t have it in his fantasy. Where he couldn’t have Mark say those three words back. Where he couldn’t make Mark stay and be his…

He sucks in air as his heart clenches painfully. As he didn’t even realize he was crying from this dream---

Shit, he needs to get a grip on himself! He’s in the hotel with Mark of all places too!

Jaebum hurries to get up, not even registering that he was in the omega’s bed as he heads to the bathroom to quickly hide the mess he was becoming. Thanking the stars that Mark wasn’t in the room at the moment to ask him what was wrong. Because if he did, Jaebum would fall apart right then and there. He wouldn’t be able to stop it and he’s still having a hard time stopping it.

He grips the counter of the sink, a hurt noise threatening to escape…

Why does it hurt this much? It was just a dream! It wasn’t real! Even if he tried, begged and pleaded for dream Mark to stay. Even if he was trying to convey everything into that dream. Trying so hard to get his name out, to get his feelings out, even though it was hopeless. Even though he knew that Mark couldn’t be his, couldn’t be with him…

Is it because he knows Mark was going to go home soon? That he was afraid he wouldn’t see Mark again once he got on that plane?

That his love for Mark became too great that he can’t control himself anymore?

But what good was it going to do to tell Mark? Especially if he’s with Jackson, he shouldn’t. It’s probably why Jackson didn’t want Mark around him. Because he knew, or had a suspicion and now look at him---

He wants to risk it all. Even if it all ends up crashing into disaster. He wants to dive right in without a second thought. His heart is beating so strongly from this…

He has to grip the counter tighter, his breathing coming out a bit harsh as he looks at himself in the mirror. At his reflection and takes in how his eyes were flashing back and forth of his alpha.

He feels like he’s going crazy, his instincts haywire as he’s normally calm and collected. He’s never had such issues before except for the few occasional hot headed moments. Yet when it came to Mark he reacted so strongly. Ever since the first time they met. And how it only grew the more time they spent together.

Don’t get him started when Mark left either. The pain…the heartache…the urge to go to him…to call him…to let those words come out…those thoughts and feelings…

But Mark didn’t want him. He had Jackson…he has Jackson…control, he needs to control himself---

‘I need him’

‘I don’t want to lose him’

‘I can’t let him walk out that door’

‘He’s my everything, I can’t move on’

‘I only see him, I only want him’

‘I love him’

‘I love him’

‘My Baby’

‘My Darling’

‘My mate’

His breathing keeps picking up, his mind racing, his heart still beating that rhythm for Mark. He feels like he’s going to snap, that he’ll go feral and it’s not until he feels the scream ready to come out, that he stills. His eyes opened as he didn’t realize he had closed them. All to find how he was about to smash the mirror, his eyes bleeding red.

He almost lost control…

The realization grounds him as he can’t go back. He can’t pretend anymore. He can’t hide it. And that’s bad because that could ruin Got7. That could ruin his relationship with Jackson, with Mark. But he’s not going to be able to hold back these thoughts and feelings much longer.

He needs to let Mark go…

But just when he thinks he’s calmed down enough to function. Just when he was able to distract himself by getting dressed so they could head to the concert hall, it all came undone. His resolve, those thoughts of letting Mark go, all of it. Because as Mark stands in front of him now, it was impossible to do. As the omega stares up at him with those eyes, that look on his face and his split lip---

Wait, when did that happen? Because Jaebum swears Mark didn’t do that last night before bed. It was only in his dream…his dream…

“Bummie?” Mark calls out in concern from the way Jaebum suddenly stopped in his morning greeting.

Where the alpha was simply staring at him with such an unreadable expression.

It has Mark reaching out and his touch seems to jerk the alpha back into motion. Making Jaebum move back some, his hands diving down into his pockets as he gestures with his head,

“We should go as we’re already running behind,” Jaebum says in a strained tone while already trying to head towards the door.

Not seeing how Mark was hurt by his actions. But Mark didn’t know how hard it was on Jaebum right now. Where the second he saw Mark’s split lip, he almost lost control right then and there. And when Mark touched him, he wanted to touch back so badly. Trying to restrain himself as it was clear in his voice how much he wanted to say so much. On how he wanted to do those things in his dream.

It was just a dream though…a dream…a fantasy…

Mark just nods but Jaebum didn’t look back to see it so the omega follows behind him. Taking in the alpha’s back as Jaebum walked a bit ahead of him. And Mark knows this is how it should be. That some distance needed to happen between them. But it didn’t mean these urges would go away. Where the need to touch was strong. To keep connecting as Mark had to stop himself from reaching out for the alpha’s hand. As he had to hold back these crushing emotions that were building.

When they got into the elevator though, Jaebum couldn't stop thinking about it. As he kept looking towards Mark who stood beside him. His head lowered a bit with his baseball cap on so you couldn’t see his eyes. But you could see his split lip.

A gut feeling was rising, something pulling at him…

And he could feel when Mark subtly reached out to brush his fingers with his. The omega was unable to help himself as he felt like he was drowning at this moment. In this static charge steadily growing between them that he was unsure of which direction it was going. Like he felt he was fading with these emotions and thoughts trying to consume him. With reality reminding him of how much time he was losing…of how he was losing Jaebum…

He was losing his anchor…he needed saving…

He was losing air, but the second he felt Jaebum’s fingers intertwine their hands together it was like the air came rushing back to him. Mark clinging instinctively as he swallows down the emotions that keep building and building. As he doesn’t want to get off this elevator and let this moment end.

But he has to do this even though it’s going to break him.

Even though he has to leave the ‘home’ he wants to stay in forever…

So he ignores Jaebum’s intense gaze. He ignores the way his fingers tremble as he feels Jaebum trying to move closer. He fights with his instincts and the second the ding is heard and the doors open---

Mark pulls away first, cutting off whatever Jaebum was going to do, going to say. Letting go of Jaebum’s hand as the alpha still had it raised to reach back out. But Mark doesn’t look back, he keeps going. Doing this for the both of them as he always has Jaebum in mind. Always thinking of others as he’d destroy himself if it meant the other would remain happy and healthy. And he’d do anything for Jaebum, anything…

By the time they got outside, Jaebum’s manager was already waiting with some staff and body guards. Mark didn’t even sit next to Jaebum as the alpha purposely let the manager sit in between them. The two discussed what was going to go down today. As Jaebum needed a distraction, something to keep him from thinking too deeply.

But not even multiple conversations could stop it. Not even as time went by with getting things ready. That gut feeling kept growing. That pull inside of him making it impossible to ignore now. Especially as he noticed how Mark was trying to put some distance between them. Making him think back to before Mark was moving back to America. How the omega subtly took a step back. How over time, the calls and texts became less and far in between.

It was happening all over again and Jaebum didn’t want this. He didn’t want to go back, he couldn’t. Not now, not when he keeps thinking about Mark’s lip being split. As Mark wouldn’t meet his gaze, yet he picked up on how he’d react. How he’d grip the chair to hold back. How he’d go to bite his lip, just to silently gasp from his lip being busted. His eyes glazed over with such raw emotions. Making Jaebum want to dive in deeper, to get the omega alone. But it’s like Mark knew that’s what he wanted so he purposely remained around others. Hiding at times when Jaebum was busy. Keeping it to where they couldn’t have a moment. Just like now as Jaebum was about to go on soon and Mark excused himself when his phone rang. Where he had some alone time before he’d go up on stage as fans could be heard from the auditorium.

But that feeling was unbearable now. Everything in him screams to go to Mark. For he needs to know he’s not going insane. That he wasn’t imagining how Mark reached out to him as if he didn’t want it to stop either. That he didn’t want to leave. That he felt the same---

But he has to be delusional because it’s like his eyes were being opened. Hell, he could be morphing their times together into something more. Yet that feeling, that pull inside him keeps him looking deeper. Telling him something. Searching for more meaning, something, anything. Just like the time when Mark reacted to being called darling for the first time. To the times Mark’s fingers would find his and he wouldn’t pull away. Their bodies gravitate towards one another. To the drunken moment where Mark cried that he wanted to get closer to him but wasn’t allowed. To being afraid of being alone with him or others seeing them in intimate positions. Down to the talks he overheard between Jackson and Mark.

Maybe he’s already going feral because if what he’s putting together were true…

If he wasn’t the only one feeling it, seeing it, reacting…

Then that meant his ‘dream’ wasn’t a dream and that Mark…

‘Bummie…alpha’

‘I can’t…I want to…but I can’t…Bummie we can’t…I shouldn’t…’

‘Don’t…my heart…you can’t keep saying such things…making me believe…making me fall harder…’

‘I have to let you go, Bummie…we both need to wake up…’

His heart reacts, skipping a beat before pounding---

Jaebum gets up from his spot as he needs to find Mark and he needs to find him now. His body taking him to the door but he finds it opening at the same time and he’s greeted with someone he wasn’t expecting to see…

“Jinyoung,” Jaebum lets out in shock before someone else appears too,

“Surprise, hyung!” Youngjae lets out in his cheerful sunshine voice.

And what a happy moment it should’ve been but Jaebum was on a mission. As he can’t help this rising feeling that if he didn’t find Mark right now, he was going to lose him forever. And it shows on his face as he’s trying to get past them,

“I’m sorry but I have to…Mark, did you see Mark?”

“Mark?” The two repeat his name before trying to see into the room,

“He’s not here?” Youngjae asks as Jinyoung says,

“He was with you this morning though.”

Jaebum is wasting too much time. No, he’s wasted too many years! He needs to find Mark---

“Jaebum, stop, look at me,” Jinyoung tries to calm down his best friend who looks on the verge of having a full on breakdown.

“Is everything ok?” Youngjae is growing concerned as he’s never seen his leader like this before.

“Mark, he left to take a phone call but I need to see him,” Jaebum hurried to get out as his breathing was even rising.

“Then he’s nearby,” Jinyoung tells him to help his nerves.

“Yeah, he wouldn’t leave without seeing your performance,” Youngjae reassures as the time for Jaebum to go on stage drew near, “He’ll be back.”

But they don’t get it! They don’t understand! And he’s not calm enough to explain properly much less if he should even be saying this out loud,

“The dream I had last night though! It felt so real, no, it is real! It has to be! Cause of his split lip---I shouldn’t have ignored it, none of it. I need to talk to him, to know---”

“Wait, wait!” Jinyoung stops Jaebum from leaving again as he gestures with his hands in a dramatic fashion, “Run that by me again. You said you had a dream last night?”

Youngjae stands off to the side, taking all of this in shock, but yet to Jinyoung, it was like he knew something. As Jinyoung was a lot calmer and more level headed. Then again, he usually is if their leader wasn’t present or he needed to take over for Jaebum.

Jaebum doesn’t try to leave the room again but he’s pacing. His hand running through his hair as he doesn’t care if he’s messing up his stage look as he’s so worked up,

“Yes! Like the dreams I’ve been telling you about before that involved him. The ones since Mark came back to Korea…I don’t think they’re dreams, though I can’t tell you how or why. I just know…in my heart…my mind…my soul…they’re real---”

“Mark texted me this morning about you having a dream last night. That you were talking in your sleep,” Jinyoung says and Jaebum stops pacing.

His whole face is expressive as the words sink in. As Jinyoung basically confirmed it---

“Dreams?” Youngjae is trying to follow as Mark never told him about these dreams or Jaebum sleep talking.

But before anything else can be said, they can hear commotion nearby as Youngjae remained in the open doorway.

“Jiaer, I can’t! I said I can’t!”

Mark?!

All three of them recognize Mark’s voice as they head out into the hallway before hearing,

“You can! You will!” Jackson can be heard shouting back.

As the three locate where it’s coming from as it’s in a nearby dressing room. And Jaebum doesn’t wait any longer as he takes off, slipping past the two.

“Jaebum!” Jinyoung calls out for him to stop before he’s chasing after him.

Youngjae is quick to follow as well and sees Jaebum already rounding the corner. Shit, what’s happening? What’s going to happen? As Youngjae worries this is going to be bad. As he’s already trying to call Bam, knowing he’s with Yugyeom right now. Because those two were waiting for Youngjae to call so they could all talk to Jaebum before he went on stage. They knew Jackson was here as he wanted to surprise Jaebum and that’s where Mark went when he excused himself with having a call. But this, this isn’t what they wanted.

They’re supposed to be happy, they’re supposed to be together. 7 or nothing.

Yet by the time the call connects to the facetime…

By the time Youngjae makes it to the other dressing room…

Everything was happening so fast…the shouting…the arguing…

Mark was crying…fists were flying…everything was chaotic…

Mark’s fears were coming true and it was in the aftermath that he felt his heart completely shatter…

Right along with Got7…

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When Mark got the call, he could feel his heart sinking. Could feel his legs growing heavy as he knew what was to come next.

This was it…

Letting out a shaky breath, Mark answers the call while he says into the open room,

“I need to take this call, I’ll be back.”

He makes sure he doesn’t look Jaebum’s way because if he had locked eyes with the alpha he would’ve caved. Instead, he’s thankful that the staff were still working out his outfit and styling him so that Jaebum couldn’t get up and follow.

But he could feel that heated gaze against his back and it almost had him hesitate,

“You can do this, Yien,” Jackson’s voice talks into his ear.

Helping him to keep moving forward and out the door.

“I’m here, tell me where you’re at. Jinyoung and Youngjae are with me,” He keeps talking.

As he talks in a calm tone after he picked up on Mark’s unsteady breathing.

“By the dressing rooms,” Mark replies as he focuses on Jackson’s voice.

He’s trying to keep walking but his heart was aching so badly to go back.

“Gaga I don’t…” Mark tries to get out but then the omega stops as he sees the three come around the corner.

“Mark,” Jinyoung and Youngjae greet with excitement as they don’t realize what’s going on.

Mark barely has time to hang up his phone before he finds the two hugging him after running. The omega tries to school his expression as he hugs back.

“It’s good to see you again---oh? What happened to your lip?” Youngjae lets out first when he pulls back before stopping.

Jinyoung pulls back so he can take a proper look as well, a frown appearing,

“Did someone hit you or something?” He asks in concern.

Right away, Mark thinks of Jaebum. About what took place last night and his expression was breaking, his voice cracking,

“I did it by accident.”

But even to the three, he didn’t sound convincing. And it was all Jackson needed to hear before he’s pulling Mark away from the two,

“We need to talk,” Jackson says as he’s not taking no for an answer.

“Gaga---” Mark tries to plead with him to wait until later but Jackson wasn’t waiting any longer,

“This needs to be addressed now,” He insists as he takes Mark’s hand in his before looking at the two,

“We’ll only be a moment, you two go on ahead,” He says like everything was fine.

Youngjae nods and gives a friendly smile while Jinyoung’s expression was unreadable. As he knew something---

“Don’t forget about what we talked about,” Youngjae reminds him as the three of them discussed with Bam and Yugyeom about being there tonight for their leader.

Though Bam and Yugyeom unfortunately couldn’t get a flight out till tomorrow to see Jaebum’s concert. They were still going to be there through face time where they will all wish the alpha good luck. As well as telling him how much they appreciated him and to show their support. They also wanted to see Mark and all be together again in the same room before the omega had to go back home to America. But no one except Jackson knew how soon Mark was going to be leaving.

Jackson gives a nod that he remembered before pulling Mark into a random dressing room.

“I’m surprised you wanted to do it tonight though,” Youngjae turns his attention to Jinyoung.

To the male who was still looking at the closed door that Jackson took Mark into,

“When Mark texted me this morning, I pushed to use one of my vacation days for tonight instead of tomorrow.”

Especially as he can’t help but think back to the last text he sent him.

‘I know…but that’s what I’m afraid of most. Afraid of losing him…afraid of losing Got7…’

“It’s ironic because the original plan was to surprise Jaebum tomorrow but then Jackson contacted me and asked if I could come tonight since his flight came earlier than expected. While at the same time, you wanted to push for tonight too.”

Bam and Yugyeom tried hard to get a faster flight too but to no avail.

But was it really ironic? Because Jackson didn’t contact him to ask if he could be there tonight. It was only Youngjae. If Youngjae hadn't replied back to him, then he never would’ve known that Jackson was even in Korea right now. As if Jackson knew or had hoped that the others wouldn’t be able to come.

Like Jackson had something planned…

“We need to find Jaebum,” Jinyoung says as he’s already moving.

As he didn’t like what he was feeling. What he was feeling since Mark sent that text this morning.

Youngjae perks up at this in confusion before glancing to the still closed door,

“But we should wait for the others, no?” He lets out as he looks back to see Jinyoung wasn’t stopping.

Youngjae jogs to catch up, “What about the surprise?” He asks as he doesn’t understand what’s going on.

Was there something he missed here? Especially as Jinyoung has this look on his face…

Were they not coming together for a happy and joyous moment like they’ve been wanting to do for years now?

The second the door shut, Jackson is demanding answers,

“Explain,” And his tone leaves no room for lies or excuses.

“Gaga---”

“Mark, I’m not playing,” Jackson’s expression is serious.

