Work Text:
I have been holding on to
All things lost long ago
I have been holding on
Despite how far away they flow.
I know it was wrong of me
To hope against hope
Now I’m left with nothing else
But your spectre to grope.
I have been foolish
To know you will stay,
The tides are never in our favour
Wrecking our house of clay.
All my life I have searched
For something I never deserved
Now in your absence here
Lay our love us unpreserved.
I was blind not to see
How this was always home,
Now I pick up the pieces
In the ghost of us, alone.
I have lost myself many a times
I never wanted to be found.
Yet as you depart just like everyone else
Why in this misery have I drowned?
Nothing I do will change your mind
It is inevitable that you leave.
I am stranded in a desert again
With the life I could have had, to grieve.
I am holding on to
The us we have always been.
I am holding on to
The love that you deny but is within.