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Atsushi sits nervously on the edge of the luxurious bed, his hands gripping the fabric of his pajama pants. The smoothness of the white silk bed sheet beneath him is unlike anything he has ever felt against his skin. The fine black blanket draped over it exudes elegance, its texture soft yet weighty. Just looking at the bed, with its dark wooden headboard and shimmering fabric in the dim light of the bedside lamp, makes Atsushi feel out of place. It is worlds apart from the futons in his old apartment, and he is certain it costs more than all the furniture in the apartment combined.
His heterochromatic gaze wanders around the room, observing the surroundings. Everything is familiar to him, of course; he has visited the redhead’s place before. However, starting today, they are living together officially, so the white-haired man feels extra nauseous.
The door creaks softly as Chuuya enters, but Atsushi doesn’t notice until he feels arms wrap around his chest. The redhead rests his head on Atsushi's shoulder. “Why haven’t you slept yet?” he murmurs, brushing his lips against the white-haired man’s neck before dropping a gentle kiss. “Were you waiting for me?”
“Yes… I was,” Atsushi giggles as he feels the redhead’s presence. The sweet scent of camellia clings to Chuuya—a pleasing smell brings to Atsushi’s nose.
The redhead is the first to make himself comfortable, lying back on the bed. The duvet cradles him as he settles in, his hair spreading slightly against the pillow. With a gentle tug, he grabs Atsushi's wrist, inviting him to join him. “Come here,” Chuuya says as he pulls the white-haired man closer.
Atsushi draws himself into the redhead’s embrace, resting his head gently against Chuuya's. The warmth between them feels comforting, and Atsushi lets out a soft sigh. The redhead's fingers glide through his snowy white hair with a tenderness that makes his lover’s heart flutter. “Were you nervous?” Chuuya asks, his voice a gentle murmur in the quiet room. “I don’t want to make you uncomfortable or push you into anything you’re not ready for.”
“No, it’s not that! I do want to sleep with you…” Atsushi argues, looking up at Chuuya with wide, earnest eyes. His cheeks brush against the redhead’s chest as he shifts nervously. “I’m just really… nervous, that’s all.”
The white-haired man’s cheeks turn as red as Chuuya’s silk pajamas, a sight that the redhead finds undeniably adorable. A smirk tugs at Chuuya’s lips. “Nervous, huh? About what? It’s just me, baby.”
Atsushi lowers his gaze, his fingers gripping lightly at the fabric of Chuuya’s pajamas. His voice drops to a whisper, “It’s you. That’s why.”
Being this close to Chuuya, sharing a bed, makes Atsushi’s heart beat uncontrollably, each thump echoing in his ears. He doesn’t fully understand why he feels this way, only that Chuuya’s presence stirs something deep inside him.
“Atsushi, look at me,” Chuuya says, his tone soft and reassuring. He places his hands on the white-haired man’s cheeks to get his attention, his blue eyes locking onto Atsushi’s. “You don’t have to worry. I won’t do anything to you, okay? So stop overthinking and relax a bit.”
“It's easier said than done.”
“I know,” Chuuya agrees, dropping his hands to lift the blanket over them both. “But try for me. Close your eyes and take a deep breath, then exhale.”
Atsushi nods, following the redhead’s instructions. He closes his eyes, the sound of Chuuya’s steady heartbeat filling his ears. The rise and fall of the other’s chest beneath his head is soothing, and the warmth of the redhead’s body pressed so closely against his own feels like a safe place. Atsushi inhales deeply, the faint scent of camellias clinging to Chuuya’s skin, wrapping around him and making him feel safe and protected. He holds his breath for a moment before slowly exhaling. The nervousness that had been knotting his insides fades, replaced by a quiet sense of peace. Before Atsushi knows it, sleep catches up to him and pulls him into a slumber.
“Goodnight, Atsushi,” Chuuya whispers, placing a kiss on the other’s forehead. Soon after, the redhead joins his lover and falls asleep, his hands wrapping around the white-haired man to hold him close to his heart.