There is no more sugar coating it or buying more time. Jackson wasn’t even giving him the chance to leave as he crowds him up against the counter in the dressing room. The mirror showing off the alpha’s expression and how upset he was becoming.

Mark’s eyes are becoming so expressive as he doesn’t want to do this, his expression matching it and Jackson is already putting the pieces together.

“It happened again, didn’t it?”

Mark doesn’t say anything but he didn’t have to as it’s clearly written all over his face.

Jackson curses in korean as he can’t help but react,

“Dammit---did it ever even stop?!” He lets out as he throws his hands up into the air.

“It did,” Mark doesn’t hesitate to say as he needs Jackson to understand that, “For a while. For days, weeks, it stopped and I thought everything would be fine. But then last night, for some reason it happened again and now I can’t, I can’t go. I can’t leave him like this. I tried to get him to wake up, to stop, but I couldn’t and I---”

“He took you against your will?” Jackson interrupts because if Jaebum did, medical condition or not---

“No, never,” Mark reaches out to touch Jackson as he could see his eyes flashing of his alpha.

“No? But you just said---” Jackson wasn’t listening and now Mark was growing upset,

“Gaga, listen to me, he’d never---”

“Listen?! Are you even listening to yourself?!” Jackson’s voice was rising with emotion,

“You TRIED to stop it! But he didn’t! He can’t! So someone needs to stop this. And since you can’t, I will. Just look at you, Yien! This is damaging you in so many ways! Mentally! Physically!” Jackson gestures to his split lip, “I know you do this habit of biting your lips to keep from saying something when you really want to. So don’t come up with some lame excuse. Stop trying to come up with another reason period.”

“I’m not trying to come up with an excuse,” Mark starts to get fierce as his emotions were rising fast, “But I’m not leaving him like this. I don’t care how it hurts me---”

“Yeah, but I do!!! I care! And I’m not about to let you keep doing this to yourself! So we’re leaving tonight---” Jackson cuts him off as he’s not about to listen to Mark do this to himself.

“Jiaer, I can’t! I said I can’t!” Mark shouts it as he can’t contain these built up emotions anymore.

Jackson doesn’t understand and he needs to understand! As every fiber of his being is screaming at him to stay. To be by Jaebum’s side…

“You can! You will!” Jackson shouts it right back as he’s not standing down.

As he refuses to let Mark take a destructive path like he had because of love. Where he knows Mark needs saving just like he did.

And Mark doesn’t want to fight Jackson on this but he will. Showing it as he doesn’t stand down,

“I’m staying,” Mark declares with that fierceness in his eyes while he tries to push back against the alpha.

Jackson reacts to it with a wildness in his own eyes, as he doesn’t hesitate to cage Mark back in against the counter,

“You’re not staying with Jaebum!” He declares as he even points towards the door.

Where you can see Mark’s expression breaking---

“He’s not going anywhere.”

Mark’s head whips towards the door, his eyes taking in Jaebum standing right there,

“Bummie…”

Right as Jackson’s gaze locks with Jaebum’s through the mirror. Where both their eyes flash dangerously and the tension in the air is growing thick. Especially as Jaebum was already approaching.

“If he wants to stay then he’s staying and you have no right to decide that for him,” Jaebum states as Jackson turns to face him.

As Jackson puts himself in between so Jaebum can’t get any closer.

“Jiaer please---” Mark doesn’t want it to go like this.

With emotions going haywire, with the tension growing. He’s afraid of a fight breaking out and he never wanted that.

He tries to get in between them but Jackson pulls him back and Jaebum growls lowly under his breath,

“Take your hands off him now,” Jaebum demands as he’s literally seconds from fighting if Jackson doesn’t let Mark go.

Fuck it, he’s already approaching---

“Jaebum, you better stop it right now,” Jinyoung’s stern voice is heard as he’s already pushing the alpha back some.

Where he’s trying to gain his attention but all Jaebum can see is Jackson’s firm grip on Mark’s wrist while looking at the omega,

“Are you going to tell him or should I?”

Jinyoung can’t help but tense as Jackson’s words feel like the opening of something that’s going to break him. Words that he had hoped to never hear come from the alpha’s mouth as it sounds like he’s about to expose their secret relationship. To tell them that they’ve been together and dating. And it’s because of that, that he lets his guard down for a second and for Jaebum to slip past him---

Where Youngjae appears right as Jaebum is grabbing a hold of Jackson’s collar of his outfit and shoving him up against the counter roughly. As things clatter to the ground and two alphas are mere inches apart. Breathing rising, that tension making the hair on the back of Youngjae’s neck stand up. As Jinyoung is already cursing and trying to move Mark back right as---

“Tell me, Jackson! Because no matter what you say right now, Mark’s not going home with you.”

It’s the way he says it, the way he’s looking at him. The way Jackson is already worked up and knowing what went down, even if Jaebum didn’t fully, oh, it makes the alpha react defensively. Protectively of Mark as he keeps seeing the omega’s hurt and broken expression. How many tears he’s been crying, to the multiple panic attacks. To how Mark told him that he needed to leave in such a plea and is now backtracking even though he’s hurting so much both mentally and physically that---

That he’s reacting before properly thinking. His alpha instincts going berserk before grabbing Jaebum by his own collar while using his other hand to throw the first punch.

“Jiaer!” Jinyoung and Mark both call out as Jaebum goes backwards with the force of the hit.

But the alpha’s lower back touches the couch and he uses his hands to steady himself before he’s seeing red. His expression lethal as he propels himself forward and comes in hot---

The hit comes next, colliding with Jackson’s face as the alpha falls back with the force. His elbow smashing into the mirror and shattering it while his other hand grips the counter to keep himself from falling down.

It doesn’t stop there though as it riles the two up more. Making them snap completely as they’re both seeing red and going at it.

“Stop it you two! I fucking mean it!” Jinyoung is shouting as he tries to intervene.

Poor Youngjae stands in shock, his hand shaking as it holds up the phone with Bam and Yugyeom looking horrified at the scene.

It’s so much chaos and shouting. So many loud noises as things break around them. Blood splattering with another hit. With Jinyoung being shoved back by Jackson before Jaebum is on him again.

And Mark is crying because this was all his fault. His worst fears, as it was coming true. With each hit, with each word shouted, Got7 was falling apart right along with Mark.

Because of him…because he couldn’t control himself…couldn’t stop these thoughts and feelings…

Even though he tried so hard to keep it under lock and key so he wouldn’t lose everything…

Yet, here he was, watching it all come crashing down.

Ruining something so rare and special…ruining bonds and relationships because of him…

Stop, make it stop…please, he didn’t want this.

He just wanted love…he wanted to love him…to be with him…

“Will you two stop for one second?! Think about what we’ve been through! Think about the fans, about Got7!” Jinyoung is shouting as he’s trying to get through to them.

But Jackson still comes at Jaebum even as Jaebum blocks Jinyoung from getting hit and the two go down onto the ground. Jinyoung is having enough of this shit as he’s about to start throwing punches himself---

Jinyoung shoves Jackson off of Jaebum and finally is able to get in between the two. But before he can do anything else---

“I LOVE HIM! HE’S MY MATE!” Mark shouts it in such a heartbreaking tone.

All of them stop and look at Mark who was breaking at the seams,

“I said it…it’s out there now…so stop…please…” Mark chokes on a sob, the tears reaching both Jackson and Jaebum.

Their anger deflating and bringing them back to themselves as Mark continued to cry,

“This is what I was afraid of…why I didn’t want to come back…why I stayed away…”

Instantly both alphas feel like shit and both move to try and comfort him,

“Ma--” Jaebum goes to call out first, but Jinyoung stops Jaebum as Jackson reaches Mark,

“Yien---” Jackson tried but Mark wasn’t backing down.

“No, it needs to be said so it doesn’t continue any longer! I never wanted to hurt anyone or cause this! I didn’t want to be me if I’d end up being the downfall of Got7 and now look! Look at you! At him! I can’t do it anymore…I’ll leave…”

No, he can’t go. Not like this. Even if he’s not the one. Even if it hurts. He wants Mark to stay.

“Jaebum,” Jinyoung stops him again as the look on his face says everything.

Of how he was barely keeping it together now. How the damage was done. How there was no going back anymore.

With Mark’s words hitting him from what he said. Of how he spoke of Jackson…

And it hurts, it hurts as it’s settling in more than the punches Jackson threw. Of his heart aching with the realization of what he feared were coming true. That Mark and Jackson were together. That Mark just told them how he was in love with him and that he was his mate.

Silence falls and Mark chokes on another sob. As Jaebum has to look away and it hurts Mark as he must not even want to look at him now. Now that the truth was out that he was in love with him. And it hurts, god it hurts---

“Jacks,” Mark calls out as he clings.

As his body wants to give out and the darkness wants to take over. As he feels like he can’t breathe---

“Shh, I got you,” Jackson tells him as he pulls him in close.

As he looks over towards Jaebum and sees the alpha looking toward the ground with an unreadable expression. Was he really not going to say anything to Mark? To comfort him? Something? Anything?

But as Mark’s cries continue to fill the room, Jackson wasn’t going to wait any longer.

“We’re leaving,” Jackson says as Jinyoung keeps his back to the alpha.

His grip on Jaebum trembling as his own silent tears fall. His expression breaking as Youngjae calls out,

“Guys…” As he doesn’t know what to say, what to do.

As this wasn’t happening right? Where it feels like the moment those two walk out the door that it was the end. Because it wouldn’t be, right?

Right?

But Jackson is helping Mark to move, holding them both steady as he doesn’t stop. He doesn’t look back as he passes Youngjae. As you can hear Bam and Yugyeom calling out in the background but Jackson keeps going. He has to. For Mark, he has to keep going. To keep himself from going back there and doing something stupid once again, he has to keep heading towards the exit.

Even if it hurts, even though the truth was exposed. The way Jaebum wouldn’t even acknowledge Mark’s feelings. To be the leader that he grew up around and followed. Jackson didn’t want to follow him anymore if Jaebum thought differently of Mark in a bad light. And if Mark wanted to leave, he wasn’t going to let him do it alone. Just like they promised back then. If all else failed, if anything changed, they’d still have each other.

Except it didn’t feel right when they went to get Mark’s suitcase. It felt heavier once they got back into the vehicle. It felt wrong to ignore Youngjae’s, Bam’s and Yugyeom’s calls.

It didn’t get any easier either, for the moment they stepped out of the vehicle at the airport, people were surrounding them. News of the fight got leaked and Jaebum’s whole tour had been cancelled on the spot. Pictures of both Jaebum and Jackson beat up were trending all over the internet along with a video of their fight, but just the audio. As a staff or someone nearby recorded it.

And as they were flying back to China, the rumors and tabloids continued to spread…

But it also opened up Mark’s eyes as to what Youngjae had been telling him…

How everyone thought him and Jackson were a couple…

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“Guys…” Youngjae tried again as the fear was rising.

As Jackson and Mark were leaving! Where his head whips to the other two but they’re not doing anything! Like why? Jaebum wasn’t fighting for them like he had during all those times. He just had his eyes squeezed shut as Jinyoung’s back was facing Youngjae so he couldn’t see his expression. Couldn’t see how the silent tears were falling as he was falling apart right then and there. While Jinyoung’s grip dug into his arm so hard that it hurt but it was grounding Jaebum. Keeping him from completely falling apart. Even though the truth was out now.

Even though it was confirmed that Jackson and Mark were a couple…

That Mark loves him…

That Jackson is his mate…

Youngjae didn’t like this at all as he reminded him of the time when Bam confessed to Yugyeom. How he feared back then that the two weren't going to be able to mend their relationship. And Youngjae gets it, cause being told someone close to you was in love with you when you weren't, can make one go into shock. Can make things awkward or strained for a while. But he never expected his leader to react like this. Like he couldn’t even look at Mark or say anything. Especially after knowing how much Mark constantly was afraid to be himself.

So say something, do something, anything!

Things can’t be left like this. They can’t let those two walk out the door---

Yugyeom and Bam could be heard shouting in the background as they couldn’t believe this was happening. That someone needs to stop them. That this can’t end like this. But as Youngjae goes to run after them, he almost collides into someone else. Someone who had witnessed the entire thing as they locked their phone and slid it back into their pocket.

Oh no---

The stranger was clothed in loose dark attire with sunglasses and a mask to hide their features. But Youngjae knows they’re looking right at him as suddenly they’re taking off in a different direction,

Shit---

“Stop!” Youngjae calls out as he tries chasing after them because this was bad.

If it got leaked out to the public before they could even do damage control---

“There has to be something I can---” Jaebum voices before he can hear Jinyoung’s voice.

Can hear the heartbreak in his tone as he says, “Jaebum, please stop it.”

As the alpha manages to lift his head and open his eyes. Taking in his best friend breaking down with the rest of them,

“It’s over…you got your answer…we got our answer…there’s no winning this fight…and you have to accept it just like I have to…”

Even though it hurts, even though it felt like someone was tearing their hearts out physically.

Jaebum shakes his head as he doesn’t want to give up. He refuses to even though it’s impossible. As the alpha remains so passionate when it comes to things he loves and cares about and he doesn’t want to accept that this was it.

“Jinyoung I can---”

“God dammit, can’t you see that there’s no going back now?! Look all around you!” Jinyoung explodes with emotion.

As he flails his arms up into the air to signify the complete and utter destruction of the dressing room. And Jinyoung knows that Jaebum can feel the cuts and scratches. Can feel the bruising of his face and body as blood was drying after being in such a heated fight.

It wasn’t a fight between two people that loved and cared about one another. That was a fight between two alphas fighting over an omega, a lover, their mate.

“How do you think you can fix this? Fix our hearts? The damage is done, Got7 is through---”

“Don’t say that!” Jaebum cuts him off with a built up emotion of his own.

Didn’t matter if he was black and blue, for he’d shout it until his last dying breath,

“We’re Got7 forever! Since we made that promise all those years ago! I won’t let it be the end. No matter what I have to do! No matter if I have to cut out my own heart to keep us together. I’ll do it! Just watch me, I’ll do it!”

Jaebum takes Jinyoung by surprise as the alpha stumbles to a stand despite his body protesting. Despite looking like he literally lost the battle.

“Money, fame, I don’t need it. And the fans, as lovely and wonderful as they are, if I don’t have you six then I’m nothing. I don’t care if I hit rock bottom and I have to start all over. As long as I can do it with you guys, then I’ll be fine. I’ll be fine…” Jaebum’s voice cracks at the end as he limps his way towards the door.

This can’t be the end. Not because of him. Not because of his hot headedness and being unable to control these thoughts and feelings. He needs to make things right. He needs to be able to bring them back. To make them stay---

“Where do you think you’re going in such a condition?” Jinyoung lets out as he comes to a stand and finds the alpha not stopping.

As Jaebum is still the alpha that he first met and the leader that he’s followed since day one.

“To cancel the tour before I make a public statement.”

A public statement?! Oh this silly alpha---

Jinyoung only has to take a few strides to reach Jaebum,

“Like I’m going to let you put all the fault onto yourself.”

Jaebum still keeps going, refusing to give up.

“You can’t stop me,” Jaebum says with such determination.

“You should know if you’re going to do something idiotic that I’m going to be there to back you up before saving your ass.”

With Jinyoung basically telling him that whatever Jaebum plans on doing, he’s going to be there. That he’ll go down together with him like they promised. Even though they’re already going through hell right now and barely keeping it together.

Jaebum doesn’t have to say any words for his expression says it for him. Just like how Jinyoung’s steady touch lets him know it right back.

But before the two can move again, they find Youngjae coming in a panic.

“Guys! This is really bad!”

Youngjae sounds out of breath by the time he reaches them, he has to hunch over to get a second before he can talk again.

“Did you run after them?” Jinyoung asks as he thought that’s what Youngjae had gone to do.

Youngjae manages to stand back up straight as his expression remains full of panic,

“I was going to but then I about ran into someone who looked suspicious. They had their phone out too and took off before I could question them. I took off after them but I lost track of them by the time they hit the parking lot. This isn’t good, guys. I think they witnessed the fight. I think they recorded it.”

Oh no…

Youngjae looks seconds to breaking down himself,

“Bam and Yugyeom are trying to get ahold of the two as we speak but I fear the worst is to come. I fear…”

It’s really going to be the end of Got7…

So much had blurred for Mark in the aftermath. Where he couldn’t tell you how he walked out those doors. He couldn’t tell you how long it took to get to the airport or even what had been said. He doesn’t recall the flashing lights and all the people crowding them. He doesn’t remember the plane ride either.

He only knows that Jackson was there. His scent, his touch, as the alpha was the one who held him up. Who kept him from hitting the ground as he held onto his hand tightly. As he kept anyone from trying to reach him and shielded him from the harsh comments. Not even worrying about himself as the fight was still evident on his face and neck. As he must’ve been falling apart too but he didn’t show it in public. He didn’t show it until it was just the two of them hiding in his bedroom of his parents home.

Where his voice cracked as he called out his name and Mark finally reacted. Was finally pulled out of the numb shell he had gone into when he completely shut down. Those eyes become expressive again as he takes in Jackson breaking down.

“Jiaer…” Mark reaches out, his fingers finding his skin and the alpha can’t hold back the sob anymore,

“I’m sorry, I’m---” Jackson tries to apologize but Mark pulls him into his arms.

“Don’t, it’s not your fault,” Mark interrupts him.

As Jackson’s shoulders hunch forward with the next sob while Mark surrounds him,

“You were right…I should’ve stopped it the moment it happened…I should’ve told him…” Mark’s voice breaks with emotion as Jackson’s cries were heard and felt against his neck.

Where it hurt Jackson more because Mark is the one in the most pain and yet here he was still trying to comfort him. Putting others before himself as he’s always been such a kind and loving soul.

“I knew he was still in love with her…I knew he wasn’t seeing me when those moments happened but I…I still couldn’t help myself…I got lost in the illusion of what I always dreamed of happening and now…now I need to deal with the aftermath…”

‘I need to accept reality no matter how much it hurts…’

But Jackson wants to tell him that Jaebum still shouldn’t have reacted like he did. That when Mark shouted out his feelings, he should’ve said something, DONE something. Yet it was like the moment those words settled in, Jaebum didn’t want to fight to keep Mark there anymore. He couldn’t even look at him.

What happened to the Jaebum he knew? Why did Jaebum try and fight him in the first place like he was the bad guy? Like he was trying to keep Mark away and then at the end, do a whole one eighty?!

Jackson wants to let it all out but his words keep choking into sobs. Unable to stop it as everything was hitting at once. The reality of the fight, of how they left. Of how it truly felt like there was no going back.

That there was no more Got7…

Surely, the reason so many fans, reporters and people had made it to the airport was due to Jaebum canceling the concert. That there was no hiding how Jackson was beat up and Jaebum matching it. So it’s clear that a fight broke out and that would no doubt leak to the internet and spread by the time Jackson and Mark reached the airport.

But as Mark laid there in bed with Jackson having fallen asleep from crying, the omega had the urge to look at social media. He knows he shouldn’t, that it’s stupid. That even though his heart is shattered into tiny pieces, he still wants to check up on the alpha. On what Jaebum was doing and faring.

Even if he didn’t want anything to do with him now…

He knows he should probably answer the missed calls and actually look at the texts. But what good would it do? None of them are from Jaebum. None of them were going to tell him that Jaebum loved him back. To fix his broken heart and bring him home again.

There was no home to go back to…

To his surprise, he finds something he didn’t expect to see. To different news articles and tabloids. To what’s trending all over social media as Youngjae’s conversation with him come to mind.

Telling him what the world had been seeing all this time,

Rumors, lies, something so far from the truth---

‘Confirmed Jackson Wang and Mark Tuan are dating’

‘Mark Tuan, a male omega, seen holding hands with Jackson Wang as they head into the airport together’

‘A fight broke out between Jackson Wang and Lim Jaebeom over Mark Tuan, a male omega.’

‘Did Mark Tuan cheat on Jackson Wang with Lim Jaebeom?’

“The Downfall of Got7 as the male omega, Mark Tuan---’

‘A male omega in a band full of alphas---’

‘Male omega, Mark Tuan couldn’t help but spread his legs---’

‘Male omega, Mark Tuan was a bad omen, a liability---’

‘They never should’ve let male omegas into the kpop industry’

‘Male omega, Mark Tuan, destroys everything Got7 built---

‘Mark Tuan came to Korea alone without Jackson Wang to ‘see’ Lim Jaebeom.’

‘Reports of Mark Tuan living with Lim Jaebeom---’

‘Was there trouble in paradise?’

‘What will come of Got7 now that the male omega, Mark Tuan put a strain on the band’s relationship’

‘Mark Tuan shouts his love for Jackson Wang! Confirms he’s his mate!”

Wait…what?

He knows rumors and words can get thrown around just to catch a pretty penny for the tabloids. But the last one, it sounded too personal. Almost like---

‘Leaked audio from the backstage of the canceled concert of Lim Jaebeom proves---

Oh god…no, don’t tell him…

Mark feels sick to his stomach the more he reads. The more he sees clips of the fight as you couldn’t see anything, but you could hear everything.

And just like that, people had morphed and twisted Mark’s words and the fight. Making it seem like Jackson and Jaebum were fighting over their love for Mark.

But no one knew that Jackson was in love with Jinyoung…

That Jaebum was never in love with him, it was her…

Yet because of all of this, Got7 was being hit and lives were being destroyed. As Mark takes in the sponsorships being lost. To so called friends dropping them like flies in order to keep their own career afloat. To the people throwing hate around and tarnishing Got7’s name.

All because of him…

Because he’s a male omega…

Because he fell in love…

Mark didn’t even get a phone call from his company as he found out online that the company let him go. They didn’t even try and fight for him, to fight for his rights. But that’s not what hurts. What hurts is the lies and hate being spread. To the tour being canceled and all Got7 solo activities were postponed as the members had to dodge reporters for comments on the situation.

To everything Got7 worked and fought so hard to get and now it was all crashing down in flames in a matter of hours…

It’s all his fault…his worst fears coming true…

And he was dragging the others down with him…

Forgive Jackson as he didn’t get much sleep on the flight to Korea and no sleep at all from the flight to China. So after crying it out and taking quite the beating, his body crashed and he clonked out. Not even moving when Mark couldn’t hold back his silent tears. Not when Mark got up from the bed as he had to do this. He had to get the truth out there so he could save the others. As he didn’t think twice of how it’ll destroy him and how it’ll force him to leave Got7. But he’ll do it. If it meant the others could still go on and not lose everything, then he’ll gladly head into the fire and burn himself alive.

So in Jackson’s personal studio, Mark sets up the live. He doesn’t try and fix himself to look presentable. He doesn’t try and put himself in a good light. This is something that should’ve been done just like Jackson and Jinyoung said.

And with a shaky hand, Mark turns on the live that thousands flock to within minutes. Where he lets out an uneven breath before he began talking,

“My name is Mark Tuan and yes, I’m a male omega…”

Now if Mark had looked at his texts, he would’ve seen the others trying to warn him about the suspicious person and the leaked audio. On about how the others wanted him and Jackson to come back or at least reach out to them. That they didn’t want to make a public statement until they all got together and talked about what to do, their next step into the future, together. Just like last time, just like they always wanted to do.

So none of them expected Mark to do this live and the way it impacted not only them, but everyone around the world,

Mark has to stop as his voice cracks with emotion. As he tries to push himself to keep going with the thoughts of the others in mind. His eyes so raw and vulnerable as his fingers clutch the hem of pants tightly,

“I don’t know how audio got leaked of the fight, but I’m here to tell you that you all heard it wrong. That you all have it wrong since before that. And I’m not about to let people hate on Got7. To bash on Jaebum or Jackson as they did nothing wrong. It was me,” Mark puts a hand over his chest, his fingers trembling as the omega’s face contorts with such emotion,

“Since I was young, I’ve dealt with the social pressures of being a male omega. Where I found it was better to hide my thoughts and feelings than voice them. That it was better to remain in the background as it was safer and no one could get hurt. But I was hurting myself…I’ve been hurting for a long time. And the members…they’ve done nothing but be supportive of me. They’ve done nothing but care about me as they helped me to come out of my shell and be me. And to others, it must’ve looked like something was blossoming between Jackson and I during those times. Because with me being an omega, one would assume that I couldn’t get close to another, especially an alpha, without it being sexual, right? But nothing and I mean nothing sexual or intimate of a romantic relationship took place between us. Because Jackson was already in love with another and I was in love with someone else too. Someone who doesn’t share the same feelings as me and never will. Someone who has shown me in life many things I thought would be impossible to achieve due to my second gender. Where he never saw or treated me differently once he knew about my second gender. And fought so hard for me to stay on the team even when he didn’t know at the time that I was a male omega. He’s an alpha I look up to, that I always wanted to follow. But I had to go and fall in love…” Mark’s voice breaks as he recalls the fight.

As he recalls how Jaebum reacted to his words that it makes him have to look down. His hands tightening over his chest and his thigh to keep himself together a bit longer,

“You don’t have to tell me how it’s wrong, how it’s disgusting for I did that to myself for so many years. Because an omega shouldn’t love right? An omega can’t possibly be capable of loving someone. Trying to keep it hidden deep down and I tried to stay away, but even though it hurt, I wanted to remain by his side. I thought I had spent enough time away to keep these feelings at bay. But it all came back tenfold the moment I saw him. With the more time I spent with him. He never knew, not even during the fight because apparently I was so love struck on Jaebum that I failed to see what people were thinking about Jackson and I. That I must’ve had everyone believing that Jackson was the one I was referring to…”

Mark sucks in air, his head lifting as he looks right at the camera with such a fierce passion in his eyes despite the tears steadily flowing down his face,

“I’m in love with Lim Jaebeom. I see him as my mate. Not Jackson, never Jackson. It’s always been Bummie. It’ll always be him…” Mark says the last part with a sad smile as his expression even goes soft.

“And I wanted to say that I’m sorry to him, to the others, to Jackson. You all have been nothing but good to me and I will forever cherish the times we had. So though I can’t be there anymore, know that I will be there in spirit. That I am thankful to you all for giving me a chance to be a part of Got7…but I think it’s time I left the nest for good.”

With Mark’s face breaking, but he still goes through the motions of the Got7 signing off that they do together. As he does it one last time as him among the group before coming back up and turning off the live…

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Joey to Mark:

‘Come home, bro. Come home’

Mark sees the text as he’s deactivating his accounts. As he’s setting up that one way plane ticket back to America. Because he has to leave, he can’t stay with Jackson. He has to do this.

Breathe, just breathe…

No matter how much it hurts, how much he doesn’t want to leave…

There’s no going back now…

Jackson finds himself stirring awake, his eyes taking in Mark grabbing things to put into his suitcase.

What? Why?

“Mark?” Jackson calls out as he’s fighting with his tired body to wake up.

As he takes in Mark stilling, their eyes locking and right away Jackson can tell something else happened. Especially as Mark has to look away and continue with what he was doing.

“Hey---” Jackson tries again as he’s more awake now and getting out of bed.

His touch stopping Mark as he brings him to stand before him, but before he can say anything, the omega beats him to it,

“I have to do this, Gaga.”

Where their eyes lock again and though Mark’s expression is full of heartache, his eyes still have that fierceness left in them.

“Do what? Leave without me?” Jackson asks as he’s searching the omega’s eyes for answers.

Trying to get into his mind on what he’s thinking and feeling.

“I’m making things right,” Mark tells him as he means every word before he attempts to move again.

As Jackson’s expression was breaking, as he tries to stop Mark from walking away,

“That doesn’t mean you need to leave. Markson forever, remember? You can even come work with me in Team Wang. Just like we promised back then, we’d always have each other.”

“No, I can’t. Especially with you, Jacks…” Mark gets out in a rush of emotion before he’s turning to face him again.

With Mark looking at him with so much love and care in the world,

“You’ve done so much for me and I’m not going to let you get pulled under with me.”

Yet Jackson shakes his head as he talks,

“This world is toxic and they can think what they want, what they want to believe. I don’t care, because we know the truth. We know ourselves---” He tries to convey to Mark that he’s all in until the very end.

But Mark already knew that and cuts him off by cupping his face, his facial expression saying everything,

“I need to do this…Let me do this…”

Jackson’s face contorts with such emotion as he knows what this means.

“I needed to do this for a long time now. Since I first left back to America and failed. This time…I’m going back to America for good. I’m not just doing this for you guys, but I’m also doing this for myself. So thank you, for everything, for always sticking by my side, for being you and fighting for me…for helping me reach this point.”

‘So let me go, you have to let me go now.’

Jackson gets it even though it hurts and nods as he tries to contain his rising emotions,

“At least let me see you off?”

Mark gives him a sad smile,

“Go back to the others, Jiaer. Do that for me, ok?”

Tears fall down Jackson’s face, his breath hitching but he nods. Mark leaning forward to press a kiss to his forehead before Jackson is pulling him into his arms. Mark clinging tightly as the two hug for a good minute. As Mark latches on for one last time…

Mark arrives at the airport, his expression numb but his head held up high. Not caring about the reporters or the flashing lights. Of the words being thrown around. He gets on that flight for Got7 and he doesn’t look back no matter how hard it was. As he broke his phone on purpose the moment he got on the plane so he wouldn’t be tempted. So he wouldn’t cave.

Only holding it together until he got back in America and in the vehicle with his brother, Joey before he fell apart all over again.

But if only he would’ve seen. If only he would’ve known that before he even done the live video…

That the others had all done something too. With Jackson being the last one as he hadn’t even known the video was done or what the others had done. As he stood in his studio, his first thought had gone to alcohol. That the urge to go back down that dark path weighed heavy on his mind. But Mark came to mind. Everything Mark has done for him. To his words, love and support. To how Mark was trying to take this path to finally heal. To make things right and no longer hold back.

He needed to do the same…

So with Mark in mind, he takes the world by surprise as he releases this song he made a while back but it felt too personal then. He doesn’t even hesitate now as he posts on his social media,

‘Mark has done nothing but love and help others. Always reaching out when others needed him. And he helped me when I got too into drinking. Where I relied on it more and more because I kept bottling up my thoughts and feelings. As I couldn’t handle this love I have for someone. As I couldn’t handle seeing them on the big screen kissing others even though it’s simply acting. As I couldn’t confess these thoughts and feelings to them and tried to hide that part of me. But I’m not hiding anymore, I’m not going to go down that dark path anymore. I want Mark to know that I’m going to be ok, that he doesn’t have to keep pulling me out anymore. And in doing so, I have to heal as well. So fuck it, I’m going to call this person right now and tell them. Because I want to move forward, all of us, together…’

Is it ironic? Is it fate? Or is it just a group of boys that grew up together and became something so much more? More than family, more than a pack? For all of them wanted to remain together, always thinking of the other. That they’re literal parts of them and that mere thought that this might be the end of Got7…it had all of them reacting. All of them moving into action as they didn’t care if the whole world turned against them. Just as long as they still had each other.

So Bam and Yugyeom had done something first before Mark’s video. As the two finally arrived in Korea and Bam couldn’t take it anymore as reporters and people were surrounding them. Demanding to know answers and sprouting such hate about Mark that Bam silenced them all by shouting back,

“Love is love! And it’s thanks to Mark that I’m able to be with the love of my life!” While he takes Yugyeom’s hand in his.

And Yugyeom takes it up a notch by pulling Bam in and kissing him passionately in front of everyone. The two not caring about the cameras or how it was going to spread like wildfire. The two made out right then and there in the airport as they came out together for the world to know.

Youngjae was the one who posted something right after that you would think was planned. But it wasn’t. Youngjae even stated in his post that he was doing this of his own accord as he said this on all of his social media accounts,

‘Mark has been nothing but encouraging and supportive. Never once judging or asking for anything in return. Doesn’t matter your gender, your second gender, you’re allowed to love who you love. You’re allowed to love and be loved. And like me, I’m a pansexual, and I too, fell in love with a man. Someone I got the pleasure of acting beside and he may never return my feelings, but my feelings are still valid. Just like Mark’s feelings are.’

Even Jinyoung came forth almost at the same time as Youngjae. As he makes a video and you can see the emotions clear as day on his face. As you can hear it in his voice,

“I don’t care if this gets me cancelled or dropped as an actor. But seeing the hate against someone so sweet and innocent is not only sickening, it makes me not want to be a part of this world. Why are you all making him out like he’s guilty? Guilty of what? Falling in love? It shouldn’t matter that he’s a male omega, it shouldn’t matter who he’s in love with. It’s no one’s business to start with. Mark has always been the heart of this group and taking care of us without second thought. By Mark being able to be himself, it’s shown that we can be ourselves too. And still, I was a coward. Though I’m an alpha and come with that automatic ‘privilege’. I was scared of how society had become. How it deems what’s right and wrong. How I was terrified of ruining things for my band members by holding such emotions and feelings for someone that I shouldn’t be in love with. Like what alpha could fall in love with another alpha? For the longest time I thought something was wrong with me. I thought I was the one in the wrong and hated that part of myself. Afraid of losing everything that I loved. Not knowing that Mark was going through something so similar. Afraid to love because of his second gender. Afraid to be himself because society barely gives omega any rights. It’s not us that are in the wrong, it’s this society. It’s the people spreading hate instead of love. So what if we’re different? I don’t want to be like you guys. So I’m not running anymore. I’m not hiding from my feelings. I want to be me, all of me. So if Mark is guilty, so am I. Because I’m in love with another alpha.”

As all of them were coming clean and bearing all. To let Mark know that it’s ok to be him. That they want him to continue being him no matter what may come. No matter if they lose it all as they want him to know how much he means to them. How all of them want him to come back. So no more secrets, no more holding back.

That it was truly 7 or nothing…

Where they’re ready to all go down together…

And Jaebum, their wonderful leader. Jaebum topped them all by what he does. Where the same time as Mark’s video was going live, Jaebum’s was too.

As Jaebum was at his parent’s house with Vivian standing off to the side in an emotional mess while Vector watched proudly of his son for doing this,

“Though I wanted to be able to have more time to gather my thoughts and process all the feelings I’ve been going through, it seems time is not on my side. With the leaked audio and all these false rumors and hate being spread, I don’t want to wait any longer. Despite the company and my manager telling me to remain silent for now. I will not. I’m done holding back and I want everyone to know that I take full responsibility for the fight that took place between Jackson and I. That I apologize to him, especially Mark, and to our fans, because I got hot headed and reacted when I should’ve listened. But I admit at that moment, I was reacting as Lim Jaebeom and not as their leader. That we’ve all been mentally struggling with things that haven’t been easy to talk about, much less tell the others in the group. As we all feared we would ruin everything we fought so hard to achieve. As we were afraid of losing each other if such thoughts or emotions were expressed. Thus, we kept secrets within the group when we shouldn’t have. We shouldn’t have let society think that we couldn’t be our full, complete selves amongst each other. As we left JYP because we wanted to be free to express ourselves fully. It’s clear that we haven’t healed yet and I also want to apologize for not being the best leader during those times. That I let my own struggles get in the way and not see how others were being hurt in the process. I’ve always wanted to be a leader that they could rely on and go to about anything. To know that I’ll always be there to care and support them. So I want them to know that now more than ever that no matter what comes next, I’m here. I’m still here. That my reaction to Mark’s words that stopped the fight, it wasn’t because he admitted that he was in love with Jackson. It was because my heart didn’t want to listen as I couldn’t handle it at the moment. Because I…I’m in love with Mark.”

Jaebum’s expression had remained serious and sincere. His words were clear and passionate as his eyes never wavered. But the second he admitted his feelings for Mark, his expression turned into a sad smile. His eyes were so raw and vulnerable as he didn’t want Mark to find out this way. As he had hoped back then, back there, that the omega felt the same and that he could’ve told him in a romantic way. And not like this…

“As their leader, I should’ve addressed these feelings the moment they became so strong. But like the others, I tried to hide them until unfortunately, it exploded into that fight. Where I didn’t want Jackson to take Mark away even though I had no right in the first place. But Mark is so much more than just some crush. He’s more than what others think is the pheromones talking. Because I fell in love with Mark Tuan before I even knew he was a male omega. I fell in love with him while we were trainees still and if none of you believe me, so be it. But the proof is in almost every love song I wrote, helped produce or produced myself. It was my way of letting it out. To express those thoughts and feelings that so desperately wanted to come out. A way for me to hold it together by getting it out on paper. To let it be known one way or another, even if it couldn’t reach him personally. And I’m going to say this now, that the songs of my newest album are not about my ex. I’m going to let it be known that yes, I did try to move on from Mark because I value our relationship more than anything. That I didn’t want to ruin what we had so I tried my damndest to keep moving forward. That I thought I could settle with my ex for the sake of everyone. But even Jinyoung called me out on my bullshit and I ended it. Because by the end of the day, I’m me. I’m that passionate, romantic sap and once I’m in it, I’m all in. I put my heart, body and soul in it and I can’t go back. I can’t move on, I don’t want to move on. Mark might’ve not been my first love, but he’s my love that’ll never end…”

Jaebum has to take a second as his emotions are getting the best of him. As his voice cracks with emotion before he has to look down for a second. You can see his shoulders hunching forward, his hands clutching his clothing tightly. Where Vivian goes on camera to provide comfort as she already knows. As Jaebum came to them personally to tell them first about everything and what he wanted to do.

Jaebum manages to lift his head and it’s more heart clenching by the fact that he’s not even hiding the cuts and bruises from the fight that took place. As this was an alpha going through heartache and a leader being honest with himself and to the world,

“Mark Tuan is my mate, whether or not I’m his.”

Though it hurts, Jaebum is ready to accept the reality. He’s risking it all in hopes of making things right,

“So Jackson, Mark, guys…I’m sorry it came to this, but I’m ready. I’m listening, I’m here. I want to continue moving forward with all of you. That by letting this out into the open, no matter the pain or what may come, I want to still be us. I need you guys in my life even if I lose everything else. So please, know that I’ll protect the nest until you’re ready to come back home…”

The video ended around the same time as Mark’s did. And that by the time Jackson published the song, he was holding onto his words and he called the one he was in love with. As Jinyoung answers the phone,

“Jackson, Mark’s vid---” But is cut off when the alpha says,

“I love you.”

Jinyoung’s voice hitches and Jackson says it again,

“I love you,” Jackson says with such emotion as he sits in his studio and smiling sadly.

Silence falls for only a second before Jinyoung is sassing away,

“Jiaer, I swear to god if you’re drunk or doing some sick joke I’ll---”

“For so long, Park Jinyoung…I’ve been in love with you.”

“Dammit, I was supposed to be the one to say it! After posting my video, after seeing the others and Mark…dammit, Jackson I…I need a second as I’ve been dreaming of this moment for so long too…” As you can hear it in his voice.

And it has Jackson perking up, his heart beating faster,

“Videos? The others? Wait, what did I miss while asleep?”

“You can’t just drop those words and then change the subject! You’re telling me that you posted your stuff later without even realizing what we all did? We figured you were with Mark after he posted his video, that just happened to be around the same time we all did ours.”

“No I…he must’ve done that when I was asleep like you guys had, because when I woke up he was packing his things and he…he left, Jinyoung. The whole reason I’m holed up in this studio, on why I posted what I did and called you. He went back to America…after he told me to go back to you guys…”

Jackson can hear Jinyoung cursing in the background and the mention of, no wonder Mark isn’t responding to anyone after deactivating his accounts,

“Jackson, you better get your ass straight to Korea right now, do you hear me?”

“Yes---I already set up a flight since Mark told me---”

“Good, cause I’m going to meet you at the airport and unlike you, I’m going to tell you in person those same words back. So you better be ready!”

Jackson finds himself smiling, finds himself coming alive again as it felt like hope, as it felt like things were looking up and falling into place. Because did he hear that right? That Jinyoung feels the same?

“You’re in love with me?” He wants to hear it right now.

“Use the time of the flight to see what we all did. In the meantime, we’re over here trying to find a way to get our Mark back. And Jiaer…”

Jackson can already be heard moving around in his studio as he’s rushing to get things packed,

“Every time I had a kissing scene or slept with another, it was always you I was thinking about.”

Jackson drops everything he had in his hands as he malfunctions. Where the call had ended due to Jinyoung admitting something so deep and embarrassing. But Jackson was replaying it over and over again in his head. The realization that Jinyoung felt the same---

Jackson is able to function again with a loud squeal coming forth as he rushes out of his studio.

He needed to get to Korea now! So he can see Jinyoung! So he can see the others and properly apologize! So they can all come together and bring Mark home.

To bring him back where he belongs…

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Jackson did exactly what Jinyoung told him to do and wow, just wow.

You’re telling him this all happened in such a sequence of unplanned events?! And Mark didn’t know or was going to see it?! Mark needs to reactivate his accounts because hello! Jaebum felt the same! This whole time! This---

No wonder Jaebum came at him like he did! For it must’ve looked like the two of them were dating and he was there to take Mark away and just---

He needs to tell Mark! This needs to reach Mark!

Did Mark really turn off his phone too? Because no texts were being read and all calls went straight to voicemail.

Dammit! What a time for Mark to finally want to heal and fully move on. To truly put in the time and effort and yet in reality, he shouldn’t! Because Jaebum wants him. He loves him and they’re meant to be together and---

They should all be getting onto a plane to America, not meeting up in Korea!

But he trusts in Got7, he believes in the group. So he knows things will work out. Everything will come together again, it has to…

By the time his plane landed in Korea, Jackson was a bundle of nerves. His hood was up and his clothes were subtle as he didn’t want to bring too much attention to himself. For no one would suspect that Jackson would come back to Korea so soon so it was the perfect chance to sneak back in.

Except the moment he exits the terminal, he finds someone standing there and waiting. Someone in similar attire and their hoodie up. But those eyes, those damn expressive eyes lock right onto him. His expression showing such raw emotion and love---

Park Jinyoung wasn’t holding back as he came forward.

Jackson not even realizing that he was running as the two met halfway. As they both hug one another close before the need to speak takes them over. Both of them trying to say words at the same time before they stop to let the other speak. The two ending up smiling and laughing a bit. With Jackson looking at Jinyoung with so much love while the male lifts his hands up to gently touch the alpha’s beat up face. Touching him with such tender love and care as those eyes spoke volumes alone,

“I love you, Jackson Wang,” Jinyoung says and the way Jackson smiles has him beaming right back.

As Jackson leans their foreheads together, their smiles now brushing as lips grace the other,

“You brought me back home, babe,” He whispers and Jinyoung reacts to that as he leans in the rest of the way.

Their kiss is like a crash of emotions as it’s finally all being let out. Exploding throughout their bodies as they get lost in each other. With people walking around them as if they couldn’t be bothered. With nothing stopping this much needed moment as the two keep kissing. As Jackson pulled Jinyoung back in for another and not caring if others catch on that it’s them. Wanting everyone to know that he loves this man in his arms. That he’s proud to stand beside him. That he’s proud to be in Got7. To be him.

The sound of the car door opens and Youngjae is greeting Jackson from the driver’s seat,

“Yoh---Oh come on! I know you two were kissing for at least ten minutes inside there already! Can you separate long enough to greet me?” Youngjae scolds them lightly before laughing as Jinyoung flicks him the bird while continuing to love on his man.

As Jackson pulls Jinyoung right into his lap, the door barely being closed before Youngjae shakes his head fondly and decides to take off.

Knowing that the two needed this moment but they also needed to get to the others as too much time has already passed! Especially now that they know Mark doesn’t know what they did…

Jaebum is pouting as he realizes Mark hasn’t seen his video because it happened at the same time as Mark’s. And it’s driving him crazy because as soon as his video ended, fans were pointing out to him that Mark made a video too. That Mark’s video was trending along with all of their posts and videos as it truly looked like it did it simultaneously on purpose.

You have no idea the emotions Jaebum went through when watching Mark’s video! How every fiber of his being instantly wanted to go to Mark. That he was already telling his parents he’s going to book a flight to China and find Jackson’s place before the rest of the video could finish. Because Mark said it. He said he loved him! He said it was him he was talking about and not Jackson! God, how stupid was he?! Why the hell did he fall into thinking Jackson and Mark were a thing? Because he was too much of a coward? Because of other people’s thoughts? Fuck, this is what he gets for assuming things and not being upfront from the start. For thinking he’d never had a chance because he did. He had so many!!! And god, he fought Jackson for no reason! Making him feel even more like a dick, though he doesn’t understand why Jackson wanted to take Mark away. Unless Jackson knew about Mark’s feelings for Jaebum or something. But he needs to see Mark like yesterday, like right now! Right this very second! For his baby was hurting, his mate was still thinking he doesn’t love him. He needs to be able to reach Mark to let him know. That him and the others refuse to let him leave Got7. That they’re not accepting it and are going to wait for him.

“I should already be on a flight to America…” Jaebum voices his thoughts out loud as he’s forced to stay at his parent’s home.

As his parents refused to let him leave yet as the others were going to gather here. With Yugyeom and Bam having arrived already.

“And have you get all hot headed and passionate again that you cause a scene at the airport?” Vector lets out in his stern alpha tone as he’s not having it.

“Don’t forget the other airport he’d arrive at in America as he would tear everything down in his way of finding Mark,” Vivian adds as they know their son.

“Do you even remember his parent’s address?” Bam asks and Jaebum’s pout grows further.

As he sinks more into the chair and Yugyeom feels for him,

“Ah man, it’s going to be ok. It’s gotta reach Mark hyung somehow. Even if something did happen to Mark’s phone, his family will surely show him what we’ve done.”

Bam nods as he remains curled up against Yugyeom’s side,

“Plus, we know he’s safe with his family so he’s in good hands until we come up with a plan.”

“But I want to love on him now,” Jaebum voices like a child throwing a tantrum.

Do they not know how hard it was to find out that your mate loves you back and you’re stuck hundreds of miles apart still?!

The group chat goes off and Bam looks at it over Yugyeom’s shoulder,

“Youngjae says they’ll be arriving soon with Jackson.”

“See? Things are already falling into place. Youngjae even says that those two haven’t been able to keep their hands off one another,” Yugyeom adds.

Jaebum tilts his head back to look up at the ceiling,

“Good to know that someone else is getting their happy ending…” Jaebum lets out sadly, though he is happy for them.

“Did you really not have a clue about Bam and I?” Yugyeom asks and Jaebum goes from pouting to serious as he looks back towards the two,

“I knew you two were close best friends wise. But like Mark said about being blind to the Jackson accusations, I was so focused on Mark and my love for him, that I didn’t notice what was taking place around me. Hell, if Jinyoung never told me about his feelings for Jackson, I never would’ve thought twice.”

“Yeah, but Jinyoung is like a fox and a really good actor. He can hide and play with emotions too well when he wants to. It’s quite scary sometimes. If I didn’t grow up with him, I’d never be able to read him,” Bam says.

“You didn’t have a clue about them either though,” Yugyeom points out and Bam whines,

“Like those two made it obvious…Dude! We were an open book compared to those two. That’s why it still threw me for a loop that no one suspected a thing with all the risky things we did or posted. It wasn’t until we literally spelled it out for them, that the world was like, oh!”

Bam is kind of upset about it because he wants the world to know how much he loves his man. And that no one else can have his man.

“Don’t worry, Bammie. I’m all yours,” Yugyeom reassures him as he leans over and presses a kiss to his cheek.

Bam becomes goo under his touch as a blush forms over his cheeks.

“I think it’s because you two did this so much on the daily since day one, that everyone thought it was normal between your relationship,” Jaebum admits.

Where the only difference is that sex was now involved between the two.

“You two found each other when you were so young that you didn’t really know that the other was your mate. You just did what came naturally. It’s cute honestly at how innocent it was until you guys fully matured into young adults and then things I’m sure started to become complicated as your bodies kept changing and growing,” Vivian says.

Bam whines, “It’s not fair though because I’m not innocent by any means in that aspect!”

All while Yugyeom smirks, “Definitely not that shy boy anymore.”

“Can we not rub it in my face about how well your love life is going right now?” Jaebum is back to pouting as he sinks down until he reaches the floor.

Just lying there like some plank of wood and moping.

“And you think you were in any condition to go out into public when you’re like this?” Vector questions with a raised eyebrow.

Vivian coos as she comes to her son’s rescue,

“Don’t worry. As we speak, I’ve contacted Mark’s parents and they told me that Mark is with them. He wanted some space though and is holed up in his room.”

Jaebum rolls over onto his back, “I can at least speak to him over the phone though, right?!” The alpha begs as he needs something, anything---

“Unfortunately, Mark is asleep right now since they literally just checked up on him. Surely, his body is trying to catch up with everything that’s been going on and lack of sleep. So you have to wait a bit longer---”

Jaebum is about to let out the sound of his people---

“Guys!” Youngjae calls out as he enters the home.

As they can all hear the three entering and with Bam and Yugyeom answering back, you can see them entering the living room a few seconds later.

Where they all lit up on seeing Jackson coming in with Jinyoung holding his hand. Jackson is shocked at seeing such smiling faces after how he originally left. And even more so, as his eyes landed on Jaebum. Of the alpha already heading towards him and Jinyoung giving him a gentle push forward.

“Hey, I don’t really know how to say this even though I constantly went over it in my head on the flight here but---” Jackson starts rambling but is cut off as Jaebum pulls him right into a hug,

“I’m sorry,” Jaebum says with such emotion.

As he means every word and hugs Jackson like all those times he would when the alpha needed it. When he needed an uplifting or some guidance. When he needed praise or to know that everything would be ok. To hug in a greeting as Jaebum has always been thankful to have him around. Was always happy to see Jackson and have him in his life.

“I know saying those words won’t take back what I’ve done but from the bottom of my heart, I really am sorry for attacking you without knowing the full truth. That in that moment I saw myself losing my mate to you and I…I lost control.”

“Another reason why we’re not letting you run off on your own straight away,” Vector reminds him.

Because the chaos was still high and going on around them. Emotions, thoughts and feelings were still being felt strongly and it was best for everyone to take a moment. To let things sink in and have clear heads before doing anything else rash. Though Vivian and Vector are proud of them for doing what they did. That they did the right thing in coming out, though it should’ve come out in a happier time. But sometimes things happen for a reason, or how they’re supposed to happen when one least expects it to.

Jackson’s squirtle smile comes forth, his hands wrapping around Jaebum back in a hug. As this was the leader he knows and follows. This was the Lim Jaebeom that he cared about and kept them all in line when needed. The one that let them fall apart as he kept them afloat until they could stand on their own again.

So it’s only fair that they do the same for him when Jaebum has these moments too.

“I already forgiven you the moment you made the video,” Jackson pulls back to look at Jaebum.

As he clamps a hand onto his shoulder and squeezes in a fond gesture. His smile grows as his eyes showed no hard feelings,

“I was so confused at first as to why you were coming at me so fast but now that I knew the reason, man, I would’ve done the same if I was in your shoes.”

“But why were you so adamant on saying Mark couldn’t stay with Jaebum?” Bam asks as Jaebum wanted to know too.

And now they’re all staring at Jackson as the alpha seems to be having a hard time saying it.

“Well um…there’s no easy way of saying it…”

“Wait, so it’s not because Mark was in love with Jaebum?” Yugyeom brings up as there can’t possibly be something else they don’t know about, right?

Didn’t it all come to light already?

Jackson holds up a hand, “Hold on, it does. It was the main reason I got so upset because it was hurting Mark staying around Jaebum due to his love for him. Because I also blamed myself as I was the one who convinced Mark to come back to Korea in the first place to see Jaebum.”

“So you didn’t know he was in love with Jaebum yet?” Youngjae is trying to follow.

“No, I been knew. I knew for years since we were trainees. It’s how Mark and I bonded so much because we were both head over heels for people we thought we could never be with.”

Jinyoung’s expression shows how much those words affected him. On how Jaebum was listening to every word.

Jackson runs a hand through his messy hair, his eyes raw as he wants to get out the right words. As he looks at his leader once more,

“Mark didn’t just go back to America because of being an omega. He left to try and get over you. After you were with that woman for so long, it really affected him. It made him almost lose control and he didn’t want to hurt you or ruin the relationship between you two. Or ruin Got7 in any way if his feelings came to light. So he left to try and stop those thoughts and feelings. But in doing so, he ended up suppressing himself more and more. He was going back to how he was before he got into Got7. It’s why I tried to stick as close to him as possible. But even I knew he needed someone that helped him come out and be who he was in the first place. And that was you, Jaebum. I know it was a big risk but I felt that if he came back, maybe spent some time with you, he’d see that it was ok to be himself again. That it would be ok, even if he ended up losing control and you found out. I felt that you would’ve helped him get through it. But I never thought that you’d…” Jackson stops as his face contorts with emotions.

As there really was no nice way of putting it,

“But then Mark told me about you sleep walking. About the things you would do when you fell asleep.”

“Sleep walking? Wait, Mark mentioned to me about Jaebum sleep talking. But not sleep walking,” Jinyoung points out as he recalls their conversation before the fight broke out that same night.

Youngjae frowns at this, “But he’s never done either. At least not when we roomed together,” He clarifies.

“I don’t recall him ever doing anything like that either,” Bam announces as he looks at Yugyeom.

Yugyeom shrugs, “He didn’t do that when we were doing JUS2.”

“What did I do?” Jaebum brings them back to the moment at hand.

As Jaebum is looking at Jackson like he knows something. As Jinyoung was picking up on it too before shaking his head because nah, that’s crazy,

“It can’t be. Are you telling me that the dreams you’ve been telling me about---” Jinyoung lets out before Jaebum lifts his hand to gently stop him.

As Jaebum keeps his gaze locked with Jackson’s,

“Tell me, please.”

Jackson looks torn, especially as everyone was here and not to mention Jaebum’s parents.

“I don’t know if you want me to say it with everyone here. I honestly didn’t believe it at first but then I was actually on the phone when you were having one of your episodes. Where Mark had been telling me that you would find him after falling asleep. And though you weren't awake, you’d act like Mark was your lover, your ex. For you’d call him pet names, like baby---”

“Oh my god, they were real!” Jinyoung exclaims.

All while everyone else was going wide eyed in shock because what?! This was going on the whole time?! But wait!

“Holy shit! I was there during one of those nights!” Bam lets out next as he grabs his own face,

“I remember waking up to Jaebum having moved me off the couch so he could get closer to Mark because we both fell asleep cuddling. Where I thought he was awake at first but he wasn’t. Except he called Mark by his name!”

Everyone is reacting to this, especially Jackson as that meant Mark had been asleep and didn’t know. That would mean that what Mark originally thought of Jaebum talking about his ex in his sleep, wasn’t really about his ex either. And now he’s remembering how Jaebum even stated in his video that the album wasn’t about his ex at all.

“Oh Mark…” Youngjae feels for him as it had to have been tortuous for him if he truly thought Jaebum was thinking of someone else while doing such things to him.

Jinyoung smacks Jaebum’s arm, “You’re telling me that even though you were hiding your feelings from Mark, that you somehow subconsciously were trying to tell him this whole time that he’s been back in Korea?!”

Bam is still freaking out, “No wonder he looked so heartbroken when we found you wrote that song, Cloud Nine in your notebook. He thought you were literally thinking about her before going to him in your sleep!”

“Wow…” Yugyeom is speechless as it was all settling in.

“Don’t just stand there malfunctioning. You told me every single detail about your dreams, Jaebum! The things you said, the things you did! You even made love to him the night before the fight broke out and told him that you loved him in your sleep! Your sleep! Why is that such a you thing to do?!” Jinyoung lets out with sass and emotion.

As he’s all up in Jaebum’s face about it too. Because no wonder everything got blown out of proportion. No wonder Mark felt he had to go because there’s no way anyone would’ve been able to go back after that.

And Jaebum, he’s taking all of this in. But he’s also reliving those moments. Knowing that those moments were in fact real. That they happened and that Mark wanted to be his this whole time. That he wasn’t wrong in what his gut feeling had been trying to tell him.

God, he should’ve told Mark in that moment when he shouted those words and Jaebum wanted them to be about him. Where he should’ve woken up the next day and done more things. Where he should’ve went right to Mark while awake and told him his feelings…

“He was trying to tell me that…” Jackson breathes out as he thinks back to the fight.

“If I would’ve actually listened a little bit longer. The reason he didn’t want to leave, that he couldn’t leave…the reason his lip was so busted…was because he wanted to say those words back.”

“But he couldn’t because he thought you were in love with her. He texted me thinking that you were trying to call out for your mate. That you were seeing her that whole time,” Jinyoung adds.

“I was trying to get out his name. I tried so hard but I got choked up on my emotions because I felt like I was losing him. That I already lost him to Jackson,” Jaebum says as it’s all coming together.

Jackson whines, “It’s all my fault for telling Mark that I thought you had Sexomnia after trying to google Jaebum’s symptoms.”

“You know google can’t always be trusted!” Youngjae gets onto him and Jackson whines even more,

“That’s what Mark tried to tell me too!”

“Why didn’t you say anything?” Yugyeom asks and Jackson gives him a look,

“How?! By the time I found out, Jaebum and them did very intimate things that one can’t just calmly call them up and be like, hey bro, I was on the phone the other night where it sounded a lot like you were taking Mark against his will even though you were asleep!” He lets out in a dramatic fashion.

And it truly makes sense now as to why Jackson snapped like he did.

“No wonder you fought me like you did,” Jaebum is astonished.

“I wanted to tell you sooner but Mark was afraid it would ruin you if you found out you were doing those things in your sleep. Because again, we both thought you were in love with your ex and not seeing Mark, or even remembering what you did. And Mark told me that you eventually stopped for a while. So I was going to let it go because Mark wanted to let it go. But then he told me he couldn’t and that’s why I called that one time and things got a little heated then---”

“The conversation I overheard…” Jaebum realizes that’s what it was about then too.

“Oh you heard that?” Jackson winces.

“Well no, for you two were talking in Chinese but I caught wind of my name. And I actually walked in on you two talking while I did my life performance. That I admit, I thought by the way you two were talking that you two were together. That with how Mark was acting around me when he came to see me, that you were trying to keep him from me. That you didn’t want Mark around me and I thought it was because you knew I had feelings for him. That I would take him away from you. It sounds stupid and crazy now that I’m saying it out loud---”

“Oh now you think that way,” Jinyoung sasses with a light huff.

Jaebum scratches at the back of his head as he realizes how hot headed he was getting,

“I want to apologize for that too. Those dreams I was having, the more I had them, the more I was falling into that reality. And in those ‘dreams’ Mark would admit he liked me back and wanted me. But then he’d also tell me that we couldn’t and I thought he was referring to because he was with you already.”

“He was talking about because you weren't awake,” Youngjae states as he can’t believe there was so much more he didn’t know about.

“Yeah, because he thought Jaebum wasn’t looking at Mark, but that damn woman!” Bam exclaims as he throws his arms about in a dramatic fashion.

That Yugyeom had to be quick to grab a hold of Bam’s hands before he got smacked in the face.

“Wait, wait. You’re telling me that Jaebum was sleeping walking-talking---whatever he was doing while not awake, but in all reality, he kind of was because he remembers every second of it…but Mark thought he was seeing and talking about his ex…all while doing intimate things…with Jaebum thinking Mark was with Jackson…” Yugyeom now pulls Bam’s hands to cup his face because this was a lot to take in.

“Yes! So do you understand how upset I got now? Mark begged me to help him walk away because he couldn’t do it. But then when I came that night and saw his split lip and found out that it happened again. That Mark tried to stop it and wake you up but couldn’t---I snapped! I wanted to tell you right then and there but things escalated and you know, you were there!” Jackson is just as dramatic as it’s all out there now.

“Bro! He still thinks that you’re in love with that woman!” Yugyeom lets out as it all comes around full circle.

“I told him he should’ve cut off that relationship right off the rip,” Jinyoung seethes as he’s not happy that Mark has been suffering so much due to that woman.

And Jaebum, he has that look in his eyes. That passionate and determined look that they all knew what it meant.

“He’s about to do something,” Youngjae says as Jinyoung adds,

“Something stupidly romantic.”

“Something so him though,” Jackson can’t help but add as Jaebum moves into action,

“Mom, I need you to get me Joey’s number stat! Dad! I need you to help me find a tuxedo!”

“A tux? Is he planning on proposing to Mark now?!” Bam is letting out in shock.

All before Yugyeom lightly smacks his chest, “No, he’s going to crash someone’s wedding instead! You remember Mark telling us about Joey’s wedding coming up, remember?”

The realization hits as all of them end up smiling.

As they knew exactly what Lim Jaebeom was going to do…

It’s been two weeks, Mark waking up to the curtains being pushed back. With Mark groaning as he tries to hide back under the covers but someone comes and takes them away,

“Rise n shine, bro! I’m getting married today!”

How could Mark forget when he’s the reason the wedding got pushed to earlier than the original date? Where it has him showing a sad expression as he remembers the reason why exactly.

But Joey doesn’t seem upset and is shining as bright as the sun as he doesn’t hesitate to grab his brother by his ankles and yanks him towards the edge of the bed,

“You promised that you’d still be in my wedding as my best man, so come on! We got to get the day started!”

His brother is right. Even if his life had fallen apart, life was still happening all around him. And it was his little brother’s big day. He doesn’t want to ruin that too. So he pushes himself, getting up despite having no energy. Despite only being able to go through the daily life functions like he was some ghost in a shell. He’ll do it for his brother. He’ll pretend for his brother.

So here Mark was at his brother’s wedding…

Where his brother had a surprise waiting for him…

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“Hey bro,” Joey’s voice comes through the static and Mark jerks back to the moment.

Where he takes in his little brother’s look of worry and Mark realizes he’s doing it again.

He keeps shutting down. He keeps going numb and zoning out where he can’t even remember these past two weeks. He’s been holed up in the tiny home in his parent’s backyard. And he knows his family has tried and has seen and talked to him, but he can’t tell you what they said. He can’t tell you who or when, they’re just blurred faces just like the time that keeps passing.

“I’m sorry,” Mark says it so fast and instinctively as his facial expression becomes raw.

As he knows he’s messing up again when this is supposed to be Joey’s big day. Where Joey’s friends are moving about and having a grand time with his brother and yet here he was in the background trying to not exist---

“What? No, you’re good,” Joey reassures him as he lightly touches his arm, “I wanted you to know how happy I am that you’re here.”

But Mark doesn’t believe it because who would? He’s a male omega and only ruins things and those around him.

“Come, we’re about to do photos---”

Mark shakes his head as he already feels the eyes of the other groomsmen on him,

“I shouldn’t---” Mark tried to protest but Joey wasn’t having it.

“You’re my brother. Of course I want you in them,” He lets out as he’s already pulling on Mark’s arm to bring him closer.

But the damage he’s done… Simply being in a photo could cause such backlash,

“Joey I…I don’t think I can do this,” He voices as he finds his brother taking him into the hallway.

Mark thought he could pretend for his brother but he found he couldn’t.

The omega doesn’t even realize that the others hadn’t followed as Joey keeps them walking at a slow pace. His hand on Mark’s arm in a soothing manner as he guided him through the fancy building,

“You know, the Mark I knew back then never would’ve admitted this,” Joey says in a gentle tone.

It takes Mark’s attention away from his thoughts as he’s able to focus on his little brother. Taking in how much he’s grown with him wearing a tuxedo. That he wasn’t that little boy anymore but a young man that has gone through life just like Mark had.

“You were always smiling and laughing towards me. Always taking care of me and playing with me when I asked. You stuck up for me and was ready to fight if anyone was mean towards me. And not once, not once did you shed tears in front of me. Not once did you tell me when you were feeling sad or down. When you were sick or frustrated. You always hid those emotions. You always hid that side of you and would act like everything was fine without a second glance. And I didn’t understand it at first because our parents have always been loving and supportive. They always encouraged us to be and show ourselves. But as I grew older, the more I realized that it wasn’t because you didn’t want to, but because society had it to where you couldn’t. Where when we were younger, you could freely be yourself and hide your second gender to the outside world. But once you hit puberty, it became harder, more dangerous and you did it because of us. Even without saying it, I know you did. You were afraid of what it would do to us if others knew that you were a male omega. How it could’ve damaged father’s job or mother’s friends. How it could’ve affected us in school or our own social life. You took on so much while society gave omegas so little in return and it’s…it’s truly heartbreaking…”

Joey takes Mark into another room where it’s just them two. Where it’s a big open space with beautiful scenery all around and no doubt a place to take photos for ones wedding day. But Joey turns to face his brother as he was more important. He was always more important than what society deemed,

“To others they may only see you as a male omega, but to me, Mark, you’re my older brother. I always looked up to, always wanted to be like you with your kind and caring soul. I used to cry myself to sleep a lot when I realized what you were going through but by that point, you had left America and went to Korea. As I remember you telling us that you wanted to make something of yourself. To prove to the world that you were someone and I didn’t want to stop that. I wanted you to do what you wanted to do, needed to do. I wanted you to be able to heal and actually live and enjoy life. But I was terrified for you being in a whole nother country with a language you didn't even know at the time. And how their society standards are much harsher than ours---” He had to stop as he recalled how heated and upset his parents had gotten when they found out that JYPE told Mark he couldn’t come out as himself if he wanted to become a trainee there.

That he’d have to hide himself even more than he did on a daily basis when the whole point of Mark doing this was so he could learn to be himself in the end. But Mark, oh, sweet, Mark told them that it was ok. That it meant he had to work harder until he could get to the point that he could show himself. That he wouldn’t stop until he could. And that he didn’t want to waste such an opportunity when he wasn’t going to get one anywhere else because of what he is. So Mark took the harsh treatment. Being forced to work twice as hard then the others. But he did it with a smile on his face. He got up every single day despite the hate and disgust that the staff and people threw at him. Where some knew what he was and others because he was simply a foreigner. And Joey couldn’t understand why Mark would put himself through that for so long. How he was stronger than so many because he wouldn’t have lasted a week before coming back home.

Yet Mark kept doing it with a smile, kept pushing himself past limits. All to the point where his parents were ready to take on JYPE in a lawsuit and bring their boy back home. All until they went to see him. Where they saw the reason Mark wanted to stay.

Why he continued to go through such treatment…

Because of six other boys that were just like him…

Even though some were alphas. Even though some were Korean themselves. Betas, foreigners, it didn’t matter. They were all going through mistreatment. Whether simply due to being a foreigner, not having the looks of an alpha, the attitude or body type of one. Not having the proper personality or being told they’d never be as good as an alpha for they’ll always be a beta. Meant to be in the background, meant to follow in another’s shadow. Where they’ll never be good enough, entertaining enough, handsome, perfect, funny, intelligent, famous. You need surgery, you need to do this, bend over backwards for that. Remember where you were born. Remember your place. You were poor, you came from a rich background. Where was your father? Who raised you then? Start acting like an alpha, stop showing such emotion. Get back in line, sing like this. Dance like that, don’t even think openly.

No matter the mistreatment, Mark wanted to stay because they understood him without even knowing. That he felt for the first time in his life that he wasn’t alone. That there were others like him. With the same dreams and passions. The same ambition, thoughts and feelings.

And when Mark’s family went to see him for the first time. Seeing Mark up on stage and working so hard. Seeing him moving in sync with the six other boys that gave their all. Seeing how they looked out for each other, helped keep the other going. That despite what JYPE told them to do, they were still letting themselves come out and be known. Not afraid to show it with each other. And that when Joey got to see Mark backstage…

When he got to see photos and videos of Mark with the group…

To see him smiling and laughing so carefree…

To see him crying so openly around them…

To see him frustrated and going L.A. gangster…

To see him sick and leaning on the others that took care of him…

To see him slowly coming out of his shell and showing sides of him that Joey always wanted to see…

He knew that Mark belonged with Got7. That Got7 became his home, became his brother…

Joey looks at his brother with a happy smile, his eyes shining brightly,

“As much as it makes me happy that you’re here with me, it makes me happier when you’re at the home you belong to be in. The one that allowed you to be free, to be yourself. The one that you walked out hand in hand of six other men, all with such bright smiles and ready to take on the world with.”

Got7…

Mark reacts to that, his face contorting with emotion,

“But I can’t go back…”

Back to his safe space…

His happiness…

His home…

“And why is that?” Joey asks and Mark sucks in air,

“Because of me…because I ruined---”

But Joey shakes his head as he takes a hold of Mark’s hands and squeezes them,

“Did you? Because to me, because of you, bro…You brought Got7 closer than ever. You brought millions of people closer. You started a trend of love, a movement that has been empowering the world to be better, to do better. Look---” Joey insists as he pulls out his phone that he already had set up to show him.

Where Mark can see that Got7 was still trending but not for what they originally had been for,

‘Got7 has been overloaded with sponsorships left and right’

‘Love and Got7’

‘Aghase loves Got7’

‘Got7 gains millions of fans overnight’

‘Got7 stands for each other’

‘Omega rights’

‘Male omegas deserve love too’

‘Got7 forever’

‘7 or nothing’

‘Mark come home, Got7 is waiting!’

Mark can’t contain his emotions as his eyes shine with tears. As his next breath becomes shaky the more he reads. The more he takes in and sees this is real---

“But the video, the truth---”

“They all did their own truth and confession around the same time you did,” Joey cuts him off as he’s showing Mark this on his phone too.

Not letting Mark go back into those dark thoughts as the proof was right before him. Reminding Mark of their trainee days. Reminding Mark of why he stuck through such treatment before. Why he refused to give up and kept going. Reminding him of all the times that those six cared and supported him. How they helped him come out as himself and continued to shower him in love and support. How they didn’t hesitate to take his hand as they risked it all back then too. Risked it all as they left JYPE together so they could aim for their dreams and passions together in their own way. The right way, the free way…

Oh, how could Mark not think that the others wouldn’t do something like this?

The tears fall as Mark takes in the videos and posts. As he takes in new photos of Jackson and Jinyoung together now along with Bam and Yugyeom showing off their love. To Youngjae showing off messages of how Danny reached out to him and they went on a date recently. Of just seeing them made all those emotions come back so strongly.

With the urge to call them, to talk to them…

To hear their voice, their laughter…

To see their faces and feel their warmth and touch…

But what about Jaebum? What about---

Mark takes notice that Jaebum had posted a live video too. One that had been posted the same exact time as his. One that Mark was about to click on when Joey takes his phone away and says,

“You need to listen to his album again and actually listen this time,” He encourages.

It shocks Mark as he’s able to look at his brother again, “His album? But I’ve heard it. I’ve listened to it,” Mark’s voice cracks with emotion, “I was there when he wrote some of the lyrics. I was there when he recorded them and performed them. I was there every step of making the album so what else is there to hear?”

To hear how much he was still in love with her…

“You need to hear it as it was meant to be from the start. Not by what you thought,” Joey tells him with a genuine smile on his face.

What does he mean by that?

But before he could ask, he finds someone else speaking up,

“I think you should let me sing it for you until it reaches your heart.”

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Mark’s heart skips a beat before pounding soundly. As his whole body whips around to face that deep soothing voice. All just to have the breath knocked out of him by the breathtaking view of Lim Jaebeom in the flesh. As he’s all dolled up in a fancy tux and hair done with that dazzling smile and eyes full of light and passion,

“Bummie…” Mark lets out in awe as he never expected to find the alpha standing before him.

That he came all the way from Korea just to see him…

“You’re beautifully handsome, you know that?” Jaebum lets out breathlessly as he takes in Mark.

Mark flushes at Jaebum’s bold flirting and the way he’s approaching him. With how those eyes don’t look away and continue to burn with such passion. As the alpha is looking at him, only him---

“I…” Mark is at a loss of words as his senses are being overwhelmed.

From just hearing his voice, just seeing him in person, just picking up on his scent trying to surround him. If Jaebum touches him, if he gets any closer…

He’s going to lose control…

Mark tries to take steps back as Jaebum takes steps forward, but Joey is still behind him and suddenly becomes like a wall as he can’t go back any further,

“You don’t need to run anymore, bro,” Joey tells him but Mark is still panicking.

Because Jaebum has to know by now. He has to know his true feelings.

“Bummie…don’t…I can’t…if you come any closer I can’t---” Mark is pleading with the alpha as already he wants to be close again.

Already he’s reacting to the alpha before him that his legs were growing weak and he knows he’ll fall right back into those arms. He’d go back so easily even though he tried so hard to stay away---

“You can, we can. Neither of us have to hold back any longer and I’m not going to. Not when I had it wrong the whole time and now I know the truth. When I realized that the dreams I thought I was having ended up being real.”

His dreams? Wait, no that’s impossible because Jackson said the person wouldn’t remember or know what they were doing when asleep---

Mark’s legs finally give out and Jaebum uses that chance as he catches the omega with ease. Joey moved away as the two now stood in the center of the room and scenery like in some romance movie. With Jaebum’s arm wrapped around Mark’s waist, one hand against his upper back. Their faces were mere inches apart and Mark’s hands bracing against the alpha’s chest and shoulder.

“My darling…” Jaebum calls him with a loving smile.

As Mark’s heart reacts, his soul showing through those expressive eyes.

“My baby…” Jaebum continues in his soothing deep voice.

As Mark’s face contorts with all sorts of emotions as he hears him…

As they’re connecting…

“My mate,” He says with all the love in the world.

“I must be the one that’s dreaming now,” Mark says as he can’t believe it.

But then Jaebum is moving his one hand from Mark’s upper back to gently caress the omega’s face. His eyes not wavering as he doesn’t hold back the words he’s been wanting to say for so long,

“It was you, Mark, it was always you. Back then, in between, now…and forever. Every word, every lyric, everything I put into each one of those songs. They were for you, about you, everything I’ve been wanting to say and express to you but thought I couldn’t. And though I held back, though I tried so hard, I still was trying to reach out to you subconsciously. So much so, so desperately that in rare occurrences, when an alpha finds their mate and they keep suppressing themselves, they’ll act in their sleep. Acting solely on their alpha instincts to search and find their mate and try to court them and express themselves that way. Especially if they feel like they’re going to lose their mate or if they feel like their mate is being taken by another. It wasn’t sexomnia like Jackson thought. It was all my own actions, thoughts and feelings.”

It was never her, it never had to do with her…

So the whole time Jaebum kept reacting to him. Kept trying to find him and tell him. Kept being triggered because he thought he was losing him. That he couldn’t reach him. Suffering with the same thoughts and feelings like Mark had…

Where he thought Mark was with Jackson…

It takes only seconds now for Mark to put it together since his eyes were opened after the fight. Where it all made sense now and why Jaebum reacted the way he did. Why he fought Jackson. Why he thought Mark had been talking about Jackson and not him. Why he didn’t answer him, much less able to look at him in the aftermath of the fight.

Because he was thinking like him…

That it wasn’t him, that it couldn’t be him…

And to top it all off, to really prove that he remembered all of his ‘dreams’ that were actually a reality,

“You don’t have to hold back anymore because I’m awake and aware of all my actions and thoughts. And I can properly say what I was trying to say that night we made love.”

Where Jaebum gives him such a happy and genuine smile, his eyes shining with all the love and care in the world for the omega before him,

“Mark, I love you…I love you…” He says with such devotion and passion.

Meaning every word and it’s like Mark is being brought back to that moment. Of how hard Jaebum had been trying to convey those words to reach him. And how hard Mark had tried to hold back from saying them.

But he doesn’t have to hold back anymore. He can be him, he can be free.

He can love him…love him how he always wanted to---

Mark lets out a happy cry as he’s grabbing a hold of the alpha’s tux to pull him in the rest of the way. Crashing their lips together as Jaebum cups Mark’s face to deepen the kiss. The two not noticing how Joey was recording the whole thing. How the photographer snuck in and was taking photos of this moment. Of the two kissing so passionately. Smiles shining through into the next kiss. Hands keeping the other close as the kiss slowed down into sweet pecks. As their eyes opened because they needed to look to make sure. To take in this moment and know that it was real. Their eyes speaking volumes of how much love they held for the other. Of how long they dreamt of having such a moment.

And it was captured perfectly as if it was the two actually getting married. Like they were standing at the altar and had just said their vows before tying the knot. As Jaebum leans their foreheads together and the two can’t help but smile like dorks. Their grins turning into light laughter at the joyous feeling running through them. All before Mark wraps his arms around Jaebum, the alpha holding him like he’s someone so precious. Taking them back to that moment in the hotel where Mark doesn’t hold back and says it,

“I love you too, Lim Jaebeom.”

‘My alpha’

‘My Bummie’

‘My mate’

Clapping can be heard along with loud cheers of congratulations. It has the two pulling back to see Mark’s family was there for the joyous moment along with Joey’s close friends. It has the two becoming bashful as they pull apart enough to stand side by side. The two hold hands as they thank and smile at the others.

“Now that it’s been posted on my account that I was the one that brought you two together, let's get this wedding going!” Joey exclaims in good spirits.

As he throws a small wink towards Mark before someone comes in shaking a wine bottle. Having it explode into the air as everyone grows excited. Mark’s smile coming forth, that twinkle in his eyes back as he joins in. As Jaebum is right there with him and Joey can’t help but feel so happy for his brother. To see how much of an impact Jaebum had on Mark throughout the years. How good Got7 was for Mark and he was glad that his brother was able to find a way to be himself.

As he couldn’t wait to show Mark all the texts Jaebum sent him over the last two weeks just speaking poetry about the omega. And how deeply in love he was with his brother.

Joey watches as Jaebum matches Mark’s energy, the two unable to stop the smiles as the alpha pulls Mark back in close. Both grinning like dorks before the alpha presses kisses to the side of Mark’s face,

This was true love at its finest, love that was rare, love that knew no gender or second gender…

It was simply the love of two people…mates…

“You’re going to walk me down the aisle too?!” Mark lets out as he’s being spoiled here with Jaebum handing him a bouquet of flowers.

As Jaebum hasn’t left his side for a second since announcing his presence. Where he made sure he was beside Mark in every photo and video being taken throughout the day. All as it’s leading up to Joey’s big moment.

The music is already playing as they all get in line for the wedding to begin.

“I managed to convince the girl you were originally going to walk with,” Jaebum says as there was a hint of possessiveness in his tone.

“Bummie, I literally met her during the reception which was last night,” Mark replies as he thinks it’s hot.

Especially as Jaebum had to pull him back in close so that their bodies were touching. Mark is totally on board with this as he’s been so touch deprived of this man and it’s only been two weeks.

How the hell did Mark think he was going to last a lifetime?!

“How did you manage to convince her?” Mark is curious to know as he teases the alpha by running fingers lightly up his chest.

Liking how Jaebum’s fingers grip his hips a bit tighter,

“Let’s just say I became her bias wrecker,” Jaebum teases back and instantly there’s a flash of fierceness in Mark’s eyes.

The L.A. gangster about to come out, “Oh really? She didn’t dare touch what’s mine did she?”

Jaebum smirks, his eyes ablaze passionately as he likes Mark being openly possessive over him.

“No, and even if she tried, I wouldn’t let her. My body is only for you, just like my heart and soul. It’s all yours, baby.”

Mark reacts to those words and he’s able to calm down but he still pouts,

“The things you do to me, Lim Jaebeom. I swear, you make me go crazy at times. When you were with her I almost lost control so many times. You have no idea the thoughts that kept running through my head---”

Mark is cut off with a kiss by Jaebum. One to help calm him further. Another to distract him and a third because he couldn’t resist,

“Trust me, Mark, I do know. It was like how I kept thinking you and Jackson were a thing. I almost lost control so many times. And even when I really thought it was being confirmed about you two, I couldn’t---didn’t stop. Whatever it took, I was ready to risk it all. I wanted to take you away from Jackson and make you mine. To have you stay with me forever. Hell, I fought him too, didn’t I?”

The omega flushes as Jaebum’s love for him was so strong and passionate. As this alpha was perfect for him in every way, flaws and all. Even with his hot headedness and sappiness. To his powerful aura and yet still being a gentle giant on the inside. Down to his dorkiness that could turn into pure sex in a matter of seconds. Mark could go on and on about this alpha, just like how he hoped their love would continue to go on and on until the end of the time.

“You two made up though, right?” Mark asks as he’s trying to contain his beating heart.

But his sweet scent was giving away how he’s reacting to Jaebum’s words and intense gaze. How he’s going red all the way up to the tip of his ears and it has Jaebum smirking away,

“Straight away. We all made those statements and videos, laying everything out into the open and when we met up, we made sure there was nothing else we kept hidden. Making a new promise from that day onward to let it all out, whether in the group chat or in person as a group.”

That’s good. Mark is happy to hear that everyone came together…

The music starts to pick up and as they move forward, it’s about to be their turn with everyone already looking their way. Where Mark takes Jaebum by surprise as he forgoes hooking his arm with the alpha and instead takes his hand in his. All while that beautiful flush graces his cheeks, his eyes fiercely passionate and the bouquet of flowers in his free hand,

“I promise too, from this moment onward, that I won’t hold back anything from you. No matter the thought or feeling. Until my last breath, I want us to last forever,” He lets out with such devotion and love.

Making Jaebum react straight away and want nothing more than to do the things he’s about to do. But of course it’s their turn to walk and Mark must’ve known this so Jaebum was forced to restrain himself for the time being. Because it would be frowned upon to make love to Joey’s older brother in the middle of the aisle during the wedding.

But lord, everyone definitely saw how Jaebum’s eyes never left Mark. How expressive and passionate they remained as Jaebum was taking in his whole world at this moment. As he got to walk down the aisle with him and take Mark in with all his glory. Melting his heart further as it swelled with so much love. Bringing such emotion forth that Jaebum looked like he was about to cry from the overwhelming emotions of love.

That when the two had to part to stand on opposite sides, with Jaebum standing on the women’s side, the two never broke eye contact. Even as the bride came down the aisle and stole everyone else’s attention. Even as the groom and bride met and vows were being spoken.

The two were in their own little world. Their smiles so genuine and full of love. Their eyes shining with it as Jaebum kept mouthing words to him,

‘My darling’

‘My Baby’

‘My mate’

‘Mine’

‘I love you’

‘I need you’

‘I want you’

‘Forever’

‘Even after death’

That by the time Joey and the bride kissed and everyone was cheering and clapping, the two were ready to cause a scene as they needed to be closer. They needed to be touching and it can be seen by the family photos that start to happen. Where Mark doesn’t hesitate to pull Jaebum in close to stand beside him. As Jaebum lets it be known that they’re together as they pose nicely in the first few flashes. But by the fifth one, they’re turning towards the other. By the sixth flash, they’re already trying to meet in a kiss. And at the seventh flash, their lips are touching like lovers do. Not afraid or holding back any longer as they want to freely express their love…

The reception is in full swing with people being seated and food set out before them. Of course people are taking turns and giving speeches about the bride and groom as everyone is enjoying the happy moments. And just when the mic is being passed along and everyone assumes Mark isn’t going to want to talk, he takes his family by surprise as he not only takes the mic, he stands up to talk.

Mark has their full attention, especially Jaebum’s as the alpha remains seated beside him in awe of what the omega wanted to say.

“If this was Mark of months ago, his speech he had been waiting to say on this day would’ve started with humor. It would’ve been full of childhood memories between my younger brother and I. But the Mark of today, the me of now…” Mark begins speaking as he looks directly at his brother towards the end,

“I want to personally thank him for loving someone like me. For still wanting to be my brother despite how cruel this world can be. He never saw me as different and has always been proud to call me his big brother even though if we went by second gender status, I would be considered beneath him.”

People keep listening, Joey’s facial expression showing how much the words were reaching him. How much it meant to him that Mark was able to open up like this. Showing how much had changed over the years for the better.

“And just when my world was crashing down, when the world had been turning against me…” Mark chokes on his words a bit.

But he only stops for a moment as he holds his brother’s gaze,

“He still wanted me as his brother. He still held open arms when I know these past two weeks were hell. He still took the time out of what should’ve been his big day, his dream day, and reminded me of why I did what I did. Of who I came to be, strived to be. Or how far I have gotten that the me of months ago had almost completely forgotten. Because that me was going to say that a love that my brother and his bride have, it wasn’t for me. Of course I was going to make it on a light note, but deep down, I truly thought that I didn’t deserve such a love because of who I am. That it would be impossible for someone like me to obtain. I was accepting what society kept trying to instill on me. I was finally crumbling under all those hateful words and actions that I was dealt with in my life. But it’s thanks to my brother for reminding me as well as showing me what I had gone to Korea in the first place for…”

Mark’s family is already crying as they know about what the omega had gone through when he first went to Korea. Where Joey is crying too as Mark is trying to not grow emotional but you can hear it in his voice.

“I just want to sincerely thank my brother, my family, my fans, for letting me have this chance to find and be myself in such a world. For allowing me to meet and stick beside six people that became my life and everything. It’s because of them that I’m able to stand here today, right now, and talk with a smile on my face. To still be here in this world and be able to see my little brother marry the love of his life, much less be in a room full of people when most deem that omegas should remain at home behind closed doors. I’m able to be me, I’m able to be free…and I’m able to have a love I always dreamed of having with an alpha who I’ll follow to the ends of the earth for…So Joey, I love you, little bro. I wish you nothing but happiness and good health for the oncoming days. And a marriage that I know will last between you two as she’s the one for you, man. Congrats.”

People clap, Joey raising his glass towards Mark with a heartfelt smile and tears still falling. Mark smiles back before passing off the mic and sitting back down. Jaebum not hesitating to pull the omega in close. Taking his trembling hand in his as he intertwines their fingers together and presses a kiss to his forehead,

“Every day I’m so thankful you came to be a trainee with us,” Jaebum whispers as someone else is talking now on the mic.

“That I’m so lucky and honored for being able to be the leader of the group. For being able to have such moments with you and the others,” He continues as he rubs his thumb lovingly across Mark’s hand while holding it.

“And I hope I continue being lucky so I can have more moments with you. So I can show you how much you mean to me every day. To give you all of me and my love that’ll never end.”

“Please,” Mark begs so sweetly against his lips as he wants that too.

As he wants to do the same for the alpha.

Jaebum lifts his free hand to lightly caress Mark’s face as he smiles against his lips,

“Always,” Before he’s pressing sweet kisses to Mark’s lips.

The kisses remained soft and sweet, the two getting lost in each other until it was time to cut the cake. The two not even realizing that they should’ve been eating instead of tasting one another.

But it was ok, they didn’t have to do things the old fashioned way. Or what others deemed they should do. They were Got7 and they always did things their own, unique way. So while they watched Joey and the bride cut the cake and have their moment, the two were subtly hand feeding food to each other in the background. All while keeping one hand touching the other in some way. All while their chairs remained impossibly close as Mark leaned against him with Jaebum’s chest touching part of his back and shoulder. Where the two shared a drink with intertwined arms at one point. The two letting loose and having fun. Laughing, smiling away as they knew they had each other. As they could feel the other’s love for them. As they conversed throughout the events and enjoyed each other’s company.

It was like Mark never left Korea. That Mark was still staying in Jaebum’s apartment that turned into the omega’s as well. Where they only came to America for Joey’s wedding and that they came together. Of how it should’ve been if only the other knew about the other’s feelings sooner. But even like this, even after what happened, it all fell into place like fate. Of how it was meant to be and Mark is able to enjoy such a night. To enjoy such moments he’s dreamed of having. And the night was only getting started.

Where one would think watching the dancing of the bride and groom and then the father daughter dance along with the mother, son dance would be the emotional roller coaster. Mark was in for quite the surprise still.

For as the bride insisted that Mark join in on the throwing of the bouquet and of course, he caught it with his amazing martial art tricks, it seemed Joey might’ve had something else planned with Jaebum. Something that was going to both pull at Mark’s heartstrings but also make that passionate love burn like a wildfire because…

The moment he catches the bouquet, the music starts and Mark stills for he knows that sound. It’s the sound of a song that he couldn’t be in the recording room to hear. The sound of a song that he knew the lyrics to as him and Bam found a certain notebook that one night…

A song that Mark originally thought was about her, when in reality…

People move off of the dance floor as Mark turns around and finds Lim Jaebeom standing there, headset on and eyes holding such intense heated passion,

All as he starts to sing directly to him…

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The flowers Mark was holding drops to the ground in a dramatic fashion as Jaebum approaches,

“Let’s put on the R&B song, ‘cause I’m about to freaking love you all night long…”

The bride squeals loudly in the background as she’s totally onboard with every second of this. How could you not? With Jaebum’s deep, soulful voice. That aura that draws you in and demands attention. The sexy, chic vibes as his body moves with visuals to die for---

Yep, Mark has died and gone to heaven…

“So let’s put on that R&B song, oh…”

Jaebum slides off his top attire with ease, leaving him in the white button up and fitted vest. Loosening his tie at the same time Mark finds his legs turning into jelly. The way Jaebum moves so smoothly like his voice. As he effortlessly pulls a chair forth by hooking it at the end of his shoe, his hands grabbing a hold of it to have Mark sit in as the alpha now stood before him---

“My sounds, it’s getting deeper…” His voice drops an octave, his eyes passionate and shining of that wild beast inside.

His one hand holding the back of the chair as the other slowly rises up his thigh,

“Following the sound of your heart, I get faster…”

His body moves in both a sexual and sensual way, putting on such a display for Mark as it was a dance only for his mate.

“A moment of complete disarray, droplets of sweat fall,” Jaebum takes Mark’s hands in his, having his trail up his body so openly,

“Between our clasped hands, there’s more heat…”

Girls are swooning, some fainting while the guys are mighty impressed. Reminding them that Jaebum was indeed an idol and knew how to put on a performance. As he knew just how to rile Mark up and keep his attention on him. As he can pick up on Mark’s sweet scent sky rocketing. The heated look he’s giving him and the way he’s biting his lips.

Jaebum might’ve had this song as his backup plan to win over Mark if all else failed to convey his feelings.

So Jaebum gives his all, moving his body back as the pre chorus hits and he makes sure it’s perfect as he sings,

“You hold me tight, that is worth it (worth it)...And I can give it to you, work it (work it)...”

Keeping eye contact with Mark the whole time as he doesn’t miss a beat. His voice letting out all the emotions he’s kept inside.

“Your scent and mine mix together even more…Endlessly…Scattered all around, yeah…”

Taking the two to all those secret moments they shared late into the night. The moments that kept growing as their bodies kept meeting. Their scents surrounding the other and intertwining like their limbs.

The chorus hits and Mark is definitely soaking his underwear right now as Jaebum’s voice alone is pure heaven,

“(Oh, my, my, my) So let’s put on that R&B song (One that you like)...’Cause I’m ‘bout to freaking love you all night long (Oh my, my, my)...I’ll have you flying in the sky high…I wanna touch you…Just let me love you…”

His heated and passionate gaze only added fuel to the fire burning in Mark’s heart. Reaching his soul as Mark is truly understanding this song more and more. That he’s actually hearing it from how it was created. Where Jaebum came up with it during the time of wanting to get closer. Of the first time he fell asleep and their bodies were touching with the R&B music playing in the background. Expressing all the things he wanted to do, has been wanting to do. But had been holding back just like Mark had.

“Take you to cloud nine (Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah)...Lifting you high (Ah, ah, ah, ah)...”

Where the two were able to get lost in each other and forget reality for a while. Where it didn’t matter the situation as they both wanted it, wanted each other. Wanted to love on the other.

“You will take my word…I’ll give you that…Blurred focus…I’m trapped in it…I’ll write you down…I’ll take you high…To cloud nine (Ah, ah, ah, ah)...”

As it felt like a dream for both of them, it started mixing into reality. Unable to stop it as it’s everything they’ve wanted. As it felt so good, so right, so perfect. As he couldn’t help but write it down and make it into a song. As they both wanted more, wanted it to be true, wanted to do what they did in those moments but all the time. To stop hiding, to stop fearing, to let the other know their true feelings.

“Yes, you can kiss on the neck…And you can hold it, my back…The strange tension is gradually melting away…I’ll keep whispering on your lips…You can say love it to me…I softly wrap you up and hide you away…”

Where behind closed doors, where the moonlight witnessed such moments…Where they’re able to love freely and admit to each other of their love and need. Jaebum’s ‘sleep walking’ meant so much. Brought them closer, had them connecting; reaching Mark when his songs and lyrics weren't doing the trick before.

But now, especially this song…Mark is listening intently…he’s hearing every word…

Feeling every emotion, ounce of love, want and need as Jaebum comes back closer. Pulling Mark up to his feet and holding his body close. Sensually, as he’s someone precious to him. Someone more than just sexual attraction and desire. Love was so powerful and every fiber of his being thrummed with it. As he looked at his mate with all the love in the world.

“Following the breath that escapes you…Higher and higher…Higher and higher…Our breath, about to explode…”

As he says that last line against his lips, making Mark shiver. All before he’s turning Mark around, the omega moving instinctively. As Mark paid attention to the dance Jaebum had choreographed originally for he was going to perform it on stage that night the fight broke out. Where another dancer was supposed to play this part. But it was always meant for Mark and it shows as they move together.

Of two lovers meant to be…

“(Oh my, my, my) So, let’s put on that R&B song (One that you like)...’Cause I’m ‘bout to freaking love you all night long (Oh my, my, my)...I’ll have you flying in the sky high…I wanna touch you…Just let me love you…”

The two keep touching, the dance intimate and full of passion as they move in sync. Before Jaebum turns Mark to face him, the omega not afraid in running his hands over his alpha in a possessive and loving way. Their eyes locking once right away, Jaebum’s hands just as possessive and passionate,

“Take you to cloud nine (Ah, ah, ah, ah)...Lifting you high (Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah)...You will take my word…I’ll give you that…blurred focus…I’m trapped in it…I’ll write you down…I’ll take you high…To Cloud nine (Ah, ah, ah, ah)...”

With Mark in his arms as he does the outro that shows off Jaebum’s vocal range, the song ends and people go wild. A standing ovation for such a dance but the two were so lost in each other. As Mark couldn’t hold back any longer and kissed the alpha passionately. Jaebum even leaning him back like the romantic sap that he was. Flowers and bouquets being thrown into the air that fall around them as the two eventually pull back, their eyes shining with so much love, their smiles full on grinning.

Showing Mark that it was ok to love him. That his love was returned. That they could have this and still be free…happy…together…

“Bummie…” Mark grows emotional as Jaebum leans the omega back up properly.

Jaebum hugging Mark tightly as others come onto the dance floor to dance now. The music changed and Jaebum took off the headset. Where others made sure to bring their partners onto the dance floor for Jaebum and Mark’s display of love had them wanting to show their own partners how much they loved them. And that meant slow dancing music began to play.

“I love you,” Jaebum breathes out as he can’t help it while they sway slowly from side to side.

As the alpha never wants to let go of Mark.

“I know, trust me…after what you just did…I see how blinded I was to notice before…that this whole time that song…those songs…”

“You know, I was planning on doing this during the tour. Thinking if I could keep your attention on me then you wouldn’t go back with Jackson…It was hard enough not to lose control after my last ‘dream’. How I had to restrain myself from touching you, kissing you, telling you right then and there. All because I thought I shouldn’t, couldn’t, for you had Jackson. But as that day went on, the more I thought about my ‘dreams’ and our time together, down to your split lip…Mark, I was putting pieces together and I was ready to risk it all and do things more daring than this. Whatever it took, baby. I wasn’t going to stop. Not when I knew you felt the same…”

Jaebum holds Mark tighter as he recalls those moments. Where he recalled Mark leaving and he never wants that to happen again. He has to stop and bury his face against Mark’s collar and breathe in his scent. Trying to calm down as it’s ok, he’s with Mark again. He didn’t lose him…though he almost did.

“My darling…my everything…Mark, knowing that you were shouting those words that were meant for me…I had a feeling…that gut feeling that my heart wanted to latch right on in that moment but I thought I was so far gone…that I was crazy…I had to be delusional…but baby, if I had fully known in that moment…I want you to know I would’ve gone right to you. I would’ve kept you from leaving that room and I would’ve kissed you for all to see. I want everyone to know my love for you, that you’re my mate and complete me.”

Mark lets out a noise as he’s blushing away. As Jaebum was both calming him and riling him up at the same time. Easing his heart and making it pound that crazy rhythm just for him. Making him want to stay like this but at the same time have him begging him to make love to him on this very dance floor.

“Alpha…” Mark lets out in such an affected tone, his eyes flashing of his omega.

His fingers clinging to Jaebum’s back as he’s trying to not lose control here,

“If you don’t stop now, I’m about to climb you like a tree with my entire family surrounding us,” Mark manages to get out.

Oh…

Jaebum can’t help but smirk against Mark’s collar before pulling back. Taking in how much he was affecting Mark and how he’s not holding back his omega,

“Fuck, baby…you’re so god damn beautiful…”

Mark eats up the praise before whining, “Bummie!”

As Mark finds it hard to push the omega side of him back down. His eyes still showing of it and Jaebum found it to be such an intimate and romantic sign. Especially as it meant that Mark not only felt safe with him, but trusted him, as well as saw Jaebum as his alpha. The alpha he wanted to be with; his mate.

Of course it’s going to make Jaebum want to love on Mark even more, his own eyes flashing of his alpha.

“Mark…”

The omega bites his lips to keep the needy sound at bay. But the look Jaebum is giving him is telling him that the omega has exactly minutes to find a location before the alpha does make love to him on this dance floor.

“Take me to your hotel…” Mark lets out in a seductive tone, all before leaning in to whisper in the alpha’s ear, “And make love to me like you did the last time so I can say those three words back, Lim Jaebeom.”

Jaebum groans before he’s already moving into action. His hand finding Mark’s as they’re acting like two teenagers at this moment. As both can’t help but feel naughty and are smiling like dorks. Both trying to sneak out before they’re running. Laughter taking place as their hands remained intertwined all the way to Jaebum’s rental car. Where he can’t help but cage Mark in against it and kiss him breathless. Both feeling giddy and so warm as love flowed through them.

As the kissing might’ve gotten a bit heated before Jaebum could stop himself but Mark was loving every second…

And that he was just as bad for the second Jaebum began driving off, Mark did not keep his hands to himself…

So by the time the two made it to the hotel, these two love birds were all over each other…

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Did they make it subtle on the way into the hotel? Hell no, they didn’t even try to hide who they were. Causing more of a scene as Mark didn’t hesitate to crawl into Jaebum’s lap in the middle of the hotel parking lot. Where before they could get out of the car, they were having a heated make out. That by the time they get out, you can tell hands have run through both their hair. That hickies and love marks were already starting to show. The two are unable to stop reaching for the other’s touch. Their fingers brushing to keep intertwining as the employees of the hotel watched the two love birds remain close as they headed for the elevators. One girl gasped as she recognized who they were right away…

The sound of the elevator dings and the doors open, Mark pulling Jaebum inside just to have the alpha all over him again. To have him cage him in as the button for floor seven was hit and the doors began to close. The two were not waiting as lips were already meeting. The two wanted to make up for lost time. To make up for all those times they held back. For words, thoughts and feelings they had throughout the years. Letting it all out as their lips kept meeting. As their bodies touched, hands roaming. Mark gasps into the alpha’s mouth as Jaebum gropes his ass, a slight pull forward so he can grind down against him. The needy moan coming forth next as Jaebum was letting Mark know that he wanted him. That he needed him,

Of what he was going to do to him once they got to his hotel room…

“Bummie…” Mark lets out as he’s so affected.

His sweet scent fills the elevator and Jaebum is getting drunk off of it, off Mark’s love.

“Oh baby, the second I get you on that bed---” Jaebum’s cuts himself off as he can’t help but dive back in for another taste of the omega.

Mark’s needy sounds growing, his fingers trailing up the alpha’s front as he feels up his alpha. Letting Jaebum know how much he wanted this, wanted him.

“Nnn…need you…alpha…” Mark breathes out against the alpha’s lips when they part for air.

The elevator stops though, a dinging heard as someone must be trying to get on. It has Mark trying to pull away to be polite as they’re blocking entrance. But Jaebum pulls the omega right back to him, Mark’s back flush against Jaebum’s chest. His other hand caresses Mark’s face as he gently guides him to nuzzle against him. Jaebum’s eyes are blown of his alpha’s as he glares at the person who dared to interrupt them. The poor stranger is confused, turned on and scared by the sight in a matter of seconds, before the doors close and Jaebum is already pressing kisses where he can reach. Keeping Mark flush against him as needy sounds are pulled from the omega left and right.

“Fuck…just take me here, alpha…” Mark is begging sweetly as he can’t take it.

As Jaebum’s scent, touch, and warmth were riling him up. His kisses, bites and nips making him want to be bent over the nearest railing and drilled into the next---

The alpha’s smirk can be felt against Mark’s ear,

“I’m about to freaking love you all night long, baby,” He lets out in such a seductive voice too.

His touch was possessive yet loving and it was only adding to the mix of driving Mark wild. That if this elevator didn’t reach their floor soon he’s going to take this alpha for a ride---

The elevator finally stops, the doors opening to reveal Mark climbing Jaebum like a tree. The alpha lifts him with ease as Mark wraps around him,

“Hurry Bummie…I need it…need your love…” Mark keeps begging with such a heated look.

As Jaebum moves off the elevator and heads down the hallway. Of course Mark doesn’t make it easy as he’s just as naughty and possessive. As he begins kissing him with fervor. Their tongues meeting and both groaning---

Jaebum ends up pressing Mark up against the wall, the omega content like this for he’d let the alpha take him in public. For others to see that this man belonged to him, that he had his love, his everything.

And he’s definitely saying all of this in between their make out---

But the alpha pulls back, Mark panting as Jaebum lets out an aroused growl,

“Fuck, I’d do it too, Mark. Don’t think for one second that I won’t.”

Just hearing him say it, hearing how his tone of voice was too while giving him that look…

It sent shivers down his spine in all the right ways.

“But tonight I’m making love to you like I originally wanted to. I’m gonna dye my love all over your body until it reaches your soul. Until we’re one forever because I’m never letting you go, Mark. Tonight, tomorrow, years after that…I’m going to love you.”

God, it’s such a Jaebum thing to say and Mark eats up every word. Every sappy, romantic word that goes straight to his heart and he wants more of it.

“More, all of it. I want it all…all of you,” Mark replies eagerly as starts pressing kisses where he can reach.

As he wants to do the same to the alpha. It brings a breathless smile to Jaebum’s face. Showing that this wasn’t just sexual attraction. That it was two lovers that knew the other was the one. That there was no one else. It was always them, only them.

Their mate…

By the time they make it inside the hotel room, their full of laughter, smiles so wide as they keep the other close. Becoming downright giddy as it was finally happening like it was supposed to, like it should’ve from the start. Where if neither had held back, Jaebum’s sure it would’ve gone something like this back in their trainee days. Back when they all roomed together. Their eyes shining with nothing but love and devotion. Their hands warm and learn what the other likes. What got them going, what could connect them more…

Clothes were sprawled out in a trail from the doorway towards the bedroom. Where Mark welcomed him with open arms. Pulling him onto the bed as Jaebum couldn’t resist. With R&B music playing softly in the background as their lips met slowly. The two wanting to make it last for as long as possible. As Mark doesn’t fight his omega instincts, as he lets them run freely. Becoming needy and falling apart under Jaebum’s touch---

“Mmm alpha!” Mark cries out, eyes half lidded and expression full of pure bliss.

His body trembled, toes curling as Jaebum was making love to Mark’s body alright. Making sure every last inch of skin had been graced by his lips. That his body was littered in love markings left and right.

Mark’s fingers grip the bed sheets, back arching as he keeps crying out so beautifully. Slick coating his ass and thighs. Soaking the sheets below as Jaebum loves every second of it. Taking in Mark coming apart for him and his touch. His fingers moving in and out of him, hitting that sweet spot that got Mark more vocal. As Jaebum had already eaten the omega out and now wanted to take in every second of Mark as he was about to cum for the third time now. And Jaebum swears he’ll never get enough of this. That it’ll affect him like it was the first time every time---

“Alpha! Please…gonna cum…gonna make me cum…but I need you…want you…” Mark lets out in such breathy high pitched moans.

The way Mark doesn’t hold back his words now, his eyes bleeding of his omega as Mark lets him know how much he wants him. That Jaebum is his alpha,

“Bummie…Bummie…Bummie!” Mark keeps calling out his name.

Trying to look at him even though the pleasure makes him want to close his eyes. As he’s reaching out, his nails are digging into the alpha’s wrist as the pleasure keeps building. His body beginning to convulse as his orgasm is about to hit---

“Yeah, that’s it baby, cum for me again…Let me love you…let me see you…”

And Mark does as it hits him hard. Jaebum finds it so breathtakingly hot as Mark spurts cum on himself and releases such sounds. His body quivering in aftershocks even after Jaebum removes his fingers and the omega lays there to catch his breath.

“You’re so perfect for me, Mark. Just look at you, look at what you do to me…” Jaebum lets out as his voice even sounds wrecked.

As his eyes bleed of his alpha and he’s been rock hard since the start of this.

“Only you can get me like this…so ready to lose control…so eager to love you…please you…to connect with you…how I want to lay my claim on your body every day…for the whole world to see…I love you, Mark Tuan.”

Mark lets out an affected noise, his legs spreading and arms reaching out so Jaebum will come closer. The alpha not hesitating as he slots in between Mark’s arms. The alpha planting sweet kisses along Mark’s face as the omega runs his hands over his body. Where even though Jaebum’s cock was raring to go, the alpha was content in loving Mark. Showing him how much he meant to him. And it makes Mark emotional, especially as Jaebum kept wanting to shower him in love and affection.

“No, alpha…it’s my turn…wanna show you…need to show you,” Mark protests as Jaebum keeps distracting him with loving kisses.

As he keeps Mark’s hands from going to his cock and holds them above the omega’s head. Intertwining their fingers together sweetly and Mark melts.

“Keep showing me…just like this…wrap around me…kiss me…tell me…” Jaebum gets out in between kisses.

Oh Mark shows him alright. He shows him by lifting up his hips, a slow grind taking place that has both moaning into each other’s mouth. By their kissing that picks up with passion, their hands moving to touch the other. Mark making sure to map out Jaebum’s body. To put his palm flat against the alpha’s chest where his heart laid underneath, taking in how it affected the alpha. The hitching in his breath before Mark pulled him back in for another kiss. As he made sure to wrap his arms around the alpha’s back to keep him safe in his arms. Wrapped up in his love as he only pull back from the kiss to say it,

“I love you…” And he says it with such emotion.

So much love that he holds for the alpha…his mate…

“I love you,” Mark says it again so Jaebum will never doubt it.

So he knows he’s held such thoughts and feelings for years now.

As Jaebum can’t hold back his tears and Mark tries to catch them with his lips. All as he keeps saying those three words,

“I love you…”

Over and over again, it's making Jaebum lose control. Making him move back enough so he can position himself. As Mark helps him as he’s going crazy too. So crazily in love with this alpha before him. That when Jaebum pushes inside, both have the air knocked out of them before Mark is crying. Matching Jaebum’s emotional expression as it’s full of love, passion and completion. The two are feeling whole and so damn loved at this moment. As their bodies move instinctively. Mark holds onto Jaebum’s back, keeping the alpha near his neck as Jaebum buries further inside of him. The slow moving of their bodies that kept meeting over and over. As Mark keeps whispering those three words to him. The pleasure rising with such warm loving feelings. Taking them both to cloud nine as this was pure heaven. As their bodies felt like they’re melting into one person. Their souls connected as they held each other. As their scents mixed and love filled the air.

Taking them back to that moment in the last hotel. Back to how it should’ve gone. How Mark had wanted to tell Jaebum those three words back then.

Just like this…how it should be…how it’ll be from now on…so right…so perfect…just like this…

‘Keep loving me just like this…’

Like a switch is flipped, like the promise Jaebum gave, the two made love late into the night…

Neither of them wanting to come down from cloud nine…

Chapter Text

It’s the next morning and the two haven’t even opened their eyes yet. But something was pulling them from dreamland as the two that were wrapped up together on the hotel bed kept hearing something.

It was a phone ringing, Jaebum’s phone to be exact.

Mark tries to bury further into the warmth while Jaebum lets out a low growl of being taken from such a moment. Where he’s been wanting this moment for years, YEARS! And now that he’s finally got it, something was trying to ruin it---

Oh, wait, it’s just Jinyoung trying to face time him…

Jaebum doesn’t think twice about it as he answers, propping the phone up on the pillow where you get a nice view of the two tangled up together. The bed sheets hiding their naked bodies from the armpits down, but you can totally see the love bites and marks from last night,

“The audacity to grace me with such a sight,” Jinyoung sasses in amusement.

The smile coming forth as he’s happy for them, happy to see Mark again and that clearly last night was a success. Speaking of last night,

“You know, I’d ask you how things were but from all the videos of Joey’s wedding that’s trending, I think I got a pretty good picture of what went down,” He lets out in a playful manner.

Trending? Videos? Wait---

Jaebum picks up the phone, his mind fully awake now as he’s trying to find what Jinyoung is talking about.

“Are you seriously trying to look them up right now?! That’s rude,” Jinyoung is back to sassing but you can hear him chuckling in the background.

“If it has Mark in them, I want to see,” Jaebum says and Jinyoung laughs harder.

“Oh he’s in them alright. The first one was the sappiest, most romantic thing to ever be posted. And the second I swear is both porn worthy of love making with clothes on. That’s what Jackson said anyway. Though Bam called it fucking through dancing and Yugyeom corrected him by stating it’s a mating dance. Youngjae laughed at all their antics as usual,” Jinyoung kept going while Jaebum only had to go on social media to see what was trending.

And Jinyoung wasn’t wrong. Videos and photos of the two at Joey’s wedding have been trending since last night. Taking up the number one and two trending spots, it has Jaebum grinning from ear to ear.

“God it’s good to see you happy again,” Jinyoung lets out in a sincere tone.

“I got my baby, my darling, my mate…not just in my dreams…but in real life too…” Jaebum replies in a breathless tone.

As he looks down at Mark still attached to him and sleeping. Not hesitating to lean down and press sweet kisses into his hair. The omega reacts even in his sleep as he nuzzles back before tucking his head underneath Jaebum’s chin so he can bury his face against his chest.

Both Jinyoung and Jaebum chuckle at this,

“Cute,” They say in unison.

Suddenly, the two can hear quite the commotion as others burst into the room Jinyoung is in,

“Cute?! That must mean you’re talking to Mark!” Jackson can be heard shouting as he barges in first.

With Youngjae right behind, “Is he there?! Can we see him?!”

And Bam and Yugyeom fighting to get into the room at the same time,

“I’ve been waiting longer to talk to him!” Bam exclaims while Yugyeom bickers,

“We’ve all been waiting the same amount of time! Even so, I want to hear from him first!” He declares.

Jinyoung almost drops the phone with how they all bombarded him and trying to get in the shot to see him.

“Guys, he’s sleeping---” Jaebum warns but it’s too late as Mark begins to stir.

As he lets out the cutest sound and his eyes blink open slowly,

“Bummie? Why is it so loud?” He asks sleepily before lifting his head.

His eyes taking in the others all staring at him with happy expressions---

Instantly Mark is awake and grows emotional from seeing all their faces,

“Guys…”

All of them coo as they don’t hesitate to tell Mark how much they missed him, loved him and want to see him again. Though, they all tried to say it at the same time as they couldn’t contain it any longer.

Mark probably couldn’t hear every word but he could definitely see it on their faces and from their tones and energies of their voices. The guys only calming down when the omega goes to speak,

“You guys really missed me?”

Oh this sweet soul!

“We missed you so much that we wanted to crash your brother’s wedding too, but Jaebum wouldn’t let us,” Bam says.

“Because you guys wouldn’t behave long enough for there to even be a wedding,” Jinyoung lightly scolds.

“We would’ve behaved until we saw Mark!” Jackson declares.

“Which would’ve been before the wedding took place. So our leader was smart to make sure we stayed here and kept up with preparations,” Youngjae says.

Mark perks up at this,

“Preparations for what?” He was curious to know.

They all share knowing looks with Bam and Jackson ready to give it away but Yugyeom is quick to slap hands over their mouths,

“Oh, just something since Jinyoung is out of the military now and you know…in case you still weren't convinced that you belong with Got7,” He says with a big grin on his face.

“You guys were going to go that far for me?” Mark is back to being emotional as Jaebum places kisses where he can reach,

“I wasn’t going to stop until you believed me and the group.”

“Yeah, you’re one of us, Mark!” Bam says as he bites Yugyeom’s hand so he could talk.

Jackson goes for licking Yugyeom’s palm before shouting,

“7 or nothing!!!”

Mark giggles at Yugyeom’s funny expressions and the two’s energy. A smile soon gracing his face as his expression grows warm,

“My brother showed me what you guys did…really…I could never thank you all enough…I…I love you all so much…I was miserable these past two weeks…I don’t know how much longer I could’ve gone…I’m nothing without you all…” Mark has to stop at several parts as it’s all hitting him.

But they wait patiently as they want to hear what he has to say. All while Jaebum kept touching him with comfort and whispering sweet words of encouragement and love.

“Now you don’t have to worry, we can all be together again,” Youngjae beams with his sunshine smile.

“Yes, if Jaebum didn’t already tell you, he bought your plane ticket to come back home where we can all spend it together as a group again,” Jinyoung says and Mark can’t believe it.

And yep, there he goes crying again…

“It’s not fair! I want to go through the phone and love him now!” Jackson wails dramatically.

“Hurry and take Mark to the airport now,” Bam demands, “I’m sure you can catch an earlier flight.”

“If not, maybe we can go to you and then we can all fly back together,” Yugyeom suggests as the boys were seriously thinking about it.

Even if it sounded crazy to others, it was totally something they’d do---

“Bummie…I want to go home…take me home…” Mark’s voice brings them all back together.

And you bet all of them started to grow chaotic,

“You two get dressed and we’ll make the arrangements,” Jinyoung says as he goes right into mother mode.

“Hurry Jaebum! Hurry!” Youngjae exclaims as the alpha is already trying to do just that.

But in doing so, he makes a fool out of himself. Where you can see him tripping and flailing before he ends up ending the call right as you hear Mark giggling…

Mark finds Jaebum to be adorable though, in fact, he’s perfect, the perfect mate for him. With the omega coming to hover over Jaebum as he fell back onto the bed.

“Bummie…” Mark calls out his name as he looks at him with so much love as he doesn’t have to hold back now.

“Yes?” Jaebum answers as he could stare at Mark for hours on end and never grow tired.

Where his love would beat as strongly as his heart right now because Mark was so damn breathtaking…and all his…

“Do you think they'd be upset if we made love before we went home?”

Jaebum’s eyes flash at that before he’s already moving to flip their positions. Hearing Mark’s giggles once more as he lays kisses where he can reach,

“I think they’ll be expecting it actually, especially as I refuse to hold back anymore.”

Mark wraps his arms around the alpha, the two sharing a sweet kiss before the omega whispers against his lips,

“Good, because I want the whole world to know we made love before we get on that plane.”

Jaebum lets out an aroused groan before diving in to capture Mark’s lips. Making damn sure that his love markings will be seen for the whole world…

By the time they’re heading to the airport, the two find that Yugyeom and Jinyoung were doing a Vlive. Mark had actually signed in to it through Jaebum’s phone so it shows his name popping up but so many people were coming in that it was easy to miss. Especially at what they were talking about,

“Yep, I’ve finished with my military service and I’m sure all of you know by now that Jaebum crashed a wedding to get Mark,” Jinyoung says as Yugyeom nods while driving.

“And as we speak they’re on their way to the airport to come back to Korea so we can all get ready for the comeback as we have an album already being prepared,” Jinyoung just comes right out and says it.

He says it so casually too that Yugyeom is seen nodding along before his eyes go wide in shock and he gives Jinyoung a look. But Jinyoung is smirking away, that twinkle in his eyes as he noticed Mark had joined the live and sure enough…

You can see Mark’s name appear as he says, ‘What album?!’

All before Mark is looking up to meet Jaebum’s gaze. The alpha taking his hand and intertwining their fingers,

“We were determined to win you back, baby. Even before, Jinyoung and I discussed a comeback that would bring us all together and have you hopefully stay or at least come back before everything ended up happening.”

Jaebum actually becomes flustered for what he says next,

“And I might’ve come up with another song that I knew you would know personally was about you if all else failed.”

Mark’s heart swells as he really was so lucky to have such a man, such a mate. Making it even more real that he has Jaebum. That this wasn’t a dream…

“What is the song called?” Mark asks and Jaebum can’t stop the smile from forming on his face.

How his eyes don’t waver as he says it without hesitation,

“Darling.”

Mark reacts to it as his expression contorts with emotion before he’s kissing Jaebum in the back of the vehicle. Where they just so happen to get to the airport around the same time. That when Jaebum comes out of the vehicle first just to turn and help Mark out, the omega leans right up and kisses the alpha for all to see. Jaebum grinning away like a dork as he places his hands on Mark’s hips and kisses him again.

Camera flashes were going off, people already here as both fans and reporters had a feeling that the two would be heading to the airport eventually.

And when both pulled back, they’re still smiling, eyes shining happily as their hands intertwined once more.

“Are you ready, darling?” Jaebum asks and Mark beams,

“Forever,” The omega replies sweetly before the alpha can’t resist in needing another kiss.

Let’s just say that the two ended up almost missed their flight because they got lost in their love for one another.

As just being beside one another, feeling their touch, hearing their love for them…

It had them reaching cloud nine on the daily…

But they also achieved cloud nine once they reached back home in Korea. Where everyone was passed out from the celebration and Jaebum didn’t care if any of them woke up and heard them. Jaebum made love to Mark in their bed in their apartment…

With the R&B music playing in the background…